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“Princess, you should get some rest,” said Coran as he tucked Allura back into bed. “You cannot continue to fight if you do not have enough energy, so please, Allura, rest.”
“I know, I know,” Allura groaned. She hated being in bed, especially since she believed she was not helping the others by resting even though she knew she needed to after the Balmera.
“The quicker you rest, the faster you get to be with the others,” Coran says as he pats her head and smiles at her. “I’ll now leave you to it.” Coran fixes her blanket one last time and heads towards her door. “Rest well, princess,” he says as he shuts off her room light and exits her room.
Allura groaned again. She wanted to be with the others and hated that she needed to rest but Coran was right, she wasn’t capable to be of help in her condition. “Alright, Allura, like Coran said, the faster we rest, the faster I can help out the others,” she says to herself as she closed her eyes. She took a deep breath in to relax herself since she was too tense, though she fell to sleep shortly after.
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Allura opened her eyes and groaned. It was a lot brighter in her room then she had remembered before she went to sleep. On second thought, the wall was different, and so was the furniture on the side of the room she was facing. What was going on?
“Oh, you’re awake my love,” said a voice behind her.
‘My love?’ thought Allura, ‘Who is saying that? And why does that voice sound familiar?’ She turned over to the side of where the voice came from to face a familiar face. It was Shiro. A Shiro who had his bare chest exposed and nothing but a blanket covering his lower half of his body.
“You oversleep,” he says, “You must have been very tired.”
“S-Shiro? What are you doing in my bed?! If this is my bed. AND W-WHERE ARE YOUR CLOTHES!?” she said looking at him up and down.
“Ha, ha. Very funny Allura,” he laughed as he began to lean forward towards her.
Allura panicked as she realized he was getting too close to her. ‘What is going on here!? Why is Shiro in my bed!? HE IS GETTING TOO CLOSE! IS-IS HE GOING TO KISS ME!? THIS ISN’T RIGHT! I HAVE TO STOP HIM!’
“Shiro, no!” she says to him as she pushes him away from her. She quickly backed away from him after, though forgetting she was on a bed, she fell off. Her body hits the floor and she drags along the blanket. “Ow, quiznak!” she says as she rubs her arm that hit the floor.
“ALLURA! Are you okay!?” Shiro shouts. He quickly rushes to her side of the bed.
‘He’s coming!’ she says to herself. She closed her eyes immediately, since she did not know if he was actually naked or not, but she wasn’t going to take the chance to see if he was. It would have been inappropriate for that she is a princess and he was her paladin.
“Stay away, Shiro!” she says as she sits up quickly and placed her hands in front of her, still with her eyes closed, “Don’t come any closer.”
“Allura, the jokes over,” she hears him say, “are you okay?” She felt him grab her shoulder, in which she pushed him again.
“Shiro, I said no!”
“Allura, what is going on with you? Are you okay? Open your eyes please.” He begs her.
She began to open her eyes slowly. When her vision became clear, she saw that he wasn’t actually naked. He wore sweats, though he was still bare chested. ‘Oh, thank the stars he isn’t completely naked’ she thought. She stared at him for a few seconds, ‘wait he looks like Shiro, and responded to Shiro but, but his hair is completely white. And his prosthetic wasn’t the same one she remembered him with. This one was similar, but white and blue, a lot like Altean designs. What is going on!?’
“Shiro,” she begins, “Why were you in my bed? What is going on here?”
He looked confused, but also very worried. “Allura what do you mean? I’m your husband, of course we share a bed.”
“H-HUSBAND!?” she shouted, “SINCE WHEN?”
“Allura, we been married for three years almost.”
“Thr-three years?” At this point she did not know what was going on. Is this a prank? Or a dream? She was confused. Very, very confused. Just then, she heard a cry. ‘Why does that sound like a baby?’ she thought. She turned to face where the noise came from. There was a crib at the end of the bed, which she did not notice before. ‘Please don’t tell me’ she thought.
Shiro quickly got up and headed towards the crib at the end of her bed, or rather their bed. She watched as he reached into it and pulled out a small figure. “Shh. It’s okay, Alfor. Daddy’s here,” he says as he rocked the baby that was in his arms back and forth.
“Mommy woke you up didn’t she? She is very sorry for that. She knows you like your rest.”
‘Daddy? Mommy? Am I mommy?! Okay seriously, what the quiznak is going on here!?’ She got up slowly and began to walk towards Shiro and her ‘baby’ slowly.
“Alfor? Like my father?”
“Yes,” he says. “You named him of course. Allura, my love, are you really okay? Did you have some sort of bad dream?”
She didn’t respond. She walked closer to Shiro to get a closer look at her so-called son. When she reached them, she noticed the baby had Altean marks that were light purple in color. His hair was white, and his skin was slightly lighter than her own. She couldn’t believe it. Was this really her child? Her child with Shiro? Of all people? She couldn’t take it. She began to feel lightheaded. She placed her hand on her head and tried to keep her balance since she began to feel dizzy too.
“Allura? Allura!” she heard the voice fade as she began to see black.
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She opened her eyes once again. “Ugh,” she groaned as she placed her hand on her forehead.
“Princess, are you okay?” said a familiar voice. This time that voice wasn’t Shiro’s voice, it sounded like Coran. She faced where the voice came from and spotted who she knew it was.
“Coran. Thank the stars it’s you,” she said in relief, “I had this very weird dream with Shiro, and a baby that he said was mine.” She laughed, “you won’t believe how weird it was.”
“Princess, what are you talking about a weird dream?” he says concerned, “are you really okay? Shiro is very worried about you. He says you don’t remember him being your husband, and you don’t remember your own child.”
“Huh?” she says, “Coran, I get you like to play jokes, but you don’t have to joke about my dream.”
He placed his hand on her forehead, “Princess, I am not joking around. Shiro is very concerned about you,” he says with a serious look on his face. “You’re also burning up. Maybe you are getting sick and hallucinating.”
“Hallucinating? Coran I am not hallucinating.” Allura began to look around the room and saw the same furniture she did when she woke up and the crib, Alfor’s crib.
“Princess, I don’t think you’re okay. I think we have to run some tests to see how sick you may be.”
She pushed his hand off her forehead. “Coran listen to me! I am not hallucinating. Before I went to bed because I used all my power on the Balmera after the Galra attacked and when I woke up, I woke up to Shiro, who apparently is my husband and I have a child! A child named after my very own father! Coran, I don’t know what’s going on, but I am not hallucinating! You have to believe me!” She begs.
“But Allura, you helped the Balmera years ago, and the war is over, it’s impossible that you believe you just woke up from after that happened.” He was confused. Was she really hallucinating or telling the truth? “Something isn’t right. We have to get you checked princess, I believed you have lost your memories.”
“I did not lose my memories Coran. Please, believe me. I want to know what is going on too, but I know I did not lose my memories!”
‘I am not going crazy,’ she thought, ‘I know very well I did not lose my memories. I know when I went to sleep, I was not married to Shiro or had a child. We were at wore and I helped the Balmera.’
A knock came from the door before it opened. Both Coran and Allura faced the door to spot a blonde-haired woman. Allura noticed she had Altean markings as well. Who was she?
“Oh good, the princess is awake, thank the stars,” said the woman.
“Another Altean,” Allura whispers. ‘Who is she? Why is there another Altean? That’s impossible. Coran and I are the last two Alteans to exist!’
“Who are you?” she asks, “Coran, why is there another Altean besides us?”
“Huh?” said the blonde, “Allura, it’s me, Romelle. We are friends.”
Allura began to feel light-headed again. Coran placed his arms to hold her up. “Princess, please stay with me,” Coran says, “You are taking too much new information at a time and you could probably faint again.”
“Coran, what do you mean new information. Our friendship isn’t new information,” says Romelle as she walked closer to Coran and Allura.
“Romelle, I believe Princess Allura lost her memory.”
“I did not lose my memory!” Allura cuts him off, “this is all a dream, I know it. I am going to go back to sleep and wake up back in my actual room, alone.” She looked at him with a serious face to show she was not messing around anymore.
“Sorry princess,” he says, “look, we are going to get you checked out. I’ll leave Romelle here with you while you change into something that isn’t your sleepwear.” He sat up from the bed and faced Romelle, “Romelle, please find her something to wear and bring her to the lab. We have to run some tests on her.”
Romelle nodded, “Yes. Of course.”
Coran headed out the room. Allura watched until he closed the door as he exited then faced Romelle. “Are you actually Altean?”
“Of course, I am. From what Coran said, you might have lost your memory even though you don’t think you did, though I guess I could catch you up on some things,” Romelle said as she began to look through the closet for Allura’s clothes.
“All the information I have been getting caused me to faint once and almost a second time, I don’t think I should be-,” Allura says before she is cut off by Romelle.
“Princess, trust me, I think you should know what’s going on. Maybe if you find out from me, your best friend, it would be a lot easier to take since I am pretty good at talking if I say so myself. I promise, I’ll make it short and sweet like the earthlings say it.”
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“Okay so you’re telling me there was an Altean colony ran by a man named Lotor, who is Zarkon and Honerva’s son? Which he also killed Zarkon?” Allura says.
“Yup.”
“And that’s where you came from?”
“Yup.”
“And I fell for him before he betrayed me and our people?”
“Yup.”
“And we basically killed him?”
“Yup.”
“Also, I was the blue paladin for a while?”
“Yup.”
“Then we came to earth, the paladin’s home?”
“Yup.”
“And fought off the Galra who attacked it?”
“Yup.”
“Then we found out Hagar is Honerva? Like my father’s old friend Honerva?”
“Yup.”
“Who tried to attack us along with other Altean’s from the colony? With a new, Voltron like war machines?”
“Yup.”
“And then I ‘dated’ Lance? Of all people?”
“Yup.”
“Then we defeated Honerva?”
“Yup.”
“And Keith is actually half Galra, and they wanted him to be the new emperor, but he declined it?”
“Yup.”
“Then we settled on earth, and I ended things with Lance?”
“Well, it ended up being a mutual breakup if you look at it but, yup.”
“Then Keith and Lance got together?”
“Yup.”
“Then Shiro and I began to have feelings for each other while working close together after the end of the war?”
“Yup. It actually was very sweet how you two ended up together.”
“And we got married about three years ago?”
“Yup.”
“And I have a child that is seven months old, in Earth time, and I named him after my father?”
“Yup.”
“And now we’re here?”
“Yup.”
Allura couldn’t believe it all. Was this all true?
“Romelle.” She said in a serious tone, “WHAT THE QUIZNAK! HOW IS THIS ALL POSSIBLE!” Allura got up from the bed and paced back and forth. “I’ve been with basically two-fifths of the paladins, one of them being Lance, which is very weird to me, and Zarkon’s quiznaking son, of all quiznaking people. I’m not that type of girl Romelle, I am a princess for quiznaks sake!”
Romelle tilts her head as she looks at Allura, “So out of all the information I gave you, that’s what you are worried about?”
“Romelle! Please! How is this possible. Please tell me this is all a joke! Or a dream! OR BOTH!”
“I wish I was, seeing how you are reacting,” Romelle says, “but I’m not. What I said can’t just be made up on the spot, Allura.”
“Oh, my stars, I’m losing my quiznaking mind.” Allura stopped pacing, “Maybe if I go back to sleep, I will wake up and be where I was before I went to sleep.” She sat on the bed and began to try to tuck herself in it before Romelle stopped her.
“Princess Allura, no! We are going to get you checked,” Romelle says as she pulls the blanket out of Allura’s hands, “Shiro is very worried about you and baby Alfor needs you, please princess!”
“Romelle I can’t! I cannot do this!”
“Okay, okay, princess look at me. Just please, let’s get you checked. We want to help you. We can probably help get your memory back.”
“For the last time, I did not lose my memory!”
“Okay, okay! You’re right! But still, princess, please do this for the sake of your child and husband, who is worried sick about
you!” Romelle begged Allura as she placed both her hands on her shoulders, “I understand you are confused but we will get through this, okay?”
Allura took in a deep breath. She felt as if she had no choice at this point. “Fine, Romelle. Just please believe me when I say I did not lose my memory, please. You say you’re my best friend so please, as my best friend, believe me.”
“Yes, Princess,” said Romelle, “I believe you. Now please get dressed so we could do tests on you.”
“Okay.” Allura got up from the bed and began to strip down to put the dress laid out for her by Romelle. Now in her underwear, she noticed something different about her body. She quickly walked towards a mirror to get a look at herself. “Uh, Romelle.”
“Yes, Princess,” Romelle responded behind her.
“My body. This isn’t my body. My… my breast are a lot bigger than I remembered. I don’t remember having a chest like this!” she said as she grabbed her own breast.
Romelle laughed, “that’s because you had a baby, silly!” Romelle walked up to Allura, “It’s natural. Don’t worry about it. It’s still your body, you just woke up to a, well, how should I put this?” Romelle placed her hand under her chin, “a more matured body?”
“I cannot believe this,” said Allura as she continued to look at her body. ‘Okay maybe there is some perks to this… dream was it? Or maybe even different reality. Either way, look at me!’ Allura thought.
“Okay princess,” Romelle interrupted Allura’s thoughts, “now that you have seen your ‘new’ breast, please change quickly, we don’t want to waste time.”
“Right,” Allura said taking one last look in the mirror before heading back to where her clothes were placed.
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Allura walked into the room Romelle lead her to. A few feet away from her, she spotted Coran and another new figure. The figure turned to face Allura and Romelle as they heard both women enter. ‘That looks kind of like,’ Allura thought before she was interrupted.
“Oh, good Allura, you’re here,” they said as they walked towards the two women.
“Pidge? Is that you?” Allura asked. It looked like Pidge, just an older version.
“Yes, it is! Coran told me what happened, so I came as quickly as possible! He said you lost your memory.”
“I did not lose my memory!” Allura shouted.
“Okay, calm down Allura,” Pidge said as they put their hands in front of themselves. “Look I’m here to help. I don’t want you to feel like we think you’re crazy or something.”
Allura took a deep breath and closed her eyes in annoyance, “just please do these quiznaking tests please.”
“Of course, Allura, I’m here to help,” Pidge said, “But before we begin, tell me what’s the last thing you remembered.”
“I was in my room back in the castle, which I noticed we are not in right now, and Coran was there. He told me to rest after I
helped the Balmera with you and the other paladins. I fell to sleep and when I woke up, Shiro was next to me and there was a baby, who is apparently my baby with Shiro,” she explained.
“I see,” Pidge says as they put their hand on their chin, “So you remember our early days as paladins but nothing from after the Balmera event till now.”
“Yes… I guess” Allura responded.
“Okay, well we will take a look at your head and see if there are any changes in your brain. We will run several tests so please bear with us.”
“Okay,” she says. Allura looked around and noticed it was just Coran and Pidge. “By the way, where is Shiro?” she asked. She figured he would be there since they claimed Shiro was so worried about her.
“He went to feed baby Alfor. Also, he figured everything was such a big shock to you that he decided to keep his distance while we figure this out,” said Coran.
“I see,” Allura says. She began to feel bad. ‘In this dream or reality, Shiro may feel like he has lost his wife,’ Allura thought. ‘He probably is having a hard time coping with this as well. Especially with a child in between all this.’
“Don’t worry, Allura,” Romelle said as she placed on hand on her shoulder and smiled at Allura, “we will help you get through this, I promise.”
Allura smiled back, “thank you, Romelle. You have been very helpful.”
“That’s what friends are for! Okay now, let’s get started, shall we?”
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Shiro held his sleepy child on his chest. He was very worried for his wife. It hurt him when she couldn’t remember that they were married and had a child. He brushed Alfor’s hair back as he rests quietly. “It’s okay, Alfor. Mommy would get better and then she will come back and give you a lot of kisses and hugs,” he whispers. “I know how much you love those from mommy.”
“Shiro? Are you okay?” said a voice. Shiro looked up and face a man with long black hair pulled into a ponytail and a scar on his cheek, as well as two other men behind him.
“Yeah, I’m okay, Keith. I’m just very worried about Allura.” Shiro responds.
“Allura is strong, she will get better, I don’t think you should worry too much,” said the tall tan man with short brown hair.
“I know, Lance,” Shiro said with a faint smile.
“I brought Allura her favorite cookies,” said the last man with shoulder length black hair and darker skin, “maybe if she has one of these, she will remember everything again and everything will be back to normal.”
“Thank you, Hunk. I know she will love them very much regardless.”
Hunk placed the wrapped cookies on the coffee table in front of Shiro. They all sit on the couch, Keith and Lance on both sides of Shiro and Alfor and Hunk on the opposite couch.
Lance placed his hand on baby Alfor’s head, “poor little Alfie,” he says, “he doesn’t even know what’s happening.”
“Lance!” Keith whispered loudly, “now is not the best time to say that.”
“Right, sorry Alfie, and Shiro.”
“It’s okay Lance, you’re right. Alfor doesn’t know what’s happening and I don’t what to do when he wants Allura instead. He is a momma’s boy after all.”
“You will get through it, besides no one can’t deny how cute Alfor is,” said Hunk, “she may not remember him, but she will sure fall in love with him just by looking at him!”
“She fainted when she saw him, and I told her he’s our baby,” said Shiro.
“It was just too much to handle,” said Keith, “maybe if she sees him again, she would react better.”
“I hope so,” Shiro says looking down at his son. “I hope she remembers.”
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“This is weird,” said Pidge. “Her brain scan seems fine and all her results are good. I don’t understand.”
“I told you I am alright,” Allura said, “I don’t know what’s going on. Maybe I came to another reality or something. They do exist.”
“Yes princess, you are right about different realities, but it does not make sense. What you said you last remembered is what happened in this reality,” said Coran, “So I don’t think you are from a different reality.”
“This is all confusing,” Allura said. “I guess we can’t do anything about it. Maybe if I fall to sleep, I will be back to where I was.”
“But you fainted, Allura, and you were out for a bit, according to Coran. When you woke up, you were still in this time,” said Pidge, “I don’t think that will work.”
Allura groaned. Pidge was right, maybe it won’t work, and maybe she was stuck in this time.
“We will figure this out, Coran and I,” says Pidge as she looks at Coran, “Coran, do you have any, I don’t know, old Altean information that may help us figure this out. Maybe something the long the lines of Altean health or even weird cases like this.”
“I’m not sure, I’ll begin the search,” he responded, “Princess, maybe you should go back to your room with Romelle and rest, you been through a lot so far. I’ll tell Shiro to keep a distance for a little longer.”
“No, it’s okay. Romelle caught me up on everything. I think I can somewhat deal with what happen now that I know. Besides I have I child, and I don’t think a child should be away from their mother for too long. I know its hurts not to see my own parents,” Allura said. “Don’t worry too much about me Coran. Just research more with Pidge and Romelle will help me out.”
Coran looked at Allura in concerned but knew he could not go against her wishes. “Well… alright Princess, just… just make sure you don’t push yourself.”
Allura gave Coran a faint smile, “I won’t Coran. I won’t faint this time too.”
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Allura walked into the room where Shiro and baby Alfor was. She noticed there were three other people in the same room.
“Hunk? Keith? Lance?” she said. All but Shiro turned to face her. It was them, just older, like Pidge had become.
Lance smiled and shot up from his seat, “Allura! Are you better? Are you okay?” he says as he walked towards Allura. “We heard what happened.”
Lance was about to place his hands on her shoulders, but she backed up before he could. “Yes, Lance, I am okay, thank you. I still don’t remember anything though, sorry.”
He looked at her in concern, “oh well… okay. But they did run test on you like Pidge mentioned, right?”
“Yes, I am healthy, and my scans came out okay, but we still don’t know what’s going on. It’s a mystery,” she said as she looked at Romelle, “but Romelle caught me up with everything, so I have somewhat of an idea what my life has been so far.”
“Oh, at least you know now,” Lance says, “it must have been a shock to you, huh?”
“Yes, it was very shocking,”
“Well, if there’s anything you need help with, we will be here for you, right guys?” Lance said as he turned to face the other.
“Yeah! Don’t worry Allura, you can count on us,” Hunk said as he got up and headed towards Allura as well. “I also made you some of your favorite cookies, I hope you like them because I don’t know if you even remember if they are your favorite cookies.”
Allura gave Hunk a faint smile, “Thank you, Hunk. I’ll try them for sure.”
Just then, she heard small cries coming from Alfor. It seemed like he had woken up, probably from everyone speaking.
“Shh. It’s okay, Alfor,” said Shiro as he rocked the baby back and forth.
Allura walked towards Shiro and Alfor. “May I?” she asked Shiro when she reached him. She held her arms out with a faint smile towards him.
Shiro looked up to her. His beautiful wife whom he has been so worried about. He was devastated that she still did not have her memories, though he was glad she wasn’t as distant as he thought she would be. “Yes, of course,” he said as he placed Alfor into her arms.
Allura held her son close to her chest. “It’s alright, Alfor, mommy is here,” she began, “wow, that is really weird to say.”
Lance, Romelle and Hunk giggled. “It’s going to take some time to get used to,” said Romelle.
Allura sat next to the empty spot next to Shiro where Lance sat before. She rocked the baby back and forth and cooed to him in order to stop him from crying. Alfor slowly began to stop crying slowly and the tears stopped. She smiled at him. He was very adorable. He had bright blue eyes just like she did. There defiantly was no denying that he was her son. He had many features of hers, though, she could see how he also had some of Shiro. ‘Shiro and I’s son, huh?” she thought.
“He’s a momma’s boy,” said Shiro, “He rarely cries when he’s with you.”
Allura looked up at Shiro and smiled. “Is he now? Well I sure hope he is, I birthed him after all,” she joked.
Shiro laughed lightly, “Yes… yes you did.” He reached over to Alfor’s face and wiped away the last tear that was left from crying.
“Okay guys,” said Keith, “let us give them some space to talk, I think there’s a lot Shiro has to catch Allura up on as well.” He got up from the couch and headed towards Lance, Hunk and Romelle. “We will be back in a bit to check up on you guys.”
“Yeah, just call us if you need us,” said Lance. The four headed out of the living room, leaving Allura, Shiro and their child all alone.
They were quiet for a few minutes. They both did not know what to say to each other. Shiro realized he cannot talk to Allura the same way as he did before she had no memory of their relationship. Allura on the other hand, felt awkward. She still couldn’t believe she married Shiro. It’s not that she was not fond of him before, because she actually was. Though, she always refrained herself for thinking about him in a certain way for that she was a princess and him a paladin.
“So, you must be wondering how we got here,’ said Shiro.
“I am still very confused about everything, but yes, I am,” Allura says as she sat up Alfor. “Shiro… I… I am so sorry about how I reacted.”
“Allura, there is no reason for you to be sorry. I should have believed you in the beginning, but I did not want to believe that my wife forgot about me and our child.”
“I know. I must have hurt your feelings, especially since we have a child involved in this.”
Shiro stood silent. He did not want to tell her that it did hurt his feeling. He did not want her to feel bad, especially since she does not know what is going on. His poor wife.
“Look. I promise we can work this out. I don’t want to make this difficult than it already is,” she said, “hopefully I get my memories back.” She still knew that she did not forget her memories, though she did not want to hurt Shiro any more than she already had. She wanted him to feel some kind of reassurance.
“Thank you, Allura. I appreciate that. We will get through this.” he said giving her a faint smile.
“So, Shiro…. how... how did we fall in love.” Her face turned red and she looked back at Alfor. ‘Allura, why did you ask that! Oh, my stars this is embarrassing!’
Shiro faintly blushed as well and rubbed the back of his neck. “Well, when rebuilding on earth, we worked very close together. I began to have feelings for you, I mean I liked you before that, though we were going through so much, I went missing for a while, and you had a relationship with that bastard Lotor and then a relationship with Lance, so I ignored my feelings for a while. But, I also was too shy to tell you and, you also broke up with Lance not to long before that, which I thought maybe it wasn’t right to have those kinds of feelings for you. Though, you ended up confessing to me first a few months after. I didn’t know you felt the same way, but I was glad, and also very surprised,” he laughed softly, “We dated and after about a year, we got married shortly after and have been married for three years already. And then, you had Alfor about seven months ago, almost eight to be exact. You named him in honor of your father.” He brushed Alfor’s white hair back and smiled when Alfor jumped up and down in excitement. “You two are the best thing that has ever happened to me.”
Allura looked at Shiro. “I’m…. I’m glad we found happiness together,” she tells him, “I guess I should thank you for that, even though I cannot remember anything.”
“No, you don’t need to thank me,” he says, “you should never thank me for anything. I should be the one to thank you, Allura.”
They stared into each other’s eyes. It was only for a few seconds, though it felt longer. She was about to respond but then felt little hands hit her chest, along with the sound of laughter. She looked down to face Alfor, who was smiling at her and laughing. She couldn’t help but smile and let out a giggle. He was too cute not to.
“Alfor,” said Shiro, “it’s not nice to hit mommy.”
“It’s okay Shiro,” said Allura. “Alfor just wants to mommy’s attention, isn’t that right, Alfor?” She brought his face towards hers and gave him a few kisses on his cheek. Alfor giggled as she kissed his cheek and grabbed onto her face.
Shiro smiled at his wife and child. Seeing this made him think that everything was okay, that Allura was herself and that they were the happy family they were before. But, he knew deep down that it wasn’t that way. He knew it wasn’t the same. She wasn’t the same Allura.
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Night time came quickly. Shiro caught Allura up on everything she needed to know about Alfor, like his sleep and feeding times. He told her what he eats and what’s the best way to put him to nap. She was okay with everything until it came to putting Alfor to bed at night.
“Breastfeed him? But he was drinking from a bottle before,” Allura says as she tried to calm down a very fussy and tired Alfor. “It’s okay sweetheart, you will get your rest.”
“Yes, he does drink from a bottle, but not at night. He prefers to be breastfed since I guess it’s because he prefers you to be the one to put him to bed at night. Also, at the beginning, you only breastfed him and we’ve slowly got him to get attached to a bottle, though he doesn’t want to get rid of the nightly routine of being breastfed, so we kept that in,” said Shiro.
Allura groaned. She didn’t know what she was doing. Also, she did not want to expose her breast to Shiro in the moment. ‘I know he seen them before. Hell, we are married of course he seen them! But, I don’t have no memory of that, so I don’t want to. That’s weird. I hope he realizes that,’ she thought to herself. ‘Quiznak, I have to do it for Alfor. Suck it up Allura!’
“If you want, I can leave the room and you could breastfeed him. I can get Romelle to come back and help you out if you want. She would come as soon as possible,” he says. He already believed she will be uncomfortable because of their situation, so he did not want to make her feel that way.
“N-no,” she took a deep breath in and closed her eyes, “It’s fine really. She helped me out enough today, I think I could handle this.” She opened her eyes and looked at him.
“Allura, are you sure, I’m sure Romelle wouldn’t mind.”
“Yes, I am,” she reassured him, “I can handle this, I am his mother after all.” She gave him a faint smile then looked down to Alfor who was still very fussy and crying. “Don’t worry, Alfor, mommy will feed you and put you to sleep. I know how tired you are, love.”
“I can leave the room if you want,” he said as he pointed back towards their room door. “Also it’s just best if you breastfeed him on the rocking chair, he likes it.”
“No, it’s fine Shiro, really. I think it’s best to have you around in case I mess up.”
He gave a slight laugh, “you won’t mess up. He will just latch on and fall asleep quickly. Besides, you are a pro at this, I know it.”
“Still, I think I prefer to have you around in case. I don’t trust myself,” she looked at him. He could tell she was nervous, so he made his decision to stay with her until Alfor went to bed.
“Okay, Allura, I’ll stay.” He walked towards her and took the baby out of her arms, “it’s best if you change into your nightgown to feed him, it’s a lot easier for you and more comfortable for him.”
“Oh... okay… I’ll do that.” She began to look through the drawers until she found one and headed to the bathroom. She quickly stripped down the clothes she had on and changed into the nightgown. It was a silk navy blue nightgown and it was pretty short. “This is very… very revealing,” she says to herself, blushing. “Okay, Allura, just ignore that, we have to feed Alfor and put him to bed.” She took a deep breath and exited the bathroom. She ignored Shiro’s stare as she walked towards him and took Alfor out of his arms. He watched her as she walked towards the rocking chair and sits down with Alfor. She began to rock the chair back and forth and Alfor began to slowly stop crying but was still fussy and rubbed his eyes. She took another deep breath and began to pull the right side of her night gown off her shoulder, exposing her breast. She quickly tried to get Alfor to latch on, which he did, and held him close so that he was comfortable and had no trouble feeding. His eyes began to slowly close and Allura signed in relief.
Shiro began to walk towards them. “I told you. You are a pro at this Allura,” he told her as he knelt down beside the rocking chair he patted Alfor’s head and smiled, “He loves when mommy puts him to sleep.”
Allura smiled at Alfor as well. “You were right, he is a momma’s boy.”
“That he is,” Shiro let out a laugh.
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Allura placed sleeping Alfor in his crib. She tucked him in well so that he won’t get cold and kissed his forehead, “Good night, Alfor,” she says before turning to Shiro. “Thank you for the motivation. I really thought I couldn’t do it,” she tells him.
“You don’t need to thank me again, Allura, really, you did all the work anyways,” he says as he also leaned into the crib and placed a kiss on Alfor’s forehead. “Good night, buddy,” he says to sleeping Alfor.
They both stared at their son peacefully sleeping. Allura couldn’t help but smile. He was adorable, and she was actually more comfortable with having Alfor than she had thought before.
Shiro cleared his throat before he spoke. “Allura, I’ll stay in the guest room, you could stay here with Alfor. I know you won’t be comfortable with sharing a bed, so I think it’s best if you stay here with Alfor while I say in another room. And if you need anything, I’ll just be down the hall, it’s just two doors down, you could come and ask me for anything if you need help, I’ll keep the door open.”
“N-no it’s alright, you should stay here,” she says to him, “I don’t want you to be away from Alfor. You would probably be very worried about him knowing he’s not close by.” She did not want to do that to Shiro. Even though she knew she would be embarrassed to share a room with him, it had to be done for Alfor’s sake.
“Are you sure, Allura?” he asked, “Really, it’s not a problem, I promise, I’ll be okay.”
“I’m sure Shiro. Please, stay.”
He stared at her again. His heart ached every time he stared at her. He just wanted to hold and kiss her, but he couldn’t.
“Alright, I’ll stay,” he says, “But, I’ll sleep on the rocking chair, you could have the bed.”
“Shiro, no. That would be very uncomfortable. We could share the bed, it won’t be a problem.”
He got closer to her and put his hand on her arm. He gave her a faint smile, “Allura, I’ll be okay. Don’t worry about me.” He took his hand off her arm, still with a faint smile. “Go ahead and shower first, you must be tired.”
She stared at him before nodding her head. “Okay, I will.”
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She couldn’t sleep knowing Shiro was uncomfortable in that chair. She felt bad, especially since their time together that she knows of, he barely slept, so she believed he defiantly won’t get any sleep in that chair. She had her back towards where he was, though she wanted to turn around and tell him to join her in the bed, though she knew he would protest.
‘Hopefully, when I wake up, I’ll be back in my time,’ she thinks to herself. ‘Shiro would be a lot happier if older me would be here…. I’m sorry Shiro.’