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My Beloved,
It has been months since I last wrote to you. I miss you so much. I can’t believe you left me here in South Korea to pursue your studies in Europe. What will become of us then? I know you told me that I should content myself with letters, but these letters lack the warmth you gave me many years ago. I know you told me to be patient, that you will prove yourself worthy of my hand, but I don’t need that. We can escape the prying eyes of society and I can fly to you there, in Europe, where we can be ourselves.
If you’re asking how I am, I am doing well. That is what I want to be, anyway. It is so difficult to wake up everyday without your smile to greet me. My heart yearns for your presence, physical presence, in my life. I know. We agreed that this was for the best, that I would wait for you here in Korea while you finish your studies there, at the other side of the world, but my heart cannot comprehend logic. My heart cannot understand why I cannot be with you.
I saw my mother attempt to encode your letters to me. Whenever the maid gave me your letters, the envelope would have been opened already. I do not need to ask mother if she did it because I know she did. No one else in this house would be invested in our relationship other than mother. Father has been busy with his research work in the government, so he does not have time for trivial things such as letters between two lovers…. But mother…
Anyways, enough about me. How are you there, Hyunjae? Is Europe as beautiful as the pictures say? You should send me pictures you took of Europe. Even when you were in Korea, you have been addicted to photography. We used to develop pictures together… Oh how I miss those days, Hyunjae.
How are your studies? Are you resting enough? I know that you can be such a perfectionist sometimes. You know, you don’t have to be perfect always. You can have flaws. You’re only human, my love. You are not God. And even though you are not perfect, I still love you so, and your friends do too.
I will end my letter here. I hope you are doing well, Hyunjae. Remember that I’m always here for you and I will always support you whatever you do.
With Love,
Juyeon