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2018-11-14
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Nothing As Sweet (As Your Final Embrace)

Summary:

John regrets everything. Regrets yelling at Smitty, regrets throwing the glass at the door as he left, regrets not going after him. John regrets all of the events of that night, but he would redo it all, even Smitty breaking up with him, if it meant not waking up to a picture of his boyfriends face on the news.

Notes:

**Yes I know Smii7y and Kryoz aren't technically GBG but I don't care**
I named Smii7y Smitty so that my computer would stop autocorrecting it.

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Work Text:

[October 12 - 3:23 A.M.]

Vape God: I'm sorry

Vape God: I didn't mean it

Vape God: I love you

Vape God: Please come home

 

[October 12 - 11:14 A.M.] 

Vape God: Oh God

Vape God: I just turned on my phone and the hospital had called

Vape God: I'm on the way now

Vape God: Please be okay

 

[October 14 - 3:49 P.M.]

Vape God: fuck

Vape God: Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

Vape God: I can't let go

Vape God: This isnt fair

Vape God: I didnt get to saty goodbye

Vape God: please ocme back smit

Vape God: I NEED YOU

Vape God: why you

Vape God: FUCK

 

[October 21 - 1:52 P.M.]

Vape God: The funeral was today

Vape God: These things are supposed to feel final but

Vape God: How can it when the guy who

Vape God: the guy who hit you

Vape God: gets to walk free

Vape God: It's not fair

 

 

 

[December 5 - 3:40 A.M.]

Vape God: im dkunr

Vape God: thres thiss picufte of you on the wlal nd i cant sstop crybink

Vape God: ccom bakc

Vape God: Plesae

Vape God: m sorrrty

 

[ March 2 - 9:14 A.M.]

Vape God: Everyone wants me to move on

Vape God: start dating again

Vape God: but your scent still lingers on the pillows

Vape God: I don't want someone else replacing you

Vape God: I wish we hadn't fought

Vape God: I feel so guilty

Vape God: No one knows why you were on the road that night

Vape God: I can't bring myself to tell them

 

[March 13 - 1:33 P.M.]

Vape God: I like to think that you would have forgiven me

Vape God: Would you have?

 

 

[March 14 - 12:04 A.M.]

Vape God: This is stupid but

Vape God: a part of me was hoping to pick up my phone after recording

Vape God: and see a message from you

Vape God: Or a steam notification

Vape God: but you're still gone

Vape God: You always will be

 

 

[October 19 - 3:27 P.M.]

Vape God: It's officially been one year

Vape God: I'm sorry I stopped texting

Vape God: It hurt too much when you didn't respond

Vape God: It's getting easier to walk past your shoe rack and not cry

Vape God: You hit 2 mil on YouTube, by the way

Vape God: I couldn't bring myself to shut down the channel

Vape God: Consider it your legacy

Vape God: I miss you

Vape God: every day

Gay Chicken: I think you might have the wrong number

Vape God: You really are gone then

Gay Chicken: Sorry, who is this?

Vape God: No one

Vape God: Bye, Smit.

Notes:

This was written purely as a way for me to vent so it may not be at all accurate to how John actually talks. LMK if there's anything I can change about the story xx.