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CAPTAINS LOG. PRIVATE. DO NOT READ. ITS VERY BORING. NOTHING INTERESTING IN HERE AT ALL.
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Dear diary Hey space journal, I’m on a job with this guy. He’s a smuggler and a gambler too. He’s ok. Nothing special. I mean, I suppose people might describe him as attractive and charming and handsome and funny. But not me.
Dear diary Hey space journal, his name is Lando. He wears capes. (Who wears capes?!) But they suit him. I mean, not that I’ve been thinking AT ALL about how he looks in the capes. And even if I was, there’s nothing strange about noticing that, it’s very normal, we’re on a job together, in close quarters, working together closely. Anyway, the job is going fine. Lando is - fine. Everything’s fine.
Dear diary Hey space journal, is it weird I think about Lando all the time? I had some dreams about him last night. Nothing weird! Just normal…dreams…about normal things. Definitely nothing sexual or anything about how he looks in capes. I bet all smugglers have these sorts of dreams about their partners in crime.
Dear diary Hey space journal, I can’t stop staring at Lando. It’s like my eyes have a mind of their own, it’s like I can’t go five seconds without checking him out looking at him. But I’m being so careful and subtle. No-one knows. I am very smooth.
Dear diary Hey space journal, Chewie says it’s really obvious I’m staring at Lando and also apparently I have this intense look on my face like I’m hungry. << His description. Probably not accurate. What does he know?
Dear diary Hey space journal, caught sight of my reflection while staring at Lando and yup, I look like I’m about to start drooling. (Why didn’t Chewie tell me my mouth was open?) But Lando hasn’t mentioned it so…maybe he hasn’t noticed?
Dear diary Hey space journal, Lando accidentally brushed up against me in the cockpit, no big deal. It’s fine.
Dear diary Hey space journal, actually, it was the best thing ever. He smells so good? And he smiled at me. But I played it cool. He has no idea that I love like him.
Dear diary Hey space journal, Lando knows I love like him AND that I’ve been staring at him. I’m beginning to think I’m not as good at playing it cool as I thought. (I am going to have a serious talk with Chewie because this is the kind of thing he should have told me!) Lando said, “As much as I enjoy you checking me out all the time, are you going to make a move? Or should I?” !!!!!! So, I did, very smoothly. It was so sexy and cool, I definitely did not practically throw myself into his arms or bang my knee against the control panel in the cockpit in the process.
Dear diary Hey space journal, it’s been awhile. I’ve been busy. I mean, Lando and I have been busy. Not on a job though! If you know what I mean! HA! I’m talking about sex. Anyway, Lando is the best and I love him. I’m gonna tell him and it’s going to be so romantic.