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The day I finally killed myself
Is the day I finally found myself
Adrift and so alone
Wondering why the world had kept me
Here and seemed not to let me
Leave for the unknown
Is this purgatory or
Some other afterlife we forged
Unknowing in our haste
Am I doomed to wander now
Forever to reflect how
I ended up in this place
I just wanted some meaning
This is so demeaning
It was supposed to be freeing
But now it’s worse than before
It strikes me at my core
What was all of this even for
It feels like years have gone by
When I see someone I barely recognize
It’s not what I expect
Hollow eyes and bloodied clothes
She knows something I don’t know
She says he can’t be left unchecked
The words don’t belong in that mouth
An explanation I can live without
She offers me a choice
“Come with me, defeat the Prince”
“Discover what your purpose is”
I cannot find my voice
I just wanted some meaning
This is so demeaning
It was supposed to be freeing
But now it’s worse than before
It strikes me at my core
What was all of this even for
An eternity spent alone
Or a purpose that defeats my own
How could I even choose
She promised life, she promised death
She told me she knew what was best
Maybe we’re both fools
But I knew that I had to escape
From this hell I helped create
To inflict my own demise
I laughed until my stomach ached
I cried until I began to shake
How could I be surprised
I just wanted some meaning
This is so demeaning
It was supposed to be freeing
But now it’s worse than before
It strikes me at my core
What was all of this even for
I just had to persist when
I should have given in
To Paradox Space’s whims
But I’ll kill myself once again
And hope my friends can win
Narrative relevance
I just wanted some meaning
This is so demeaning
It was supposed to be freeing
But now it’s worse than before
It strikes me at my core
What was all of this even for