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“All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I'm getting so tired and so old
The anger swells in my guts
And I won't feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cos I need you to look into mine”
-Snow Patrol, Open Your Eyes
“Sometimes life isn’t for everyone.”
One action can change your entire life. As it did for me. I chose to take a chance, I chose to accept a new way of life, and this changed me for the better in so many ways. I chose to share a dorm, I chose to study Drama and Art, I chose to walk into a room at the right time.
I chose to be friends with the guy with the freckles.
But, above all, I chose to love him.
Mind you, it wasn’t an easy choice -no. It meant I had to open up to him, show him the real me. He accepted me, but him finding out about my past meant he had to work his way into my future.
I went through my high-school life with no friends. I was unable to talk to anyone. I didn’t trust any of the people at school, besides… they all saw me as the douche-bag I was. But that wasn’t the problem.
If you got bullied at high school, it was always safe to talk to your parents about it. But I couldn’t. The bullies were my parents. Nobody knew much about it, but the guy with the freckles understood everything.
This is the story of me, Jean Kirschtein. Well, it isn’t a story. It is more like a collection of memories, that all slip into one another and lead up to the happy disaster that was my college life.
The one part of college that would always stay with me is the presence of the boy that understood. I wouldn’t be alive right now if it wasn’t for him, literally. He has helped me. He has kept me alive.
He was the one that made me realise that life isn’t about living up to your parents expectations. He was the one that taught me that I can lead my own life, and I can damn well do what I want.
One moment can change your life. That moment, was when the boy with the freckles stepped into my dorm room.