Paragon

Tobias couldn’t help hating himself. He didn’t see how anyone could love him. He was a drunk, stressed federal agent who couldn’t hold any relationship together. Even the mother of his child hated him.

Emily was amazing, but that was mostly thanks to Diane. He spent too much time at work. He spent too much time drinking away his memories of bad cases at work. You name it, he’d done it. Diane had loved pointing out every single flaw he had.

Tobias knew he wasn’t a catch. He knew every single flaw he had and he hated himself for it. Despite this, he couldn’t stop from being attracted to the paragon of beauty working at NCIS named Anthony DiNozzo. He knew he’d never stand a chance, but that didn’t stop him from loving Tony. Tobias had always loved those that were way too good for him.

That’s how he’d ended up with Diane. He couldn’t regret Emily, but he still hated himself. He was never able to spend time with Emily like he wanted. He sucked at cooking. There were so many things wrong with him. Sometimes he wondered if him being a drunk all the time would actually be better for everyone.

At least, he had. Tony had changed everything though. Tony had taught him how to stop hating himself. Tony had taught him to see the good things about himself. He still struggled with hatred for himself at times, but every time he did he looked at Tony lying next to him and found that it got harder and harder to remember why he hated himself when there was such a beautiful person inside and out who wanted him.