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Gwen was snuggled into my side before our alarm clock went off telling us we need to get ready for work in five minutes. I was excited and nervous about today knowing this will be the first day of the Voice taping. This was going to be the best season ever I have Gwen back as a coach Luke as my mentor what could go wrong?
I kissed her cheeks over and over until she finally opened her eyes smiling up at me.
"Hey, are you excited for The Voice today?" I said knowing the answer but asking anyway. I knew Gwen loved working at The Voice. She loved helping people and was very caring one of the many reasons I love her so much.
When Gwen finally gets up she takes about an hour to get ready so I tell her I'll meet her there.
I get there seeing Alicia with her son and Adam there with his daughter Dusty. Adam might annoy me sometimes but he's my 2nd best friend (behind Gwen of course) and one hell of a father. I always wondered what the feeling of having a little baby in my arms, obviously I love Gwen's kids and they feel like my own, but I missed the baby stage the one that shapes them.
When Gwen gets here I still can't shake the thoughts and nervousness about how Gwen would feel about me thinking about this.
"I missed you Blakey" she says pulling me into a hug. "I missed you to darling" which causes Adam to make a gagging sound making everyone laugh including Dusty.
We go through a lot of auditions when they finally call for lunch. I start thinking back to the feeling of having a baby with my dimples, Gwen's nose and eyes, maybe my curls. I realize I'm day dreaming when Gwen nudges me.
"You have something on your mind Blake?" Gwen says sweetly to me. Should I tell her I think to myself. I don't even know if she wants another kid or if she thinks I'm father material because Miranda always said that I wouldn't make it as a father. I'm burrowing into a hole when I realized I didn't answer her question.
"I'm fine" I give her a reassuring smile and I know I'm lying but I'm scared she'll be mad.
I decide to wait to talk to her until we get home because this is not the place to have an important discussion. So I wait the longest I ever had to wait.