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After a death defying night, Sherlock and John head back to Baker Street. Neither says anything but after removing their outerwear, both of them heading straight to the liquor.
Drinking in silence, Sherlock is deep in his mind palace, and John decides he can’t stand it. He turns on the radio that they’ve never used. He sits back in his chair and takes a long drought. The music helps. It helps a lot.
Three bottles later, they’re both drunk. Sherlock is actively listening to the radio with John. Both of them feeling disorientate due to the case. They needed something to ground them. The music playing helped. They started singing along. Mumbling at first, then louder. They took turns and called dibs if they felt they wanted it.
Then a song came, one that fit their situation too well. They sang their hearts out.
Sherlock started. He couldn’t hold it in anymore. His broken heart. His joy of John being alive, at his loss.
I stay up every night
I should've thought twice when I put our lives on the line
I'm a mess
You're the only hope that I hold inside
The self-destruction, the damage I've done
You're the reason I'm still alive
And I lose it everyday inside of my head
I don't know if I'll be alright
I wanna leave it all behind
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose but you
Nothing to lose but you
I know that I can't undo
The self-destruction, the damage I've done
I've got nothing to lose but you
John took the next verse, stealing the spotlight. Needing to release his feelings one way or another.
Take a step, I will follow
Til the end of the earth
Through the best and the worst
Cause you know all my secrets
All my demons and you keep 'em in check
And I lose it everyday inside of my head
I don't know if I'll be alright
I wanna leave it all behind
I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing to lose but you
Nothing to lose but you
I know that I can't undo
The self-destruction, the damage I've done
I've got nothing to lose but you
And I lose it everyday inside of my head
I don't know if I'll be alright
Cause if I didn't have you, I'd be better off dead
You're the reason I'm still alive
Both of them sang the next verse, unaware of the feelings of the person across from them. How true this song held for them. They haven’t glanced at each other since the song started.
I've got nothing to lose but you
Nothing to lose but you
I know that I can't undo
The self-destruction, the damage I've done
I've got nothing to lose but you
And I lose it everyday inside of my head
I don't know if I'll be alright
Cause if I didn't have you, I'd be better off dead
You're the reason I'm still alive
They look at each other, with tears in eyes, and understanding dawns both at the same time. That it’s mutual. Hands reach out as the last verse begins.
I've got nothing to lose but you