Archive of Our Own

It’s like one step forward and two steps back
It’s never enough to say I love you, no it’s never enough to say I try.*


To my Soulmate,

What would you say if you knew I was terrified of these looming changes? I don’t know what they mean for us, for me. I’m afraid I won’t measure up, that you’ll be disappointed in me – that I’ll be disappointed in you. Will we survive, or fail each other? Can it last forever? Or will we jinx it?

I need you to see me for who I really am, to accept all of me without reservation or hesitation. Know the secret parts, embrace the darkness. Forgive my inadequacies. Know I try to be everything to you, even as I inevitably fall short. See me.

You mean more to me than anything else in this universe. You are the center of my world. Would it frighten you to know that, or are they the words you’ve been longing to hear? I try to tell you, but words are pathetic attempts to explain the mysteries of love. There are no words for what we are. Being with you is my reason for existing, you are all I need.

Am I all you need?


With love eternally,

Shane,
Josef,
Mick,
Beth,
Sara


You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
if you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna take the world on
I'm gonna be there all the way
I won't be missing one more day
--Never Gonna Be Alone, Nickelback