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Surrender
I was sitting in that cafe when I first saw you. You were talking and having coffee with your friends and I couldn't stop looking at you, you were so distracted. So, you looked away, noticed me there and smiled. You smiled at me. And I found myself lost in your smile... so beautiful.
We let the waters rise
Among his friends were Yoongi and his boyfriend Hoseok, who soon noticed me and called me. I sat down and we introduced ourselves. Park Jimin was his name. So you made a joke about it and I laughed. That day, when I met you, it was as if I had found a reason to live longer.
At first
The second time we met, it was at Yoongi's house. He had called us for a "pizza night", just in celebration of how well his test scores had been. And that night, I found out that you were doing performing arts in the same building where I was doing photography. I didn't know how I hadn't seen an angel as beautiful as you before, but I had a chance to know a little more when you took my number.
We drifted to survive
We talked about so many things in the middle of the senseless jokes and jokes you made... I laughed, but it was for your sweet laugh. You were so excited, so happy, that I wish I could be part of your life, be your friend or, who knows, get something more.
I needed you to stay
You texted me and we talked for hours on end, just about nonsense. You told me that I was strange, but that it was just a charm, so in an act of courage a few days later, I asked you out. And you told me that I was a little slow and that I thought I would have to drag myself on a first date.
But I let you walk away
We went to the cinema and watched the movie you wanted, then you took me to an ice cream parlor, where we talked and played a lot between laughs. I admired you so much, it felt so good to be your friend, but I wanted something more. I wish I could kiss your lips so well designed, caress your hair and look into your eyes while saying that I was in love with you. As if you could read my thoughts that day, you kissed me. And I felt euphoric, as if something was stroking my stomach inside; maybe they were called butterflies, because my hands were sweating.
My love where are you? My love where are you?
We went out again, two, three times, countless times to all possible places, from restaurants, parks, clubs, nightclubs and even when we ended up at a funeral unintentionally. I remember that we tried very hard not to laugh that day, out of respect for the family and the deceased. It was the same day that we started dating.
Whenever you're ready (whenever you're ready)
I remember well when we went traveling together and got lost on the road. You became so desperate and nervous that your cheeks turned red, as they always do when that happens. Luckily for us, there was a small roadside motel and it was right there that we stayed. And we gave ourselves to each other for the first time.
Whenever you're ready (whenever you're ready)
And on your birthday, when I tried to throw you a surprise party? It turns out that Taehyung accidentally told you before and told Seokjin, who told me, and in the end, everyone already knew. You even tried to act not to make me feel bad, remember? But it ended up with everyone drunk and Taehyung stayed with Seokjin in my bed, Namjoon with Hwasa in my bathroom, while Yoongi and Hoseok kept us company, even though they were more there than here. Yeah, it was quite a day.
Can we, can we surrender?
Everything was going so well, we fit together so well, it felt like something out of this world. You used to call us a "perfect couple" and I couldn't deny it. You really were perfect and even if you told me the same, I could only see you.
Can we, can we surrender?
So, had that day. Ah, that damn day when we fought in the rain. You were mad at me for two weeks and so far you haven't spoken to me. It wasn't my fault, but I was going through a difficult time in college and at work, which required a lot from me. I needed your understanding, I didn't have that much time for you, but it was going to pass. And passed. But you decided to give me an ice.
I surrender
Now, on my motorcycle, I am going to your apartment to ask your forgiveness for not being enough and to have you back — even if you are not done with me. I had already gotten used to his presence and I miss him so much, but so much...
No one will win this time
My apartment is no longer the same without your smell, your laughter, the smell of your food and even without the sounds of our groans together. I want you back, love.
I just want you back
If you come back, I promise to try to improve on all my faults and try to never hurt you again. I just want you here. Getting off my motorcycle, taking off my helmet and keys, I walk towards the concierge, with the thought of seeing you again.
I'm running to your side
Greeting the doorman who already knows me, I step straight for the elevator. I know you're home at this time. I feel my hands sweating and squirming in anxiety as the elevator goes up. As soon as the doors open, I take a few steps and stop in front of your door, building up the courage to ring the bell.
Flying my white flag, my white flag
Without any more fear and with anxiety eroding inside, I press the button. I hope you open up, while I try not to show despair. I know you open it without looking at who it is and that gives me a little advantage if you don't want to see me again.
My love where are you? My love where are you?
As soon as the door opens, you look at me in pure shock. You look so much better now that you dyed your hair black, even though they are so messy now... you are wearing my coat and barefoot, as you like to look. I saw you open and close your mouth not knowing what to say because I was there.
Whenever you're ready (whenever you're ready)
I look at you with so much love and I miss you so much, that I don't hesitate to pull and hug you. How I expected this. You must imagine that those fifteen days without you were tortuous. As soon as I let you go, I look at you again and see that you want to cry and I don't like it when you cry, love.
Whenever you're ready (whenever you're ready)
"Jimin..." his name slides down my lips, filled with a good feeling. "Forgive me, baby, I don't want to be away from you, stay with me."
Can we, can we can surrender?
You shut me up with your lips with a longing kiss. I squeezed you so hard, I thought I was going to suffocate you. You pulled me away and pulled me inside just to look deep in my eyes and say:
Can we, can we can surrender?
"I was selfish and not understanding, Kook. I forgive you if you can forgive me too." He ran his fingers over my face. "I also don't want to be away from you ever again, because I know that I will always surrender to you."
I surrender
Just like I always give myself to you.