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Adoration glistened in Brian's eyes, he was wholeheartedly absorbed in the performance. He looked like a proud parent who's only child had made it into the college of their choice. Pride danced in eyes that were solely focused on the stage, trained on the performers with deadly concentration. Something else swam in Brian's eyes but it couldn't quite be described unless you've ever been in love.
Jae tried to ignore Brian from the stage. His plan failed.
His features just seemed to be enhanced because of the sharp lights surrounding the stage and Jae couldn't pull his eyes away no matter what he tried. His vision was always drawn back to Brian and how he seemed to make casual look so elegant. Messy hair, a week of t-shirt he found on his bedroom floor and a pair of ripped skinny jeans - Brian still seemed to pull it off and leave Jae following him with his eyes everywhere.
It was painful for Jae to live his life from that stage and watch those expressions so in the darkness, when the only light was the violent flashes of strobe lights or when the stage lights were blinding, he could pretend Brian was looking at him with such adoration, such pride, such wonder.
But he would never look at Jae like that. Brian just looked through Jae to Dowoon.
Dowoon, the perfect little drummer boy who could never do any wrong, he was all smiles and silent laughter. Of course Brian was smitten with such a pure, baby angel.
He would never look at Jae like that so Jae just kept playing his guitar, allowing the brief moment the lights took over to pretend Brian was in love with him and not Dowoon.