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Weird it may seem but all of this started with a whim
My indecisive Libra self finally decided to read something
My sleeping guardians took a day off
And here I was left staring at the ceiling
I took that as a kick off of a saga called
“I fell in love with a fiction and I can’t stop *insert emotion here*”
“Jesus take the wheel,” was all I can muster
Part 1 Reader’s Intro
Did I say I’m a sucker for good plots? No?
I do. So much it’s concerning how much I can read in day
If work wasn’t in my way, I don’t know how many more I can read
I’ve probably said this a thousand times but
I’m a “visualizing” reader, well if that is even a term
Okay, maybe I made that up
But hear me, good fiction are like good films
They remain in the reader’s mind and probably,
even life-changing
Part 2 Unsaid Thoughts 1
i fall in love easy but hard
you lingered in my mind, for days
like an unforgettable memory of ten years ago
and i associate you with things I see on a daily
just so i’m reminded
you have made me feel like this
you do stick with me
and as much as it hurts that all of this isn’t real
i wanted hold on to the feeling
Part 3 That One Morning
And the first thing she did was read
Lord you see this lady grinning in front of you?
Please forgive her and her lonely ass
You see she is happy today
She thanks the author who wrote this
She promises she will pray after this
Part 4 Hello Author
Convincing myself to express my thoughts
It was supposed to be just a sentence of gratitude
Which ended up being a thread of thoughts
Hello Bee, it was fun, and I am in love
In love with your works and your mind
I am in love with the world you have presented to me
And the way I didn’t mind falling into it
I am grateful, truly
Part 5 Unsaid Thoughts 2
it was like walking through thin ice
one wrong step and you’d fall
stronger than whatever field lies beneath the Bermuda
have sank more ships it ever could
and i was just a passing ship
it was the sea’s pitfall
a seemingly bottomless chasm
i never was able to get out
Part 6 Unseen Cries
yet another tearful night
one that sounds sad but right
as these beads roll down her cheeks
she steps into those creaks
with a tight-lipped smile
she says she'll be okay for a while
Part 7 Dreamless Nights
an ongoing occurrence for months
uncountable 2-4 AM shenanigans
eyes wide open, piercing the ceiling
with thoughts running from the just-read information
wondering what would she have done if she were you
suddenly that once “what happens happens” lass
was drowned in thoughts that she never thought
she’d ponder so hard about
Part 8 Take The Wheel
And when I say I’d entrust you my life, I wasn’t kidding
I believe trust can be established in a short time
Funny how a 5-month following streak
Can overthrow a 5-year old friendship (online wise)
The way I can trust you completely than the people I work with
Says a lot about how I’ve always worked my way through life
Online, internet, far away people, strangers to friends
I find more comfort in your words than the Bible can
I’m sorry God for your daughter has betrayed you
I smile more from seeing your crazy antics and funny tweets
Forgive me my irl besties that I don’t confide in you much
I cried harder to your fics than when my father died (not even kidding)
I’m so sorry, Pa, for not crying at all
And the way I’m saying this is a manifestation of my trust
It may scare you, make you run
But I hope you don’t
You’re a source of good vibes
A ray of sunshine
Part 9 A Whole New World
It was an introduction to a new world
No limits, free and liberating
Where feelings can flow through
Without being invalidated
It was a safe space
Where my mind settles
Where my heart swells with love
Where my long lost dreams came alive
Part 10 you brought me to YOU
you took me places i was never able to go
in this magical land, i'd be glad to stay
it was enchanting and haunting
but it’s not so bad to be dauntless sometimes
“a writer’s passion is seen through their works
and i have seen yours”
you took me to where your dreams go,
where your long-held wishes wait,
where your mind settles,
where you heart dwells,
and where your deepest emotions travel,
in space and in time, they go with you,
along the way, your strong breeze dragged me
unintentionally
but I loved the spontaneity
so I went and joined the ride
the circus it was, the long road trips,
til the end of the world, take me
take me and lonely wandering soul
and to that one boring night
that brought me to a journey
of endless scrolling through twitter,
i found you
and I hate that I fell in love with your wit,
hate that I enjoy seeing you on my timeline,
and most of all,
i hate that your words always hit home
making me think that you know me and see me
but I like it
i like how I can see your world through your words,
simply to say,
you brought me to YOU