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In the beginning, there was nothing, a fathomless void. Light was created and darkness was created. The beginning was not darkness, that darkness rose to meet the light, for there could not be one without the other. Worlds came into being, galaxies and stars and life...all held together by a Force.
She could feel him intruding into her thoughts, saw him in the abandoned base, he was hunched over something and radiating hatred and pain. Always pain in his mind, and fear. Rey closed the door to the Falcon and closed off the connection quickly, turning to the business at hand of rescuing as many Resistance fighters as possible.
Ben stayed quiet in his rage. Shaking on the floor of the ancient structure. She left him, after the profound and shared joy he felt through their connection, after the battle they won as allies, she still would not come to him. Could not leave this rag tag band of rebel scum to become the most powerful team ever imagined.
Kylo Ren destroyed nothing, broke nothing and outwardly did nothing more than shake silently in his pain and grief. The sense of loss was staggering. Not loss of the battle or even Skywalker. It was the girl. It was always the girl.
Years ago, he saw her, in a vision. His first vision of her was during a battle with his Knights of Ren. One of the Knights moved to attack a girl and he coldly and immediately killed the knight. Kylo Ren had no notion of why he would do such a thing, kill his own man for this girl and the vision left him uneasy for days. Other visions came, a snowy, almost enchanted forest, a dessert and a cave. She came to him again and again in these visions calling to him, leading him and always leaving him frustrated and aching in loneliness. When he interrogated her, he felt the connection bloom, now she felt it too. And the last few days, that connection became a bright light. He could close his eyes in the darkness and feel her. And sometimes, for no reason at all, he could see her, speak to her. He had never heard of such a thing in all of his training. This was more than a sensitivity, he reached out and touched her! He had offered her a partnership, half of his world that he worked so hard to create. He betrayed his Master and gave her the universe and she shut the door in his face. All he felt now was a twisting pain and an aching loneliness.