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Dirk looked over at Jake as the other slept. Every day with him was breaking Dirk's heart.
"I'd date you if you were a girl," echoed almost every time they touched.
Dirk knew better than to start claiming he was trans for Jake's attention. Roxy would slam that shit down immediately. And he really didn't want to wear another mask. He already felt like he wore to many to begin with.
Every time Jake leaned on him during a scary part of a movie, or the way Jake would grab his hand to show Dirk something he was excited about. The way Jake smiled at Dirk when he saw his friend show up.
Even now, laying beside him while he slept, being so close but never as close as he wanted to be.
Dirk moved carefully to wrap himself around Jake, pressing his face into his chest. Jake's heart beat slowly, at rest. Dirk's beat so fast that he was sure it was going to explode.
Sleepovers at Jake's never held sleep for Dirk. Instead they held long nights of reminders on how much Dirk loved Jake and how out of his reach Jake was.
Dirk wasn't one to cry easily, but a few tears managed to fall down Dirk's cheek in frustration.
He didn't want to sound like one of those guys, but he's done everything for Jake. And yet, Jake was still out of his grasp.
"I love you." He finally said out loud, to the empty room.
Jake stayed quiet, his breathing the only response. Of course, because this wasn't like a movie, or a fanfiction. It was real life. And you couldn't change someone just because you wished it to be. No matter how many nights Dirk would stay the night over at Jake's, and wished him to return his feelings. They'd never be requited.