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the first thing he does is run.
taehyung was never good at confronting his problems.
he hates him.
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he goes back to his apartment,
back to the place he should call home.
he doesn’t feel safe.
he doesn’t feel well.
it’s his thoughts.
he hates him.
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jeongguk, that idiot.
he shouldn’t have confessed.
taehyung can’t take it.
he hates him.
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taehyung was straightforward.
he held onto the same beliefs he was taught.
why was he questioning them?
he hates him.
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it’s too much.
he can’t think right now.
he drowns his sorrows in beer and tequila and girls .
he hates him.
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jeongguk talks to him again.
he says he’s sorry.
taehyung wants to slap him.
he hates him.
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gay.
the word itself is ironic.
taehyung can’t see why it’s associated with joy.
he hates it.
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taehyung can think.
he spends weeks thinking.
he doesn’t hate him.
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jeongguk calls him.
taehyung apologizes.
he doesn’t hate him.
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taehyung is gay.
he keeps himself from punching a wall.
he shouldn’t hate it.
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his demons are fighting.
he is torn.
he hates it.
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taehyung talks to jeongguk.
there’s nothing wrong with him.
he doesn’t hate him.
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jeongguk starts coming over more.
taehyung feels butterflies.
he shouldn’t like him.
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jeongguk spends the night.
he sleeps in one of taehyung’s shirts.
he looks good like that.
he smells good like that.
he thinks he likes him.
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taehyung thinks it’s okay to like boys.
especially ones who go by the name jeon jeongguk.
he thinks he likes him.
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taehyung falls into a panic attack.
jeongguk talks him through it.
he likes him.
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they’re playing video games.
jeongguk kisses him.
taehyung kisses back.
he likes him.
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they spend months going on dates.
jeongguk wants more.
taehyung does too.
they’re boyfriends.
he thinks he loves him.
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taehyung lays jeongguk down on his bed.
he marks him.
they’re panting.
there are bruises littering their thighs and necks.
sweat covers their foreheads and backs.
taehyung tells jeongguk he is in love with him.
jeongguk says he loves taehyung, too.
he loves him.