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Part 1 of Steven Universe: The Gem Cesarl
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2018-06-08
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2019-09-04
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The Gem Cesarl: Book One

Summary:

Amethyst has been a member of the Crystal Gems for thousands of years through thick and thin. Due to the arrival of their most devasting threat, Amethyst's choices and actions are put to the ultimate test between family, friends and love interests as reality crumbles before her, causing her to question the truth to her existence.

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This has been my first Steven Universe work and also my first completed work which I was pretty proud of. A lot of people liked this AU probably becuase of the relationships and situations I put the characters in. I need to announce a word of caution though. I wrote this story during a very dark time in my life, so this story reflects on my thoughts and feelings during that time. If you share these thoughts and feelings with Amethyst (in this AU) at all, you probably shouldn't read this. It's not for everyone. So from Wattpad to SU Amino to AO3, this is The Gem Cesarl.

Disclaimer: This story contains chapters with depictions of violence, sexuality and heavy themes including grief, death, and suicide. This content can be psychologically damaging to younger readers. If you are struggling with depression or any other mental illness that may be excaberated by digesting such content, I implore you to seek help and call the crisis hotline with the number you can find online in the case of an emergency.

Chapter 1: Defective

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I knock on the temple door. On cue, Pearl opens it and steps out in front of me. "Amethyst, you do realize that you could only enter my room when I'm standing here alongside the doorway."

"Oh. Sorry. I just...wanted to talk with you...alone." Pearl looks around. "Well, Steven is out with Connie and Garnet is busy in the harvesting room."

Pearl walks over to the couch. "Why don't we talk in here? There's no one home other than us." I nod. "Well, I guess so." I walk over to Pearl and I sit down on the couch next to her.

"So, what's wrong?" I look down as I fold my arms. "I...I couldn't believe it. I lost to Jasper and now look at me. I'm weak, I'm small, I'm...I'm...
defective!"

"Hey hey. Amethyst, you're not defective. Well, you are it's just that..." Pearl looks away for a moment. "At least you aren't corrupted. You could've been one of them."

"But...I want to be the best. I want to beat Jasper! I want...!"
"I know. You can't heal scars. You can only heal wounds. You can't change what you are. You can only change you."

I won't respond. Pearl continues. "I don't want you to change, Amethyst. I like you. This you. The real you. It doesn't matter if you are small." "You're lying. It does matter."

"Well..."
"You just love bigger Gems! You love stronger Gems! You don't care about anything other than that! Rose, Garnet, Bismuth. All of them! I...ngah!" I blush and I tear up.

"Look! I care about you, alright! A lot!" I pause for a moment. "I don't want to lose you. You are just...so amazing. Everything about you is amazing."

Pearl looks down. "I...I care about you...too." I hug Pearl. "Please! Please stop falling for other Gems! I know! I'm acting selfish and difficult but I-!" Suddenly, Pearl kisses me on the lips and we close our eyes.

After what seems like a minute, we let go, we open our eyes, and we look away from each other. Pearl gets up from the couch. "I...I gotta go." Pearl runs to the temple door as it opens for her.

Once she enters her room, the door immediately closes behind her, leaving me alone. I sigh and I look out the window as the sun sets for the night.