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Bucky Barnes
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Steve and the team has been away on a mission for the past two weeks so i had the tower to myself due to the mission being about Hydra. I didn't really care because for the past month since i was so busy with missions and i was suppressing my head space which Jarvis kept telling me was bad.
I woke up to the sunlight shining through my eyelids which is a bit annoying but i didn't really care. I slowly opened my eyes sitting up as i rubbed them sleepily and childishly with my fist balled.
"Good Morning little one how was your sleep?" Jarvis' calming voice asked making me smile sleepily. "Twas good." I mumbled scanning the room a bit. "Do you want me to start your morning cycle?" He asked making me nod. "Yes pwease." I whispered softly. I then looked down at the bed a bit confused.
Where is my pacifier? I quickly got out of bed patting it down. "Paci?" I asked confused as i didn't find it even though i moved my comforter. "Pa- oh." I mumbled as i looked down seeing the blue pacifier with the blue elephant on front on the ground.
I slowly picked it up before walking into the bathroom washing it off under the tap before pushing it into my mouth contently. I then stripped from my clothes and filled the bath tub with water and bubbles.
When it was ready i got into it washing myself of and playing with the bubbles for a bit. One day i hope i could get bath toys but i have to keep my little stuff to a minimum so nobody can find it. When i was done i quickly dried myself off and drained the tub before walking out of the bathroom into the my room.
I walked over to the usually locked draw revealing not much stuff. There are 2 onesies one Disney themed and the other animal themed, a basic clear baby bottle with measurements on the side, a Winnie The Pooh themed sippy cup, 2 over sized shirts that i stole from Steve, and a extra paci which is yellow sporting a giraffe. Nothing much and nothing to special.
I quickly pulled on my underwear and pulled on my giraffe onesie before closing the draw as it automatically locked. With that i walked back into the bathroom looking into the mirror above the sink. I quickly brushed out of my hair pulling it into a messy bun before wrapping it in a yellow ribbon.
I pulled up the giraffe hood up making the face of the animal come into view making me giggle softly. I quickly took my paci out of my mouth brushing my teeth including washing my face before popping the paci back into my mouth and exiting the room satisfied.
"Ja'vis" I called out as i walked out of my room. "Yes little one?" Jarvis asked making me smile as his voice filled the short hall. "You 'ake da bottle?" I asked softly as i walked into the living room seeing the TV already playing my recently discovered cartoons.
"Yes little one, it's in the sink." He said as i walked into the kitchen spotting the bottle right where he said it would be. "Tank ou Ja'vis." I said receiving no answer from the A.I making me a bit sad but i quickly brushed it off.
I took the bottle out of the now warm water drying it off before taking my paci out of my mouth popping the bottle in its place. I started to suck on the silicone nipple happily as i walked over to the couch laying down. My Little Pony played on the TV. I really like My Little Pony and Jarvis knows that.
Well MLP and Paw patrol, and sometimes Sesame Street. As the colors danced around on the screen i started to feel my eyes slowly close due to the warm milk already working it way through my system. When i was done with the bottle i simply rest it down on the coffee table pushing my paci into my mouth as the curtains close making the room dim.
"Bucky sweepy." I announced with a small yawn. "Then close your eyes and go to sleep little one. I will be right here when you awake." Jarvis said as i pulled the blanket that Steve keeps thrown over the couch over me.
"Otay, night night." I whispered as i struggled to keep myself awake to hear Jarvis' answer. "Good night little one, sweet dreams." He said as i gave him a small nod before feeling myself pool into darkness.
Hoping for good dreams
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Steve Rogers
Finally after a two week long mission we were finally done. The whole team is now half asleep whiles we take the Quinjet home. Everyone is exhausted and dirty as they leaned up against each other engaging in small conversations. I was the only one who was wide awake due to my mind racing.
Before the team and I left on this mission I realized that Bucky was acting quite weird a week prior. He would sometimes slur his words or I would catch him with his thumb in his mouth or he just would be having what I would personally call a mini tantrum.
It wasn't enough for anyone else to catch on but I only did because I know Bucky. We share a floor together so of course I know when he's not acting like himself. Finally after 5 long hours we finally reached back to the tower.
"Yeah see you later." I say to the team as they all voiced there departure. Yet Sam stopped me. "Hey Cap." He say as I felt him grab my wrist making me turn around to face the dark skinned man.
"Hey Sam." I say as he gave me a small smile. "I was going to talk to you during the ride hope but I noticed that you was kind of deep in thought." He say making me chuckle. "Yeah I was, sorry." I say making the man smile more.
"Uh are we going on a run with me in the morning or are you skipping?" He asked as I bit my lip. "I might have to skip." I say making him nod. "Cool see you later Capsicle." He say making me smile before I nodded in response. He simply returned the smile before he turned to leave.
I then sighed before I took the stairs. Why the stairs? I still don't trust elevators that much, especially after what happened the last time I was in one. It wasn't long before I got to Bucky and I's floor taking out the key to unlock the door.
When I walked in I locked the door back not bothering to pocket the keys as I rest it down on the counter. "Bucky?" I called out receiving no answer. I then looked up seeing the TV was turned on playing cartoons. Cartoons?
"Bucky?" I called out a bit louder this time as I made my way to the couch. It was then that I realized the body laying in the couch. It was Bucky laying under the throw blanket with a blue pacifier sporting and elephant bobbing contently in his mouth as he wore a giraffe onesie.
A empty baby bottle that looked like it was filled with milk not to long ago rested on the coffee table vacant. I scanned Bucky once again quite confused on what's happening. "Bucky." I whispered tapping the man as his eyes quickly opened. He seemed confused at first until he spotted me and scrambled to sit up as his steel eyes screamed terrified.
"Bucky-" I didn't get to finish before the man bolted from off of the couch sprinting out of the room dropping the blanket and pacifier in the process. The sound of his room door shutting echoed through the now quiet room as I stood there stunned.
I slowly walked over putting the blanket on the couch before picking up the pacifier that I now realized had a cute elephant holding a daisy on the front making me smile softly.
I sighed before walking over to the kitchen washing the paci off before jogging off towards Bucky's room. When I got there i sighed before slowly opening the door not wanting to scare the brainwashed assassin more than he he already is.
"Bucky?" I whispered receiving a whimper as response before the sound of hissing almost sounding like water or pee filled the room including the cry's of the man. I looked over to see a dark yellow patch grew onto his onesie as puddle formed around him.
"Bucky." I whispered as I inched closer to him making him move away as he hid his face in his knees. "Hey buddy I'm not going to hurt you." I whispered calmly as I kneeled in front of him being overly aware of the puddle of pee.
"Bucky, can you look at me please?" I whispered softly as I wore a small sad smile. At first the brunette didn't move but he slowly looked up at me as I felt my heart strings pull. He looked broken and lost like the day he first came to the tower after getting the winter soldier removed from his head.
"I have your pacifier, do you want it?" I asked holding up the blue paci. Bucky eyed my gesture suspiciously before gently taking it out of my hand and pushing it into his mouth. He slowly started to suck on it as he looked away from me burring his head into his knees once more.
"Bear." I whispered making the man look up at the newly found nick name. "Don't you wanna come out of these icky clothes?" I asked making him nod. "Then lets get you cleaned up yeah?" I asked holding out my hand. He eyed my hand for a bit before he slowly placed his hand into my palm making me smile.
With that we both got up from off of the floor as I pulled him into the bathroom. I gently guided him to sit on the closed lid of the toilet as I gave him a comforting smile. "Lets get this off so I could put you onesie in the wash." I whispered as I started to pull the zipper down only to get stopped by Bucky.
"I tan do it." He said in a slight high pitched but a soft childish voice around his paci making me internally awe. Is that his voice? If he keeps using that I swear I will melt into a puddle. I simply nodded.
"Okay well I suppose your going to want to wash yourself to huh?" I asked making him nod innocently. "Okay well I'll just fill up the tub then I'll just be out side that door-" I say gesturing to the bathroom door.
"If you need me." I say making him nod. With that I quickly filled up the tub making sure that it wasn't to hot yet to cold before filling it with bubbles. I flashed Bucky a small smile before trudging to the living room to get the cleaning supplies.
Today is more eventful than I expected
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Bucky Barnes
As soon as Steve left the room I undressed myself and got into the bath washing myself off. What is happening? Shouldn't have Steve yelled at me? Shouldn't he have told me that I'm a freak and to leave the tower? Shouldn't he have pushed my out of the doors with no clothes or money telling me not to come or he will do something he would regret? Why is he being so nice to me?
With getting so caught up with my thoughts my paci fell out of my mouth into the tub making me whimper ever so softly. "Bucky? Are you okay?" Steve asked as he dipped his head into the room. "Steeb." I whimpered as tears fell down my face making Steve rushed into the room.
"What's wrong? Where's your pacifier?" He ask as I was about to rub my eye yet the blonde stopped me. "I don't think you want to do that." He mumbled wiping my tears himself as I sniffled a bit.
"Lets get you out of here." The blue eyed man whispered before exiting the room and walking back in holding a fuzzy looking towel. He the unplugged the tub allowing the water to drain out. Immediately he found my paci as the bubbly water uncovered it.
"That's where you were." He mumbled walking over to the marble counter sporting a sink resting the silicone on it. He walked back to the tub effortlessly scooping me into his arms making sure to wrap the towel around me as I snuggled into the crook of his neck.
I felt him smile as he washed my paci off and pushing it back into my mouth before walking out of the room gently resting me in the bed drying me off. I felt my cheeks heat up due to Steve having to touch my thankfully soft member a couple times.
"Don't be embarrassed Bear, your beautiful." He say making me blush more. Beautiful? Me? Really? "Where is your um, stuff?" He questioned as I looked up at the ceiling. He looked at me confused before following my gaze quickly realizing what he meant.
"Hey Jarvis you there?" Steve asked softly. "Yes captain always, what do you need sir?" He asked as I looked up at Steve who sighed. "Where is Bucky stuff?" He asked as I looked away from him now focusing on just sucking my pacifier.
"Last draw on the left." Jarvis announced before I felt Steve's warm hand leaving my thigh making me want it back almost instantly. Soon Steve was then standing over me again making me look up at him as he wore his focused face. It consisted of narrowed eyes as the tip of his tonged poked out of his mouth a bit. I simply giggled at the face making him look at me.
"What are you giggling about?" He asked with a smile making me giggle again. "Steeb looks silly." I say making him chuckle. "I do?" He asked as he pulled on my underwear. "Mhm." I hummed with a nod making him smile a bit more before he tugged on my onesie which is a stitch one from The Lilo and Stich film.
"Do you wanna change the color of your ribbon too?" He asked as I nodded. He simply smiled before walking to the bathroom and coming back with a blue ribbon in hand. I felt as he untied the yellow one passing it to me before tying the blue one into my hair.
"Ta." I say as he looked at me confused. "Tank you." I say making him chuckle. "That's what that meant? That's cute, it's no problem Bucky." He say before he took the ribbon from me placing it in the bathroom.
"Wanna go in the living room?" He asked as I nodded. "Yes pwease." I whispered. Without notice the beefy blonde picked me up making me squeak in surprise. "Your adorable." He mumbled making me blush before I snuggled my face into the crook of his neck.
Once we got to the living room Steve spoke up. "Are you hungry?" He asked as I immediately felt my stomach grumble. I simply nodded as a reply before he rest me on the couch. "I'll be quick okay," He say making me nod before I looked at the TV that was still playing My Little Pony. The curtains started to open as I sucked on my paci happily.
"J send all info I need to know about Bucky to my phone please and thank yaou." The blue eyed man say before I heard a ping come from his phone. I didn't really pay much attention to him as I payed attention to whatever friendship problem the ponies was having. Not to long after I felt when Steve sat down on the couch scaring me a bit.
"Oh I'm sorry baby boy I didn't mean to scare you." He say softly with a small smile. "Tis otay." I whisper around my pacifier which come out more as a chorus of hums. Steve looked at me confused before he softly took my paci out of my mouth.
"What did you say bear?" He asked making me bite the inside of my lip. "Said tis otay." I say making him smile before nodding and resting my paci on the coffee table. He then handed me a small plastic bowl that was filled with mac 'n cheese.
"Ta." I say making Steve nod. "Your welcome bear." He said before he started to feed himself which I started to do after a bit. Somehow I finished all of my food without spilling any on myself.
"Good Job Bear." Steve cooed as he politely took the bowl from me. I only gave him a small smile before he disappeared into the kitchen and coming back out with a regular cup and my sippy cup which is Winnie The Pooh themed.
"Here you go." He said passing me the cup that I assume is half apple juice and half water. "Ta." I say before sliding the latch making a silicone straw pop up. I quickly latched onto it as the watered down apple juice filled my mouth.
"So Jarvis informed me on what has been happening lately." Steve say making me look up at him. "He has?" I asked making the blonde nod. "Your a little. You use age regression as a way to cope with your trauma, right?" He ask making me nod.
"And he told me your age, which seems to be somewhere between two or three." He say as I nodded once more before sipping on my apple juice. "For a three year old your quite shy and quiet." He say making me scrunch up my face confused.
" 'm not 'pose to be wike dis?" I asked making the blonde quickly shake his head no in protest. "No that's not what I meant. I meant that usually kids in there 3's or 2's are practically monsters." He say making me giggle.
"Don' call quids monters." I say making Steve chuckle. "Sorry." He say making me shrug before going back to sip on my apple juice. We were quiet for a while before Steve spoke up. "Bucky." He mumbled making me look in his direction.
"Jarvis also showed me some videos of you in your headspace and usually you'll just cry a lot." He say as I looked away from him sadly feeling an embarrass blush burn onto my face. "Don' mean to, jus hap-pens." I mumbled making the blonde nod.
"I know Bear." He say making me bite my lip. "Steeb upset?" I ask making him immediately shake his head no. "No, I just-" He then sighed before running his fingers through his baby blonde hair. "I just was kind of confused on why the crying fits would happen." He mumbled making me sigh.
"No wan talk 'bout it." I whispered making the blonde nod. "Yeah, sorry for bringing it up." He say making me nod before I went back to drinking my apple juice that I quickly noticed was empty.
"Abble Juice?" I ask making Steve look back at me. "You want more apple juice?" He asked making nod. After Steve got me my apple juice the rest of the day was smooth sailing. Steve got to know me a bit more as I did my best to help him understand.
Soon it was night, a time of day I truly don't like. "Bear." Steve's voice said bringing me back down to earth. "Bed Time." He say making me whine sadly. "What wrong?" He asked taking the pacifier out of my mouth. "No wan go sweep." I whisper making the blonde sigh.
"But you have to." He say as I shook my head no. "Get bad dweams, no wan bad dweams." I whispered as Steve's face turned into realization. "Oh." He whispered before giving me a small reassuring smile. "If you want you can sleep with me." He say making me look at him wide eyed.
"Sweep wit you?" I ask making him nod. "Only if you want to." He say as I shook my head yes making him smile. With that he simply scooped me up and started to exit the room. "Wait no, bottle." I squeak out making Steve stop in his tracks. "You want a bottle?" He asked making me nod.
"Help sweep." I whispered making him nod slowley. "Bottle is already made Captain Rogers." Jarvis announced scaring me. "Sorry little one I didn't mean to scare you." He say as Steve started to walked back into the kitchen.
"Tis otay." I whispered before I felt Steve take the bottle out of the water wiping it off before quickly carrying me to his room. The room is what you would expect Captain America's room to look like.
Huge American flag hung over his bed, shield safely hidden between the night stand and bed just incase anything happens, WW2 trinkets and 40's collectables scattered here and there, old and new pictures of his team having the time of their lives together. You know, the usual.
He gently rest me in the bed uncapping the bottle and gently pushing it into my mouth making me latch onto the silicone nipple sucking it down greedily. "I'm going to take a shower okay?" He whispered as he started to tuck me in resting pillows on each off my sides so I cant roll off of the bed somehow.
With that he left leaving me to finish the bottle in darkness. Well semi darkness. Since Steve still had his curtains open moonlight easily poured into the room masking me in a blue hue.
I stared out of window as I sucked on my bottle hoping that today wasn't some twisted dream that my fucked up mind conjured up. That when I wake up in the morning this all will disappear and I will be left with out someone to care for me like Steve did today.
Without someone who loves me
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