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"Would it be okay if I make noodles for dinner? I'm really tired", Taehyung says as he walks inside the apartment. Jungkook is on the sofa, scrolling through twitter.
Taehyung sighs when he doesn't recieve an answer. "Baby, I asked you something", he says tiredly. Jungkook has been acting weird nowadays. He knows it's nothing related to filming because jungkook looks happy every time he comes home from set.
"Jungkook---", "What?!", jungkook lashes out. Taehyung's eyes widen. "Sorry, I was just asking---", "I'm tired, Tae. Please leave me alone", Jungkook says with an annoyed tone. Taehyung frowns. Jungkook had his day off today. He doesn't understand why he's tired.
He keeps his bag down and goes to stand behind jungkook on the couch, smoothing his palms along his shoulders. "Then let me massage your shoulders. I promise it'll help you. After all, you're my husband---", Tae starts fondly but jungkook interrupts him for the third time.
"Your husband! Your husband! That's all I've become!", he shouts angrily, standing up from the couch to face him. Taehyung gets startled by the sudden outburst. "Do you not think I'm something without you?", Jungkook questions but doesn't give taehyung a chance to answer.
"Everytime I open social media, people are talking about me. Not Jeon Jungkook, but Kim Taehyung's husband!", Jungkook says exasperatedly, eyes going red with fury. Taehyung is shell shocked. He doesn't know what to say.
"I was so good without you. I know I wasn't as famous as you but I was something! People knew me! They knew Actor Jeon Jungkook. But now?", jungkook laughs sarcastically. "Now it's only you! Even news sites. Kim Taehyung and Husband! Kim Taehyung and partner! I hate it! I hate it so much!", he yells.
Taehyung feels tears prickling his eyes but he refuses to cry. Jungkook is just stressed. He's a renowned actor. Of course he'll feel bad about the fact that he's starting to be known more as someone's husband than as an amazing actor himself.
"Okay, I understand. I'm sorry this is happening. We'll do something about it. Let's just sit down and talk", Taehyung says softly. That seems to make jungkook even more angry. "No, you don't! You don't understand!", he exclaims.
Taehyung opens his mouth to say something but jungkook beats him to it. "I never wanted this", he whispers, tears collecting on his beautiful lashes.
Taehyung feels his heart shatter. He takes a shaky breath. Before he can say anything, Jungkook starts speaking without thinking.
"I regret marrying you".
His own eyes widen as he lets the words slip past his lips, shocked. He dares to look up at his husband. Taehyung isn't looking at him, though. He's looking down at the floor, hands clutching onto the sides of his oversized hoodie.
"Did you...", he says with a shaky voice. "Did you really mean it, Kookie?", he whispers brokenly. "You really regret marrying...", he trails off. It doesn't sound like a question. It feels more like a realization.
"Forget it", Jungkook murmurs, trying to shake off his own guilt. He grabs the car keys from the stand and walks around the couch to get to the front door.
That makes Taehyung snap out of his thoughts. He quickly grabs onto Jungkook's sleeve. "Kookie! Kookie, please don't go!", he begs, full on crying now. "Please. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'll never act again if that's what you want. Please don't leave me", he says frantically, sobbing hysterically.
Jungkook doesn't pay attention to his words. He's too immersed in his own guilt to hear Taehyung's words. He shakes Taehyung's hand off of his sleeves and rushes outside the apartment.
Taehyung begs him to say, to not leave him. Jungkook doesn't hear. He's already gone. Taehyung just drops down on the ground on his knees, hands in his hair. He feels the familiar ache in his chest and he lets out a pained groan.
He reaches for his phone on the couch and immediately calls his emergency number.
"J-Jiminie..."
"Hello? Tae?", Jimin's voice rings through the phone. Taehyung groans. "I think... I think I'm g-gonna pass out", he replies with a pained voice. He can hear Jimin shuffling.
"I'm coming. Where's Jungkook?", Jimin asks. He sounds like he's trying to stay strong for Taehyung. Maybe he is.
"H-He....", Taehyung breaks down before he can continue. He can feel his eyes watering again, fresh tears covering his nose flushed cheek. He can feel his panic attack nearing.
"Oh, baby. I'm coming to get you. Please hold on. Don't cut the call. I'm coming", Jimin repeats himself, sounding panicked, too. Jimin can't see him but Taehyung nods. "I'm scared", he sobs.
"Tae baby. I'm getting into the car right now. I'm almost there. Please don't be scared", Jimin says softly, trying to calm him down.
Taehyung knows he's nowhere near. He's just trying to assure him. That scares him even more. What if he doesn't come? What if something happens--- Taehyung shudders at the thought.
"Please", he sobs harder, hiccuping. His panic attack has always been a setback in his life. It hadn't been this bad, though. Not since Jungkook came into his life.
"I'm coming. I'm coming. Tae, baby. I'm so close. Please hold on", Jimin says desperately, trying to keep himself and taehyung calm. He can't afford being panicked right now. Taehyung needs him.
"Can't breathe", Taehyung chokes out, heaving intensely. "Tae Tae, listen to me", Jimin starts. Taehyung nods absentmindedly, chest heaving with every pained sob.
"On the count of three, breathe with me, okay?", Jimin offers. Taehyung nods again. "One, two, breathe", Jimin says and taehyung immediately follows, taking shuddering breaths and releasing even shakier ones.
"Breathe", Jimin instructs again. Taehyung does it again for some time before his voice stops completely. Jimin panics.
"Tae?", he asks with a shaky voice. "Baby? Are you there? Hello?", he tries again. When he doesn't hear anything, his heart drops right into the pit of his stomach, twisting in painful knots.
"Shit".