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Taerae heaves a deep breath, his frame trembling under Matthew’s emotional eyes. “I just—I just don’t know if I really deserve this. If I deserve you.”
“Bullshit,” Matthew spits, pressing their foreheads together. It’s intimate, invasive. “Do you want this? Me? Do you want me? Do you want us?”
Taerae just finds himself lost in Matthew’s eyes, his own heart constricting within his chest. He feels like he wants to choke out a huge sob from the confines of his soul. But somewhere internally, he finds the strength to nod his head.
“Then take it. Be selfish.”
Taerae broke up with Matthew a year ago yet his hands compel him to write a mixtape about him. From there, they fall into a spiraling dance of vulnerability and forgiveness.
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Gyuvin wanted to die, and he always got what he wanted. A full ride to Seoul National University, a pretty boy to nearly call his own, and his own yearned for demise. What a selfish fool to have everything he could ever want yet dream of days where he is no longer breathing, and how selfish of him to leave behind two boys who now have to learn to live without him.
Ricky likes Gyuvin but Gyuvin’s dead and Gunwook’s in love with Ricky whose heart hasn’t moved on
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for you, my beautiful boy by taelhrts for makiyahmacarons
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
10 Mar 2025
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“Why would you bring me here? Dad would’ve never let you do this to me, how could you?” Gyuvin squeaks and all of a sudden his eyes are burning with tears and spit gets lodged in his throat.
He straightens his posture, glancing up to the ceiling as he lets out an exasperated sigh as to not let any of his pitiful, grief-stricken tears fall down his already flushed cheeks. He didn’t want to–god–he didn’t want to send his sixteen year old brother to rehab but what was he to do? Of course Dad wouldn’t have done this, their mother wouldn’t have either but he isn’t either of them, he’s not a parent. He’s a teenager himself.
Hanbin’s life changes when his parents inevitably pass away and his younger brother gets hooked on methamphetamines. Somewhere along the way he no longer feels guilty for putting himself first.
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He was too busy being in love with Gyuvin to fall for someone new, no matter how many frat parties he found himself stumbling into. He was too busy being Gyuvin’s even though he wasn’t his. Gyuvin has already conquered the moon–a place in his heart. Yet Gunwook can’t even seem to reach for the stars in the night sky, let alone somewhere to lay in Gyuvin’s mind.
Gunwook and Gyuvin come home from college for the holidays and recap their lives they’ve spent apart. Along the way, Gunwook comes to accept that things change and so will he.
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while you were asleep by taelhrts
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band), TIOT (Korea Band)
17 Jan 2025
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“How are you so perfect?” Gyuvin finds himself impulsively whispering under his breath, he runs his thumb against Ricky’s cheekbone and the intimacy of it all–it being just the two of them, alone in a room where the moonlight casts a glow on them as two tender earthlings–it’s divine.
Ricky smiles and shifts around, looking at Gyuvin with his eyes hazy. “I’m not perfect, Gyuvin. I am just human.”
Sophomore year is a year of firsts for Kim Gyuvin. First stable group of friends, first love, first kiss. Most importantly, his first time finally feeling like he belongs.
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Stories of a struggling addict and his brother who desires to save him.
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Love: Final Argument by kayluvvv for moongiboongi
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
16 Nov 2025
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Gyuvin argues with heart. Gunwook argues with logic.
They’ve spent almost all of their high school life clashing behind opposing podiums — until the National Debate League pairs them as partners.
Between late night practices, stolen glances, and one unforgettable debate, rivalry turns into something neither can reason their way out of.
Because sometimes, love isn’t debatable — it’s just the right answer.
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sometimes, in the middle of the night, i can feel you again (but i just miss you, and i just wish you were a better man) by Anonymous
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band)
20 Oct 2025
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“You ever wonder what God thinks of love?”
Taerae stiffened, hands buried in his pockets, the heat of the evening wrapped around them like a second skin.
He answered too quickly. “Love is from God.”
Jiwoong nodded, like he’d expected that. “Yeah. But I mean all love.”
Taerae didn’t respond. Instead, he kept walking. Jiwoong didn’t push either. He never did. But the silence between them changed—thickened. Taerae could feel it pulsing, like a second heartbeat.
After a few steps, Jiwoong said, quieter this time, “Sometimes I think people confuse God’s voice with their own fear.”
And Taerae—without turning, without breathing—whispered, “Then what do you believe?”
“I believe God is love. And I don’t think love makes us dirty.” Jiwoong answered, soft and certain.
Taerae, a devout church boy, learns too late that love was never the sin.
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Seoul is dying—a slow drowning, a prolonged consumption by spirits and ghosts. Blessed with the supernatural ability to interact with this encroaching spirit realm and cleanse those that torment the living, for years Hanbin and the agency he founded has been holding back the tide.
But Hanbin has been missing for one year, six months, and twenty-six days.
In his absence, Matthew and Zhang Hao struggle to carry on and to love each other as wounded pieces of a former whole.
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17 Aug 2025
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awesome. also itching to know abt the end. beautiful work
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"Nothing is wrong with you, Qubing.”
It’s too much. Gyuvin wants him to stop talking. This is only their second session and already Ricky has opened him up and found every tiny little bit of darkness he’s been hoping would go away on its own for months, and he feels too exposed.
“I think it’s a bit too soon for you to make that assessment,” Gyuvin says, and they both know he’s not talking about his body.
“I think I would say that regardless,” Ricky responds, with a bit of an edge to it.
or: Ex-Olympic hopeful Gyuvin attempts to move on with his life with physical therapy. Ricky is his physical therapist.
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kiss met by Nicoismysenpai
Fandoms: ZEROBASEONE | ZB1 (Korea Band), Boys Planet (Korea TV)
23 Jun 2025
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Matthew has always been Hanbin's. Hanbin will never be his.