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The night had been long and quiet. Yoongi had been typing away at his laptop for hours while Jungkook laid in bed and rested. Neither spoke for hours but simply enjoyed each other's presence. The sounds of breathing and clicking keys was all that you could hear. Their daughter Eunji slept in the room across the hall,the silence of the night fell over the small families household. Since Eunji was born she’d always slept in the same room as her fathers, but after turning 4 she declared that she was a big girl and could sleep alone. Jungkook had chuckled at this but always made sure to tuck her in with berry the bear standing guard to watch over her. Yoongi always smiled watching the pair when evening came, his two favorite people.
“Papa” the sound made Jungkook’s tired eyes snap open, kicking off the blanket quickly he got up and walked to the door. Standing with teary eyes was a sleepy Eunji, holding none other than berry the bear. “I had a scary dream papa”. Crouching down to her level Jungkook opened his arms up for the little one. “Hi it’s okay, you had a bad dream?” Putting his arms around his little baby, picking her up and turning to bring her to bed. Along the way to lay down Jungkook tap’s Yoongi’s shoulder. Yoongi, completely oblivious to the situation, quickly takes off his headphones. “Eunji baby whats wrong?” Yoongi spoke softly towards his little angel. “She had a bad dream.” Jungkook spoke back for her. “My baby, do you want to sleep in here with papa?” Yoongi replied, reaching up to pet back her long hair. “Yes please.” Eunji replied back in the tiniest voice. “Go lay in the middle baby.” Jungkook said to Eunji as he stood her up on the bed. Jungkook walked around and on the way stopped behind Yoongi, “Come lay down with us, work can wait.”
Yoongi waited a few minutes, listened to the sound of his husband talking; rested his eyes for a moment and thanked the heavens for the life he has found himself in. Closing his laptop and putting away the assortment of wires. Silence and then tiny giggles and soft whispers “Is papa going to lay down with us?” Eunji whispered to Jungkook. “I think so, why don’t you ask him?” Eunji turned towards Yoongi who was already looking at her, “Papa are you going to lay down with us?” Eunji’s eyes twinkled in the low light of the room, they always reminded Yoongi of Jungkook’s bambi eyes. “Yes baby give me just a second, why don’t you get comfy?”
Yoongi turned off the table lamp and carefully crawled into bed. Eunji between him and Jungkook. “Eunji do you want to talk about your dream?” Jungkook said softly to the little girl between them. “It was scary, thought you left me.” Eunji said back in the smallest voice “thought I was going to be left all alone.” Yoongi’s heart broke hearing his baby be scared, even knowing she was safe in their arms. “Eunjinie we would never leave you? You don’t need to be scared of that baby.” Jungkook said back to her as he softly played with her hair. “Papa is right we won’t leave you like that, that would be very mean of us.” Yoongi spoke, he grabbed Eunji’s tiny hand and held it in his. “Papa’s love you and we want you to be safe always, you know that don’t you?” “Yes papa I do.”
Jungkook slowly played with Eunji’s hair as he hummed a song Yoongi's never heard before. Yoongi rubbed Eunji’s arms and spoke aloud a story he’d heard Jungkook tell her hundreds of times by now. Berry the bear in her arms and soon tiny snores came from her mouth. “I think she’s finally asleep again” Jungkook whispered to Yoongi “should I move her back to her room?” “No, lets just all lay here a while.” Yoongi replied “I was hoping you would say that.” Jungkook’s bunny smile showing in the low light.
Minutes passed in silence but Yoongi was just staring at the ceiling. The wheels in his mind wouldn’t stop turning enough for him to even think about closing his eyes. “What are you thinking about Yoongi?” Jungkook spoke into the dark
“Everything.”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
Yoongi turned onto his side, facing both Eunji and Jungkook.
“Do you think I’m a good dad?” Yoongi said, glad the lights were off so Jungkook couldn’t see the scared look on his face.
“Why would you ask that? Of course you are, don’t you think you are?”
“I don’t know what I think.”
“Yoongi-”
“I’m just scared” Yoongi said quickly, tears slowly forming in his eyes. “What’s wrong?” Jungkook whispered back wondering why his husband was suddenly so emotional.
“Yeobo please tell me.” Jungkook said slightly more loudly, noticing Yoongi was beginning to cry more.
“What if I’m not a good dad, you’re such a good father and I don’t think I am.” Yoongi said, suddenly crying even more but trying to be quiet so as to not wake up Eunji.
“Yoongi, yeobo, listen to me please” Jungkook said back alarmed at how upset Yoongi was all of a sudden “Where did this all come from baby?” Jungkook reached around and grabbed Yoongi’s hand. “I’ve been thinking about it for a while now, but I was embarrassed so I never said anything. But tonight it just overwhelmed me and I got scared that I’m not a good father. You’re so good with Eunjinnie and I’m not.” Yoongi said, tears streaming down his face.
“Yeobo, you’re a great dad. I don’t know what I would do without you here to help me everyday. You help so much and Eunji is obsessed with you, she talks about you all the time.” Jungkook spoke back, running his thumb over the back of Yoongi’s hand as a show of comfort. “Does she really?” Yoongi spoke back in a voice so quiet Jungkook could barely hear. “Yes she does, she loves you yeobo, and so do I. We both love you and want to take care of you.” Jungkook said, leaning up to place his head on the headboard. Yoongi followed in his motion and soon they were both sitting in silence once again.
Yoongi’s tears slowly dried up and he finally felt he could speak again, “I love you both so much you’re my favorite people, I get worried Eunji doesn’t know it because I’m always working. I’m worried you don’t know it too.” Yoongi said looking down at Eunji. She’d turned in her sleep and was holding onto Yoongi’s waist, and Yoongi did everything he could to not cry again. “Yeobo she loves you, I love you. We know you have to work, you work to let us live. Otherwise Eunji would have to go to daycare all day and be away from us even more. You do that because you love and care for not only her but me too.” Jungkook whispered back to Yoongi, looking down at Eunji snuggled up to Yoongi “She really does love you Yoongi, please know that.” “I do.” “Just lay with us awhile and sleep, you’ll feel better in the morning.” and they do. Yoongi wakes up looking at his favorite people in the world, and they once again make him feel so loved. His anxiety doesn’t go away completely but even just a little is a success.