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09.01
September 1st was a particular date for many people. For some, it was the start of a new month, a new season peeking its head and ready to come to replace the current air. For others, it was the day Harry Potter and his friends returned to Hogwarts after a dry and torturous summer without magic (excluding the seniors, of course, who thought they were the coolest for being seventeen and allowed to wave their wands in the air without care). For historians and Europeans, it was the day Germany invaded Poland; leading to the second world war and the many horrendous acts carried out by humans.
For Jeongguk, however, it was none of that. September first, for him, was the day he turned a year older. Not a little wiser or a little taller. Just, older.
People, those who were younger than him, generally, asked him about growing up. There were many inquiries related to how it felt to be a certain age, how the adult world worked and how he managed to balance the many things occurring in his life at the pace he went. But, in all honesty, Jeongguk never knew how to answer these questions. Growing up, gaining one more year, levelling up in the game called life, felt no different to being stuck in the same, good old, place he had always been standing on.
He had felt like this ever since his eighteenth birthday. At heart, he was still a child, an awkward teenager trying to fit in the oversized body of a man. At nineteen, he felt the same way as before. He was Jeon Jeongguk, a young adult now, trying to achieve his dreams in the field of sports, and who was no different to the guy next door. His twentieth year alive, two decades living on Earth now, should have been slightly different. But not really. The only thing that changed was the way he introduced himself, after this date, to new friends and rivals in competitions.
"Hi. I'm Jeongguk. Part of South Korea's taekwondo national team. Twenty. Nice to meet you."
His twenty-first birthday was a repetition of the previous years. Jeongguk, never, felt too weird when it came to gaining one more year. He had a nice career, was doing good with timing (his manager even discussing possibilities for him to go to the Olympics) and lived life as it came. He didn't like to overthink and had faith in the path he was constructing for himself.
For Jeongguk, time was irrelevant. But, for the vast majority, it was a subject to be wary of. People didn't like to age, they didn't want to be closer to their end. Jeongguk, on the other hand, tried to live without fear; with passion, instead.
That was the reason he never made a fuzz over his birthday. That was why he often forgot. If not for his friends and family, Jeongguk would spend his "special day," as they liked to call it, locked in a training room; punching a sad sandbag until he or the opponent collapsed, destroyed.
He was grateful for them, on the one hand, as his loved ones reminded him to live a little and enjoy the youth that would not be coming back. His birthdays, as a result, Jeongguk chose to treat them as tiny holidays. Another day in the year in which he could relax, not think about competitions or medals for once. And it was nice. He got the chance to eat cake, ignore the fact that he would have to hit the gym the next day to burn the fat, and be the young boy that he still was.
But when it came to who he was, Jeongguk was still the same boy. Maybe a little more experienced, in some ways. A little bit more mature, his parents would say. Yet, the athlete just felt like himself. Age did not define him; strange for the culture in which he had been born.
Nevertheless, Jeongguk had never been good at fitting in. He did his own thing; one of the elements in him that had attracted the man hovering over him.
"Ggukie," he whispered, the man, nuzzling the athlete's hair with adoration and affection. His words were warm, just like the breaths falling from his mouth; the gentle blow of a heater in mid-winter. Jeongguk hummed, lost in his head, not quite there, "Wake up, love."
"Don't wanna," Jeongguk whispered, wrapping his arms around the man's neck and pulling him in. Their weights combined. They became one on top of the mattress, "I would rather spend my time in bed with you, hyung."
"Come on" the elder tried to persuade as he left kisses on Jeongguk's cheek, his hands stopping on his hips, massaging his defined curves, "Don't you want to see your friends? They've been missing you like crazy."
"I know. I missed them too," the young man yawned. His eyes remained shut, "But it's been a long week and I've missed you more."
Although Jeongguk lived with his boyfriend and saw him daily, they have not been able to spend long hours with each other throughout the whole week. It was a busy time for Jeongguk. The new championship season for taekwondo would begin at the start of autumn. And Yoongi, his partner, the man kissing his nose and eyes in an attempt to wake him up, had also been occupied with his job. He was a piano instructor, working privately for students coming from prestigious homes and schools. He was high in demand, the winner of so many medals in his childhood and early twenties. Every student he took under his wing became as successful as they could have ever been. He had a magical touch. Every mother in the country wanted him sitting next to their child.
Sometimes, Jeongguk thought it was funny how he got Min Yoongi, acclaimed pianist and artist, all by himself every night.
"I've missed you too. You have no idea how much," Yoongi kissed the younger's forehead, a little seed of love and comfort being planted there. Jeongguk smiled, finally opening his eyes.
They have started dating long ago, when neither knew what life would bring them in a future ahead of the two. They had been children when they met, twelve and sixteen; odd age to become friends. In the beginning, however, it had been complicated. They hadn't clicked instantly.
Their parents were friends, their mothers in particular; ever since high school. They had been separated when both chose to go to different universities. Jeongguk's mum went North, to Seoul, where she later met Jeongguk's dad and formed a family at the age of thirty-two. Yoongi's mum stayed in Daegu, leading her own story, until she was transferred to the capital city due to work. That was when the families reunited and their younger sons were introduced to one another.
In the beginning, Jeongguk had known that he annoyed Yoongi. Like any other curious twelve-year-old, he followed the older and much cooler boy around like a lap dog. If they met at the Min's residency, Jeongguk sneaked into his room and patiently waited for Yoongi to start talking to him (or, the least he could do, invite him to play with his gaming console). When they met at the Jeon's home, Jeongguk begged the elder to watch tv with him (anime, commonly) or to show him tricks with his skateboard. Because Yoongi was one of those kids, the type of teenager who skated to school, skipped class when he was bored, and did not care about anything but the music in his ears or his part-time job (at the restaurant that belonged to one of his friend's family).
Eventually, they started to get along, even if it cost Yoongi half of his sanity. But, as the years passed and Jeongguk went through highschool whilst Yoongi suffered at university, things started to shift. Slowly and gradually, Jeongguk became a well-rounded, kind and handsome young man. Even if he was still the kid that called Yoongi every night, beginning him to help him with maths, there were changes in the air surrounding him. Those were the years in which Jeongguk had started to take his sport seriously too, considering making a career out of it; training more than required in every spare second he had.
And Yoongi couldn't help but start seeing him differently.
Their hangouts remained casual and friendly, as they met constantly on the weekends or when their parents chose to go somewhere. But Yoongi, he confessed when they began to date (a few days after Jeongguk's eighteenth birthday), had felt a little nervous and clueless those times.
Jeongguk thought it was cute. Yoongi, in general, was just so cute.
"Let's stay in bed, then. Yes, hyungie?" the younger man asked, smiling when his boyfriend helped him clean the sleepy-dust off his eyes.
"I already promised Jimin that we would be there."
Jimin, one of his childhood friends, had organised a dinner as a way to celebrate Jeongguk's birthday. A group of friends was supposed to meet them at their favourite restaurant, the one they used to visit every day after school when all were a little younger.
"But that's in the evening. We still have time."
"Hmm..." Yoongi did not sound convinced. He caressed Jeongguk's cheek as the younger man slid his arms down the elder's body, wrapping them around his back, "I don't know about that. You take a while to get ready, and it's already twelve."
"Already? Why didn't you wake me up before?" Jeongguk's eyes were wide, the same size as apples sitting on a fruit bowl; beginning to be held and watched.
"You trained all day yesterday. You looked tired. I wanted to let you rest," little kisses were given to the younger's cheek, fluttering like butterfly wings. It tickled him, "My big baby... You're working so hard."
"Not," Jeongguk began to giggle, his neck under the attack of slippery fingers. He was ticklish, his neck was one of the most sensitive parts of his body, "Baby. Turning, hah," a smile, "Twenty-two."
"I thought you didn't care about age," Yoongi smiled against his hair, black and long, curling around his eyes and cheeks. His fingers came to a gentle stop, like when they are concluding a rapid piece on the piano's keyboard.
Jeongguk finished off with a few more giggles.
"I don't," he admitted, skin glowing like melting ice, "But I, at least, acknowledge that I'm no longer a child."
"You're not," Yoongi knew, even when it was difficult to completely erase the image he had of Jeongguk when he was still so young. He had grown well, became a brilliant boy, not afraid to chase after everything he wanted in life, "You're a beautiful young man. You've grown well, and I'm so proud of you, Gguk," the smile Yoongi dedicated him was brighter than any sun, "Happy birthday."
They shared a slow kiss, Yoongi taking advantage of the easy morning to cherish that pair of cherry lips he adored with all his existence. They were soft, tasted like shea butter, and were so Jeongguk; plump, tender, lovely, wild, fun. The younger closed his eyes again, grabbing Yoongi by the nape, and pulled him closer and closer; until their scents, pine and flowers were one and helped the rest of the forest to flourish under the warm smile of the sky and nourishing bed of the Earth.
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A few hours later, once Yoongi managed to push Jeongguk off the bed and had served them lunch, the couple sat on the sofa in the living room, as they prepared to go out later in the evening. Jeongguk's back was pressed against the sofa's arm. His legs were stretched and his feet rested on Yoongi's lap.
Jeongguk scrolled through his phone, responding to dozens of messages, which continued coming in with every second, that his friends, family and acquaintances had sent him. Most of them wished him a happy day. Others, the minority, were informing him of discounts from his favourite shops. There were multiple sales, he noticed, making a mental note to go shopping before the season changed.
As he giggled at his phone and typed "thank you!" a billion times, Yoongi worked silently at the other end of the sofa. He had a nail polish container in his large hand, trying to be as careful as he could while coating Jeongguk's nails with the thick dye. Black, his nails became; matching the ones over the tip of his fingers.
The tv they had in front of them was, softly, showing a live piano concerto, taking place somewhere in Europe. If Jeongguk remembered clearly, they were broadcasting the competition from Germany. But he had not been paying attention. Instead, he had focused solely on the music. A sonata, if his untrained ears could guess correctly.
Occasionally, Yoongi would look up, watch the tv, and make a comment or two. Most of these were observations; at times, praises to the pianists. Other times, he made a face, scrunched his nose as if he had smelled something unpleasant, and shook his head; not saying anything, letting the rest of him speak for himself.
Jeongguk just smiled at him, even if Yoongi did not notice the soft eyes and fluttering heart directed to him. He often didn't when he was too focused on music. She was Jeongguk's greatest rival.
"There you go," Yoongi patted the younger man's feet before giving them a small kiss, raising them in the air, close to his mouth, "You're all done."
Jeongguk grinned, observing the shiny, dark and alluring shade of his nails; attracting mysteries and whispers like a cat that walks during the night.
"Thank you," he said, pushing himself forwards and kissing the elder's cheek with a loud, "Mwah."
Yoongi laughed, quietly, breathy and short, before returning the kiss, too. His, in comparison, was less loud, more Yoongi; serene, tranquil, when he wasn't put in a loud mood by his friends and alcohol. The athlete was sure he would see his boyfriend's loudest and most care-free side, later, that evening.
"My pleasure," he said, inviting Jeongguk to come closer with a hand gesture. Jeongguk complied, pushing his legs to the other side of the sofa, where his back had previously been, and putting his head on the elder's lap instead. He smiled up at Yoongi taking a hold of his left hand, while the elder put his right on top of the younger's head. He started to play with Jeongguk's hair, fluffy and curly, part of it covering his right eyes; a pretty veil covering the beauty hiding behind. Yoongi pushed that section of hair to the side, smiling when the lock didn't return to its old place. Although he adored Jeongguk's hair, he loved to see his face even more, "Pretty."
"Hmm?" Jeongguk questioned, a little taken-back. He was de-stressing under his boyfriend's touch. This week had been rough. It had mainly consisted of waking up at four every morning, to go for a jog or swim, before attending practice with his team.
"You look pretty," Yoongi repeated, curling his index finger with a stripe of thick, soft, hair. He coiled it until it could no longer be spun, when it became stiff and robust. He released it after that, letting it unwind by itself, before running his fingers through the dark hair to smooth out the knots he had created while he played. Jeongguk let him, enjoying the feeling of Yoongi's fingertips against his scalp every time he used his hand as a comb, taking the shape of a gardening fork.
"Aren't I always pretty?" he teased, a sly smile on his lips. Yoongi rolled his eyes, playfully. But he did not deny anything.
"You look extremely pretty today," the elder chose to correct himself.
"That's probably because hyung is taking care of me," Jeongguk smiled again. This time, it was a kind, genuine, grateful beam. Yoongi's heart felt lighter the moment his eyes fell on it. His face felt warm.
"Cutie," he poked Jeongguk's nose, making the younger one giggle. He continued to massage his scalp, "Your hair is getting so long. Are you aware?"
"I am," he nodded, placing their connected hands against his chest. It was a small habit of his. He often did it when he felt calm, tranquil, lost in a realm of clouds and mist (smelling like citrus winds and herbs). He sighed, dreamily, feeling all nice, "I need to tie it when I'm training. Otherwise, it gets into my eyes."
"Oh," Yoongi raised an eyebrow, "Is it long enough for a bun?"
"Not yet," he smiled, gentle, sleepy (forgetting he had rested for more than ten hours, earlier), "But I'm aiming for that."
Yoongi nodded, gently tugging a section of hair to annoy Jeongguk. But the young man didn't mind. It didn't hurt and he adored when his boyfriend was in a jolly and lively mood. It gave him energy, made him want to dance.
"What about a ponytail?"
"A small one, yeah" Jeongguk shrugged, "Why?"
"No particular reason," Yoongi said back, "I'm just curious. I bet you would like nice."
"Just nice?" the younger man teased again, suggestively wiggling his eyebrows. Yoongi laughed, shaking his head.
"Handsome," he sighed, tracing the shape of Jeongguk's face with his fingers, "Hot."
"Ah," there it was, what Jeongguk had wanted to hear for a while.
He had attempted to grow his hair, originally, out of curiosity. He had always thought about how his whole image would change if he let his hair elongate a bit. But, as time moved on and the neat cut he was used to wearing transformed into an untamable mess, he began to notice that he wasn't the only one being affected by the new style. Yoongi, he observed, had also taken a liking on the new look. He caught his boyfriend staring at times; when he stepped out of the shower, when he combed his hair, or when he ran from one place to another, searching for his bag, his curls all over his face, when he was already late.
But he did not only do this, to watch silently. Yoongi also liked to run his fingers through it, feel the silky texture and tug it. He did this when they cuddled, when he tried to focus on a book and Jeongguk laid his head on his shoulder, when they chatted with friends and sat next to the other, when they were being more intimate, when Jeongguk told him about his day... He couldn't keep his hands to himself.
It was entertaining, Jeongguk couldn't deny.
"What?"
"Nothing," the birthday boy laughed, a little nervous, a little bright.
Yoongi, in turn, squinted his eyes. He knew when to trust, and when to doubt, the boy in his lap. But he let it slide, a common thing when it came, without exaggerating, to the love of his life. He stuck his tongue out instead, earning a giggle from him, and continued to pet the soft hair.
"Let's do something today," the elder offered minutes later, "Before we have to go join the others for dinner."
"Oh? You want to go out? Actually?" Jeongguk questioned, quite surprised. Yoong was the type of person to prefer to stay inside, as well as him. They liked to do everything they could from the comfort of their living room. Shopping? The internet. Food? Delivery. It was usually like this for them.
"Yeah. It's been a while since our last date."
But there were days in which both became too sick of being between walls. These were rare occasions, but occurred at times; the wild moments when a change of scenery, fresh air, was required to survive.
"Do we have time?"
Yoongi checked his phone.
"A couple of hours. If we get changed, then, we could just go directly to the restaurant after our date."
Jeongguk liked the sound of that.
"Okay," a grin, "Do you have any plans?"
"No."
And those were the starts of the best of times.
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Jeongguk's laughter resonated in the car. The men were sitting side by side, as one drove and the other one sang. If it had been any other day, Yoongi would have been the one behind the wheel while Jeongguk would have opted to have a karaoke session next to him. Today, however, the roles were inverted.
Yoongi was the one screaming. Jeongguk was the one in charge of the car.
"Hyung," the younger man laughed, physically wincing when Yoongi failed to hit the highest note someone could ever produce. He couldn't stop shaking, out of breath, desperate for a strong drink of oxygen. His boyfriend was funny when in a good mood. It was contagious, sticky, nice. He could listen to this song for eternity, "Your vocal cords are going to snap if you keep singing."
"Thanks, baby," the elder said, voice thick with gentle sarcasm, as he hit the younger's shoulder and lowered the volume of the radio. They were getting closer to their destination, either way.
"No. No. You were good," Jeongguk tried to hide his giggles, but could not. Yoongi just scoffed, moving his hand to the other's hair, and pulled, "Oww, hyungie."
Jeongguk whimpered – this time having hurt a little – and massaged the spot on his head that had been abused. It hadn't been too harsh, the tug, nor had it been too painful. It had caught him off-guard, yes. But Jeongguk enjoyed exaggerating his reactions. The ones he received from the elder, in return, were priceless; especially when he pretended to be in more pain than in which he was.
But Yoongi seemed to have other thoughts in his head, that day. He was in a more flirtatious mood.
"Sexy. But keep your whines for later, baby."
"Hyung!" Jeongguk's grip on the steering wheel strengthened. His knuckles turned white, almost translucent; like a mountain's springs in the daylight. Now, it was Yoongi's turn to laugh. He smirked, squeezing the younger's thigh, making him jump nervously in his seat. It wasn't that they weren't familiar with the feeling of each other's bodies, engulfed by the dimmed lights of their bedroom in the late and jazzy hours of the night. But Jeongguk was shyer when it came to this subject, even if he loved to tease and seduce through his quiet tactics; like a lady at the local, loud, club. The queen of hearts, "I'm going to crash the car."
The elder, not caring about a single threat that left those pair of lips, leaned over the handbrake and left a sweet kiss on the younger's cheek. Then, another one landed on his neck.
"You're cute."
"You're evil."
Jeongguk turned to the right, the image of an old cinema came to view.
"Love you too."
Once they got out of the parked car, the couple decided to walk towards the building. It was an old theatre, years of joy and sadness reflected on its yellowing, paper, walls. It was smaller in comparison to other places, to popular chains. From the outside, the building looked like a crown; the favourite accessory of a monarch. The name of the cinema sat over the wide letter board that stretched from one side of the building to the other. It looked a little like the rings of Saturn. Less sharp, less extravagant. But salient and eye-catching, in all ways possible.
The ticket office was located outside, in the middle of two wide doors; acting like mouths that led to the stomach of a monster. These were white, as solid as chalk. Over their heads, the couple getting closer to the transparent box (where a bored worker tried not to fall asleep), it was possible to see lights attached to a dusting ceiling. At night, they looked like fireflies that refused to begin their flight. During the day, the lightbulbs looked like hopeless spirits, waiting any minute to be set free, allowed to fly high and never turn back.
It was a sad sight. But Jeongguk adored it with his whole heart.
"I'm surprised it's still in business," the younger of the two said, observing his surroundings with astonishment and awe.
Apart from them, not many people could be seen around. They were in a quieter place in the city. The only commerce apart from the movie's was a tiny cafe at the end of the street and a pair of hair salons placed here and there. Most of the people who walked around, with their dogs or children, were residents of the area.
Jeongguk had missed this place.
"Yeah. I expected to see it close. It's been a few years since our last visit," Yoongi recalled, grabbing the tickets the unbothered employee had tossed him after paying for them. The elder held in a sigh, not wanting to say anything for the sake of the unmotivated guy, "Thanks. Let's go, Gguk."
The inside was the same. Red, bright, taken from an old movie; enough to be considered vintage. The lamps that hung from the walls looked like the type of decoration that his grandmother would have chosen for her home if she had lived in the United States in the 60s. The floor was carpeted, patterned. It looked like chocolate. Some seats, blue benches, could be found against the walls as well; providing relaxation to customers who could not hold by themselves all the food they had purchased in the food corner. The air smelled like buttery popcorn.
"This place brings me so many memories," Jeongguk said, intertwining his hand with Yoongi's as they paced around the first floor (there were two).
A few children could be spotted running around the halls, waiting to be allowed into their rooms as their parents watched. A group of elderly people had gathered close to the entrance, chatting and sipping on water. The worker behind the food counter nodded once at Jeongguk when he smiled sympathetically at him. He was wiping away the remains of a slushie that had fallen on the register. A rude teenager (laughing at the distance with a group of friends) had been the cause of this incident.
"Yeah?" Yoongi asked, leading him towards the stairs. Jeongguk followed, hand in hand, making him think about the early days in which he used to do the same thing; imitate each of Yoongi's steps. In a way, he still did. But now no longer behind but next to him, "Me too."
The younger man smiled, gently; his eyes lighting up countless moons in the universe.
"Do you still remember our first date?"
"When I brought you here to watch a scary movie, hoping you would cling to me, but being the one who hid instead?" Yoongi tilted his head, receiving a nod and more giggles, "I do."
"I also do," Jeongguk's skin shone like honey when added to a warm cup of tea before dinner, "You were cute. I had to hold your hand so you would stop trembling."
"The movie was horrible."
"It wasn't that bad," Jeongguk argued, "It followed the classic, repetitive, trope of most horror movies. The protagonist moved into a new house, found a cursed amulet, and was haunted by the memory of the last owner of the charm until he was driven to insanity. It was nothing innovative. I got a little bored. You, hiding your face in my neck, was more amusing."
The elder gasped, squeezing the younger's hand a little tighter.
"You're a monster," grey hair, Yoongi tended to dye his locks, flew all over his face as the elder shook his head. Jeongguk giggled.
They stopped in front of a room with a silver 9 attached to it. The sign was slightly crooked, Jeongguk thinking that it would fall soon. But he ignored this feeling, pushing the door open, and kissing Yoongi's cheek the moment they were greeted by dim lights.
"Are you sure they're going to play a movie in this room?" he asked as they continued to walk. The screen was turned off and when they reached the stairs, to go up, they saw no-one else in there.
"The ticket says so."
"You sure it wasn't a six?" Yoongi laughed, shaking his head and passing one of the tickets to the curious man.
"No. A nine," they took the seats in the middle of the room, the best view. The place itself was quite small, not many red chairs available for people to claim for a few hours as the reels roll.
"Better for us, then," Jeongguk smiled, a secret joke, mischievous yet soft, passing through his eyes and landing on Yoongi's sharper orbs. When they were comfortable on their seat, he leaned closer, sending a flying kiss to the elder; lips caressing the air and close to the other's mouth. But they did not touch.
Yoongi, as a response, closed the gap between the two and left a chaste peck on the younger's plump rose. Jeongguk smiled with his eyes, then; wrinkling them so much that he had to close them. Even the lines next to his mouth deepened. They looked like the trenches at the bottom of the sea, putting out of sight many puzzles and secrets underneath the skin.
"I love you, hyung," Jeongguk said, quietly, rubbing his nose against the tip of his boyfriend's round nose, "You make me the happiest boy in the universe."
Yoongi smiled, grinning like a fool, and united their lips again in a longer and deeper smooch. It later transformed into a proper kiss. They closed their eyes, letting the cool air of the room soothe their nervous heartbeats, as they got lost in each other. Jeongguk placed his hands on Yoongi's face, cupping his cheeks, scared that he would be blown away like ashes and brown leaves if he let go of him. Yoongi, on the other hand, hooked his fingers with the younger's hair, massaging his nape and loving him all with the simplest touch.
In the background, the movie started playing; introducing the opening scene with a simple tune. Jeongguk listened to it but blocked the sounds of the voices, narrators, that tried to tell a tale of two lovers. At this point, romance in movies was nothing more than other stories. He no longer wished to fill a void, once upon a time filled with illusions and misunderstanding, with cinematic aesthetics. He wanted reality, the crude and slow process that was the art of cultivating love.
He already had his own story, his lover; staring at him as if he was his whole world. He was, in some ways. And Yoongi was, too, to Jeongguk.
Maybe birthdays weren't such a big deal. Maybe twenty-two wouldn't be different to twenty-one, nineteen or twenty-three. Yet, each number felt slightly more special, if he looked back at all the years that had passed him by like a bullet train; eager to reach its final destination. And this wasn't because he was growing taller or wiser with every rushing numbers. Life wasn't special just because he got to live longer.
The things he saw, the people he met, the experiences he obtained from the activities he did, all gave him a bigger purpose. He could be happy because of the friends that waited for him, not at a restaurant but at home, as they prepared a surprise party during the show. He could be happy and feel special not only because of his successes. He could love life because of the people in it, because of the man in front of him; his eternal partner, his life-long companion.
Jeongguk had changed his mind.
Perhaps growing old was not extraordinary or exceptional. Perhaps birthdays weren't special. However, there was something about the number 22 that made life a little more magical. It felt great to be young, to be in love, to live with the other pair of that single "two."
He wasn't scared of anything because he had found the man with who he wanted a forever. And just like two swans that mate for life, a twenty-two in disguise, he hoped to swim with Yoongi for eternity in this lake called life.
("Happy birthday, my love."
"It's happy because of you.")