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“Hey, hey.” Yoongi cooed in a hushed tone taking part of Hoseok’s hands. “It’s okay, it’s okay.”
Hoseok’s hands were shaking and his head was spinning. “I’m not gonna let you fall.” Yoongi brought Hoseok’s hand to his lips and kissed his knuckles softly. He looked up at Hoseok, whose eyes were screwed shut.
“Hoseok, it’s not fun if you’re eyes are shut like that,”Yoongi gently scolded, jabbing him lightly in the side and the cart rocked back and forth.
“Hey! D-don’t do that!” Hoseok yelped and he clung to Yoongi with such a grip he was sure that it’d leave marks on his waist later.
“Sorry, sorry.” Yoongi said quickly and brushed his thumb over his hand. “Hoseok, please open your eyes. The sky is beautiful.”
“I’m sure there’s nothing more beautiful than you, hyung. I’ll pass.” Hoseok mumbled and pouted.
Yoongi sighed and continued to rub circles into the back of his hand. “You’re cheesy even when you’re scared, you know that?”
“You’re one to talk!” Hoseok exclaimed and Yoongi chuckled when Hoseok yelped when the cart rocked gently back and forth.
“Losers who keep their eyes shut during a ride can’t say anything.” Yoongi declared and Hoseok swatted at what he guessed was his arm.
“Hyung!” Hoseok whined.
“The sky really is beautiful. You always go on about loving the stars but they’re literally right there and you won’t even take a glance at them!” Yoongi uttered, keeping his gaze locked on the man who had his eyes shut and his hand clenching the safety bar like it depended on his life.
“This is different.” Hoseok whispered and gripped Yoongi’s hand a little tighter.
“Not really,” Yoongi shrugged and Hoseok whined.
The ferris wheel was the session that allowed them to be up for 30 minutes. He knew Hoseok didn’t like it but he agreed but he also had another thing planned so he couldn’t just let Hoseok leave.
Yoongi turned to Hoseok a little and held both his hands in between his own. “Look at me, Hoseokie.” Hoseok’s eyes twitched. “Just… just focus on me.” It felt like an eternity before Hoseok’s eyes bored into his own and suddenly he felt naked and exposed. But he stared right back with eyes full of love and caring.
“Okay? Just focus on me and breathe.” He nodded slightly and breathed in, gesturing for Hoseok to follow in his steps. Hoseok breathed in and let it out slowly, looking at Yoongi who was smiling in encouragement.
“Now, I know this will be hard for you, but look up. Little by little, Seok Seok. Don’t rush yourself or you’ll scare yourself more.” Hoseok gulped audibly and looked up, flashing Yoongi a nervous smile.
The sky was a beautiful site. The stars seemingly so bright over the dull light of the carnival below. But here they were, sparkling like droplets of water caught in the morning light. The sky had always, despite his complaints to Hoseok to stop talking about it, been such a wonder to him. No matter where you were in the world, you lay under the same sky. Everyone could see what you see up there. It made him feel a little bit more at peace knowing this.
“Wow.”
Yoongi refocused his vision on Hoseok who looked up at the night sky, admiring all the shining lights that were blanketed above them.
“See? I told you.” Yoongi smirked and Hoseok slapped at his shoulder.
“Yoongi when we move in together, we should paint the walls like space.” Hoseok said and then suddenly slapped his hand over his mouth and looked at Yoongi, careful not to look down or anywhere else that wasn’t Yoongi.
Yoongi just laughed. “Sure thing, Hobi-ah.” Hoseok looked red but he smiled lightly. He angled his head up again and stared at the sky, his eyes twinkling significantly.
Yoongi could watch the sky with Hoseok but honestly? Why look at a distant wonder when he had one right in front of him?
The man’s lips curled into one of his signature heart smiles and his eyes glittering in admiration. The look he gave to things he has truly found fascianting. Yoongi longed for that same admiration and fascination look to fall upon himself.
Hoseok looked at Yoongi with a warm smile. Yoongi felt his heart lurch in his chest and it began to beat faster with every second his smile was trained on him.
I love you.
The words were caught in his throat, choking on the words of affection that could ruin their relationship in a heartbeat.
Declaration of live was something that could be rendered foreign to him. Familial love, even, was fairly foreign to him, despite loving his family to bits.
He used to not believe in love. At all, in fact. The love he thought he may have had for Kihyun, his best friend since childhood, had failed and was not one he would call “romantic love”.
He… He loves Hoseok, though. Notas family, not as a friend. But something more. Something sweet. His heart leaped when he heard his laugh, he would smile when he smiled and he would want to burn the world when Hoseok was sad.
He’s never wanted to love. But in this moment, he wanted it. He wanted it so badly that his chest felt like it was constricting anytime he didn’t voice his true feelings.
Hoseok’s face turned into questioning and Yoongi leaned forward and kissed him softly. Hoseok yelped into the kiss because the cart was swaying gently back and forth again.
Yoongi pulled back with a small smile and leaned his forehead against Hoseok’s.
“You’re clingy tonight, hyung.” Hoseok mumbled looking into his eyes.
“Just enjoy it. Who knows? It might be gone in a few minutes and you’ll have to walk home.” Yoongi snicked and Hoseok gently shoved Yoongi off.
“You’re annoying.”
“Says you.”
Slap
“You shouldn’t be hitting your hyung, brat.” Yoongi teased and Hoseok pouted.
“But you’re my boyfriend.”
“Are you supposed to hit your boyfriends?”
“If they’re being asses, then yes.”
“Yah!” Yoongi batted at Hoseok’s thigh. “I’m driving you home, best think about what you say”
Hoseok laughed again in a way that Yoongi felt the overwhelming need to kiss him until he can’t breathe. Yoongi laughed with him. Laughed until they didn’t even realize the descent of the ferris wheel.
Their laughs slowed and they enjoyed the slow descent and surprisingly? Hoseok was enjoying it. Kicking his feet like a little kid and gently humming to himself quietly.
“I love you.”
Yoongi stared back at Hoseok in disbelief, not in a bad way. His heart was pounding, his face was flushed and he swears that he could hear his deathbed by those few words.
Hoseok however, looked like he was gonna vomit. He retracted his hand and let it attach to the back of his head. “U-um. Forget it.”
“You. You asshole.” Yoongi sputtered out.
Hoseok looked terrified. “W-what?”
“You asshole.” Yoongi repeats and Hoseok looks taken aback. “I had this whole fucking thing planned out, we were gonna come on here, i was gonna praise the hell out of you because i know you love that shit and you get all cute and flustered. Then we were gonna get off, share some funnel fries and while you were eating i was gonna tell you that i loved you first. But noo. You just had to say it first.”
Hoseok just stared at him and he suddenly felt hot. Then Hoseok’s laugh split through his conscious. “I just love the fact that you're so cheesy you had to plan it out.”
“Well it wasn’t something that i could just blurt out!” Yoongi exclaimed, a pout forming on his lips.
“Hm… You got me there. But to be fair, i couldn’t help myself. And i didn’t know you had a thing planned.” Hoseok reasoned and Yoongi shrugged.
“It’s whatever, i guess.” Yoongi mumbled shrugging again. Yoongi felt embarrassed and Hoseok began to look a little scared.
The ferris wheel came to a stop and the safety bar was lifted above their heads as they hopped off.
The carnival was bright when on the ground. The lighting difference from above compared to know was different. Now Yoongi was really wondering how the stars were able to peek through the blanket of blackness.
Yoongi threaded his fingers through Hoseok’s and he felt Hoseok stiffen a little bit but he ignored the strange action. Hoseok threaded his own fingers through them and gripped lightly. Yoongi looked at him from the side and Hoseok looked a little bit beyond panic.
Yoongi maneuvered them across that they could fit into a corner that was being tented by dingy white and red tents.
“What’s wrong with you?” Yoongi inquired, his brow furrowing in confusion.
“Nothing hyung.”
“Seok-ah.”
Hoseok fumbled around for a bit before sighing. “You can’t laugh at me.” He said in a low voice.
“I won’t.” Yoongi promised, tightening his grip around his hand and looking up at Hoseok.
Hoseok let out another sigh and rubbed at his face with the hand that wasn’t currently latched to Yoongi like a safety bar.
“You didn’t say i love you back.” Hoseok said in a quick quiet voice that Yoongi barely heard what he had said.
Yoongi stared at him a silence and Hoseok groaned. “I told you it was dumb.” he muttered, trying to pull his hand from Yoongi’s grasp but he wouldn’t let go. Hoseok perked up in confusion by his reaction.
“Hoseok you know i don’t want to hurt you right?” Yoongi asked in a slow tone.
“Of course.”
“Then would it make sense of me… No, nevermind.” Yoongi said as he reached for Hoseok’s other hand and pulled him closer.
“Hoseok, you know i’m not good with words. I have to plan shit out beforehand or i’ll say something stupid. Like what i said before you… before you…” He winced at the memories of a few months ago and Hoseok grimaced. “Anyways, Hoseok i love you. I love you so goddamn much. Not as a friend, not as a brother. But as something more. Something that i guess is love if it makes my heart jump when i see you laugh or smile, or the storm of anger when someone looks at us a little too long while we hold hands in public. You make me feel things that are, were , scarce in my life. Nobody but you was able to actually get me to feel like that.” Yoongi lifted up one of his hands and landed a soft kiss to his knuckle.
“It’s not dumb. Promise me, if i had said it first and you didn’t say anything, i would shrink back, too. Okay? I love you. I love you with all my heart and i hope to get the same in return.” yoongi repeated. Somewhere in the midst of the declaration, his gaze flitted to the hood of the hoodie Hoseok was wearing.
Snifff.
Yoongi looked up and saw tears flowing down Hoseok’s face. Immediately panic set in and Yoongi was wiping at his face while Hoseok began to laugh. Yoongi pulled back as if he’d been burned and Hoseok laughed a little harder.
“What?”
“I can’t believe you’re the same Min Yoongi i met almost a year ago.” Hoseok breathed out and pulled Yoongi in for a hug. “Remember when you used to yell at me to buy my own food but here you are paying for the food, the tickets, and taking me home? I guess that’s what love does to closet sap Yoongi.”
“Yah! I was comforting you! I just declared my love for you and i get this disrespect?” Yoongi mumbled into his jacket, hugging back just as tight as Hoseok. Tears began to prick at his eyes.
Another shaky laugh could be heard from Hoseok and he pulled Yoongi closer, the air around them becoming warmer and the noises full of crying sounds. “I love you, Yoongi.”
“I love you too, Hoseok.” Yoongi let those tears fall as he burrowed into the hood on Hoseok’s shoulder.
They stood there for what felt like hours. Small sweet nothings and remembrances being whispered and chuckled at in their little corner as the swayed slightly to some illusionary tune.
The two parted with grins and tear streaked faces and found themselves going back home, high on being happy and in love.
Cuddles were still honestly the best thing Yoongi has ever received from Hoseok.
Well, besides his love.
does this give u a break from my angst