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Alec was beyond nervous this morning.
He was still lying in bed, alone to be precisely, even though sleeping in wasn't normally like him at all, but it was the growing nervousness that made his heartbeat get faster the minutes went by.
He had a plan, and nothing could go wrong.
Not today.
He had woken up to empty sheets next to him, which was relieving for now, but his mind had started racing thoughts of what he was about to do today.
The plan was simple, though not simple at all. He had gone through it all about a thousand times, and he really had to do it, he wanted to do it. He was a Shadowhunter after all, fearless since he started hunting demons at the age of a teenager, going to war against Valentine, so THIS was easy compared to his soldier life. Right?
Alec could make out the faint sound of the shower through the closed door of the bathroom, indicating his boyfriend was still in there, giving him some more time to go over it once again.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
He could do it.
With a swift motion, Alec got off the bed, grabbed a black shirt from their drawer and shrugged it on. He tried to tame his hair while looking in the mirror, groaned and gave up after a few moments. It was useless, as always and he let out a defeated sigh.
He put on his pants quickly as well, and reached for the little box inside his pocket, swallowing.
There it was, and he closed his fist around it, carefully stroking the soft velvet cover of it. It had been hidden inside his nightstand for a while now, waiting for the big moment to come and today was that very day. The moment.
Alec took a few big breaths, trying to calm himself down once more.
Don’t act strange he told himself, blinking a few times.
I can’t have Magnus get suspicious.
The sound of the shower kept going in the background, and Alec groaned quietly. Why did Magnus have to take so long today? He was on the edge of losing his nerves and therefore his courage as well. He raised one hand and run it through his hair once again, then rubbed his plams on his jeans.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Alec began pacing the room now, impatiently waiting for Magnus to finally leave the bathroom, before he would actually backpedal. The shower finally stopped, but Magnus still didn’t get out, and Alec guessed he would do the full routine before stepping out.
He reached inside his pocket and checked for the 100th time if the box was still in there, which it was of course, but he had to be sure. It was near torture by now, his nerves skyrocketing as he eyed the bathroom door nervously.
Maybe today wasn’t he perfect day after all, Alec suddenly thought. He did feel sick by now and maybe he was getting a cold after all. He wouldn’t want to remember this particular day with being sick. Did he have a fever?
Get a grip, Lightwood, he thought angrily, the only thing you got going on is a panic attack if you keep losing your courage. Come on!
Suddenly the bathroom door opened and Magnus stepped out with a huge smile on his face, and the way his eyes lightened up made Alec freeze on the spot, unable to do anything but stare at this beautiful, stunning warlock.
His warlock.
Magnus shot Alec a confused look.
“Are you okay? You look like you’ve just seen a shax-demon?”, he laughed and Alec swallowed, cursing himself inside his head. Stupid idiot. But he couldn’t help but only watch Magnus walking over to where he had his jewelery stowed on a desk.
Alec managed to shake his head and quickly took a few steps forward when Magnus started putting on his rings.
“Let me help you”, Alec said, lowering his head as he reached for Magnus hands. The latter hesitated for a second, but then he relaxed back into the chair and let Alec take care of him.
“I love it when you do this”, Magnus sighed as he closed his eyes and Alec swallowed hard while pulling the little box out of his pocket.
Stay calm, you got this!
He slid the ring onto Magnus finger with a rather clumsy movement and held his breath.
Alec knew Magnus never wore a ring on this finger. Ever. So he waited for the immediate reaction the warlock was about to have, tensing when Alec did it.
Magnus opened his eyes, brow furrowed when he looked at Alec.
“Alec, you know I don’t like wearing a ring on this particular...”, Magnus started, but then his eyes wandered down to look at his hands and his eyes widened in shock, his whole body freezing.
Alec felt really sick all of a sudden, his whole body tensed in anticipation, slightly shaking. He knew he would blow it up. He knew it. These things weren’t easy for him, even if he had it all planned out before but now Alec had no idea what the hell he was supposed to do. He inhaled shakily, opening his mouth a few times to say something but only stared at Magnus with his cheeks burning up.
“Magnus.. I, uhm… I, uuh….”, he stuttered, mentally cursing himself again, and he swallowed.
Now’s the time to say something, he thought, you’re ruining it!
But leave it to Magnus Bane to save his boyfriend in the right moment.
Magnus eyes glistened in joy as he squeezed Alec’s hand which was still holding onto the warlocks’ and he smiled the most beautiful, gentle, lovingly smile Alec had ever seen.
“Yes! The answer to the question you didn’t ask is and will always be YES!”, Magnus said, and all the tension left Alec’s body at once, relief and happiness flooding him, but before he was able to answer anything, Magnus threw his arms around his neck and they both crashed to the floor, eliciting a laughter from Alec.
He did it.