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As soon as the door closes after Winn, Maggie turns towards Alex, who’s joined her to the front door to say bye. Their eyes lock and all the braveness Alex was feeling just minutes ago evaporates into thin air. She’s nervous. Incredibly, annoyingly nervous. She thinks she’s probably never been this nervous before.
“So. Outside?” Maggie asks, smiling shyly.
Alex nods, spins on her heel and strides towards the back door. The sooner she gets this over with, the better. Her step falters slightly as she feels a soft hand slip into hers. When she looks back at Maggie there’s a soft glint in her eyes. Alex’s heart flutters.
She takes a deep breath as she closes the back door behind her, feeling Maggie’s eyes burning on the back of her head. Why did she think this was a good idea? How is she supposed to do this? What if she messes everything up? She’s barely ever kissed a boy before, let alone a girl. She doesn’t know how to do this. She can’t do this.
“Are you okay?” Maggie’s voice is gentle and quiet, maybe a little hesitant.
“Yeah. Yeah, I’m fine,” Alex says, finally looking at the girl in front of her, “Just, uh, nervous? I guess?”
Maggie tilts her head, lips tugging up into her signature smirk. “Why?”
Alex chuckles, shakes her head to herself. She can’t believe she’s nervous. She’s known Maggie long enough now to know that she is one of the kindest and most understanding people she’s ever met. Plus. They’ve been on dates. Two. And they like each other. At least, Alex is pretty sure Maggie likes her back. Since, you know, they’ve been on two dates. And their third date is this weekend.
Shit. Maybe she should wait until after their date to kiss her? Or not? Or-
“Alex,”
“Sorry,” Alex mutters, running her fingers through her hair, “I’m just-“
“-Nervous,” Maggie finishes for her, smiling.
She takes a step closer, her hand reaching out to hold Alex’s. She’s not sure why Alex is so nervous, even though she has an idea. A hunch. Or maybe it’s just wishful thinking. Maggie’s not sure. But she’s here to support Alex either way, no matter if it’s about what she thinks it is or not.
Alex takes a deep breath and locks her eyes with Maggie’s. It gives her a sense of safety- makes her feel calm and a little more collected. The squeeze of Maggie’s fingers around her own give her enough courage to blurt out what she’s thinking.
“I really like you, Maggie,”
Maggie’s eyes widen. Because. Okay. They’ve been on dates before. But Alex hasn’t actually said those words before. Out loud. To Maggie. And now that she has she’s a little taken aback. Because, of course Maggie’s seen Alex’s tweets, but it’s different reading it than actually hearing it.
“I- I’m sorry, was that too forward?”
“No, no,” Maggie shakes her head, blush rising up her neck to her cheeks, “definitely not.”
“Okay.”
She tugs Alex closer by her hand, “I really like you too,”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah,”
Alex smiles at that. Big and genuine- it makes her eyes crinkle. Maggie thinks she looks beautiful.
“You are truly a miracle, Mags,” Alex mutters, her free hand reaching for Maggie’s lower arm, the tips of her fingers just brushing her skin. “Beautiful,”
Maggie blushes, ducks her head, “Stop it,”
“Maggie?”
When she looks back up, Maggie notices the evident nerves in Alex’s eyes. She softens and nods, tilts her head again. “Yes?”
Alex closes her eyes for a second, bites the inside of her cheek when she opens them again to look at Maggie. Now she definitely doesn’t know why she’s nervous.
“Can I kiss you?”
The smile on Maggie’s face is to die for and when she nods her head, Alex can’t help but mirror said smile. But she needs to hear her say it. So she waits, just smiles and looks at her. Until Maggie caves and giggles and says,
“Yeah, you can.”
And, fair enough, she has no idea what she’s doing, but Alex figures it’s not rocket science. So she lets go of Maggie’s hand to cup her face with both hands, her heart racing in her chest. Maggie grips her by the elbows, pulls her closer, until their bodies are pressed together and their foreheads touching.
“Okay. I’m gonna kiss you now.”
Maggie chuckles, whispers a soft, “Please,” that gets silenced by Alex’s lips on hers. It’s careful and they’re both a little scared, but Maggie kisses her back and Alex can’t help but smile. Maggie pulls back when she feels the curl of Alex’s smile against her lips. Her hands drop to Alex’s waist where she squeezes softly.
“That’s what you wanted to talk about?”
Alex nods, still a little dazed from kissing Maggie. “Is that stupid?”
“Not at all,” Maggie reassures her, glancing down at her lips, “I think it’s really cute.”
“You’re cute,”
Maggie shakes her head, laughing softly. Then she leans back in to kiss Alex again, Alex’s hands still softly on her cheeks, holding her close, as if she’s scared Maggie’s going to change her mind and run. But she won’t. Maggie doesn't want to go anywhere. Ever.