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"Do you want to come home with me?", asks Nico with a shy tone, scratching his head, "I know it was a long day, and you must be tired..".
"I am tired" says Levi, "but I want to be with you" they both look at each other and smile.
"No shame spiraling?", asks Nico looking at him with an eye closed and a worried smile.
"No shame spiraling", answers Levi with a calm and sure tone, and then smiles, "I feel great, I feel very, very great."
"Ok, let’s go", says Nico guiding him to his car.
During the drive, Levi looks out of the window. He starts getting nervous about going to Nico’s house and what could it mean. He knows he likes him, but he also knows he is not ready. Nico keeps looking at Levi with a worried look. He remembers how scared and unprepared he felt the first time he went home with a man. He doesn’t want Levi to be worried, but he is also not very good with words. He smiles to himself thinking how Levi IS the one that is good with words. How Levi probably would know the perfect words to say to calm someone down in this situation. Nico has many feelings floating in his stomach. He is scared of falling for Levi, and that he is not ready for that yet. He is scared of doing something wrong and scaring Levi off. He sees something on the intern. He would like to keep exploring and seeing where it takes them.
Finally, Nico decides to put a hand on Levi’s thigh. In return, Levi squeezes him and rests his on top of Nico’s for the rest of the trip.
Now they are sitting at the pristine white couch on Nico’s apartment. Levi is looking everywhere while he sneaks some looks at the fellow’s directions. Nico is staring at him with a smile.
"Come on, tell me, what are you scared of?"
"Nothing", Levi quickly replies adjusting his spare glasses. This pair doesn’t feel as comfortable as the ones that got ruined on the wind storm.
"Yes you are! What do you think? That I’m just going to jump your bones? Make you my sex slave? Have an orgy right now?", Nico says putting his hands in the air and laughing.
"No, I know that is not going to happen, I’m just...", he stares at the floor.
"You’re just what?" Nico looks at him worried. Silence. Nico is really worried now. "Let me take you home, I think this was a bad idea."
"No", he quickly replies, "no, no, no. Look, Nico, I’m worried that this feels normal, even though it hasn’t been the norm for me. I’m worried that I’m having lots of feelings right now, and some of them are about relief and some of them are about fear. I’m scared of having wasted 20 years of my life. I’m scared of being scared right now when everything is starting to fall into place. Also..." there is silence again.
"What? Keep going!"
"I’m scared of being bad at... this, being too clumsy, and you not liking me."
"I wouldn’t worry about that...", Nico answers with a smile.
"And, well, I’m scared of feeling physical pain and not liking... it."
"Well, I wouldn’t worry about that either. Mostly because nothing apart from watching a movie, cuddling, and kissing is happening tonight."
"Oh", says Levi looking embarrassed.
"Ok what do you want to watch?" he stands up quickly from the couch, gives a quick kiss to Levi on the cheek, and heads towards a white slim closet behind the TV, "I’ve got some options." He says opening the door and showing what looks like thousands of DVDs.
Levi heads towards the closet and before he starts looking through the movies, he stands in front of Nico and looks up at him. He grabs the back of Nico’s head and kisses him passionately while stroking his hair. Then he pulls away, and while both men are still with their eyes closed due to their chemistry still floating in the air, he says “Thank you”. Then he turns towards the closet and starts looking at the movies.
"Oh my god, you are a nerd!" Levi laughs and looks at Nico who is scratching his head and smiling, "You are a closeted nerd!" Levi touches the DVDs "All of the Star Wars movies, every episode ever made of Stark Trek, Firefly, even Moon! My friend, you are a true nerd! I can’t believe you are a closeted nerd. Are YOU going to shame spiral on ME?"
Now they both laugh and look at each other with confidence and the calm of two people that feel comfortable with each other.
"So what? I have a slight fascination with space movies and shows." Nico says using the “I’m offended” tone.
"Call it whatever you want, nerd. But remember Nerd knows Nerd." They both laugh again. "Let’s watch Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones."
"Are you serious? - Nico raises his hands and acts offended "That’s the worst one on the entire saga, you are a really crappy nerd!"
"A test, it was, and passed, you did, little Padawan." Levi says imitating Joda. Nico finally puts his hands down and smiles big "Alright, let’s watch Empire Strikes Back."
"That’s what I’m talking about!" Nico says. He looks excited while he prepares the DVD and then leaves the room to grab some snacks.
By the end of the movie, Levi is resting his head on Nico’s lap and he is falling asleep.
"It’s late. Would you like to sleep here?"
"Hmmm, yeah, sure, yeah..." Levi answers jumping up and standing in front of the couch nervously.
Nico goes to his room and makes a signal for Levi to follow. He hands him some pajamas and a toothbrush. Then he proceeds to brush his own teeth on his pajama bottoms and no shirt on.
Finally, they get in bed. Levi is too nervous and excited. He starts feeling a boner coming and he tries to hide it. He feels uncomfortable and inadequate.
"Are you ok?", Nico turns to face him.
"Yeah, yeah... I’m ok." He says pushing his butt back to hide his erection.
"What’s going on? You don’t want to be here, do you?", Nico looks worried.
"I do, I do", Levi is getting worried now that he hurt Nico’s feelings. "It’s just... Well... You see... I..."
"You know you can tell me if you don’t want to be here... I can drive you home now." Nico starts to get up from the bed.
"No" says Levi grabbing his arm, "aaaah, ok, the truth is I’m embarrassed because I’m hard..."
"Oh, what are you embarrassed about?", replies Nico with a surprised look.
"Well we are just here, and you are wearing just your pajama bottoms, no shirt, and, and, well, you look like that", Levi says closing his eyes and pointing at Nico, "and I just got hard and it won’t go away." Levi buries his face on his hands.
"So, you’re embarrassed because you think I’m going to feel bad that you find me attractive? Let me get this straight, you are ashamed because you are having a physical reaction to the chemistry that we are BOTH feeling?", Nico asks smiling.
"Well, when you say it like that... it sounds pretty stupid..."
"Well, I wouldn’t feel bad about that...", says Nico grabbing Levi’s hand, and moving it towards him, "it happens to the best of us....", he continues while he places Levi’s hand on top of his own hard penis.
"Oh" , says Levi blushing.
"Yeah... like I said" he grabs his hand again and places it back on Levi’s thigh, "it happens to men when we find someone attractive."
"You find me attractive?", Levi says looking down at the sheets.
"Very. Much. So", Nico says pausing between each word and grabbing Levi’s chin, making him look up "And now, let’s sleep." He gives Levi a quick kiss on the lips and turns off the light. - good night Little Padawan.
"Good night, Master Jedi", he answers back smiling.