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“Mutsumi Asuma...” Hayato wiped one of his tears away. “I love you!” “Huh?- Shinomiya?”
“Shinomiya? Hello?” Hayato woke up and sighed. ”Sorry.” He opened his lunchbox and was about to start eating, but than turned his head back to Asuma. „Take care of her.“ Hayatos words came out quiet but strict. P.E. just ended and a lot of students gathered in the cafeteria, but only Asuma and Hayato seemed to be there already. The others still had to arrive. „What are you talking about?“ Asuma asked as he sat down next to the first-year student. „Kae, of course.“ Asuma was a bit confused. „What do you mean by that? Are you giving up?“ he asked the other as he looked Hayato directly in the eyes. “Stop asking the obvious.” Hayato turned away quickly from Asumas glance. “I guess I’m just not the kind of person people fall in love with.” Asuma didn't knew what to say. Should he comfort the other? But wasn't it good to have a rival less? “Shinomiya-” Shima suddenly arrived and slammed both of her hands on the table. “Why is Shinomiya so flushed, eh? Is this a cute Shonen-ai moment?” The other boys turned their heads to the scene and Kae gave out an loud “Squee!”. So Asuma turned his head to Shima and then back to Hayato. His face really was red, he didn't even realized that earlier. “What did you two talk about?” Shima asked, but Hayato just stood up annoyed without answering the question. “I'm leaving.” And he did. “Ehhhh?!”
Hayato couldn't concentrate on what the teacher was saying at the front of the blackboard. Probably something about the set of Pythagoras... He already knows how this mathematical formula works, so why worry about it? So the boy looked out the window and drifted away with his thoughts. Why did Shima had to mention his red face? Everything was working out so good. He always tried to keep his secrets by pretending he didn't had any. But the way he just stormed off like that... So suspicious! Embarrassed by his own actions he buried his face in his hands. Why was this such a big deal? Why couldn't he just forget about it all and move on? Before the young student could get to an solution the bell rang again and he stood up frustrated. He walked out the classroom and- Oh shit, Shima was leaning against the wall of the hallway... most likely because she was waiting for him. Should he say something about how she shouldn't but her shoes there- Too late! She is getting closer already! Completely overwhelmed by the situation Hayato just runs out the school and way home.
“Waaah! I'm so stupid!” he screamed in his pillow, but that wouldn't comfort him, so he hugged his pet iguana named Thor. “At least you are always there for me, hehe.” He happily smiled to himself and slowly felt asleep again.
“A-And sometimes i wonder if I’m on your mind as much as you’re on mine!” He looked hopeful at Asuma. “I know this is sudden and weird... But I just had to tell you!” The young boy uneasily pressed his hands together. “This feeling came so sudden and when I finally understood what it meant, i-” Before he could continue he got interrupted by an soft hand on his head. “It's okay. I like you too” Hayato stared down at the ground. “No, I meant more than that....” Hayato looked so embarrassing desperate... Without warning a gentle kiss was being placed on his mouth.
“AAAAAAAAAAAH, NO Nononono!” Hayato almost fell out of his bed, but then somehow manages to sit up faster than the flash. He breathed heavily for a few seconds. “I know that you will only love me back in my dream.” The sound of a door opening could be heard through the room. “Are you okay?” A soft voice followed. “Eh?” Lil' confused Hayato turned his head to to direction from where the sounds came. A boy with an calm expression and a soft, genuine smile stood there directly in his room. “As- Senpai? What are you doing here?” Hayato almost screamed and stood up. “We were worried why you left so suddenly.” He stopped for a moment. “Your mom let me in, if you wondered.” Hayato tried to swallow his worry like a glass of water away and gave a big fake smile. “No need to worry, I just felt a bit sick!” Asuma lifted one of his eyebrows and then got closer to Hayato. He placed a hand on the other's forehead. “... Are you sure it isn't something else?” The younger student jumped at that question and quickly shoved Asuma out of his room. “Yes, yes! I just need some sleep! Please go home now, but thanks for your concern!”
When he was finally gone Hayato sat down with a sad expression. He could never tell the other. Asuma cared about him, but not in a romantic kind of way. It was obvious that Asumas special someone was Kae and he knew Asuma could take good care of her. First Hayato thought he was just jealous, but lately he found out that he wasn't really jealous because of Asuma anymore. No, he was jealous because of Kae. That's so embarrassing! He wants to die. And all dreams about Asuma more likely turn out like nightmares.
They haunt him. Everyday.