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Sam loved the light; in the light the vision of Jess's burning body clinging to the ceiling is only a vague memory. Instead of the constant nightmare that was guilt plaguing him every time he closed his eyes. In the light he saw Dean, his big brother, his hero. In the dark he saw Dean, his big brother, his hero being clawed and gutted by hell hounds as he is stuck able to do nothing but watch in horror as the last of his family is taken from him. In the dark Sam blames himself for the death of his brother, mother, and father, him being the "chosen one" and all. In the light Sam forgets the hurt he has inflicted on people thinking he was in the right, and in the light Sammy can truly learn to live.