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Its not like students bullied Namjoon or anything, they just ignore him. He doesn’t mind to be honest, he likes to be on his own world and with his own thoughts. And he likes to admire Jin from far away.
Before he met Jin he wasn’t able to create music, and its one thing he loves to do so much. He hated the fact that he didn’t have the inspiration he needed.
But when he saw Jin for the first time it was like every song, every melody was already on his head all this time and he just had to find that feeling that was missing. He didn’t stopped creating lyrics for months. Even his cousin, Yoongi, that helped him with his music, was surprise by all his creativity that he believed came from nowhere.
When Namjoon took some time to check the lyrics he created, he saw the amount of times he talked about love and beauty. Beauty from a certain person. Yes, he talked about love but he knew it wasn’t love, like it couldn’t be. He had never talked to Jin before. He knew that when he looked at Jin he felt like it was love, but he also knew it wasn’t love. If that makes any sense.
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It was Friday, his classes for the day was almost over, he was ready for the weekend. To be able to read some books, play video games with Yoongi, to write more songs and sleep.
Two days without the need to wake up early, it seems like its a little thing but when you go through nights and nights studying and not sleeping well, the weekends turns out to be the best thing ever.
“You’re Namjoon, right?” His thoughts were interrupted by a sweet voice, and he couldn’t believe what was happening.
Seokjin was talking to him and he was so nervous that he just froze. He knew he needed to calm down, the most beautiful person he ever saw was talking to him right now but he needs to be a normal person. Namjoon was sure his face was all red right now, he couldn’t make it worst.
‘Ok, its just one question, just answer yes. Or maybe just shake your head to avoid something embarrassing coming out of your mouth’ It was what Namjoon was thinking at that moment, and he chose the second option.
“Oh, okay” Jin spoke again and Namjoon knew he could write another 5 songs only about his voice. “I really need your help, I’m failing chemistry and the professor told me i should look for you for help”
Since Namjoon didn’t say anything and just kept looking at Jin he decided to keep talking. “It can be at any time it works for you, seriously, I’m really desperate right now.”
“Sure.” Namjoon couldn’t believe the only thing he was able to talk was ‘sure’. It was his crush right in front of him, he just wanted his life to ended right there. While Namjoon thought that it was the worst moment of his life, the only thing Jin could think it was how cute this guy was and how cute was his dimple that showed up so fast.
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After they exchange numbers so it would be easier for both of them, Namjoon said bye and started running as fast as he could to his house.
He didn’t even know why he was so embarrassed, it wasn’t like he made any mistakes. He really didn’t. Namjoon talked only what was necessary, like yes and no, so it was fine. But the effect that Jin had on him was something new.
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The day of their first study session was fine. Seokjin was happy because he felt that with Namjoon he could understand everything so much better. Jin noticed that every time he looked at the other’s eyes he looked away and blushed so hard and it was the cutest thing he ever saw.
Jin had no idea that Namjoon was shy like that. He knew that the boy was always alone, he never saw Namjoon with anyone at school but he always looked so fine with himself, so in peace.
On the other hand, Namjoon was trying to be cool. At first Jin was a little far away from him so it was fine, but then he got a little confused about what Namjoon was saying and started to get closer. Namjoon felt the air leaving his lungs, why he needed to be so close?
“Is everything okay?” When Namjoon turned to look at Jin he seemed really concerned. And his face was so close, the closest they have ever been.
“Yes, sure. Maybe we can finish here for today”
“Okay” Jin said with a smile that made Namjoon breathless.
“Your smile is really beautiful.”
“Oh, thanks” Wait, did Namjoon said that out loud? “When you get all shy like that its really beautiful too”
Was Jin really saying that to him? It truly felt like a dream to him.
“I think when you smile like that and your dimple is visible is the most beautiful thing too” and then Jin touched his dimple.
Jin was smiling to Namjoon wondering why this boy hides all his charms to himself? Its unfair.
-
As the days go by both of them get to know each other better, after the third study session they got this routine of always grabbing some coffee after. Jin noticed that Namjoon was talking more to him, he still was shy but only when Jin said things like how cute and how beautiful the other boy was.
Of course Jin did it on purpose.
Now Jin knew about Namjoon love for music and Namjoon knew about Jin love for photography.
“What you use as a inspiration for your music?” Jin asked.
“Stuff.” Namjoon didn’t know what to answer because lately his only inspiration to create music was Jin, and it only got more intense when they got close to each other.
“What do you mean by stuff? I want details.”
“Hm, like everything.”
“Really? Everything?” Namjoon just shook his head in agreement. “So you could write a song about me one day?”
“One day, sure.” Namjoon laughed to avoid the awkwardness from showing up in his face. ‘If only he knew’ was what Namjoon thought.
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One day the library they always study was closed, so Namjoon gave the idea of going to his place if it was fine for Jin and he agreed.
When they arrived Jin made himself comfortable and took a good look at Namjoon’s room.
It had many albums and books everywhere and it wasn’t very organized. He doesn’t know why but he really thought Joon was the perfectionist type and clearly he was wrong.
He stopped when he saw that there were some pictures too, Namjoon with his family and with one boy that seemed to appear in every picture.
“Oh, this is my cousin, Yoongi”
“The one that helps you with your songs, right?”
Namjoon got really happy to know that Jin was paying attention to him when he was talking about his life and that he remembered the details.
“I’ll get something for us to eat you can go and turn on my computer so we can study.”
Namjoon got back to his room with food and juice for both of them and put everything on his bed.
Jin was with his laptop on his lap with a confused expression and when Namjoon was going to ask if something was wrong Jin interrupted him.
“Hm, Joon, why there’s a folder in your computer with my name and a bunch of songs inside it?”
‘Oh, no, Namjoon was in trouble’
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While Namjoon was still thinking about a good answer and one that wouldn’t sound creepy, Jin was already clicking in one song so he could listen to it.
The instrumental for ‘Trivia:Love’ was what made Namjoon realize what was happening and he just wanted to run away.
Jin was so shocked he couldn’t even say anything, he felt guilty about going through Namjoon’s stuff because while listening to the song he realized that it was too personal, it was Namjoon’s feelings in there, he shouldn’t be listening to it.
So he quickly turn off the song and closed Namjoon’s laptop and took it away from his lap.
Of course this movement made Namjoon think the worst, Jin was probably disgusted and he really wanted to cry.
“W-why are you crying, Joonie?” He only realized he was already crying when Jin stood up and cleaned the tears from his face. “Is it because of me? I’m sorry, I really shouldn’t go through your personal stuff, I’m really sorry.”
“What? No! It’s not that. I just thought you were going to hate me or something.”
“It’s impossible to hate you, Joonie, trust me. And the song is just so good and the lyrics are amazing, you’re a genius, aren’t you?”
“No, I’m not.” Namjoon looked down so Jin couldn’t see his face getting red but Jin put his hand on his chin so he would look at Jin’s eyes.
“Yes, you are and I’m really proud of you.” Namjoon smiled so big that Jin couldn’t help but smile too, this boy was too precious.
“So, can I listen to the other songs?” Namjoon wasn’t expecting that. “It’s okay if I can’t, if you’re too shy right now.”
“Maybe other day then? Its just because most of the songs are not really finished yet”
“It’s okay, Joonie.”
They both sit on Namjoon’s bed side by side and forgetting about the study session.
“The songs are all about me?”
“Hm, yes.”
Jin held Namjoon’s hand so he would be more comfortable around him and he hoped it would help a little.
“Since when you make songs about me?”
“Since the first time I saw you.”
And they spent the rest of the day like this, hand by hand, Namjoon’s head on Jin’s shoulders and talking about the songs and Namjoon promised when he finished all of them Jin could listen to them.
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Going to school with Jin was something else. They agreed that Jin would pick Namjoon up at his house and then they would go together.
The way to school was amazing, they talked and laughed, they both loved each other company. But when they arrived at school Namjoon felt so weird.
Before no one even looked at him and now everyone was talking about him, whispering things that he was afraid to know what it would be.
“If you’re uncomfortable we can go separate ways.”
“Please, don’t.” Namjoon hugged Jin’s arm in a way of telling him not to go. At least Jin being there by his side made him happier.
“Joon? Can we meet up at my house today?”
“But today isn’t the day of our study session.”
“I know, I just want to show you something.”
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The rest of the day was so much different from the others ordinary days Namjoon had at school. Now he would sit with Jin at lunch and talked to him between classes.
He told Jin that he could be with his friends too, Namjoon wasn’t feeling well about Jin being distant to his friends but Jin said it was fine and he prefer to be with Namjoon.
When all the classes were over they made their way to Jin’s house. It was a big house but Jin said that the only reason why it’s because he has 2 brothers and 3 sisters.
They went to Jin’s room which was a lot more organized than Namjoon’s. Jin has some different kinds of cameras hanging on the wall and some books too.
Namjoon was so focus looking around that he didn’t notice Jin approaching him and that he had a little box at his hands.
“Since you showed me your music, well not showed since- yeah, you know.”
Was Jin nervous? That was something new to Namjoon, he was the one that was always nervous around Jin. ‘Was’ in the past since now he could feel like Jin knew him all his life, but when Jin was too close he still forgot everything and turned into a mess again.
“Since now I know about your music I want to show you my little secret too.”
Jin opened the box.
Namjoon saw a lot of pictures inside it, random pictures, but there was some pictures of him too.
“When did you take these? I never saw you taking any of these?”
“Hm, all of them are from my phone that I took while you weren’t looking. I started after our second study session. I’m sorry I just couldn’t help myself, you’re very beautiful, Joonie.”
“Are you serious?”
“Of course, are you angry?”
“No, of course not. But are you serious about me being beautiful?”
Jin laughed, it must be some kind of joke. How Namjoon wasn’t able to see how handsome he is?
“Joonie, you’re the most beautiful boy I ever saw.”
Namjoon blushed so hard that he could feel his skin burning up.
“I loved the pictures Jin, all of them. You have a talent, you know?”
“Yes, I know.”
They laughed and after that Jin showed Namjoon how to use his cameras, how he turned the pictures of his phone into polaroids and they even hang on Jin’s wall some pictures that he took of Namjoon.
Namjoon ended up sleeping at Jin’s bed while hugging the other boy, Jin thought that maybe Namjoon was hungry because they didn’t eat anything since they got there, but the boy was so beautiful sleeping that Jin couldn’t wake him up.
With that Jin laid his head on Namjoon’s and slept too.
-
Months have passed since they talked to each other for the first time and Jin couldn’t hide his feelings anymore so that’s why he asked Namjoon on a date.
At first Namjoon thought Jin was joking, he even started laughing but when he saw that Jin was serious he got so surprised.
Namjoon had never been on a date before, and his first date is going to be with the most handsome man on earth. Everything seemed like a dream and he was waiting for the moment he would wake up.
Jin didn’t tell him where they were going and that was one more reason he was so nervous.
It was morning when Jin arrived at his home, he said they would be out for the whole day and Namjoon was so happy he couldn’t even hide it.
First, they stopped to get some breakfast with Jin being cheesy while feeding Namjoon and telling him he should take easy on coffee. They could see a lot of eyes on them but they couldn’t care less about the rest of the world.
Next, they went to a big library that was very cozy, one of those places that you could lay down to read, with a nice environment.
Both of them chose a book and lay down, Namjoon with his head on Jin’s chest while Jin was caressing his hair.
They spent the day there until lunch. Namjoon didn’t want to leave, he was so comfortable with Jin’s fingers in his hair, being so close to the man but then Jin kissed his cheeky and told him there was a long day ahead of them.
“Where are we going next?” They were eating lunch and Jin couldn’t hide how happy he was while watching Namjoon smiling all the time like a little kid. He was so happy and it looked like he was shining. Maybe he really was shining, at least in Jin’s eyes he was.
“It’s a surprise.”
They drive for some hours until they arrived at the beach.
Jin arranged the place for them in the sand and they sit while looking at the sea.
“You don’t need to be here, you know?” Jin said after some time.
“What do you mean?”
“I know what you want to do right now, you can go. Thats why I brought you here.”
What Namjoon wanted to do right now was to kiss him but he didn’t say that, of course. He stand up shining more than ever thanking Jin and went to his little adventure that consists of looking for crabs.
Jin believed that he never saw Namjoon so happy, every time he catches a crab he comes to Jin to show the little animal in his hand.
The whole date in Jin’s mind was thinking about the other boy. What he would like to do, what would make Namjoon see how much he deserves all the happiness in the world.
“Thank you so much for today, Jin.” It was night already and they were in front of Namjoon’s house. The end of their day was chill while they talk and watched the sunset at the beach.
“You don’t need to thank me. I know it wasn’t a common date, but I just thought about what would make you relax a little.”
“I don’t even know what a common date is. It was my first date ever.”
“We can go to many more dates if you want, Joonie.”
“Of course, I want to go to more dates with my boyfriend.”
“You what?”
“Did I said that out loud?”
Jin was laughing so much, he didn’t want to laugh like that because he knew Namjoon was thinking about running away and never getting out of his room again.
“You should at least ask me first to be your boyfriend.”
“Please, Jin. Just forget what I said.”
Jin got close to Namjoon while caressing his cheek with his finger.
“But I really want to be your boyfriend, Joonie.”
“Oh, thank God. Me too”
Jin laughed again at Namjoon’s cuteness and kissed the other boy with all the love he had for him.