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Trust me
I don't know what you are to me
And I think I'm going mad.
Are not my lover, nor my friend.
But what could you be instead?
I look at you and I do feel
Like something slips in place.
As if you're meant to be right there
To help me with my case.
If I was less than I am now,
Would we get along?
I promise I won't let you down.
Trust me, what can go wrong?
Painful Sword
Please say something, oh I beg you.
Silence is a painful sword
When you're used to cheerful chatter
Lighting up your boring world.
Cannot let them know I'm pining
'Cause they wouldn't understand
Cannot let them know I'm caring
I'm not supposed to be your friend.
Oh how much I want to hug you
You have no idea my friend
Any time you dare to ask me
It gets harder to pretend.
Something's breaking
Tears are falling from your eyes,
As you're saying your goodbye
To the man you didn't know,
To the man that had to die.
Something's breaking, loud and clear
And it takes a long long moment 'till I finally understand
That I heard my own heart's shatter
'Cause you are in tears my friend
Cannot let you know I'm caring
So I say what comes out first
Not a man is worth your tears
And you just say, you're certainly not.
Something's breaking, loud and clear,
Only now it's no surprise
That I hear my own heart's shatter—
I pay the price for all my lies.
The things that cannot be
I see the way he looks at you
The way he makes you smile.
I see the way you touch his hair,
It almost makes me cry.
What's this pain that I can feel,
The pain inside my chest
Have lived so long but this is new,
Can think of nothing else.
It's so unfair — you could be his
And nobody would care.
But would I want to do the same
All of them would stare.
I know that I can't choose for you
With whom you wanna be.
I know that I can't claim you mine
And I must give you free.
You're my light
Now I'm king and I can change
What I always meant to do.
Can bring back the trusted people,
Marry for love, albeit not you.
But you know as well as I do
That whatever love we share
Will remain no matter what,
Will remain no matter where.
You're beside me, strong and kind,
Trusting me with all your heart.
You'll be with me, always there
Lifting me up with every word.
At this point I think you are
Part of me — and that is right.
You have faith, you're my soulmate
You're far more, you are my light.
And should ever come the day
That you are gone while I remain,
I know just as well as you do
That I'd never be the same.
What I want
People in the town are waiting,
Waiting for the day to pass.
Flowers on the grass are swinging
With the wind, like nothing was.
You've been gone for days and days now,
This isn't like you, not at all.
People tell me to accept it,
But I can't, I never shall.
So I'm going by myself
I won't rest until I find
Some sign that you are still living,
Don't even try, can't change my mind.
And when I do, my arms will hold you
Hold you close where you belong
Feel your warmth again around me
See, I knew you weren't gone.
I don't want a nicer breakfast,
I don't want politer staff
I could have a thousand servants,
But I want you, my clumsy oaf.
Too afraid
From a very different angle
I can see the world I know,
Waking up to your face smiling
And the way that your eyes glow.
How I adore the wake you wake me,
But I do not dare to say.
So I mumble something stupid
About my fast-approaching day.
Hands that rest a little longer
When you help me getting dressed,
Hands so soft when they're adjusting
The tunics fabric on my chest.
Like the fire in the room
I can feel your quiet stare
When you're eyes glance down my body
Unashamed of what is there.
Oh, I wish that I could show you
Just how much I want you, dear.
Wish that I could cup your face,
Kiss your lips and bite your ear.
Want to throw you on my bed
That so carefully you made.
Want to kiss you, kiss you, kiss you.
But I don't. I'm too afraid.
I hope you know
Please excuse my awkward insults,
I just want to make you smile.
'Cause I am sure my heart will break,
should I ever see you cry.
I don't know how I should tell you
That you're more than just a friend.
That I couldn't bear to lose you
I want you with me till the end.
Promise me that you will hold me
When the day comes that I go.
You are more I could have asked for.
I love you, and I hope you know.
Before I leave
*a piece that never made it onto paper
Dying, I can't help but wonder
What had changed if I had known?
Had I really have them kill you?
Am I that much Uther's son?
I like to think that I am different,
Kind and just — a wiser man.
After all, that's what you've told me,
Sorcerer, most loyal friend.
No, I wouldn't want to change you,
You are you. The man I love.
Glad I know before I leave.
I can thank you now, at last.
Oh, your eyes, I see them looking
Down on me, so wet, so blue.
Heavy eyelids. Heart stops beating.
One last breath. And only you.