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I never knew that giving life would be so painful. Greg always told me that having a baby is the greatest to ever do, easy for him to since he didn't have to make this womb thing to make our baby. Out of everything that has happened to me these past thousands of years pales in comparison to the pain I feel now; having a sword through my body and poofing, using all of my strength to shield my friends and myself from the Diamonds final attack, all nothing compared to this.
And yet, this is something I'm content with. I'm content with this pain, I'm content with my choice to have this baby with Greg, I'm content with...disappearing. It's honestly what I deserve really my way of giving back to everyone I ever cared about, my suffering and my disappearance will be my payment to them, as Rose Quartz...and as a Diamond.
Everything is bright, really bright. I hear crying, the crying of something small and vulnerable to the world, is this my baby? Do I get to see them?! "Hello...Steven." Steven, oh sweet little Steven my baby boy welcome to Earth! You're going to have a wonderful life here, you'll see so many beautiful things, experience new things, and you'll have a loving family watching over you and caring for you. I can't wait for you to meet them I'm sure they'll love you as much as I do. Right, Greg? Greg? Wait, Greg, why are you crying? I thought you would be happy about this. You said that having a baby is a wonderful thing so...what's wrong? Garnet? Amethyst? Pearl? Why are you all crying?! Why don't you love Steven?! Stop shedding tears for a monster like me and love my baby!
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Snow, I love snow. I remember when I first saw snow on this planet, so white, so fluffy, so much fun! I'm glad you like it Steven and I'm glad to see you crawl and roll around its soft surface. I remember when your father showed me how to make a snow angel, he would flop onto the ground waving his arms back and forth with that beautiful smile on his face. Oh and the snowman our very first snowman together! Greg made the cutest snowmen, always perfect while mine...well they didn't come out so good...and yet, Greg never put me down about it or praise it like it was a masterpiece, he'd say his wonderful catchphrase, "If every pork chop were, we wouldn't have hot dogs." And you're my little hot dog, Steven.
"Having fun little guy?" He sure is, oh I wish I could play him in it, I'll even swim in it like he is now. "Well let's get you inside." Already? Well, humans are sensitive to these elements, I wouldn't want my little hot dog getting sick.
So Steven, do you wanna...wanna...Steven? Steven doesn't look good! Greg, what's happening to him?! Steven don't have your belly out you'll catch a cold! "Does your...gem need to breathe?" His gem needs to...breathe? Is this normal for babies? Maybe I should read those books Greg's friend Vidalia left for him, but it would be impossible to do if I'm in the mind of a baby. Or can babies read? They aren't able to speak yet but then again, Steven is my special little hot dog so...does that mean he can read? I wonder.
They came to see him, my friends came to see Steven, I knew they would grow to love him. I mean, who wouldn't love Steven? He's so cute and bubbly and playful and cute...did I say cute twice? Oh, I can't help it he's just that cute! But more importantly, I have a feeling he's gonna be just like Greg, empathetic, gentle, funny...what did he even see in someone like me? I've lied and hurt so many people, gems and humans alike and yet he saw beyond that. He saw something in this cowardly bratty war criminal that nearly destroyed his home and when I tried to warn him to forget about me, he stayed. When I hurt his feelings he didn't call me and leave like all the other men I've met, he brought me into reality showing me how selfish and wrong I was. It made me wanna tell him everything that I've done, confess to all of the atrocities that caused so much pain for over six thousand years but...he told me that I didn't have to, he said it was all in the past. Oh, Steven, I hope you know that my past will never define you, only you can do that yourself. Even if Homeworld returns in your life just remember that they will not determine who you are, only you do and I want you to know, no matter what, I'll be here with you. And that every moment you love yourself, that is my love for you.
Why are you all doing this? Why are you taking Steven away from Greg? Steven needs to be with Greg! He isn't me! He's himself! He's Steven! I'm gone and I'm never coming back!
"Greg was doing his best up to this point," He is doing his best, "But the situation has changed." No! It hasn't changed! "Steven is clearly a Gem." He's a baby! A normal human baby! Take him back to Greg so he can be human! Pearl turn this van back around before you all do something drastic!
"But it's been so long like months! That's long than when I was a toilet!" Amethyst my baby isn't a toilet! He's naturally like this because that's how humans are! "C'mon Rose! You have to change back!" No! I'm not Rose! Rose is gone! Only Steven! Stop turning from baby to Gem Amethyst he can't shapeshift that's not something humans do! Just accept that I'm not coming back and I never will! It's better this way!
"Hrm! It's so easy why can't she do it?!"
"Because it's not shapeshifting, it's fusion." Really Garnet? Fusion? You and I both know it was impossible for me and Greg to fuse so...wait...is Steven technically a fusion if I had to take part of Greg by...GARNET I DON'T THINK THAT AND FUSION ARE ONE IN THE SAME! "Steven, I understand that Greg is apart of you and you don't want to unfuse in front of him," He can't unfuse because he's not a fusion! 'That would be very rude." How is that rude but not kidnapping?! "But he's not here now," Because you kidnapped him from his daddy! "It's just us, you can take a little break. Here," Garnet? "I will too." Garnet, what are you planning to do? Wait don't tell me you're unfusing?! Garnet don't I don't think he's gonna like- Oh no, now he's crying! Don't cry Steven she's still Garnet just...seperated and...two gems you're unfamiliar with...oh dear I'm sorry Garnet maybe when he's older he'll understand.
Oh thank goodness Pearl stopped the van, "Everyone calm down," yes please calm down everyone, it's gonna be okay. I know you don't understand Steven but- "She just can't reform because she has this...baby around her!" No Pearl I can NEVER reform again, "Rose," Pearl? "I know you're in there." Pearl, what're you doing? "I can let you out." Pearl no! Whatever you're planning don't do it! You'll hurt him! You'll hurt my baby! Don't hurt my Steven! "We'll be..." Pearl! "Together..." Pearl! "Again..." PEARL!!
"...I can't." Pearl? "I can't! She wanted this so much!" I do, "I just...don't understand! Why?!" What isn't there to understand Pearl?! Please tell me! "Everything should grow and everything should change and isn't it so great how it comes so naturally to humans? WELL, IT'S NOT NATURAL FOR US! It's not natural...for me." ...I see, it's not you who doesn't understand...I'm the one who didn't understand. I barely prepared you all for this change and I up and leave you expecting you all to be happy but...I was wrong. I thought that this was an act of kindness I thought...I thought this could be a way for me to do right by all of you and...I didn't. I didn't fully think about how you all would feel only thinking about myself as always. I'm sorry Greg...I'm sorry Crystal Gems...I'm sorry Steven...
"It will be, for him." Garnet? "What about Rose?"
"This isn't about Rose, for now on, everything has to be about Steven." Yes, everything is about Steven. Please, let Steven be your focus and forget about someone like me, he's nothing like me. He's human, he's perfect, he's My Steven.
"I don't know how we're going to figure this out, but, I think we'll have a better shot if we do it together."
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"Steven you wanna play them that song you wrote." Good idea Greg! I'm sure they'll love it! Don't be shy, I think it's a beautiful song, I'm sure they'll love it. "Um..." Oh, it's okay Steven don't be shy, "Come on Steven."
"Yeah! We'll like it, even if it's bad."
"Amethyst! Erm, it's true though." You guys! Steven, if it helps, just know that I'm here with you cheering you on. Will you sing it for them? For me? "...If you're evil and you're on the run
You can count on the four us taking you down
Cause we're good and evil never beats us
We'll win the fight and then go out for pizzas!"
We, are the Crystal Gems
We'll always save the day
And if you think we can't
We'll always find a way
That's why the people of this world, believe in
Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl
And Steven!