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Felix hadn’t been an omega for very long. He’d always suspected that when his presentation finally came, he’d be an omega. It was a lot because of how petite he was for a guy, and how he lacked a lot of muscles in his arms and upper body. He was proud of the abs he’d worked for, but that was the only muscle on his body. When he’d presented, he’d gone through his first heat then immediately put on suppressants. His first heat was 8 days long, and tough on his body. He’d lost a lot of weight because he’d had no appetite to eat, he was in a lot of pain most of the time. His organs were developing further and causing a lot of discomfort.

The first few days he was just grouchy and moody, but from the start of the 3rd day until the end, he was in a lot of pain. He felt like his skin was on fire, and his whole body was hot. But then there would be times where he felt like he was freezing cold and dunked in a tub of ice water. It was back and forth. Seungmin and Jisung helped take of him with the help of Hyunjin’s advice. The betas, Seungmin and Jisung were least affected by Felix’s scent changing. Which made it the easiest for them to go in and check on Felix, and get him to drink water and eat when he was awake. Hyunjin could only give advice to what his presentation was like, which helped to an extent. His wasn’t as painful or as long as Felix’s. The first Heat is really unpredictable. Some people want to be touched by others and have sex, and others don’t. Due to the fact that nothing had ever been discussed, Felix was left to himself, because they didn’t want to cross any lines that Felix wasn’t deciding for himself.

And Felix was grateful for that. He didn’t know if he was ready to have sex, or have someone touch him like that. So the day after his heat ended, he was brought to the doctors to make sure he was healthy, and everything happened as it was supposed to, after all, he had presented on the later side of the usual age range. They’d determined he was healthy apart from the weight he’d lost from the last few days, but over all fine. His scent glands would come in further as he experienced more heats. But the thing was, at that same appointment, he was prescribed suppressants. Most people got a few weeks and went through one more heat before going on suppressants, but Felix didn’t get that opportunity. Not knowing how regular or irregular his heats were, the managers asked for him to be put on suppressants right away.

Those suppressants prevented him from really connecting with his body and understanding what it was like to be an omega. Things that many omegas did as second nature, were not for Felix. He had never built a nest, He didn’t understand it emotionally. He understood the logic behind it, an omega wants to feel safe and be surrounded by safe smells when stressed. But emotionally, he didn’t connect with that idea. Sure he liked the smell of his laundry soap and cologne he wore, but that was it.

There was other things too. Like he should know when to submit, smell the change in scent of his pack mates, and be nurturing. Felix didn’t see any of those traits in himself. When he took online quizzes that guessed your presentation, he always got beta. He didn’t associate himself with being an omega. There was a disconnect for him. He had the faint smell of an omega, but he was harder to smell because his scent glands were fully grown in. So he often was mistaken for a beta because of how faint his smell was, and people assumed he hung around an omega and carried their scent not his own. It was rather frustrating. People made assumptions about him all the time. He didn’t publicly reveal what his presentation was. Some of his group members had, and others hadn’t and were often speculated. No one knew what to designate him as. Many said Omega due to his petite features, but others said no he had to be a beta because he didn’t know anything about being an omega. It gave Felix a lot of mixed emotions in his head. He felt like he was a bad omega because he didn’t know anything about being an omega.

Hyunjin was confident and was out to the world as an omega. Everyone knew him as the group’s only known omega. The fans adored him and his mannerisms. How he had a glare that was piercing and made you look away, to a smile that was inviting and made you adore him. He had a duality to him that the fans couldn’t get enough of. They compared Felix a lot to Hyunjin, saying that if Felix was an omega, he lacked a lot of what Hyunjin had. It made him sad to be compared to his band mate over things he couldn’t really control about himself.

Chan was open about being an alpha and so was Changbin. Minho hadn’t said he wasn't an alpha just yet, but everyone suspected it. Jisung talked about being a beta and how his experiences were. Seungmin was one of the last to say that he was a beta. It left Felix and Jeongin as the only unknowns of the group. Felix was afraid to come out and say he was an omega at this point. Everyone had an opinion of him and he hadn’t even had the time to come to terms with his presentation before he was downing suppressant pills and moving on with their schedules. That was two years ago.

It was known that after Jeongin presented, no matter what his presentation, the pack would fully form their pack bond. They’d waited for Jeongin to present and then they’d proceeded forward with things. The baby of the group was a baby Alpha. Setting the group to 4 alphas, 2 betas and 2 omegas. The Alphas were on suppressants, but it was different for them. They only got ruts two times a year, every six months. Depending on the alpha though, some could have up to 4 ruts a year, or every three months. For Alpha’s they could pack bond without going off of their suppressants. It didn’t affect them the same it did for omegas. Which meant that everything had to be timed carefully.

Hyunjin and Felix both went off of their suppressants. Quarantine provided the best time to do so. They had reduced schedules, couldn’t preform live very often, it was the best time to do it. So, they set a plan. Both omegas went off their suppressants. For Hyunjin, this was fine. His body had adjusted to being an omega, he’d presented a year prior to Felix presenting, and didn’t go on suppressants right away. For Felix, it was a lot different. His body was finally going through the changes it was meant to go through two years before. He was moodier, which he could notice. A lot of things made him want to cry, which meant he hid himself away from the others more and more. He got cramps a lot, and all over his body. Sometimes his neck hurt, other times it was his lower back and his waist. There were days when he didn’t want to get out of his bed, but he had to because they had some sort of schedule he couldn’t avoid.

Felix’s sense of smell was slowly changing. Before, he could smell his band mates, but he couldn’t pick up on their moods or their emotions. He could smell them better, but he had no idea how to decipher all the smells. It was really overwhelming for him. There was at least 8 smells battling it out all the time, his own scent in the mix. He relied heavily on a nose spray that dulled the smells. He hadn’t told the others that he’d been using it. He wasn’t sure if they’d be mad or not. It felt like most days they didn’t notice him unless he went out of his way to make himself noticeable. He’d barely gotten lines in their songs, and finally with the last comeback, he had a lot more. Some stays were super excited about that, but there was a small group of them that sent him hate over it. It made him really sad, but he didn’t know what to do with that sadness. A lot of times he went to the dance studio and practiced for hours on end, trying to numb the hole in his chest. He didn’t pick up on his scent when it soured when he was upset, or how it changed when he was happy. He definitely didn’t know what preheat smelt like, or the signs to know it was coming. Hyunjin had yet to go through a heat since coming off of the suppressants, but he knew what to expect. He assumed Felix knew. Felix had been an omega for two years, he’d had to known something about it by now. And if not, management would have told him when he went off the suppressants. So he didn’t think to ask Felix if he had any questions.

One thing the managers hadn’t accounted for, was coming off of the suppressants had side effects. The longer you took it, the more rough the side effects. Hyunjin was moody, and on edge a lot of the time. Everyone took to making sure he was ok and happy. Felix began to feel the divide then. Everyone was checking in on Hyunjin, but not on him. It made him feel things he didn’t understand. He knew everyone could smell when he was sad, so he started using scent blockers. It made him feel icky, but it was the only way he felt like he could control everyone’s perception of him. No one had noticed his scent missing, and he was trying to avoid them missing it and questioning him on it.

So when Hyunjin went into heat, no one batted an eye, they knew it was going to happen, and they prepared for it. Hyunjin was sex positive during his heats, but only with specific people he was most comfortable with. It was nothing personal, he just wasn’t ready to have any physical relation with Jeongin, especially because Jeongin had only now become of age. Hyunjin’s heat was 6 days long, and pretty normal. Seungmin and Minho took care of him. The alpha and beta brought him food and water when needed, and helped him take care of his urges when needed. Hyunjin’s heat worked in waves, he’d be horny for a while and then normal, and over the 6 days, it would come usually every 6 to 12 hours. It depended on how long it lasted. A lot of preparation went into a heat week. Food was cooked in advance for the omega who would be going through heat, and schedules changed around. The first two days of Hyunjin’s heat was what most considered Preheat. Meaning it was when he was seeking comfort out the most. He’d scent the others and whine at the others until they scented him back. He’d build a nest and feel very tired and achy until the 3rd day of his heat when his body kicked into the horny stage of the heat. After that point, Hyunjin’s brain was only concerned with the alpha taking care of him, and the knot he desperately wanted.

With all the scrambling to fix their schedules and adjust for the week that Hyunjin would need, it meant that everyone was attending things at different times. The day before Hyunjin went into preheat, Felix went into preheat, but he didn’t know it. He had no knowledge to base anything off of. He had his own little studio in the JYP building. It was much smaller than most of the other’s but it was his own locked space. Felix had a small couch and a desk inside. There wasn’t much but he was proud of it. He didn’t know he was in preheat. He’d gone to all of his meetings for the day, but didn’t feel like going back to the dorm yet, so he went to his studio. But his studio felt really boring, and like he needed a blanket or two. So he grabbed a face mask and a hat and snuck his way out of the building and to a nearby store. He’d bought 4 blankets and a few little pillows before he stopped himself. He told himself he was just trying to pretend to be an omega, and he put back some of what he’d grabbed. He’d ended up with 3 soft blankets and two pillows and a stuffed animal.

Back in his studio, he’d played with the blankets until he’d felt comfortable and content with how it all looked. This was a clear sign that he’d missed. He was nesting, he’d sought out comfortable things, in a place where he felt comfortable, and was bundled up in all his blankets. Setting an alarm clock for the morning, he’d fallen asleep wrapped up in his blankets, his heat just hours away.

When the first wave started, Felix wasn’t sure what was happening. He woke up sweating, and feeling exhausted with everything aching. It didn’t take long for his body to kick up the intensity. His head hurt so bad he couldn’t think. He remained curled up on his couch feeling awful for hours. What he hadn’t realized, was that management had known Hyunjin was due for a heat, and planned it out that Felix would take that time off just in case he went into heat as well. But no one told Felix that, so Felix didn’t know that he had no schedules for the week. He’d checked his phone, saw that he had nothing for the day, and promptly passed out.

The next time he woke up, he was freezing cold and couldn’t get warm. Nothing made sense, his body wanted something but he didn’t understand what it was. His throat felt horrible. Moving his head was uncomfortable and something he tried to avoid doing. Laying on his back did nothing for his pain, so he stayed mainly on his side. When the horniness set in, he felt so crude for jacking off in his studio, that he refused to do it until it became beyond unbearable. He felt so much shame touching himself. By the time he’d climaxed, he was still hard. He knew logically that an omega in heat often needed more, they either needed an alpha, or they needed to find a way to stimulate themselves until it passed. He had slick coming out of him at an alarming rate. He felt so disgusting.

By the third day, he was quite weak and too tired to jerk off. He’d eaten all the snacks he’d had hidden in his desk. He spent all of the 3rd day delirious and confused. He felt too hot and too cold at the same time. His sense of time was gone. The 4th day hadn’t gone much better, but he had more periods of where he was awake. In his mind, when he was aware enough of himself, he wondered why none of his bandmates had come looking for him. He hadn’t been home in days, and it felt like no one had even noticed him missing. It made the hole he felt in his chest, feel even bigger. He felt rejected, and like none of them really cared for him. On the 5th day, it started to break. He was more conscious of himself, but that wasn’t necessarily a good thing. He was more depressed than he’d ever been in his life. When his heat finally broke on the 6th day, he felt disgusting and awful. His studio smelt god awful. He hadn’t showered in over a week, and he hadn’t ate in so long that he was extremely light headed.

Knowing that there was showers near the dance studio, he just had to get down the hallway and into the shower without anyone seeing him. Seeing as it was 4 in the morning, he figured it would be fine. He covered himself in scent blocker and grabbed a set of clean clothes that were in his desk sealed off and made a run for the bathroom. The shower felt heavenly. He was the cleanest he’d been in days, and the hot water felt good on his muscles. He reapplied the scent blocker as he got dressed and headed for his studio. He moved all the blankets and pillows to the floor to be dealt with later, and curled up in a ball and went back to sleep. He’d turned the air conditioner on even though it was the middle of winter, because he wanted the smell to disappear.

One thing Felix definitely should not have done after waking up in a bad mood was look at the internet and all the comments about how people didn’t want him in the group. His phone was empty, no one had noticed him not at home for an entire 6 days. It made him feel really shitty. It was when he was in a clearer mind then his heat induced fog, that he realized the managers had given him the week off too just in case he went through his heat as well. He was too afraid to return to the dormitory and face everyone. So he asked the manager for their schedule for the week, and he camped out in his studio. He’d gone to the convenience store and bought more snacks for himself and also took his blankets to a laundry mat where he washed everything and made sure it smelt like pure soap and nothing else.

He slept on his couch for another two days, not breathing a word to anyone else. At this point, he hadn’t seen his band mates in over a week, and it made him nervous to have to see them. Would they know he went through heat? Would they be upset he didn’t tell them? Were they relieved to not have to deal with him and his brokenness? His mind was a whirlwind. But the one thing he knew would protect him, was the scent blocker. If they couldn’t smell the sadness on him, he’d be okay.

So when he faced them for the first time in over a week, he acted like nothing was different, like he’d been at home the entire time. And the thing that made him so mad inside, was that no one even noticed or said a thing. Everyone was telling Hyunjin to not push himself after having a rough week, and telling him to take breaks. Felix pushed harder and harder and was working himself to the bone. He stayed later to practice, an excuse for not going home these days. He only felt safe in his studio when he was alone. He could smell the others much better than prior to his second heat, but no one could smell him due to the scent blockers. Everyone thought it was just his muted scent.

Two weeks passed with Felix living in his studio and no one noticing. He was always present for schedules and no one questioned where he was, so he assumed no one cared. It tore him apart inside. He was such an undesirable omega, that he reasoned with himself that he would be a better beta. So he fought every urge he had, every little thing that made him an ‘omega’ he challenged. He went to the gym when no one was there, late at night. He wanted to pass as a beta, and would stop at nothing to achieve that goal. He’d lost a lot of weight though. His only meals were convenience store ramen and sandwiches. He’d been so upset most of the time that he skipped meals, and it showed. He wore clothes that hid his frame so that no one could see it. He wanted to be a good beta, maybe then his bandmates would approve.

Felix had always been thin, but he was near skeletal when Chan put his foot down. He told Felix that he couldn’t be spending long nights at the studio anymore. Felix threw a fit. Chan was taking the one safe place he had, away from him. Everyone was concerned for Felix, they could see that he wasn’t himself, and that his personality had taken a 180 degree turn. He had this flat look in his eyes, and like he was shutting down slowly. When Jisung described it to Chan, he described it as, “windows 98 shutting down, with a blue screen of death.” meaning there was so much sadness and blankness to him. No one could smell his faint scent anymore, and no one had been able to get Felix to slow down. He was going full speed a head into a wall with how much he was pushing himself and not taking breaks or taking care of himself. Felix was getting dizzy in dance practices but not saying a word. No one could remember the last thing Felix spoke. He’d shrug and nod but no words ever passed his lips.

Then finally it all came crashing down. Chan had been waiting for it. He knew Felix couldn't burn himself out at both ends for too much longer. The younger would crash at any moment. And when he crashed, he crashed hard. Everyone had discreetly commented on how ill fitting Felix’s costume was prior to their dance performance. It had been fitted only a month prior. It was massive on Felix. The stylist noonas were doing what they could to tighten his outfit so it looked normal. Felix’s jeans were grabbed from a kid’s section Chan later found out. His shirt had to be safety pinned on the inside to pull it tighter, and make it look like it fit him normally. The makeup they did on him, hid his dark circles and his gaunt appearance.

Mid dance, Everyone noticed Felix struggling. He was a count off, and sloppier than his usual work. It wouldn’t be enough for someone else outside of the group to notice, just something they’d be able to see. So when he walked off stage and collapsed in the wings of the stage almost immediately, Changbin had done what he could to try and catch the younger when he fell. Changbin picked Felix up from the wing and carried him to where the managers were directing him. The entire time, Felix was unconscious, with his head dropped to the side, arms and legs hanging as Changbin carried him bridal style.

They rested him on a table that a makeup noona had cleared off quickly. Felix made no show to wake up.

“what do we do hyung?” Changbin asked Chan.

“I think he should go to the hospital. It’s obvious he’s unwell.”

The manager disagreed. Chan argued for 15 minutes and Felix had still yet to wake up. Everyone else agreed that Felix should be seen by a doctor. So, reluctantly the manager had them put Felix in a car and sent him to the hospital with another manager. Everyone else was left to get out of costume and head back to the dorms. No one was pleased. Chan knew he could only buy his band mates patience for a little longer. He told them in a hushed voice, “We play the manager’s game for now, we go home, we change, and we go to where Felix is. He shouldn’t be alone.”

Everyone agreed and followed the plan. That’s how their other manager found himself surrounded by the rest of the group. The manager hadn’t been told anything yet, but it was likely they’d hear something soon. And it was true, they only waited there for another 15 minutes and then they were finally approached by a doctor who ushered them into a private room to talk to them. He explained that Felix passed out due to low blood sugar, exhaustion, and dehydration. He then asked how had Felix’s heat passed and no one knew what he was talking about.

“I’m asking about his heat, because his scent glands are swollen completely, and he’s showing signs of an omega related illness.”

“We haven’t been able to smell him..” Seungmin commented.

“That would be the scent blockers. We scrubbed off most of it, when he’s awake, we’ll be able to scrub off more.”

“He’s been using a scent blocker?” Minho asked.

“It appears to be that way, yes. We can see that he's been using it for an extended period of time because of how swollen his scent glands are, and under developed. Do you know how long he had gone after his first heat before being put on suppressants?”

This time the manager replied, “Days at most. I wasn’t working for the company then, but I believe I was told it was between one and two days.”

The doctor sighed heavily, “That would likely explain a lot. I’m going to have one more test run real fast, please wait here.” The doctor said before urgently leaving.

They all locked at each other, worried.

“What does that mean?” Seungmin asked.

The manager replied grimly, “going on suppressants that quickly, might have caused Felix’s to get really ill, so when he came off of the suppressants, his body finished his presentation. It usually takes 2-3 heats to finish presenting and all the organs to develop fully. He only went through one, which means that this second heat, was intense, but also a lot could have gone wrong.”

“Meaning he was in a lot of pain?” Jisung asked.

“More than likely, and his scent glands went through it too. I’d imagine that his faint scent, was because his glands were not fully developed and now that they are, they might be smaller than usual because it was delayed for so long. But the doctor will know for sure. We just have to be patient.” The manager responded.

Finally, after what seemed like an hour, the doctor returned.

“I ran more tests, and I now can confirm his illness. So, because he went on suppressants so quickly, his presentation was never fully completed. Having delayed it for two years, meant that his scent was indeed more faint than usual, and he might not have really connected with his subgender and that creates a lot of emotional strain on someone. His scent glands are now developing but because he was using scent blockers, it was effecting it. Now that we’ve removed the scent blockers, he should start to feel better soon. However, that is just the beginning.”

“What do you mean?” Chan asked.

“We looked at some of his other organs and they are not fully developed yet. There is no guarantee that they will ever fully develop. However, we will not know until he goes through another heat. How long ago did he go off of his suppressants?”

“We estimate about two weeks ago. Hyunjin went off of his suppressants as well.”

“Were you guys intending to do a pack bonding?”

“Yes. That is why we had them go off of their suppressants. Our youngest Alpha just presented.”

“If you can, wait, I would suggest it. He is not ready to do it yet, and if you intend to have him join your bond, and you do not wait, it will hurt him emotionally, and make his omega feel rejected and unworthy. It will make him sicker.”

Everyone nodded.

“When can we see him?” “Do you have a diagnosis?” Multiple people said at once.

“You can see him shortly, I would suggest that you all control your scents as best as possible, he will not be used to smelling your scents at full strength. He smelt you with a very restricted ability. If you can, please try to clean yourself off in the bathrooms, I understand you guys were just at dance practice? All the sweat will intensify your scents for him. And the official diagnosis, is an incomplete presentation.”

“What does that diagnosis mean for him?”

“It means that right now, his body is very fragile, and we need to get him healthier so that he can have a third heat, and hopefully his presentation will be complete. When he is strong enough, we can induce a heat, it is not ideal, but it is an option. We do not know how the next 24 hours will go. He is stable, but is fragile. When his body is strong enough, we can discuss inducing a heat. If we later decide to do that, it would be best to do so while in the hospital so that we can watch over him and intervene if needed.”

Everyone nodded.

“Please use the bathroom to wipe away as much sweat as you can, and if you have spare clothes, please change. Once you do so, I can allow you to visit Felix.” The doctor finished.

Everyone nodded and went into the bathroom to clean themselves off as best as possible. Minho, Hyunjin and Seungmin went into the bathroom first. They washed themselves off as best as possible. Once they exited the bathroom, Jeongin, Chan and Jisung went into the bathroom. Chan helped Jeongin make sure he got all of his scent glands wiped clean from sweat. Jisung sniffed them and told them they smelt better and then they all exited the bathroom. Changbin went last and came out a few minutes later. With everyone smelling cleaner, the doctor then lead everyone to Felix’s room.

When they got there, the doctor paused, “Please be careful of all the wires and things.”

Walking into the room, they all saw Felix lying on a hospital bed asleep. Walking closer, they saw that he had something up his nose, an IV in the back of his left hand, and wires that were under the hospital pajamas on his chest.

“He’s got an IV and feeding tube to get as much nutrients into him as possible, he’s very weak at the moment.”

Everyone nodded. Jisung took his right hand gently.

Not everyone fit in the room comfortably, the room was bigger than a standard room, but it was still small. The manager suggested, “Why don’t some of us go home right now, and change, get some dinner and then switch with those who stay.”

Reluctantly the manager convinced them to decide who would stay and who would go. Hyunjin, Seungmin, Changbin and Jeongin would go home, eat and change and return while Chan, Jisung and Minho stayed. Chan and Jisung sat on both sides of Felix, Jisung on the right and Chan on the left, and minho sat closer to Chan on the left side, but near Felix’s feet.

“Hyung, he smells like flowery but not a gross overly sweet floral smell like sniffing something in the middle of spring. It smells really good. It’s not at all overwhelming, and it’s not like one of those old woman perfumes, he smells so good.” Jisung said softly.

“He smells really good. He always had that faint floral smell, but it was easily covered up by any of our scents.” Chan commented.

“I…I know he’s probably hurting. We didn’t even know he was in heat….” Jisung commented.

“He’s probably really upset with us. I’m guessing he was in his studio the entire time. I know that while we want to go check out his studio, we need to let him invite us in, because that is his space, and his omega picked it as a safe place, and we can’t ruin that for him.” Chan replied.

“What do we do now? Where do we go from here?” Minho asked.

“We make sure Felix knows that we care about him. That he is our friend, he is our pack, and nothing will change that.” Chan said evenly, trying to keep his own emotions in check.

“Do you think they’ve told him about his diagnosis?” Minho questioned.

“I doubt it. He seems pretty out of it right now. They’ve probably got him on some good pain killers.” Jisung said as he gently brushed some of Felix’s hair out of his face.

“He’s so pale…” Minho said, starting to get upset.

“He looks sickly.” Jisung replied.

“He’s bone and skin. There’s no way they can induce another heat, not while he’s like this.” Minho said with worry.

“They won’t. As long as nothing triggers another heat, he’ll be okay. Everyone but Jeongin and Hyunjin are on suppressants. Jeongin clearly needs more time before being put on suppressants too. I wish he could get the decision to avoid them, but with our schedules…it’s the only way.” Chan sighed.

“it sucks for alphas, but it sucks more for Omegas. It dulls their senses. Hyunjin is never the same when he’s on suppressants. He's always more tired, more moody, tends to get more aches and pains because his body wants to go into heat, but he’s not letting it. It would be healthier for him to stay off of suppressants, and we plan around heats once he’s consistent.” Minho explained with his voice starting to get louder.

“Yah, stay calm, okay?” Chan reminded Minho.

“It just pains me to see Felix in a hospital bed, with IVs and a feeding tube. We did this, directly or indirectly. We neglected his omega. Think about it. He never nested, never scented anyone, he missed out on a lot of things that were crucial for his development. All we can do is hope that he finishes presentation. I can’t stomach the idea that Felix would never be able to have kids because his womb never fully developed because he never finished presenting.” Minho huffed.

“Jisung, you and Minho should go take a walk, Minho, you’re starting to smell strongly, and remember, we don’t want to overwhelm Felix’s nose just yet. The others should be back soon. Why don’t you call them and see where they are?” Chan suggested, trying to keep the situation calm.

Minho sighed, nodded and got up. He looked to Jisung who looked at Felix before getting up and following the older.

Chan texted Changbin to just bring him back some clean clothes with him, because Chan had no intention of leaving Felix’s side. The idea of leaving one of their pack members while unconscious without someone looking over him, stressed Chan out. He couldn’t stomach the idea of leaving Felix’s side for longer than needed. Which entailed bathroom trips and that was about it.

Changbin sent back an emoji and that was it. Chan figured it meant a yes, and closed his phone. Chan took Felix’s right wrist, and gently rubbed it against his own throat, effectively scenting Felix. Within a few minutes, Felix’s breathing seemed to even out again, and keep him relaxed. Chan would have to agree with Jisung, Felix smelt amazing. He was excited for Felix to be able to smell all of them and describe what they smelt like to them.

Everyone interpreted smells differently. To Chan, he thought he smelt like coffee and leather. Hyunjin said he smelt like coffee and something else.

When Jisung and Minho returned, Hyunjin and the others were behind them. Changbin handed Chan a bag of clothes and Chan headed into the private bathroom to change. Once in clean clothes, he placed his dirty clothes in the bag and gave them to Jisung to take home with Minho. They got the hint as future pack leader, Chan wasn’t leaving Felix’s side until he was better.

The two left with the manager to go home. Likely they wouldn’t be coming back that night. Trading spots, Chan sat on Felix’s right side, and Changbin sat on the left. Hyunjin sat to the left of Chan, holding Felix’s hand. Jeongin sat on the opposite side to the right of Changbin. Changbin was careful holding Felix’s hand with the IV.

Changbin carefully scented Felix’s wrist. Holding Felix’s wrist out gently for Jeongin, Changbin told the baby alpha how to scent Felix carefully. Knowing Jeongin couldn’t control how strong his scent was just yet, he had the baby alpha rub his wrist against Felix’s. It would provide his scent but it would be much fainter, so it wouldn’t overwhelm Felix. Hyunjin rubbed his wrist on Felix’s neck. Omega scents didn’t bother other omegas the same as alpha scents bothering them. Omega scents from someone you trusted, for another omega, was like hugging a sister or brother, or aunt. It was familial. Where as alpha scents were stronger, and more intense for an omega. Omegas could easily be scent into a scent high if they were to get a strong alpha scent. Hyunjin had done it a few times when he first presented- He’d scented Minho and Minho’s scent sent him into a high. Depending on how long someone scented, the high could last 15 minutes, to an hour.

Scenting was an intimate act. It was meant to be among packs as a way to stay close to each other. Everyone had realized that none of them had really ever scented Felix. Not even the betas. It broke their hearts. It was part of the reason they took so long to return, several of them spent time crying, and needed to calm down before they returned.

After being in the hospital for over 5 hours, Felix finally began to wake up. It was about 30 minutes after everyone scented him. He looked a little less pale, and had more color to his skin. He was less gray and green. At first he was really confused to where he was. Finally after waking up and falling back asleep a handful of times, Felix woke up around 4 in the morning and was able to be more aware of his surroundings. The manager had made most of the group leave around midnight- only Chan and Jisung remained. The rest were at home sleeping in their best. The alpha and beta were asleep on the chairs beside Felix, clearly uncomfortable.

The nurse checked on Felix briefly before telling him to get some more rest. Ultimately he woke up later on at a more reasonable time. Chan woke up around six and couldn’t fall back asleep. He was on his phone, checking emails, researching what a delayed presentation was, how it happened, what the symptoms were, and how to treat it. A lot of it explained Felix’s mannerisms. He didn’t nest, didn’t scent his blankets and pillows, didn’t scent anyone for that matter. Couldn’t smell everyone as strongly, his scent was more like a beta’s, in that it was faint, and his ability to smell was like a beta’s- not as strong. Which meant he smelt everything and it was muted.

Further, Felix’s womb might not have developed all the way, and he would need an ultrasound to be able to tell. He might not be able to carry children in the future, he could experience infertility even if his womb developed all the way. There was a whole list of things that broke Chan’s heart.

When Felix woke up for the second time, Chan was next to him and wide awake. Felix didn’t know what to say at first.

“Felix, mate, I’m so glad you’re okay. We were all so scared for you. How are you feeling?”

“I…everything hurts. What’s that smell?” he said groggily.

“Which one?”

“It’s kind of like vanilla, and a bunch of other things? Flowers?” Felix questioned.

“That’s your scent. Here, Smell my wrist.” Chan said softly, and held his wrist close to Felix’s face so he could lean in.

Felix took a careful sniff, “You smell like…Coffee…and a leather jacket…and it’s spicy??” Felix questioned.

“That’s accurate. Hyunjin says I smell like coffee and leather. I don’t really smell the leather scent on myself, but it’s there.”

Felix nodded and took another sniff. He didn't’ even realize he did it, but he rubbed his face against Chan’s wrist as he sniffed, scenting and calming himself with the alpha’s scent subconsciously. Chan didn’t say a thing, and let Felix do what he wanted.

“What does Jisung hyung smell like?”

“Jisung? It’s a lot like a fruit punch energy drink. It’s very faint because he’s a beta, but it smells good. Here, take a sniff.” Chan said as he redirected Felix’s attention to Jisung’s wrist. The other had fallen asleep with his arms on the bed, using them as a pillow to support his head.

“ooh you’re right.” Felix said softly as he sniffed and scented Jisung.

It didn’t take long for the nurse to come in and then go back out to get the doctor to tell Felix what was going on.

Felix tried not to cry, but it was hard. There was so much he missed out on, and so much he had to make up for. Chan held him as he cried. Felix buried his head into Chan’s shoulder. The elder scented him to calm him down. It helped.

“Am I a broken Omega hyung?”

“Never. Even if things don’t workout as planned, you are never broken. We will love you as family, forever and always. The ability to carry children never dictates that. You are Felix first and most importantly. As long as you are happy, we are happy. We will love and support you for as long as you will let us.”

“Will you still pack bond me?”

“Yes, but not yet. We are going to wait until you are healthy enough. The doctor told us to wait until after you have a 3rd heat.”

Felix hummed but he didn’t respond for a while. “What if it takes a long time for me to get another heat?”

“Well, that’s fine. We wait until you are healthy, happy and ready. The doctor has mentioned that if you were healthy and strong enough, they would induce a third heat while you were here at the hospital so that they could make sure you were safe and everything was working out.”

“oh.”

“Even if the doctor chose to induce you, we would still wait until you were happy and healthy. We want you to be happy. We will wait for you, we have no problems waiting.” Chan assured him.

“Thank you.”

Chan hummed and hugged him tighter. “I can’t wait for you to smell all the others. They should be here soon. No one wanted to go home last night. We had to fight over who would stay.”

“everyone?”

“Everyone, darling. Our little baby alpha huffed at me, Seungmin, Hyunjin, and Minho all tried to use pouts and tears to convince me. Changbin, he wanted to stay, but I needed someone who was next oldest to control the youngest ones. Which is why Changbin and Minho were left in charge. Changbin would be strong against Minho when Minho caved to the other’s will. Jisung, I know how close you two are, and it seemed like the right decision.”

“Thank you hyung, for having my interests in mind, but also the others.”

“I do my best, but sometimes I slip up, and I let things fall apart. We should have never made you go through heat alone. I am sorry that you did not feel comfortable enough to share your heat with us, but I am glad that you have a place that you feel safe in, and you could go through your heat safely.”

“I…I didn’t know I was in heat until it was too late. I’d bought blankets and pillows, originally I just wanted to decorate because I thought I was bored. But then later on I realized I was nesting. By the time it started, I didn’t think it was safe to leave my studio. I…its not that I don’t feel safe with you and the others, because i do. I feel safe…I …I feel broken sometimes.”

“And that’s valid. I’m glad you were safe, and somewhere that no one could hurt you. It was smart to stay in your studio once you realized. We can’t change what happened, but we can change our future actions. We can work through this. If you decide that you don’t ever want to spend your heat with us, that is your decision. You get to make all the decisions about your body.”

“Thanks hyung. I…I think it’s too soon to know what I want. I think for now, i just want to go home.”

“That’s completely fair.”

“Do you think the doctors will let me go home soon?” Felix asked. Jisung was still snoring away.

“Depends. I don’t really know.” Chan said softly.

The two sat talking about random stuff for a little while longer. The others showed up all together. Jisung finally woke up when they all entered the room. The beta stood up so Changbin could sit, and then crawled into his lap. Putting his head in the other’s neck. “I’m so sleepy.” he whined.

After everyone got there, the nurse came in with the doctor.

“Hello Felix. How are you feeling?”

“Much better than before.”

“That’s good. Your blood pressure is at a normal rate, so is your blood sugar and the IV helped with the dehydration. You’re looking a lot better than before. I know there has been mention of inducing a heat. I’ve talked with a specialist, and they’ve suggested that you wait one more week before we do that. They want you to be hydrated and and have more strength before we put your body through essentially a stress test.”

“Does that mean he needs to stay for a week at least?”

“Ideally, we would say yes. But right now, we think that if he were at home, where he feels safe with you all, that it would be better for him. Where the scents are familiar and there isn’t worry about the public or media outside the hospital doors. So, we will release him later tonight- only if you stick to the recommended meal plan we will give you. He needs a lot of protein heavy meals, with a considerable amount of carbs. This is because he will likely lose weight again during the induced heat. We want him to counteract that, if you follow.”

“Oh, so you want him to gain weight, that way if he loses weight, he’ll still be healthy?” Minho commented.

“Exactly?” The doctor confirmed.

Felix nodded. He knew he’d lost some weight over the last few weeks because of his heat and stress from the comeback.

“After about a week and a half, we’ll have him come in for an appointment, if he is strong enough then, we will go through with inducing the heat. We have an entire floor for Omegas in heat. Unfortunately, no alphas are allowed on that floor. So, only future pack mates that are beta and omegas are allowed. This is for safety for him and other omegas in heat.”

Felix nodded, even though he didn’t like the idea of being away from Chan hyung.

“So, that means Jisung, Seungmin, and Hyunjin will be allowed on that floor with him.” The doctor commented.

Everyone nodded in understanding.

“Okay! If that’s everything, then I will be on my way. After Felix eats lunch here, he will be allowed to leave! Thank you, and take care.” the doctor said before bowing and exiting the room with the nurse.

“Are you scared Felix?” Hyunjin asked softly.

“A little. I spent that first heat with only Jisung. I know that he’ll take care of me. I’m scared because it won’t be at home, or somewhere I am familiar with.” Felix said softly, with his knees pulled up to his chin, chin resting on his knees.

“It’ll be okay Felix-ah. I’ll be with you, and Seungmin and Hyunjin.” Jisung said as he crawled out of Changbin’s lap and into the bed beside Felix, careful of all the wires and tubes.

“We’ll take good care of you, and the doctors will make sure you are healthy.” Hyunjin said as he rubbed Felix’s shoulder, having moved closer to the other.

Felix hummed. He closed his eyes and hid his face in Jisung’s neck. “You do smell like an energy drink.” he mumbled. Jisung laughed, “You can smell me?”

“mhm.” Felix mumbled as he wrapped his non IV hand around Jisung’s waist.

The whole group sat around Felix’s room for hours. Changbin eventually had Hyunjin sit in his lap. Chan had given his seat to Minho when he’d gone to the bathroom. Jisung was still cuddling Felix, but Jeongin had joined them. There wasn’t much room on the bed, and the nurse wasn’t very pleased when she saw the two in bed with Felix but she allowed it because Felix was reacting well to their scents and not feeling ill from everyone’s scents mixing together.

At lunch time, the nurse kicked Jeongin and Jisung out of the bed so Felix could eat. Chan reluctantly agreed that some of them could go to the cafeteria in the hospital and get lunch. The manager had stopped by just before then, and told them that half the group needed to go home because having all 8 of them leave together would be a lot, and their chances of the media catching on, was a lot higher. So reluctantly, Jisung, Chan, Jeongin and Seungmin went home, leaving Minho, Hyunjin and Changbin with Felix.

Felix ate his lunch and the nurses began the discharge papers. Everyone wished Chan had been left behind to read the paperwork but luckily a manager came and took care of all the paperwork for them. Felix was dressed in Changbin’s hoodie, a hat, a face mask, jeans and stood between Minho and Changbin, with Hyunjin in front of him. Clutching Hyunjin’s hoodie sleeve from behind, they walked together with their heads down as they exited the hospital in the back near where the ambulances parked.

Everyone who’d been at home, had been getting the dorm ready. They made sure all the dirty laundry had been washed, there was no unpleasant smells, and food was ordered. Once Felix and the others got home, he was carried to the bathroom by Changbin who’d been ordered by Minho to prepare a bath for Felix when he got home. They asked him if he wanted to be alone or have someone sit in the bathroom with him. He chose to have Hyunjin sit in the bathroom with him, but not in the tub with him. The other helped washed his hair, and dry his hair before getting out of the tub. It was a tender act. Omegas tending to each other was seen as a way to bond, and be closer to one another. After the bath, Felix cuddled up to Hyunjin and Seungmin in Hyunjin’s bed.

Hyunjin and Seungmin were careful when scenting Felix. He smelt amazing. They would hide their faces in Felix’s neck and take deep breaths. Hyunjin ended up sending himself into a scent high, but was content where he laid, Felix wrapped up in his arms.

At dinner time, Minho had a hard time breaking the three of them up so they would get up and eat. It took him 15 minutes to separate the three and get them up and at the table. Felix opted to sit in Changbin’s lap and be fed by the others. Jeongin helped feed Felix the mandu with chopsticks carefully. Felix hummed happily as he relaxed into Changbin’s arms. By the end of dinner, he was humming gently with his back to Changbin’s chest and his head thrown on the other’s shoulder, Changbin’s arms wrapped around him, holding him close. Chan and Minho had watched Felix eat carefully, making sure that he ate most of what was on his plate, and was drinking water and following the doctor’s orders.

Felix reluctantly got up out of Changbin’s lap and followed Jisung to his bed. He cuddled the beta and buried his head in the other’s neck. “Everyone smells so good.”

“I know Felixah.” Jisung hummed. “You smell good too.”

“Thanks hyung.” Felix yawned and eventually drifted off to sleep.

The next week went very similarly. He was woken up from another member’s bed, dragged to breakfast where he sat in the lap of someone and was fed by another. It was an act of love and devotion. Then he’d go and either sit on the couch with someone and watch either youtube or movies or a drama or they'd go over stuff for the comeback. Felix’s days were kept less busy, and less active. The doctors really wanted him to gain the weight, so they advised to keep his dancing rates low so that he wouldn’t burn off the calories he was consuming. So he had time to study Korean, and go to other meetings and vocal practice. His lunches at home were spent in the lap of someone and being hand fed. But if he was at the company, he was always next to someone but being hand fed. Dinner was similar. If they were at home, he was always curled up in someone’s lap, but if they were at the company, he was next to them and being hand fed. The week went rather fast. Felix didn’t think he was gaining weight but when he went in for the check up, the doctor said he was almost there. He needed to gain another few pounds and then he would be coming into the doctor’s office.

This time, they recommended he eat a lot of junk food and lots of food in general so they could have him gain weight quickly. They recommended he eat around 4,000 Calories a day, which was above what a regular diet was recommended. They wanted him to basically eat an entire bag of chips, and then whatever else was high calorie so that he would be able to go through his heat safely. It took another week but he reached the goal. He absolutely hated eating so horribly, but it was literally the doctor’s orders. His pants were tight in the waist, and he had such a negative view of himself when he looked in the mirror. He avoided mirrors and taking selfies. Everyone else thought his rounder cheeks were cute, and that they made him look squishy and young.

The night before his trip to the hospital, Felix spent it curled up with everyone all together in the living room. They’d watched several movies, cuddled and scented each other. Ultimately, they all fell asleep around the room. When morning came, all the alphas scented Felix as strong as possible. They wanted him to smell like them. It was essentially them marking their territory. And while it sounds degrading, it was kind of sweet. They wouldn’t be able to spend time with him, but they could give their scent to him until it wore off. What the alphas failed to realize, was that Jisung and Hyunjin had gone through the dirty laundry and grabbed some dirty shirts as well as clean ones for Felix to use in his nest.

By the time they got to the hospital, Felix was an anxious mess. He didn’t want to go through a heat so close to the other one but he knew he had to. He hadn’t spent his heat with anyone other than Jisung, and that had him worried as well. There was several things that had him anxious and worried about how things were going to go. But the nurses and doctors understood his worries and made sure to explain everything to him before they began their procedure.

Basically, They had an entire floor for only omegas who were going through heat. It was for people like Felix who hadn’t presented all the way, needed a safe place to go through heat, or had other reasons for going through heat at a hospital. It made Felix feel safer knowing that not just anyone could enter the floor. There was a guard stationed at the door of the floor when you exited the elevator. Then once past the guard, you walked down a hallway to where there was a nurse’s station and then past that, was where the omegas were. There was a lot of security, and there was no way someone could sneak onto the floor without being seen first. It relaxed Felix a lot to see that.

Each guest had to check in downstairs at the front desk of the hospital, then be given a special pass that would permit them to go past the first security guard. Felix felt so relieved that not just anyone could enter the floor and see him at such a private moment.

The room he was given, was the last in the hallway at the very end. The nurse’s station was close by. The room it’s self had windows but they did not open. It let a lot of light in, but did not open for safety reasons. The bed was still a hospital bed, but it was slightly bigger than a standard issue bed. The rooms on this floor were kept warmer than the rest of the hospital, but not too warm. There was other furniture in the room. The nurse explained that if Felix chose, the people with him could stay the entire time with him, or they could leave if he decided at any time.

For now he wanted everyone who came with him there. Which was Jisung, Hyunjin and Seungmin. Jisung had put all the clothes and blankets they’d brought with them, on the bed, ready for Felix to put them how he wanted. But first the doctor wanted to talk to them.

The procedure would be rather quick, but the results could take time. Meaning, once induced, it could take several hours up to two days for the heat to start. They would give him a hormone shot that would jump start his body’s heat and trick it into starting another cycle. The shot went into his left bicep and was done within 30 seconds.

He didn’t feel anything right away. For the first two hours, he felt normal. But around the 3rd hour, he started to feel like he needed to fix his nest. Before then, the clothes and blankets just sat on the bed how Jisung left them. But now, Felix needed to fix everything in the room so it was just right. He moved the couches. Or well Seungmin and Hyunjin did because Felix begged them to move it as he batted his eye lashes and pouted. The room had to be how he wanted it. Eventually he moved on to fixing the blankets and clothes. He had all the blankets laying on the bed, and he jumped into the pile, and had all the shirts surrounding him so that he could smell everyone. He’d invited Jisung into the nest to lay with him. Jisung cuddled him and they watched a movie on the TV provided by the hospital.

For another two hours, Felix was content. But as it reached into the evening, he was getting restless. The nurses had given him some food an hour before, and they’d just barely gotten him to eat it. His appetite was slowly going away.

Finally, around the 8th hour since the injection, Felix was slowly going through heat. Up until that point, he was in preheat. He begged for Jisung to cuddle him and to ‘help’ him. So, Jisung had taken all the alpha shirts and buried them near Felix’s neck so he would smell them all. He then scented Felix pretty heavily and got him scent high. It calmed Felix for a little while. He then proceeded to beg for more. Hyunjin got closer to the bed. He’d been sitting on the couch he’d moved earlier. He asked Felix for permission to come closer and didn’t move until Felix told him he could. Once he was closer, he ran a hand through Felix’s hair and petted him gently, trying to soothe him. The horniness was a lot. Felix had tried to refuse asking for help. He felt shame for wanting them to take care of him.

But when Jisung finally gave Felix a hand, Felix moaned so loud he’d promptly came right there from just a firm grip from Jisung. It was the first of many climaxes, but none of them were the last. The rest of the evening was Felix being taken care of by Jisung, Hyunjin and Seungmin. Sometimes it was giving him water when he was more lucid, other times it was wiping him down gently with a cloth so that he felt cleaner. It was a long night for Felix. He felt a lot of pain. The doctor’s did come in and check on him very briefly. They waited between cycles and then entered with permission. They’d taken his blood pressure, checked his blood sugar, and made sure he was still in overall good health and then promptly left before the next cycle.

This continued for five days. It was one of the longer heats, and it was intense. At first Jisung and the other three had only given Felix hand jobs because that was what they were comfortable with at first. They’d discussed it prior, and that was something everyone consented to doing. Felix had said if his heat was that intense, and the doctors suggested doing something more penetrative, then yes he consented to sex. They’d gone the first day with hand jobs and blowjobs. But by the second day, Felix’s heat proved to be really intense. He begged for Chan hyung and everyone else. He wanted an alpha badly.

Jisung was the most comfortable with having sex with Felix because they’d done it before. They’d done it when Felix was in heat the very first time, and one other time after that. Jisung took good care of Felix. He made sure he was stretched properly before he fucked Felix hard and fast like the other had begged for him to do. While he didn’t have a knot, he could take his hand and wrap it around his dick while he was inside Felix, and let his hand slip inside, so it felt like a knot to Felix. Felix, who was so delirious in ecstasy didn’t notice the first time. He then begged for a real knot. Which was how Seungmin spent a few hours fucking Felix with a dildo Jisung had brought in the bag with the clothes. Seungmin and Hyunjin milked Felix, and that ended up helping him a lot.

They’d edge him until he was just about to come, back off and then do it again a few times. When he did come, he came really hard. It helped make the time between cycles be a bigger gap. The first two days were back to back nonstop with minimal breaks. No one got much sleep. But on the 3rd day, things shifted. Felix was much calmer and less agitated. He was more docile. While he still begged for a knot, he was doll like. Hyunjin realized the younger had gone into subspace and then made sure they adjusted what they were doing so that Felix was taken care of while in an even more sensitive state.

The fourth day, he was still in subspace, but much more reactive than the day before. He’d whine when someone left his side. He’d pout when they stopped touching him- whether it was just a hand on his knee, or anywhere else. Jisung fucked him a few more times. It was slow, and much more emotionally intense. It was intense for both of them. Jisung had tears in his eyes and hid his face in Felix’s shoulder after they’d slowly fucked. Felix rolled his hips down to meet Jisung’s as they’d made out. Jisung had orgasmed and it was the intensity of the moment that had him emotional. Once Felix had came, which was was right after Jisung put his hand on Felix’s cock and stroked him a few times, Jisung pulled out and then cuddled Felix. The rest of the day was spent with soft kisses and an occasional round of sex.

Day five was the day Felix was the most himself. He had less cycles back to back, and only needed a hand every few hours. By the evening, he was worn out and exhausted. The doctors came in after he’d showered and examined him. He’d lost weight, and was dehydrated, so they’d promptly given him an IV. They’d also gave him an ultrasound and discovered that yes, his reproductive organs had finished developing. There would have to be more tests to find out if he would be fertile and if he would be able to get pregnant and then carry a pregnancy through a term. Though, that depended heavily if that was something Felix wanted for himself. For the time being, he was not being allowed to return to suppressants for the next year at least.

The doctors kept him one more day before they let him go home. They made sure he was hydrated and eating enough to maintain his strength. They suggested he refrain from schedules for another day or two before he could return to regularly planed things. He was beyond sore and tired. He demanded cuddles from everyone. At home, he traveled from bed to bed, demanding cuddles and hugs. Minho and him cuddled for hours before Minho had to take care of something the manager asked him to do. He’d cuddled jeongin for as long as the baby alpha could sit still. Changbin cuddled him when he came home from the studio. They ended up falling asleep together until morning. He’d spent that morning in bed with Changbin until Changbin had to get up and go back to the studio to help Jisung with something. Thus, Felix demanded cuddles from whoever was home, which was Seungmin and Jeongin.

Cuddles and naps were how Felix spent the day. He wasn’t the most willing to eat, saying he was too tired. It wasn’t until Minho got home and made him eat what he handed the younger. Eventually Felix did eat everything in the bowl Minho had given him- all the rice and eggs that was in the bowl. By that evening, Felix was feeling a lot better and was ready to go back to schedules the next day. He spent his evening curled up between Chan and Hyunjin in bed after a long bath and lots of kisses from Jisung.

Since the last few days before the end of his heat, Felix and Jisung were more handsy and more touchy with each other than before. They didn’t know what to call what they were, or how to explain it, but they felt deeply connected to each other. They kissed a lot, cuddled, and texted often when they weren’t together. Everyone knew they had something going on, but it wasn’t exclusive. Meaning, Jisung stole kisses from Hyunjin in the kitchen, made out with Minho on the couch after dinner some nights, it was just something he did. He didn’t have the words for it yet.

Felix felt different after this last heat. He felt differently. Emotionally, he felt like he’d been missing something, and now that something was in place, and it felt fixed. He could smell everyone strongly, they could smell him. He nested all the time, he was softer, he relaxed more often, didn’t fight to stay at the studio for hours on end dancing until his legs gave out. He was healthier. He came to the realization that yes, he was an omega, and he wasn’t broken. He hadn’t presented fully.

He used the time he had off from schedule to debate whether or not he wanted to tell Stay about his presentation. Up to this point, he was not disclosed, and it was open to guessing. He’d always been compared to Hyunjin before, because he “lacked” a lot of “Omega” traits. On one hand, he wanted to share with stay what he had presented as, and that he was healthy and in better health than before. But on the other, it was something he wanted for himself. He didn’t want to have to explain his heat and how he’d never fully presented, and he didn’t want that to follow him for the rest of his life. So he could admit the full truth, a half truth, or keep the truth for himself.

He asked everyone what they’d thought, and they all told him, he should do what he thinks is right, and what will make him happy. They want him to choose his happiness over anyone else’s. So, that’s how Felix decided to admit to stay that he was an omega, and he’d presented recently. He wasn’t going to share how he’d been in the hospital, or that there was previous problems. That was his information to keep private. Only his pack mates needed to know, and they were there for it.

They had to wait another few weeks after Felix’s heat ended, but they all finally got to make the pack bond official. They did a lot of talking in the two weeks that led up to the official day set for the bonding. Chan refused to go forward with anything until everyone had sat down as a group and discussed everything from the last several weeks. Hyunjin talked about how he felt that Felix had been left out of his heat, and while it was completely unintentional, it deeply upset him. They as a group talked about that experience, and how alone Felix felt, and how he felt like he wasn’t a real omega, and that he was faking it, and all those things that surrounded how he felt like he should be a beta.

There was a very long and detailed conversation about expectations, and identities, and how no one had to be one thing, or be what society said they were. It was comforting for a lot of them. No one alpha had to be tough and merciless. They were allowed to be soft and emotional just as everyone else was. They didn’t have to be hyper masculine and only be what a box defined them as. And the same went for the betas and omegas. No one had to be overly emotional or dependent on an Alpha. There were some things that the alphas suggested as rules, like no one went out at night alone, everyone had a buddy. But that was more a safety thing than anything else. That meant every alpha had to have someone with them, whether it was another alpha, beta or an omega. They had to have a buddy when they left the dorm at night, or left the studio. It was to keep everyone safe and not alone.

The only other rule that was established, was no hiding any injuries, accidents, things that make you sad or risk your health. If you hurt your hand, you told someone. If you were going into heat, you told someone. If you smelt one of the omegas going into heat, you told someone. If you smelt an alpha going into a rut, you told someone. If anyone was sad, you talked to them and then decided if you needed to tell someone. The idea was that if someone needed help, there would be help given. Whether it was a hand to pick them off the ground when they tripped while dancing, someone scolding them to go to bed when it’s too late in the night, or watching a sad movie and crying, they wouldn't be alone, they wouldn’t feel alone.
When it came time to do the pack bond bites, Everyone silently agreed that Felix ought to be bitten first. He hadn’t expected that. He’d expected either the next oldest person to be bitten, which would’ve been Minho, or the oldest Omega, which was Hyunjin. But it was him. Chan had gently bitten him in the shoulder where pack bond bites go- the neck was for their partner, the person they marry. Felix felt so happy when Chan had bitten him. All of his worries and stresses about his place in the group, and in the pack melted away.

He knew, that no matter what happened in the days and months and years that came ahead of them, they’d face it together, as a group, as a family. He tackled Jisung once Jisung had his bite, and hugged him tightly. “Together” Felix mumbled. Jisung finished, “Forever.”

The End