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Pidge POV:
This was so fucking stupid. I can follow the glowing blips of their movement, but I can't fucking find out where in the fucking Universe they are? I so needed to punch a Galra in the face right about now.
I stared at the tablets glowing screen a moment longer before throwing it onto my bunk. I needed brain fuel. Hunk always left snacks for us incase we got hungry at night. I got up and walked into the hall. I didn't bother throwing on my shoes. I just wore my sweater shirt, shorts, and socks. My hair messy, glasses smudged and heart heavy.
I walked past Shiro's slightly ajar door. I heard him mumbling and giggled, thinking about our brave leader finally relaxing and sleeping.
I walked into the kitchen and saw Hunk making something that resembled bread.
"Sup, Hunk." He jumped out of his skin. He spun towards me and was breathing heavily.
"Geez Pidge! You can't sneak up on someone like that! You'll give them a heart attack!" He said, clutching at his chest.
"Sure sure, it's not like you can get scared enough at seventeen to have a heart attack anyway. Well unless you have a heart problem. Which you don't, or else NASA would not have allowed you to train to be an engineer for a space ship," I told him.
"Whatever Miss. Smartypants," He smiled before going back to what he was doing. I, on the other hand, rummaged around for the green food goo. When I found it, I got two bowls and put one next to Hunk. I hopped onto the counter and sat there and ate.
It tasted like a mix of peas, spinach and feet.
But since it was healthy, I wasn't complaining much. I played with it a bit before actually talking a bite. I ate slowly since I didn't want to head back to my room.
"Pidge, Hunk, why are you two still awake?" I heard Shiro ask. I looked up to see him wearing nothing more than the tattered Slave pants that he landed on Earth in. And nothing else. No shirt, no socks. I have never seen anyone but Matt shirtless before and that doesn't count as seeing a boy half naked.
Shiro though, his tanned shin was covered in a thin sheen of sweat, his hair, if it wasn't plastered to his head, stuck out all over the place. And his fake arm shined in the light. I had trouble swallowing my next bite.
Because, believe it or not, I actually am a girl. One who is attracted to actual boys.
I looked down to hide my blush. I pushed the last little bit of goo around instead of actually eating it.
"Pidge, I wasn't scolding you, I heard done one walk past my room and I got curious. That's all, you're not in trouble." He was oblivious to my obvious staring. Thank God for that.
"Oh," Was my response. "Well, I just needed brain fuel so that I could continue to look for Matt and my father." He put his flesh hand on the top of my head. I looked up finally.
"Katie, it's okay, we'll find them," He promised.
"I know, but... I just feel like I should be doing more to find them. All we've managed to do is form Voltron, fight a few Galra battleships, liberate a Balmera, and get the blue lion back from bounty hunters." I said, setting my unfinished food to the side and covered my eyes with my palms.
Shiro and Hunk sighed. "Look, that may not seem like a lot, but do you think that we would have gotten any more done if we had stayed on Earth? Besides we also saved the castleship and saved the planet it was on! Well, more like you saved us. I was on the Balmera, Shiro got captured, Lance was unconscious, Keith and Allura were out of the barrier, and Coran was with me," Hunk said with a proud, brotherly smile plastered to his face.
"Yeah! We've accomplished so much here. And you're so close to finding them, I can feel it," Shiro promised. I smiled sadly.
"Yeah, it just doesn't feel it yet."
I hopped off the counter and headed back to my room. God, I felt so home sick. I wanted my mom to hold me, to tell me it was okay and that they'll be home soon, safely and alive. But she wasn't able to even do that when I was on Earth.
Tears filled my eyes. But I held my head high as I walked, not giving them a reason to follow.
Once I was back in my room, I broke down. Not in the way I thought I would. It wasn't loud sobs that racked my body like I expected. It was small, continuous tears that flowed down my face. I slide down my door and just sat there, staring blankly at the opposing wall.
The next morning, at breakfast, everyone was quiet. Not even Lance and Keith were fighting. They seemed lost in there own thoughts.
Hunk kept looking at me. Shiro's knee kept bouncing. Allura was not eating and she was only feeding her little mice friends. She reminded me of Cinderella in that moment.
Lance ate slowly instead of chowing down like normal. Finally the quiet was too much.
"Will someone please say a fucking word!" I said. Spoons dropped at my profanity. Shiro wasn't even shocked, though.
"Pidge? Are you alright?" Allura said. With her accent, she sounded almost British. I was jealous of her if I was being honest. She was beautiful, charismatic, kind to all, and actually has a female figure. I, ever since I started training, lost the little hint of the curves to come.
"No I'm not! It's too quiet! I'm tired! I know you all are too! We miss our homes, family, we miss everything. And all because of fucking Zarkon! I hate him! I just wanna go home!" By the end, tears were glowing, and I was screaming. Shiro just signed.
"I miss my siblings the most. Sure I miss my parents, but my siblings used to crawl all over me. Play games with me. Hell, when my mother and father were two busy, I used to sing them to sleep," Lance said with had a small smile.
"I miss my mom's food. And her singing. She used to sing traditional Hawaiian lullabies while she cooked. It's where I get my love for cooking from," Hunk told us.
"I miss the wide open skies over Texas." Keith said simply. Not going into any more detail than that.
"Altea was always beautiful, and my mother used to tell me of its glory of the past. She was very wise. And too kind for her own good," Allura said, wiping a few tears away.
"I miss my wife." Coran said surprising all of us but Allura. "She was so beautiful. The most beautiful brunette hair, amethyst eyes, and freckles," He said.
"Shiro? Who or what do you miss?" Allura said, reaching over and taking his hand in both of hers. He sighed.
"Normalcy. I miss my tiny apartment on base. I miss my friends from school. I miss face-timing my mother. I miss my dog I left in her care. I just... I miss Earth." I understand where he's coming from.
"Homesickness. It seems to be contagious here," I said.
"Homesickness is contagious!?" Allura shouted. It broke the sad tension in the air and caused everyone to laugh.
Maybe we just needed to find a new home. One were we can make new friends, new memories. It will not change the pain of the past, but it may help us heal our broken, uncertain future.