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I'm a freak. There's no other explanation for the less-than-normal things I've been up to feelin' about my pale brother lately. There's something way wrong in my think pan, there's gotta be.
I ain't supposed to feel anything other than the palest packets of pure sugar for my moirail. I'm supposed to be there to get my listen on for all his issues, to protect him, to make him feel safe and happy. I'm not supposed to be havin' no wicked red feelings for Karkat. I'm not supposed to get jealous as hell and seven kinds of upset when he talks about his matesprit. It ain't supposed to make me happy like it does when they get in a fight.
But right now I'm breakin' just about every palemate rule I can get my hands on. I want them to fight, I want them to break up, and I want my moirail to come lookin' to me to fix his broken blood pusher. But in with all that, I know he's happy with the way things are, and I know I could never bring myself to shake his world up like that. I could never want him hurt. So I don't say nothin', I just let him be happy where he's at. I ain't got any other choice- I love him too much for that business.
And he don't even know.