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He saw him drive away not looking back. He hoped he could turn his head and see that he was crying, that he was hurting inside, that the ‘if that’s what you want, then I think it’s for the best Jungkook’ was a big lie, that he wanted him by his side.
The fight started for something that he could have avoided. He clearly knew when a guy was flirting with him. Jungkook had told him a lot of times that he felt for him because he was a total flirt, and in fact that if it wasn’t for Taehyung, he would never had the guts to talk to him.
That fact always put him in trouble. Like that day. He shouldn’t have smiled at the guy, he shouldn’t have accepted the drink and he shouldn’t have said what he said.
“You know Taehyung,” Jungkook was slightly tipsy, his eyes were a little bit red, and he was clearly annoyed “if you wanted to flirt with the guy in front of my face, then you should have gone alone, I didn’t even want to go in the first place,” Taehyung huffed.
They were in their bedroom; Jungkook was sitting in the edge of the bed while Taehyung was in the bathroom with the door opened washing his face. He knew this would happen when he saw the jaw of Jungkook tense when he accepted the drink of the guy in the party they were attending, but he hoped that Jungkook would let it pass. Clearly it didn’t happen.
“It was just a drink Jungkook,” Taehyung said wiping his face “why are you so insecure about it?”
“I’m not insecure about it Taehyung, but it was the first time we went out in a long time and our friends were there watching how happily you accepted the drink” the brown haired man said with sarcasm in his voice.
“And whose fault is that, huh honey?” Taehyung answered “you’ve been so busy with your work that you clearly haven’t had time to go out with me, you missed dinner with our friends the last two months and I spent our anniversary alone”
Since Jungkook had gotten a better position in the company he worked at, he clearly was busy and Taehyung was paying the price. He would eat alone at nights, he had to make excuses when he went out with their friends and he spent their anniversary eating cold food.
“And you know how bad I felt for that,” Jungkook raised his voice “and also you know that I’m doing this for our benefit; I’m doing this to have everything that we ever wanted”
Yes, they’ve always wanted to have a big house, cars, they wanted to have a baby when the right time came and Taehyung knew the hard time Jungkook had when he was a child; how his parents struggled to get money for his family, and how Jungkook was slightly obsessed with give him everything he wanted.
“Maybe what you want it’s not what I want,” okay, that was a lie, he clearly wanted and dreamed the same things as Jungkook but the brunette didn’t have to know “have you ever thought about that?”
“And what do you want Taehyung? Enlighten me please”
“Maybe I want someone who pays me attention, someone who is here in our anniversary and when our friends ask me if he’s coming along with me he actually is” at this point, both were shouting at each other and Taehyung was surprised, the ever calm and patient Jungkook was shouting at the top of his lungs.
“And that’s why you accept drinks from others? Really?”
“Maybe it’s because I need someone new” he didn’t mean to say that, Jungkook was his everything, he couldn’t live without him, but he had a really big mouth, he didn’t had a filter and he always ruined everything when he was angry, like today.
For a little moment he saw the hurt in Jungkook’s eyes, he heard him chuckle and wet his lips, he saw his shoulders drop, and he felt bad, he felt his heart clench but he couldn’t say anything, his throat felt tight; he wanted to give him a hug and tell him that what he said it was clearly a mistake but he couldn’t, why he couldn’t?. The brown haired man rubbed his face and sighed
“We aren’t working out anymore Taehyung,” Jungkook said in a low voice “no matter how many times I say sorry I won’t repair the times that you felt alone, that you had to lie because of me and I know that even when you say that it’s okay, it’s not”
“Jungkook I…”
“No Tae, I know you” the brunette said “obviously a sorry from me can´t solve anything; my jealousy today, mi absence in important days, the many nights you spent alone waiting for me just to go to sleep at 4 a.m. because I had to take another shift” Jungkook sighed and took a breath “you’re right, you need someone new, we should stop before I make more mistakes”
The older couldn’t believe what he was hearing and out of anger he shouted what he would regret a few days later
“If that’s what you want, then I think it’s for the best Jungkook”
Taehyung was clearly out of his mind; one part of him was clearly annoyed at how easily the other wanted to give up on them, after all those years he just wanted to end things like that? And the other part of him was trying to stop Jungkook from thinking; he just wanted to apologize for everything he said, because he didn’t mean to. In that moment, the brunette got up from bed and walked towards the closet and he took a blanket.
“I’m going to sleep on the couch. I have to work early tomorrow… when I have the time, I would come for my stuff”
Jungkook walked past Taehyung and shut the door of the bedroom. He heard that the blond haired started to cry and he immediately wanted to go to him and hug him, but he was tired and he felt guilty, not only for overreacting about the situation of the drink, but about everything he had done to his husband to the point where he made him think about needing someone else. In that moment he realized he started to cry too and he walked to the living room where he sat on the couch and hid his face in his hands
“I’m sorry Tae”
“What a coward” Jimin said “he’s my friend, but, how he just walked away? Like, yeah, you probably shouldn’t have said that you needed someone new, but he knows you and obviously he knows when you’re saying things out of anger!”
It’s been a week since Jungkook left and Taehyung couldn’t take it anymore, so he called his friends and told them everything that happened. Now he had his head in Jimin’s lap, eyes red for crying too much.
“Actually Chim I kind of understand why Jungkook acted like that” Jimin saw Yoongi like he had grown two heads out of nowhere “no, hear me out. The boy can be a little too much… complicated. What he thinks it’s the right thing to do, it’s not. He thinks that by leaving him, Tae would have the happiness he was missing the last few months because of him, and if he’s out of the way, Tae would be the same as he was before. You have to agree with me when I say he’s complicated”
“I agree with Yoongi hyung” Namjoon said “he was emotionally constipated when Tae told him that he was in love with him, remember?” Jimin nodded and Namjoon looked at Taehyung “he hasn’t said anything about a divorce, right?”
“Not yet” he answered sniffing “he just said that we needed to stop before he made new mistakes and he slept on the couch that day. In the morning he wasn’t here and he came days after to take his clothes and then he left”
“My baby” Jimin hugged Taehyung when the later started to cry again.
“That’s it. I’m going to search for that boy and have a talk with him” Yoongi stood up and grabbed his coat “he has to man up already”
The other three saw Yoongi close the door of the house and Taehyung hoped his friend would help them.
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“Tae, you okay?” Jimin asked his friend.
It’s been a month since Jungkook left their home. He was living with Hoseok -a friend of them- according to Yoongi. The black haired man had talked with the brunette and he actually stopped him from asking for the divorce, but he told Taehyung that Jungkook still felt guilty about how he reacted and for leaving him so he couldn’t face him yet. “Emotionally constipated still,” Yoongi had said “give him some time”.
“Huh? Yeah, why?” the blond asked.
“You look pale” the short guy said “are you still feeling dizzy?”
The last month Taehyung had felt dizzy out of nowhere, Jimin insisted him to go to the doctor, but he knew it was because he wasn’t sleeping well, crying almost every day wasn’t healthy either, so he told him it was just because he had a lot to do in his work. Lies.
“You have to stop worrying so much mom” he rolled his eyes “I’m fine, I’m not sick and…” he stopped mid-sentence when his vision began to blur, he heard Jimin shouting his name before everything went black.
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Taehyung woke up in a white room. He remembered Jimin shouting his name and he came to the conclusion that he fainted. He turned to his right and saw Jungkook watching him, relief in his face.
“You finally woke up, you had me worried” Jungkook said taking his hand between his
“I’m going to die?” the blond haired asked
“What? No, of course not! You cannot die. Tae you…” in that moment the doctor came to the room and saw Taehyung awake.
“Oh you’re finally with us. You gave this poor guy here a heart attack” the doctor chuckled and took notes of the vitals of Taehyung “your sugar level was low so that caused you to faint; your friend told us you aren’t sleeping well and you need to take care of yourself for the sake of your child because, congratulations, you’re three months pregnant, but don’t worry the baby it’s as healthy as he could be ” the doctor drop the bomb with a smile on his face “I’m going to give you some vitamins and other stuff so you can go to your house and have a proper rest. And again, congratulations to the both of you”
Taehyung was trying to wrap his head around what the doctor said. Pregnant? What? He tried to remember the last time he was intimate with Jungkook and oh… oh… yeah, he remembered when that happened. Besides the dizziness he didn’t notice anything strange, maybe he felt tired but he blamed the restless nights after his fight with his husband. And now he could have hurt his baby because he wasn’t taking properly care of himself and…
“Hey, none of that” Jungkook said as if he was reading the other’s mind “let’s just grab your vitamins and take you home” They got in Jungkook's car and they went to their house.
As they entered, the silence grew bigger, both of them wanted to say a lot of things but they didn’t know how to start.
“Tae I-”
“I-”
Both of the spoke at the same time, the blond haired chuckled and the brunette smiled.
“Stay tonight? Please?” Taehyung asked and the other immediately nodded.
They headed towards their bedroom and Taehyung changed into his pajamas, fortunately Jungkook didn’t took all of his clothes a month ago and he took his own. They were in bed and the brunette wanted to hug the other boy but he didn’t know if it was okay with him. “Kook you’re more than my friend, you’re like a little brother for me, so please, man up and go to your husband, you clearly love him and he loves you, don’t give up on him” he remembered Yoongi telling him. So he rolled and put his arm around Taehyung’s waist and putting him closer to his chest.
The pregnant man was surprised when he felt his husband back hugging him and at the same time he wanted to cry.
“Tae I’m sorry” Jungkook whispered hugging him tighter.
“Let’s just-” the older took a breath “let’s just sleep tonight, and tomorrow we can talk, please?”
“Yes, of course”
Taehyung was enjoying the feeling of being again in his husband’s arms that he was dozing off when he felt a kiss in his nape and he heard the “I love you” Jungkook whispered and he decided he finally was going to have a proper sleep.
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Taehyung was afraid that when he opened his eyes, the events of yesterday were just a dream. So he slowly opened them and he was met with Jungkook staring back at him, the brunette sighed and caressed his cheek.
“Morning” the brunette said “hey… why are you crying?” the pregnant man hugged him and buried his face on the chest of his husband. He felt fingers combing his hair and a hand rubbing his back.
“It’s like now that I know I’m pregnant I’m overwhelmed with all this feelings and I don’t know” he said between sobs. He heard the other chuckling, his face was lifted from the hiding place and Jungkook wiped the tears of his face.
“Don’t cry please. I don’t want to see you cry again okay?”
“I can’t promise that but I’ll try”
They made breakfast and took a shower. Taehyung was expecting his husband to leave for work, but when the younger sat next to him after changing his clothes, he knew he would stay with him and he released the breath he didn’t know he was holding.
“How did you know I was on the hospital?” the blond asked.
“I’m your emergency contact, the hospital calls me if you have a cold, you fainted, they called me”
“Oh… I thought Jimin called you”
“When I got there Jimin wanted to punch me in the face” Jungkook chuckled at the memory “if it wasn’t for Yoongi hyung I would have had a bruise on my eye today”
“Jimin has been very protective since…”
“Since I left, yeah” Jungkook said in a whisper “he told me I was a coward and he was right. I felt- I still feel guilty about how I handled things. I know I overreacted about the drink situation and then I just wanted to give up on everything because I’m a weak guy and I just- I can’t forgive myself for every night you spent alone just because I don’t want to have the same life my parents had when I know that that’s not going to happen, I made you say things that I know you didn’t even mean to, I forgot our anniversary Tae for fucks sake!” the younger was really frustrated and Taehyung wanted to cry “and now I just missed the first months of your pregnancy. God, I’m going to be a terrible father”
“Hey none of that!” the blond haired took the hands of his husband “in your defense we made everything more complicated than it was. And yes” he knew Jungkook wanted to interrupt him “we, because I could have handle things differently too. I know how much it means to you to have and to give me everything in this world, but you have to know that even if you were jobless I would still want to be with you because I love you and I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with anyone else and you’re going to be and amazing father”
“I’m sorry Tae” the brunette hugged his husband while crying and the later started to cry too “I love you so much”
“I’m sorry too you know” Taehyung said between sobs “I said things out of anger and I made you feel guilty and then I didn’t know how to retract everything and I didn’t anything to stop you and I’m so sorry”
“Tae, baby, calm down” the younger took the face of his husband between his hands and cleaned the tears that kept flowing “from now on if we feel like there’s something bothering us we have to tell the other and try to find a solution okay?” Taehyung nodded and he started to calm down “let’s focus on our baby and in the fact that we love each other yeah? I love you Kim Taehyung” the brunette planted a kiss on the blond forehead.
“I love you so much Kook” Taehyung said hugging his husband and placing his head on his chest.
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“He looks like you” Taehyung said while watching Jungkook bearing a proud smile “he’s the cutest little thing in the world”
“Where’s my favourite nephew? I brought him a present from Hawaii” Jimin reached the bed where Taehyung was holding his son and saw him with big eyes “holy fudge Jungkook! He’s like a little version of you but with Tae’s nose”
“Nine months carrying him and he goes and looks like his father” Taehyung said while watching the little boy who yawned and made Jimin coo.
“You are a lucky bastard Jungkook. You have the prettiest husband and now the cutest little son”
“What can I say Chim? I’m a really lucky one”
Since Taehyung and Jungkook made up, Jimin decided that he would give a chance to the younger, it took him four months to actually stop calling him ‘coward’ (he hated him a little bit for what he did to his best friend so he made him suffer a little longer), a lot of pursuing of Taehyung, and Jungkook spending more time in his home and not in his work to realize that his blond friend was really happy with how everything turned and return to his old friendship with the younger.
“I’m sorry I couldn’t made it to the day he was born” Jimin said “Yoongi and I wanted to come back when you texted us but there was this big storm in Hawaii and-”
“I’ve already told you it’s okay Chim” Taehyung told him with a reassuring smile “you were in your honey moon I understand”
“Yoongi says sorry for not coming too”
“The welcome party is this Saturday so it’s okay. I’ve already told Hoseok hyung and Namjoon hyung, he’s going to bring Jin hyung with him. So you just come on Saturday and then you’ll be forgiven if that makes you feel better” Jungkook said
“You want to hold him Chim?” Taehyung asked his best friend who immediately nodded and took the little boy in his arms smiling.
Jungkook and Taehyung watched them with smiles on their faces.
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“I could watch him all day long” Taehyung whispered to his husband “he looks so cute”
The little boy was in his crib and he had his little hands balled into fist under his little face. To say that Taehyung was enamoured by his son was an understatement. And to say that Jungkook loved them more each day was an understatement too. He wanted to spend every minute by their side showing them how much he loved them, and for that reason he avoided taking shifts in his work, he learned from his mistakes.
Right now he was back hugging his husband watching his son sleeping peacefully. He couldn’t ask for more. He kissed the blond’s temple and hugged him tighter making him hum happily.
“I love you Jungkook”
“I love you more my love”