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“Uhm. Hi, guys. Girls. Nonbinary… pals.”
<camera is set up so it overlooks a soft-brown wooden table. A single piece of white paper rests upon it, along with a white eraser and three different pencils: one graphite, one charcoal, and one colored brown. A creamy snow-white hand reaches for the graphite pencil.>
“Sorry. I’d think that after a full year of this I’d finally know how to make an intro to a video.” < A soft laugh is heard.> “Guess not. Whatever. You guys are here for the art, not the introduction, right?” <Another laugh, this one sounding more hesitant. Not that many of the viewers will notice.>
“For some reason, you guys have been begging for a Q&A. I’ve been putting it off for a while, so you guys don’t find out how downright boring I am, but… you guys always come first, so. I asked on Twitter for questions, and Jesus are you guys creative.” <Sugawara draws a thin circle near the top of the paper, layering it faintly a few times before starting to make what looks like a sharp jaw.>
“I’ll address the very first question I got, which I suppose shouldn’t have made me choke on thin air but did . So. @OikawaFangirLl, yeah , I’m gay . How you could tell from my fucking hand and a few drawings is beyond me, but whatever. And nice username.” <Despite the sarcastic words, a smile is clearly heard in his voice as he continues his sketch.>
“I don’t know how many people genuinely care about this answer, but I love it when people ask and I love answering it, so: @Ravioli_pheonix asked how I got into art.” <Sugawara absent-mindedly draws a bold-lined heart on the corner of the paper. He adds a few more before continuing to outline the now clearly male body. The man is tall and slender, so far.>
“So, ah, I was never really artistically inclined. Or anything inclined, really. I studied for good grades, practiced to have a good technique for volleyball, shit like that. Practice makes perfect, not just natural talent. Which I did not and do not have. Nothing about my talent is, well, natural. It’s practiced. I’m repeating words a lot, sorry.” <A forced chuckle is heard as a loose open jacket is added to the male figure drawn>
“Anyways, one day, I was probably 12 or something, I was scrolling through my youtube feed, and a quick-paint of my favorite volleyball player was in my suggested. So, I clicked, and I fell in love. With the art! Not the volleyball- ugh. I swear, even I don’t understand how I’m a Japanese major. I can’t- words . I can’t do words.
“The artist captured emotion so perfectly, the determination in his eyes, the pride in his posture. I remember thinking: I want to do that. I want to make people feel what my.drawing is feeling. If that makes any sense. So I practiced all night, all day. My suggested videos turned to shit, everything was art tips. Then, four years later, I picked up watercolor. Now, six years after that, I think I’m a pretty decent artist. So, uh yeah. Was that answer too long and boring? I tried to keep it short.” <Tight jeans that are riddled with holes are added to the faceless male. The pale hand in view of the camera is shaking ever so slightly.>
“Uh. Next. Ugh, this is why I don’t do videos like this, how do you do a Q&A? @brokenpromises420 asked if I live alone, @Tylerjosephismydaddy asked if I’ve drawn or painted myself in a video, and @friccmealredy asked if my painting of the chained boy covered with flowers meant anything, and if so what.
“No, I don’t live alone, actually.” <Once again, a smile is undeniably present in his voice.> “I live with my best friend and his boyfriend-”
”We’re not FUCKING dating-” <A bleep covers up the use of Sugawara’s name in the unexpected shout. The unfamiliar voice is deep and rough.> “If you don’t cut that out, you can’t cut this out either!” <Sugawara laughs, a loud genuine laugh, and shouts back. His hand is no longer in view of the camera.>
“Yeah, yeah, whatever. Get the fuck out of my video!” <After voiced compliance, Sugawara quickly gets back to drawing. He starts on swoopy waves of hair.>
“So yeah. I do not live alone. The one that just lied is right next to me in most of my videos, actually.” <Another laugh.> “And you guys never even knew. So. Next question. Yes, I’ve drawn and painted myself on this channel. Three times, actually. I’ll never tell you which ones. I wonder if anyone will ever figure it out; not that I’d confirm anything.” <Sugawara hums with forced casualty and draws a smirk.>
“Yes, that painting meant something- at the time.” <A minute of silence passes while Sugawara shades in a prominent collarbone, then faint abs left visible by the large open jacket. He starts on the eyes as he speaks again, leaving the rest of the question unanswered.>
“I think two more questions wouldn’t be too much, right? I kind of like this, but I think it might be boring for you guys. So I’ll contain myself to only two more.
“@sugarartSTAN asks, and I have to answer because of the simply wonderful username,” <A snicker escapes Sugawara.> “what I do in my free time. I don’t have a lot of that, if I’m being honest. I work at my best friend’s boyfriend’s-”
“<bleep>, I’ll kill you. We’re not dating, just fu<bleep> ” <The voice that interrupts this time is different, slightly lower. Once again, Sugawara’s name is bleeped out, along with the suggestive curse at the end. Sugawara bursts out laughing, and once he settles down he takes a few shaky breaths and continues his previous sentence.>
“I work at my-” <A giggle.> “Friend’s plant shop, and I also have classes. Last year of college, though, so woohoo! In between that and babysitting my friends, I draw and paint as much as I can. Sometimes I go out, but… outside is scary . There are people .”
“So yeah. I have
no life
. This is the last question now. @Hananananamakki asks if I’ll do a ‘face reveal’. And the answer is, hell no. Probably never. Don’t count on it.
“I hope this video wasn’t too boring or anything. Uhm. It’s over now? Let me know what content you guys want next, or if there’s anything you want me to draw. I love your guys’ suggestions. Usually. Please stop asking me to draw your guys’ celebrity crushes naked. Remember, guys? I almost got
sued
when I did that?
Stop!
”
<Sugawara laughs and blows gently onto the completed drawing. When he lifts up his hand for the last time, a smirking boy with wavy brown hair is visible. His hands are tangled in his hair, and one of his chocolate brown eyes is narrowed slightly. The eyes seem to shine with pride, but when viewers look closer, they see tears pooled in them. The jacket is blowing open in the wind, and the jeans are ripped but crisp. After a few more seconds, the screen turns black, and the option to Play Next Video appears.>
Comments
holYshititsME- Noooooooooooooooooooooooo!! I lvoed this video ! Do more questions next time!
Kylee Jane- So uh, can we talk about the fucking gay levels of the house he lives in? I kind of require a vlog now!
I am literally a Mistake- IS THAT THEGRANDKING? I’m not seeing things, he actually drew Oikawa, right? UH COLLAB PLS!
Oikawaslegs- And shirtless, too~
Justanotherfailingartist- My favorite youtuber is a fan of my second favorite!
Oikawaslegs- Que the fanfiction
Ofjkbg- The ship I never imagined I needed
Egg!G- LMFAO! I’m really happy that Sugarart is confident enough to do a Q&A now! Remember when he would barely talk, lol. Loved this vid dude you should do more like this!
ShotoTodorokiShouldBeReal- Guys stfu and stop tainting the comments with all the shit about Oikawa. There’s way more to this video about who he fucking drew. Oikawa’s not even that great anyways.
BLOOPED- Sugarart you’re so inspiring! This vid was far from boring! Keep it up!
AnimeeeEEETHOO- GUYS HANAMAKI ASKED THE FACE REVEAL QUESTION!!!!
Lacey Eli- HOLYSHIT U RIGHT U RIGHT?!?!??!?!?!?
Tooru laid sprawled across his soft king-sized bed. His fluffy baby pink blanket was bunched up under his head, a substitute for the silky pillows he was too lazy to reach over and grab. He held his phone with both hands above his head and scrolled through his Twitter timeline. His screen reflected in his glasses.
His feed was about the same as always: fangirls, fanboys, thirst tweets that always boosted his confidence, fanart, compliments, hate, antifans, etc. mixed in with the latest tweets from who he was following. He checked his messages, and grinned when he saw one from one of his best friends, Hanamaki.
Hananananamakki- For some reason this dude decided to draw your ugly ass. <link>
Hananananamakki- Also, I would like to mention that I am in his video, I feel famous
You- ?? You are famous?
You- Not as famous as me though!! :D
You- And okay I’m watching the video now~ It’d better be good, I could be checking insta stories rn!
Hananananamakki- oh pls u only go on insta to post those ridiculous selfies. U dont even stay on it long enough to like me and mattsun’s cutsie couple pics. Bish.
You- oh pls ur too scared to post anything remotely gay. Remembr last time when that lady wrote an article about u?
Hananananamakki- oh pls LMFAO YES THAT WAS SO FUNNY SHE CALLED ME A PREDATOR
You- not that she was wrong abt that
Hananananamakki- imma post ur nudes
You- Makki-chan! That is predator behaviour!
Hananananamakki- Did u watch the vid? The dudes like rlly good
Hananananamakki- I showed Issei one of his vids and thats how we found out he has a voice fetish
You- fine fine im watching it now. And mattsun has a voice fetish??????? No wonder i turn him on and u dont!
Tooru quickly clicked on the link Hanamaki had sent and closed out of Twitter. He’s seen so much fanart, but he still gets a stupid grin and happy feeling whenever he sees it. These people spent time, resources, creativity , on him . And all of his fans were so talented, too. He spent hours, sometimes, scrolling through fanart his fans tagged him in and getting a confidence boost (who wouldn’t?!), and also jealous because he could never draw anything so well, no matter how hard he tried.
He could draw a pretty good Master Yoda, though. That counts for something.
He didn’t skip through the ad (he never does), and as soon as the 45 seconds about some indie game was over, Tooru was greeted with a plain table and piece of paper. Delicate fingers were soon pushed into view of the camera as well, and for some reason, Tooru felt himself take a sharp breath. Hmm, that’s the pretty hand of a setter! My senses are never wrong! He reminded himself to look up if this man, Sugarart , was in fact a setter at one point in his life after the video, to make sure he was right. (He was very competitive, even with himself).
Tooru grinned while he watched, this guy really was quite funny, in a self-deprecating and I’m-not-really-trying-to-be-funny-but-I-am way. The humor was relatable, too. Good content, he noted.
He also noted the man’s voice , because holy shit Hanamaki probably wasn’t even kidding about the voice fetish thing. It was low, and relaxing, kind of sarcastic sounding but not really. If that makes any sense. It was beautiful. He could probably do ASMR , Tooru thought with a slight giggle.
Soon, Tooru was mesmerized by Sugarart ’s drawing. How his fingers gently curled around the black pencil, how his fingernails looked cleanly cut short. How the motions his hands used to draw the chin- his chin! Oh, yeah! This guy’s drawing me! Hah! Take that, Ushiwaka! This guy with the pretty fingers- wait, is that a weird thing to think? Pretty fingers? Whatever, I-
< ”yeah , I’m gay . How you could tell from my fucking hand and a few drawings is beyond me, but whatever. And nice username.”>
Tooru choked on nothing. He’s gay, huh? And he’s probably around my age. The brunette double-tapped on the screen to get it to rewind, and this time he heard the username that Sugarart had complimented. He smirked. Gay, drawing me, clearly being a fan of me~
He kept watching, laughing when Sugarart ’s roommates and him interact. He could probably get twice as many subscribers if he did vlogs- probably more. Tooru didn’t know if he was jealous or just entertained.
Then, Sugarart finished the drawing, and Tooru’s breath was stolen from his lungs. How…? He could see pride and agony reflected in his eyes, he could see the movement of his hair in the wind, and he seemed to be popping off of the paper because of the perfect shading. He-
Another Twitter notification interrupted his admiring.
Hananananamakki- I’m going to ignore that.
You- He didn’t even recognize your twitter! He drew me! Me!
Hananananamakki- Fuck me
You- So vulgar
Tooru exited twitter again and opened google. ‘ Did Sugarart play volleyball?’ He rolled onto his side as he pressed search , laying his head on his left arm. There weren’t many relevant responses, not nearly as much as there would be for himself (he had almost 8 million subscribers, after all!), but he found one article by a fan that said Sugarart had played volleyball in middle and high school, as a setter. I was a setter too! Tooru thought excitedly. Apparently Sugarart had absentmindedly mentioned the fact while drawing a volleyball net overgrown with flowers and vines. A screenshot of the drawing was shown, and once again Tooru’s breath was stolen. No fair! Some people have all the talent.
Oh right, I’m one of those people. I can draw Grand Master Yoda!
Tooru then watched two more hours worth of Sugarart content, forgetting to feed his cat, and only stopped when he realized with a jolt he had to actually post the video he recorded yesterday. All of the emotion from the fucking beautiful and what he could only describe as personal art he had been feeling from watching Sugarart draw and paint blanked out of his mind as he jumped out of his bed so fast that he tripped on his light pink blanket and fell to the ground, stomach-first, with a THUD .
“FUcking shit piece of fucking ugly fuck bitch SHITTT OWWW!” Tooru shouted and untangled himself, looking around his room just in case someone had somehow, using magic, was inside of his house and saw his embarrassing fall. After being reassured, he dragged his fingers through his chestnut hair and made his way, quickly, to his office where his computer was. He logged in and went to his email, where his editor had sent his video back hours ago.
He quickly posted it then went back to Twitter on his phone, typing out and posting an apology. And a link to the video that had started the reason why he was so late to post.
TheGrandKing (@OikawaTT)
Sorry for the late video today! I hope you enjoy it anyways~ it was a lot of fun to record! Anywayyyyys, my excuse? I lost track of time watching @sugarartyt !! He’s so talented!!?? He really does me justice, don’t ya think~~ <link>
OIKAWA MARRY ME PLS (@SantariaSantaPEEa)
Dont worry we love any video no matter when its posted~~
BruhbruhBRuh (@ElizabethMillr)
Eh? Who?? LOL
sugarartSTAN (@sugarartSTAN)
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I caNT-
Karen Hills (@Karenhills263)
You realize that dudes gay right? Y’all should read this article <link>
Karen Hills (@Karenhills263)
Guys stop coming at me jeez im sory. Y’all sound uneducated. I kow it says in the vid he watched so he probs knows. Im just saying, its kinda weird. Read this article she says it all <link>
Tooru, a few hours later, scrolled through the replies to his tweet, liking a few nice ones, cringing at the ones commenting on Sugararts sexuality and avoiding them (he would defend the artist, but… he had a career on YouTube, dropped out of college for it. If he got canceled, he had nothing to fall back on). His fingers twitched to reply to Karen Hills , but instead, he just clicked on the link she posted.
ART YOUTUBER POPULAR WITH CHILDREN COMES OUT AS GAY: YOU NEVER TRULY KNOW WHAT YOUR KIDS ARE BEING INFLUENCED BY ON THE INTERNET
The other day, my seven-year-old daughter came up to me with her iPad, shoving it into my face as it played some video on youtube. She was excited, in awe, because of a video that my 16-year-old son had sent her. It was a video, seemingly innocent, of a person- I couldn’t see who, because the camera was pointed down at the paper, and only his hand could be seen- drawing a sketch of a man holding a bouquet of flowers.
Innocent, right? That’s what I thought. It’s just a video of a pale (seriously, so pale! He must not eat any nutrients!) man drawing a beautiful drawing.
Well, because my daughter was signed in on my account on youtube, I got suggested another one of his videos. He is a very talented artist, we must admit, so I decided to watch it. It was blandly titled: watercolor :) Now, this is where I started to get suspicious. In this video, he encourages men to wear makeup. It was a sped-up video of him quickly sketching out a generic but fairly attractive male’s face, then painting it in with watercolor paint. He keeps the skin, hair, eyebrows, etc. as bland as the titles to his videos, keeps them generic and plain, (tanned skin with no freckles, brown hair and faintly done eyebrows, no shading). But the eyes, the eyes he colors a vivid blue and surrounds in purple, red, gold, and blue eyeshadow. He makes the lips a bright red.
He drew a man wearing makeup, basically a drag queen, and you’ve read my article on those.
This YouTuber, that my seven-year-old daughter was watching, a man wearing makeup.
Now, this is just one video. I was slightly suspicious but didn’t want to jump to any conclusions. (I was concerned that my son might have watched this video, but I am confident that my son would never wear makeup. He was raised right). So, I looked at his youtube channel, which is called Sugarart . He has one video, which is very recent, that is a QnA. Before we get to the disturbing truth about Sugarart, let me try to explain why he has 30,000 subscribers. (Not that many in the grand scheme of things, but still 30,000 more than he should have).
Sugarart is popular for his artistic talent, self-deprecating humor, ‘relaxing’ voice, and cringe-worthy- I mean, deep and thought-provoking art.
This man, who my young daughter is watching, is a proud homosexual.
In this QnA, a girl asks if he is gay, and he responds with an unashamed “ yeah, I’m gay.”
Later in the video, he teases a friend about being attracted to another man. A suggestive comment about homosexual intercourse is said.
This man, who I am disturbed to know that my son watches, is encouraging homosexuality, and our children are watching. I had no idea.
You never truly know what your children might be being influenced by. Restrict their internet time, monitor their YouTube.
We need to cancel Sugarart and others like him. After more digging around, on his twitter, Instagram, and YouTube, (all of in which he refuses to show his face), I found even more concerning things that he is exposing our children to. Drawings of men kissing. Posts about this joke called Pride Month. Calling homophobes (which is an offensive term, I have a post about that coming soon!) ‘close-minded assholes’. He is rude, perverted, and should not be able to make content on YouTube where our children can see and be influenced by it.
Please, make sure to be careful what content your children consume!
Tooru’s eyebrows were furrowed so hard in anger is actually hurt. What the fuck? A pervert? Wait- this is the same hoe who wrote that article about Hanamaki! He really hoped that whoever Sugarart was, he either hadn’t seen this article or would handle it as Hanamaki did. (Laugh it off. Although, Makki had been able to deny the fact that he was gay. Sugarart , obviously, would not be able to do such a thing). Because, seriously, this article was so fucked up...
What kind of asshole thinks like this? I should probably- his phone went off, he got a text from Iwaizumi. He opened up their text thread, moving to sit down on his sleek, soft, big white couch that overlooked quite a large window. Still fuming from reading that disgusting article, he checked his texts, fully planning on complaining to Iwaizumi about it.
Iwa-chan~~- you fucking dumbass
Iwa-chan~~- Asskawa
Me- Why are you being so mean??? Is this about how I blocked your face in the picture I posted?? You were scowling so ugly! I couldn’t subject my fans to that!!!!
Iwa-chan~~- NO, ASSHOLE FUCK U im talking about how you, someone wh like half their huge fanbase is fucking toxic just shouted out a gay youtber. Use ur head, asskawa. People are already coming at him, you dumbass.
Me- dont insult me so many times in a row!
Iwa-chan~~- acknowledge what i said
Iwa-chan~~- Shittykawa!
Iwa-chan~~- OIKAWA!