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Lando's phone buzzed, notifying him, that he had received a text.

When he saw Arthur Leclerc's name on the display, he was getting curious, what this was about. The Monegasque had only ever texted him once before when they were arranging to make a group chat with Charles, Alex and George for scheduling their twitch streams.

When Lando tapped the notification and read the message, he grew even more curious but also mildly confused.

Charles, je dois te dire quelque chose...
Je pense que je suis peut-être gay

He didn't understand anything. Furrowing his brows he typed back:

sorry Arthur, i don't speak French

Oh shit, i'm so sorry, wrong number! I meant to send that to Charles
Just ignore it please

okay, no worries

Lando wanted to put his phone away again since the situation had been clarified rather quickly but for some reason couldn't. He wondered what the text meant. His curiosity won as he copied the message and pasted it into Google Translate.

Charles, I have to tell you something...
I think I might be gay

"Oh" Lando mouthed. He had not expected that.

Of course, he had seen the word 'gay' in the message before, but he had thought that might mean something completely different in French. But apparently not.

Arthur had just come out to him by accident.

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As the day went on, Lando kept catching himself, thinking about this message again and again.

He had secretly suspected Charles to be gay for a long time now, but his brother? He had never really thought about it. They had only streamed together a few times and seen each other briefly when Arthur was there to support Charles at some of their races. But other than that they didn't really have much to do with one another.

how do you even confuse the name Lando with Charles? It's not like they're right next to each other in the contact list or something? :D

Lando felt a little awkward sending this message but he couldn't help it, being driven by his sheer curiosity again. Fortunately, Arthur didn't keep him guessing for too long.

I might have your number saved as "Charles' friend Lando from Twitch"

wow, i feel so special but yeah, that explains the mistake :D

I changed it now, so it will not happen again :) You really don't know any French?

nope, but google might have helped me out a little

Lando hesitated for a moment before quickly adding:

didn't want to invade your privacy like that, sorry!
i was just really curious

Oh okay, no problem
You don't need to be sorry, it was my fault
But can you please not tell anyone?

of course, no need to worry! your secret is safe with me :)

Thanks :)

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- A few days later -

so, how did Charles react?
if you don't mind me asking

No, I don't mind
After I send the text to you, I panicked and could not tell him any more
I think I have to talk to him about this in person

do it however you feel most comfortable
take your time. if you would rather say it in a message then do that.
if you want to talk to Charles in person then you should do it like that instead. it's all up to you. there are no rules for coming out.
this is all about you

Thank you for saying that. I'm so nervous about it.
How do you know so much about this?

well, I think I've watched about every coming out video there is on youtube and I've done it myself a few times

Oh, so you are gay too?

no, I'm pansexual actually. that basically means I don't care about the gender of the person I fall in love with

Ah okay, that makes sense. Thanks for telling me

it's no secret. I came out to my family about a year ago but since then I just let people find out on their own. I don't feel the need to come out to every new person I meet and explain my sexuality to them. straight people don't have to do that either so I don't get why we constantly have to do that

Yeah, I wish it would just be normal for everyone and no big deal. But I guess that will take a few more years. Especially in our sport

oh yeah, in motorsport that's quite a difficult topic. but if it comes up in an interview or something like this I don't plan on lying or denying it.
I wanna be myself, no matter what. And if somebody doesn't like that, that's their problem, not mine
I talked to McLaren about it and they are fine with it as well, thankfully

I wish I was as brave as you. I'm so scared.
Especially of what Charles and Lorenzo will say. They are my big brothers, it's weird talking to them about it

Well, I don't really know Lorenzo that well, but believe me when I say that I don't expect Charles to have any problems with it

and even if they don't react the way you want them to right away, they will always be your brothers and they will love you no matter what
just give them a little time, everything's going to be okay

I really hope so

-

I'm about to talk with Enzo. Wish me luck!

good luck! I know you can do it :)

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OMG I actually did it! I came out to my brother.
He said he already suspected it and that it doesn't change anything for him. I am so happy!

Yay, congrats! I'm really really proud of you

Thanks for helping me. I don't think I could have done this without you

no need to thank me. that's what friends are for :)

I like that. Us being friends :)

Me too :)

Lando couldn't help but smile at his phone. He had spent half of his day texting Arthur and he hadn't even realized until now. He was really glad he was able to help him with coming out and that he had such a positive experience with it so far. He really wished it would stay this way for the younger one.

But since he knew how Charles had once reacted to him drunkenly confessing that he had kissed a boy before and since he had also realized how many times he had caught Charles staring at Max when he thought nobody was looking, Lando didn't think there would be any problems with the third Leclerc brother.

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Lando couldn't help but smile when Charles announced, that Arthur would join their twitch stream today.

It had been almost two weeks since the youngest Leclerc brother had accidentally come out to him and since then there almost hadn't been a day they hadn't texted each other at least once.

Talking to Arthur just felt so easy. They had so much in common they could talk about and Lando didn't even mind the casual "What's up?" and "How are you?" small talk-texts from time to time, that he normally tried to avoid and hated with a passion.

Talking to Arthur always managed to make him smile, no matter what. Even at these times, where races were cancelled and he had to self-isolate at home, it was always something to look forward to.

-

Arthur wasn't able to join their stream after all, because of technical issues. Lando tried his best to hide it and continued joking and laughing with the others, but he was a little disappointed. He had been really excited about gaming with Arthur. So when they were done, he immediately texted him.

just ended the stream. sucks that you couldn't join today

Yeah, I definitely need a new pc!
It just completely shut down and I can't even play games on my own now.

shit, so sorry to hear that . I can imagine how bored you have to be now

I have never been this bored in my life! It's the worst
But now you're done with the stream so I can talk to you instead :)

well, it seems like I have no other choice really :D

No, you don't :)
Let's ask each other some random questions and answer them honestly
I really wanna get to know you better

did you actually just manage to ask me to play 21 questions with you without sounding like a total fuckboy?
wow i'm impressed

I feel attacked

aww
it's true though ;-)

You just used a fucking winky face emoji!
If one of us here is a fuckboy it's definitely you!!

guilty as charged ;-)

Oh my god

;-) ;-) ;-)

STOP

ok ok, i'll start
what's your guilty pleasure song?

My what?

you know, a cheesy song you really love but you'd never admit it

Oh
Shake It Off by Taylor Swift for sure

damn, that boy's got taste :D

Shut up, my turn
Fuck, I did not really think this through
I have no idea what to ask

idiot ;-)
just ask me anything you want to know

Stop with the winking faces!!
How old were you when you first realized you're not straight?

15 I think
when was the last time you cried and why?

About 2 months ago I think
Anniversary of the day my father died

oh shit, I'm so sorry! I didn't think about that

Don't worry about it
Let's just keep going please, I don't want to be sad right now

sure, no problem
but if you ever need someone to talk about it (or anything really) I want you to know that I'm here
it's your turn

Thank you. You can talk to me about anything as well
What makes you happy at the moment?

honestly?
talking to you
it's the only thing that really takes my mind off of all this pandemic shit currently and actually makes me smile
so thanks I guess ;-)

You will never stop using that stupid winky face, will you?

nope!
and you just wasted your next question for that ;-)

Putain

my turn again, no matter what that means
who's your favourite F1 driver?

Well, I think I have to say Charles or else he won't take me to the races anymore :D

I won't tell him, as long as it's actually me ;-)

Hm don't think so, but you're in my Top 5

RUDE

My turn again
Big spoon or little spoon?

for cereal? big spoon for sure
for cuddling? little spoon

Cute

shut up

Never, I love it!

what? that I prefer to be the little spoon or that you can tease me about it now?

Both :)

you just completely missed the perfect opportunity to use a winky face emoji here, I'm very disappointed

I almost did, but it felt too creepy

Did you just indirectly call me a creep?

Maybe? :D

i hate you

No, you don't ;-)

omg, you did it! finally, I'm so proud of you!!
but yeah, I don't ;-)

Knew it ;-)

ok, you're getting really into it, but that's my thing, so stop :(

Oh thank god, it was horrible :D

idiot :P
can barely keep my eyes open, I'm so tired
let's continue this tomorrow?

sure
goodnight little spoon, sleep well

you too, idiot

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Good morning princess

wow, I think I prefered little spoon over that

I knew you liked that nickname :)

didn't say that :P
what are you up to today?

I just ordered a new pc online and now I will count down the days until it finally arrives
But other than that I will probably just stay in bed and watch Netflix, I'm really lazy today

ugh, I wish I could do that as well. I have to go grocery shopping now if I don't want to starve to death any time soon :(
ttyl?

Lando hesitated for a moment before adding the selfie he had just taken.

Okay, have fun :P

He waited for a few moments and then pocketed his phone to get on with his chores, trying to banish the slight disappointment of not receiving a photo of Arthur in return from his mind. That had been a stupid idea anyway.

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OMG guess what just happened!!
You will not believe it!
Lando
LANDO
Lando my little spoon, where are you?
Hey
I'm freaking out!

what?
is everything alright? you okay???

Charles just came out to me! He's bi and he is dating MAX!!!

omg! that's great news!
I figured there was something going on between them but I wasn't quite sure. but that's awesome! :)

What really? I had no clue!
When he told me that we need to talk, I thought he found out about me being gay and he's angry now

did you come out to him as well then?

Yes :)
We talked for almost 2 hours just about this. It was great, I feel so happy now.
Really glad it's no secret anymore

aww, that's great, I'm so proud and happy for you both! <3

Merci, you helped me so much with all of this and made me feel so much better about myself, so thank you! <3

I'm actually on a run right now and I can't stop smiling like an idiot.
really glad there is no one around to see :D

Show me

what?

Your smile
I want to see :)

it won't go away anymore. I can't even fight it, it's beginning to actually hurt my face

Don't fight it, i like it ;-)

I like that you're using the winky face again ;-)

Does it make you smile even more?

maybe

Then I will continue to use it ;-)

idiot ;-)

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Guess what :)

what :)

I just finished setting up my new pc!

omg yes! Finally :)

I'm so happy, you can't imagine

oh yes, I can because I'm just as happy ;-)
we can finally play games together and you can stream with us again soon

Charles actually wants me to join your stream tonight

yes please, that's perfect!

I'm looking forward to it :)

me too :)

- Later that evening -

After Lando had ended his stream, he quickly went to the bathroom, changed and cuddled into his bed, grabbing his phone from the nightstand to text Arthur - just like every night.

I was so confused earlier because I thought it was Charles calling me a little shit for nothing, but then I realized it was you :D
how the hell do you two sound so alike?

Yeah sorry about that, I almost called you little spoon and then I panicked and that was the only safe I could think of at that moment

np, i figured :P

Lando's heart skipped a beat when his phone started ringing, showing him, that Arthur was calling him. He waited a few seconds, maybe the other had just accidentally tapped the button and would immediately hang up again.
But his phone kept ringing. The Brit held his breath as he accepted the call and brought his phone up to his ear.

"Hi" the familiar soft voice spoke from the other end and Lando could have sworn, he could hear that Arthur was smiling.

"Hey, why are you calling me?"

"You really need to learn the difference between Charles' and my voice."

"Um yeah, I guess that would help a lot. It's so much harder on the stream though, because everybody is talking at the same time."

"Then I might just have to call you little spoon every time I'm talking, so you know it's me"

"Please don't, I won't be able to hide my ugly blush from the stream then. The chat will go insane."

"Oh, it makes you blush when I call you that? I didn't know!"

"I blush so easily, it's the worst. My face is such a traitor."

"I bet it looks cute."

"Oh no, definitely not!"

"We will see about that."

"Oh, will we?"

"Definitely! I'm on a mission now."

"To see me blush? Oh god."

Lando couldn't stop smiling through the entire phone call. They ended up talking about anything and everything and only realized how long they had actually been talking for when Arthur suddenly gasped

"It's getting lighter outside again. The sun is starting to rise, I can see it through my window."

"Fuck, then we should probably go to sleep now."

"Yeah probably. It feels like we have only been talking for a few minutes, how is that possible?"

"No clue, my phone tells me it has actually been almost 7 hours. I only realize how tired I am right now.

"Sleep well, little spoon."

"You too, big spoon."

Lando wanted to hang up but hesitated when he noticed what he'd just said.

"Wait, are you actually a big spoon? I mean ... do you prefer that?"

He could feel his face getting red again as he stumbled over the words.

"Yes, as long as you're my little spoon, I will happily be the big one. Good night."

And with that Arthur hung up.

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They ended up talking on the phone every night after that.
Lando used to have troubles falling asleep quite often in the past but after talking to Arthur he always felt so calm and relaxed, it was no problem at all.

Sometimes he would even fall asleep while he was still on the phone with him. The Monegasque's voice was so soothing, especially when he noticed how tired Lando was getting and then switched to his native language, sometimes even singing french lullabies to him.

This nightly routine, however, also didn't stop them from texting during the day.

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OMG

I can't concentrate on how cute you were as a baby because i can't stop laughing at Charles' face. it's killing me omgg :D

Where did you get that image from? Stop stalking me on the internet!
Don't you have to prepare for the start of the season?

shit, good point

;-)

I'm done with my work though, so I'm bored now  :(

Well, then I think we have to continue our question game to keep you from being a creepy little stalker

hey! I'm not creepy!
and also not little! :(

Okay, maybe you're not creepy. But you're definitely little
I don't call you little spoon for nothing ;-)

well, I don't call you an idiot for nothing

Angry little spoon <3
I think it is your time to ask a question

hmm, idk what to ask
how many people have you kissed?
like properly, don't count your mum

2 but they were girls when I hadn't realized I was gay yet, so that doesn't really count, I guess
What about you?

wow, asking me the same question
that's really creative ;-)
but also 2 for me, 1 girl & 1 boy

does it feel different? kissing a boy?

it's not your turn to ask the question
so I guess you'll just have to find that out yourself ;-)

Landooo :(
That's mean

no, that's payback for calling me a creepy little stalker

Touché

finally, a French word that I understand :D
are you in love at the moment?

Oh wow, I really have to teach you more words
I'm not completely sure, to be honest. But I think so, yes

Landos could feel his heart almost beating out of his chest as he read that answer. Arthur was in love. Did he mean him?
They were talking to each other basically nonstop and Lando was sure the other had flirted with him a few times. But he wasn't sure. Maybe Arthur treated everyone like this? Maybe that was just his sense of humour?

Being completely honest with himself Lando knew he had a massive crush on the youngest Leclerc brother for a couple of weeks now. The more they chatted and got to know each other, the more he started to like him. Maybe Arthur felt the same about him? Otherwise, he wouldn't continue talking to him this much, right?

Lando tried his best, not to get his hopes up too high. He would just have to wait and find out how things would turn out.
When his phone buzzed again, alerting him, that he had received another message, Lando couldn't suppress a little unmanly squeal, as his cheeks started to blush once again.

What turns you on most?

omg, i knew you were a fuckboy!

Well, too late now. You have to answer it honestly

hm, I don't know. I really like my neck getting kissed, I guess

That sounds nice :)
Also works perfectly for when you're the little spoon and I'm the big spoon

If that's okay with you

Lando?
Sorry, if that was too much

no! no, it wasn't too much, I just didn't expect that tbh and didn't know what to say, sorry
but yeah, I'd really like that :)

Good to know ;-)
I bet 10€ you're blushing again right now, little spoon

that's so unfair, you know I am
I think I gotta go now, ttyl

Take a cold shower?

Maybe

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What are you up to, little spoon?

I'm shooting a video for the team all day today, but I have a break right now
wbu?

Not much, I'm about to go grocery shopping for my mum but then I will probably just work out and play some games
Pretty boring :D

let's play some games together when I get home tonight!
wow, I just realized that sounds like I'm coming home to you
like in our shared house or something like that, do you know what I mean?
omg sometimes I feel like you're the native english speaker here and not me :D

Haha yes, I know what you mean. That would be nice if you could just come here and I could see you
But gaming together sounds great too, of course :)

looking forward to it <3

Me too <3

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Charles turned around to face his boyfriend, who was lying next to him, mindlessly scrolling on his phone.

"I think Arthur has a boyfriend." he said and immediately gained Max' full attention. "What?", the Dutchman asked, putting his smartphone down.

"He's constantly on his phone, always texting and smiling at the screen like an idiot.", Charles explained. "And one time I could see the contact he was texting was called 'Little Spoon' and then a heart emoji on his phone." He couldn't help but grin at these words.

"Aw, that's really cute!" Max exclaimed, smiling down at his boyfriend.
"Yes, it is. But why hasn't he told me about him? I want to meet him and see if he's good enough for my little brother!" The Monegasque's smile faded and he furrowed his brows now.

"Oh baby, I think that's the exact reason why Arthur hasn't told you yet. He's afraid that you won't like his boyfriend and scare him away. I know you're his big brother and you want to protect him, but you can't intrude on his relationship like that. You'll just have to wait until they are ready to tell you." Max laughed and kissed his cheek, as Charles huffed in response to that, not being happy with just waiting.

-

finally on my way home now!

Can't wait to talk to you :)
Max is staying here at the moment, so he and Charles have acted like they are glued together non stop
Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy for them but that makes me feel really lonely sometimes

oh, I can imagine
I feel really lonely too sometimes, especially the last few weeks when I was completely self-isolating.
Now I can at least see other people when I'm at McLaren or something like that but it's not quite the same

I'm home now, can I call you?

A big smile spread across Lando's face, as his phone started ringing only a few seconds after he had sent the message.

"You can always call me, little spoon."

"Good, talking to you always helps me, when I'm feeling sad and alone."

"Yeah, hearing your voice really does help, thank you. But now it also makes it worse because I keep imagining that you could be here just like Max and that makes me feel even more lonely because you're so far away."

"Oh god, I wish I could just fly over to Monaco immediately."

" Be careful, I would probably never let you go home again."

Lando didn't know when or how their slight banter and teasing each other from time to time had just turned into constant flirting that really couldn't be denied or interpreted differently anymore, but he was definitely not mad about it. After all, he was now pretty sure that Arthur liked him back, at least a little bit.

But how was it even possible to miss a person you had only ever really met briefly once or twice, this much?

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- One week later -

about to do some testing yay

Yay, have fun :)

thanks :)
I'm really excited to finally get back into the car for real

Oh yes, me too!
I will have to wait another month until I'm back in Maranello unfortunately

but I'm also glad I have another break next week, where I don't have to do anything, no testing, no filming, nothing and can just chill at home.
these past few days here have been so stressful

I can imagine
I'm actually trying to enjoy my break as well and not think too much about racing. Doesn't really work that well though :D
But do you actually want to spend your free week at home?

what do you mean? what else should I do?

I don't know, it was a stupid idea
Sorry, just forget about it, it's nothing

Lando didn't quite know why, but he could sense that something was wrong.
Arthur usually shared all of his dumb ideas with him and never felt shy or awkward about it. So what was making him act so insecure all of a sudden?
Not being able to just shake this feeling, that something's wrong, off, Lando decided to just call him to check if everything's alright. It took only a few seconds until the Monegasque picked up the phone.

"Hi"

"Hey, are you okay? You seem ... I don't know, different, I guess. When did you get so shy?"

"Sorry, I just had an idea and now I can't stop thinking about it anymore. But if you think it's really stupid please just tell me, okay?

"You don't have to be sorry about anything! What is it? It can't be that stupid."

"I... I thought that maybe you would want to spend your break somewhere else? Like Monaco for example?"

"Are you actually asking me, what I think you're asking me right now?"

"If you think I'm asking you to come to visit me during your break, then yes. But you can say no, of course, no pressure. It was just an idea."

"Arthur, that's not a stupid idea. I think that's in fact the least stupid idea you ever had."

"So that's a yes?"

"Yes."

They were both quiet for a second, solely grinning into their phones.

"Wow, I don't know what to say now. I didn't think you would really say yes."

"Why not?"

"I don't know, it just seems so surreal. I'm actually really nervous now."

"I can tell, your voice is literally shaking and your accent just got so much stronger within 2 seconds. But I'm a little nervous too, don't worry."

"I just...I'm not really as confident and direct in real life, as I am over the phone. So I don't want you to think of me differently because of that. I'm the same, I'm just more shy at first. I'm afraid you'll think I just played a role while talking to you all this time and I'm actually really boring and you will not like me how I am in person."

"I don't think you're boring! I actually think it's really cute that you're so shy about this all of a sudden. I'm sure, you're just as amazing in real life as you are over the phone. And I will probably be even more shy and nervous than you when we finally get to see each other, plus I'm pretty sure my face will be Ferrari red again, so you don't have to worry about this at all, okay?"

"Oh my god, I'm going to see my little spoon blush in real life! I'm afraid I might have to jump you right then and there at the airport when I see that."

"Aaand the confidence is back!"

"Yes, I'm not as scared anymore, thank you."

"So I can actually book a plane ticket now?"

"Yes please."

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"Good morning! I can't believe you actually fell asleep before me for once, that has never happened before."

"And I can't believe you didn't hang up. My phone tells me this video chat has been going on for almost 11 hours."

"I couldn't, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to fall asleep on my own. And I didn't want to try because if I would have failed, I would've had to call you again and wake you up. But you were sleeping so peacefully so I didn't dare."

"Oh okay, then thanks for not waking me up, I guess. Still feels weird knowing you watched me sleep though."

"As if you've never done that when I fell asleep!"

"Oh my god, so you admit you actually watched me sleeping? That was just a joke!"

"Umm no, I..."

"Calm down, little spoon, I was kidding! But you're blushing now, oh my god! Thanks to you not hanging up I can now finally see your cute blushing face in bright daylight!"

"Shut up!"

"Aw you're blushing even more now! I really thought I would have to wait until you're here to see that."

"Speaking of that, I've never been to Monaco when there was no race. It's probably very different then, right?"

"Worst try ever at changing the subject, little spoon! But yeah, of course, it's different. I'm looking forward to showing it to you."

"Me too."

When they eventually ended their video call, Lando felt a little guilty.
Arthur was right, he had been staring at him, while he was sleeping. He had even taken a screenshot and wrote a message because he was so amazed by the sleeping Arthur. It seemed like he was even more beautiful while sleeping and Lando only then realized how much the young Monegasque really meant to him.

With a sigh, Lando deleted the picture from his phone and finally got out of bed.

Last night he had originally planned to send the photo to Arthur but now it didn't feel right anymore. It would probably come across as creepy and it would get weird between them. That was the last thing the Brit wanted.

Arthur had become such an important part of his life. Not just that he couldn't fall asleep without the other anymore. Arthur was constantly on this mind, day and night. He couldn't stop thinking about him and when he remembered that he would finally see him for real in only 4 days, he wasn't able to fight the smile spreading across his face any longer.

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3 more sleeps until you're here, I can't believe it

me neither
I should probably start packing soon

Nah, you don't need to pack anything. I prefer you without clothes

omg did you really just write that?

Yup, no regrets ;-)

your fuckboy-status is rising again
and I don't think your family would appreciate me running around your house naked

Shit, I completely forgot about them

did you tell them I'm coming?

Yes
Well no, not directly

what now? :D

I told them somebody would come to visit, but I didn't tell them it's you

oh

I'm kinda scared of what Charles will say, I guess
I don't want him to think I'm stealing his friends or something like that

yeah, I know what you mean. I'm kinda nervous because of Charles as well

Can we just tell him together when you're here?
I think that would make it a lot easier

I guess that's the easiest way, sure

Thanks <3
I think all of that would be even easier for me if I could hold your hand, is that okay too?

definitely <3

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"I can't believe you will be here in less than 2 days!"

"Same, it feels so surreal. I can't wait."

"I want to go to the airport to pick you up right now!"

"Well, I'm afraid you'll still have to wait a little with that."

"I can't, it almost feels like it's causing me physical pain that my arms are not around you right now."

"Yeah, I know that feeling."

"Are you blushing again?"

"Maybe."

"Damn, two days are far too long."

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1 more sleep!!
I checked if my alarm for tomorrow morning is set about 5 times now, i think
probably won't be able to sleep anyway

One more night until I finally get to be the big spoon to my little spoon

best thing I've read all day
maybe I will be able to sleep with that on my mind after all

Even if I kiss up and down your neck and press myself against your back while we're spooning?
Even if I whisper in your ear how good it feels to finally touch you?

I'm not blushing, you're blushing!

;-)

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I'm on the plane now, gotta turn off my phone. See you in about 2 hours!! :)

-

When the plane had finally landed and Lando was waiting for his luggage, he turned the aeroplane mode on his phone off again, just to receive a voice message from Arthur a few seconds later.

"I'm so sorry, I can't pick you up from the airport, someone just crashed into my car. Everything's okay, nothing serious! But we have to wait for the police to get here and settle everything, that will probably take some time. So I sent Charles to pick you up. This is not at all how I planned this, I am so so sorry! He's going to be waiting for you at entrance D4. Please don't be mad at me now."

Lando could hear the stress in Arthur's voice immediately. His accent was stronger than ever, he was stumbling over his words and seemingly out of breath at the end, having blurted all of this information out so quickly.

He had assured him that everything was okay, but Lando was still a little worried and even felt guilty now. After all, Arthur had been in an accident because he had been on his way to pick him up.

you don't need to apologize, don't worry! I'm glad you're okay, everything else doesn't matter.
don't worry about me and take your time settling all of that <3
I got this!

And with this he grabbed his suitcase and strode off towards entrance D4, trying to ignore how sweaty the palms of his hands were getting and how wobbly his knees suddenly felt.

"Hey Charles, what's up?" he tried to sound as casual as possible when he walked up to the Ferrari driver standing next to the doors.
"Oh, hi Lando! I'm picking up my brother's boyfriend, what are you doing here?"

Lando chuckled, a blush creeping up his face at these words. "Well, being picked up by you apparently."

He held his breath, almost anticipating a negative reaction from Charles.

"Oh yeah sure, I can give you a ride as well. We're just going to have to wait for this mysterious guy that my brother is so madly in love with. The only thing I know is that he's British, brunette and not very tall apparently. No idea how I'm supposed to find him with this little information but Arthur said he will find me, so I just have to wait here, I guess." Charles shrugged his shoulders.

"Oh my god are you fucking serious right now?" Lando suddenly couldn't keep a straight face anymore.

"What? Why?" The Monegasque's confused face now made him completely lose all of his fear. This was typical of Charles being absolutely oblivious and it made him remember that Charles wasn't only Arthur's older brother, but also one of his best friends. He didn't have to be nervous because of Charles, that was ridiculous.

"There's no other guy coming, Charles. This small, brunette, British guy has already found you." he gestured towards himself.

"Huh, what do you mean?" Charles furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and looked at him for a moment before his face suddenly lit up and his eyes widened. "Oooooh!"

For a short moment, a tiny bit of fear was back in Lando's body. What if Charles wouldn't want to be his friend anymore now? What if he didn't want him to stay with Arthur after all?

Lando almost flinched when Charles took a step towards him. Would he punch him for flirting with his little brother now?

But then the older Leclerc brother's arms wrapped around his shoulders and he hugged him tightly.

"Oh my god, if that idiot would have just told me it's you, I wouldn't have wasted so much time preparing my 'If you break my little brother's heart, I will break your bones'-speech." Charles now grinned at Lando, who managed to smile back shyly, still trying to process this positive reaction.

"Now come on loverboy, you don't want to keep him waiting, do you?" the older one smirked before they made their way outside.

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- Messages between Max & Charles -

Look who I just found at the airport!

What's Lando doing there?
I thought you were picking up Arthur's new boyfriend?
OMG wait
I FUCKING KNEW IT

What do you mean you knew it?
Why did you not tell me, if you knew about them??
Why is everyone keeping this from me??

No babe, I didn't really know
I just noticed how well they got along in one of your streams and thought they'd be cute together
I thought that was just some stupid fantasy in my head, I didn't know it's actually true

Aw you watch my streams? That's adorable Maxy <3
But that does not make me ignore that you have fantasies about my little brother, we'll talk about that later!

Babe, you know I didn't mean it like that!

Oh okay, so you don't want me to show you exactly who you belong to tonight?

Oh God Charles you're such a fucking tease
But yes, then maybe I did mean it like that

That's what I thought :)

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"Arthur's room is the second door on the left." Charles pointed down the hall and handed his suitcase back to Lando after he had helped him carrying it inside and up the stairs. "If you're bored or need anything, I'll be downstairs."
"Thanks." Lando smiled shyly. Arthur wasn't there yet, why was he already feeling so nervous?

When he opened the door to Arthur's room, Lando was a little surprised. It was much bigger than it had always seemed in the background of their video calls. And so much tidier.
Lando knew that Arthur was the most chaotic and lazy person when it came to his room, so he must have been cleaning beforehand. The Brit had to grin at the thought of Arthur tidying his room just because of him. He wouldn't have minded the mess, since his home didn't look much better, but it was definitely a nice gesture and made him feel a little special.

 -

Arthur's heart stopped when he saw that Charles' car was standing in the driveway. That meant Lando was already here. Lando was at his house at this moment. He couldn't quite believe it.

As soon as he opened the door, his brother came running towards him. "Je n'arrive pas à y croire! Arthur, you fucking idiot!"
Oh no, was Charles mad at him? Was he mad at Lando? Had something happened between them?

Charles came to a halt right in front of Arthur and crossed his arms in front of his chest, a serious expression on his face. The younger brother gulped. This was definitely not a good sign.

"How dare you date one of my best friends and not tell me about it? I'm your big brother, I need to know things like that!"
At the sight of Arthur's absolutely terrified face, Charles' expression suddenly softened and a smile crept onto his lips before he opened his arms. "Now come here and let me hug you, dumbass. I'm happy for you, Lando is great."

"You...you're not mad?" Arthur couldn't believe the sudden change in this brother's behaviour. "No, but if he hurts you, I will end his career. And if you hurt him I will end you."
The older one grinned and patted his shoulder. "Now don't leave your boyfriend waiting any longer, he's upstairs already."

"Oh my god, Charles did you also use that word in front of him?" Arthur's eyes widened.
"What? Boyfriend? Yeah, of course." Charles shrugged his shoulders.

"He's not my boyfriend, Charly!" Panic started to spread in Arthur's body now. What if Charles had scared Lando off with that? What if Lando now thought he had told Charles they were dating?

"Well, then it's about time you change that." his brother shrugged and went back to the living room.

Great, now Arthur felt about ten times more nervous than he had already felt before. He took in a deep breath before making his way to his room. It still seemed so surreal that Lando was actually here now.

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Lando jumped and turned around when the door he had just closed behind him suddenly opened again.

"Hi." Arthur was standing there. Even though he was smiling, his face and body language clearly showed how nervous and awkward he felt. This somehow made Lando feel a little more confident. Apparently, the Monegasque had not been exaggerating when he had told him about his fear and how shy he was in real life.

"Hey." Lando smiled back.
"Sorry I couldn't pick you up and you had to wait for me." Arthur closed the door behind him and sat on the foot of his bed, patting the space next to him, gesturing for Lando to sit down beside him.
"No problem, I just arrived a few minutes ago, I haven't been waiting for long. And it wasn't your fault. Everything settled because of the accident?" When Lando sat down, Arthur looked down at his hands and started fiddling with the hem of his sweater.

"Yes, it's not that big of a deal. Only a few dents in the car. Worst timing ever for something like that though."
"Yeah. But at least now we don't have to worry about Charles' reaction anymore." Lando was actually really glad about this, otherwise, the fear would probably still be twice as bad now.

"I...I'm really sorry if Charles calling you my boyfriend made you uncomfortable, I didn't-" Arthur stammered but was interrupted mid-sentence. "No, no, you don't need to apologize! I... I actually quite liked it.", the Brit admitted and could feel his cheeks burning within seconds after having spoken those words.

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"Really?" Arthur now looked up from his hands hesitantly, finally meeting Lando's gaze.
"Yeah.", the older one murmured, suddenly feeling very insecure and nervous again.

"Oh my god, you're blushing so hard!" Arthur exclaimed, a big grin now plastered across his face. "I never imagined it to be this bad."

"I told you it would be horrible. I hate this so much." Lando tried to hide his face in his hands but Arthur quickly grabbed his wrists and pulled them away again, so he had to look at him. "It's not horrible, I like it. It's even cuter than it looked on screen.", he smiled, not letting go of Lando's hands.

The Brit couldn't help but return the smile now, a warm fuzzy feeling spreading inside his chest, even if his red face probably grew another few shades darker at those words.

They both jumped apart quickly when there was a knock on the door and Charles' popped his head in only a second later. "Hey boys, we're ordering pizza now, do you want some, too?"

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- Messages between Max & Charles -

Those idiots really think I don't realize they are holding hands under the table, it's hilarious

Omg, how fucking cute can they be?

ADORABLE
But apparently, they are not officially together yet
Arthur almost had a heart attack earlier because I called Lando his boyfriend :D

Well, if they're holding hands then I don't think it's gonna take that long anymore

I hope so
Or else I'll have to help them a little :)

No Charles! Don't meddle in your brother's love life

Oh come on, I'm the only reason they even know each other!

If you really want to interfere, you'll also have to give them the talk, once they're together...

What talk?

The sex talk
You'll have to talk to them about being safe, condoms, lube and all that stuff

Oh dear god, NO
I definitely do not want to talk or even think about Lando and my brother in bed

Then stop sticking your nose into things that are none of your business :P

Ok ok, I get it! I won't help them :(

I wonder who would be top and who'd be the bottom with those two

Merde
I fucking hate you, I did not want that thought in my head!!

I love you too :)

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After they had finished eating dinner, Lando and Arthur quickly went up to the Monegasque's room again and decided to play some Fifa.
Lando almost felt sad about this for a second, because holding the PlayStation controller in his hands clearly meant that he couldn't hold Arthur's hand anymore.

It had felt like his heart just wanted to jump straight out of his chest when he had felt Arthur shyly sneaking his hand over and intertwining their fingers under the table. Thankfully pizza could easily be eaten with only one available hand.

However, the younger one seemed to have a solution to this problem now: He sat so close to Lando on the bed, that their arms were touching from shoulder to elbow.

"Wow, you really suck at this!" Arthur laughed when he had beaten the other for the third time in a row.
"Well, I would be much better if you'd stop distracting me so much!" Lando shot back, trying to look as angry as possible, but failing miserably as he couldn't hold back the grin anymore. To emphasize his words, he gave the other's shoulder a little shove with his own.

"Oh shit, I'm so sorry!" Arthur's eyes widened and he quickly scooted a little further away.
"No! It's okay, I was just joking. It was ... a good kind of distraction." Lando tried to explain, already missing the contact between them again.

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"Oh." Arthur almost whispered, looking down at his hands, still holding the controller and then carefully shuffled closer to him again, their arms now slightly touching.

Lando found this new shy side of Arthur incredibly cute. Even though he also hadn't minded the more straightforward, flirty side of him on the phone, at all.

"Sorry, I'm so awkward in person, you probably expected all of this to be totally different.", the younger one mumbled, still not meeting Lando's eyes.

"Stop apologizing so much! You're perfect the way you are and I'm glad I'm finally here. I like this shy Arthur just as much as I like the confident one." Lando tried to ignore the slight blush creeping up his cheeks again as he reached out to softly place his fingers under Arthur's chin and lift it, so he could look into his eyes.

"I'm also glad you're here. Just a bit overwhelmed by the way that makes me feel, I guess.", Arthur admitted and made Lando feel like his heart was doing backflips in his chest with those words.

The Brit quickly retracted his hand and Arthur jumped slightly when there was another knock on the door. They both must have looked at Charles, who was now standing at the door, with such a shocked expression, that the older brother now stumbled over his words. "Sorry, if I ... umm ... interrupted something. I just wanted to tell you that Mum has prepared the guest room for you, so ... you know, if you want, it's the door just across the hall. But you don't have to, of course ... I just wanted to let you know."

Before Lando could even react to his words, Charles had already disappeared again. 

"Is it just me or has Charles suddenly just gotten really awkward as well?" Arthur looked back at him, raising one eyebrow, a slight smile on his lips. "Yeah, I think he might have thought we were ... doing something different when he came in."

"That cute blush of yours is going to be the death of me, I swear." Lando could feel his face burning even more at Arthur's words than it had already. Where was this sudden confidence coming from now?

Arthur must have realized this abrupt change in his own behaviour too because Lando could now feel his body tense next to him, as the younger fixed this gaze at the screen in front of them again and rushed to start another game.

-

"Oh come on, it's obvious you're not even trying anymore now." Arthur grinned, as he had just won another match by miles.
When Lando didn't react, he looked over at him. The Brit was half sitting, half lying next to him, sleeping peacefully.

Arthur had to use all his self-control to not let out a high-pitched squeal at this sight. Lando sleeping like this was the cutest thing he had ever seen. He had already loved the sight when they were video chatting but now Lando was actually sleeping in his bed. He still couldn't quite believe it.

Trying to be as quiet as possible, to not wake the older boy up, Arthur turned off the TV and pulled the duvet over the two of them. 'Fuck the guest room' he thought, as he carefully laid down next to Lando, who turned around in this sleep, pressing his back to Arthur's chest now and let out a slight snore.

The Monegasque couldn't help but smile at this adorable sound the other had just made and gently put his arm around him. Finally, he could be the big spoon to his little spoon he thought, before drifting off to sleep as well.

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Lando woke up when something tickled his neck. Praying that it wasn't a bug or a spider, he quickly opened his eyes.
For a second he was very confused about where he was. This was definitely not his bedroom. 

Then he noticed something heavy on his chest and the tickling on his neck again. He looked down. Arthur was half lying on top of him, his face nuzzled into Lando's neck, his breaths tickling the skin there.

A broad smile crept onto Lando's face as he realized that they must have fallen asleep last night and ended up cuddling. Apparently, Arthur wasn't as shy when he was asleep, he thought and gently pulled him a little closer. He could definitely get used to waking up like this.

"Morning." he heard a voice, still a little raspy from sleep, mumbling against his skin.
"Good morning. Sorry, if I woke you up." Lando loosened his grip around Arthur, expecting the younger one to distance himself and maybe even be a little embarrassed about the position they had woken up in.

But Arthur didn't move away. He buried his face deeper into the crook of Lando's neck and pressed his body even closer. Lando was quite surprised by this but took it as an invitation to tighten his grip again as well.

"What do you want to do today?" Arthur's lips slightly moving against his skin gave him goosebumps. "I don't know. Do you have something in mind?"

He could now feel the Monegasque smile against his neck. "Hmm, we could just stay like this for a few more hours."

"That sounds nice. But I think last night someone exchanged the shy Arthur for the confident one again. What happened?" he teased, poking Arthur's side playfully.

"I don't know, I guess I just feel safer now. I had all of it planned out so nicely, that when I pick you up from the airport, I could finally hug you and then in the car on our way back I would hold your hand and when I show you my room we could finally cuddle, but then everything turned out so different and ruined my whole plan. So I didn't know what to do and got really awkward. I'm sorry, I just wanted our first proper meeting to be perfect and I fucked it up."

Arthur wanted to move after those words, but Lando gently pulled him closer again. "You didn't fuck it up! I think it's adorable, that you had a plan like that in mind and I can imagine that it would have been amazing. But that doesn't mean it was bad the way it really happened.  You held my hand while eating pizza and we're hugging and cuddling right now. So your plan has worked anyway." Arthur now lifted his head to look at him.

"Well, there might be one more thing that I had planned." he whispered, his eyes darting down to Lando's lips and then quickly up at his eyes again. "What is it?"
Lando held his breath. When had Arthur's face come so close to his? And when had his hand found its way to his cheek?

The Brit's heart was beating so fast, Lando was sure, Arthur could hear it. He was so close now, their noses only millimetres apart.

"Boys, I made some breakfast, do you- oh my god, I'm so sorry!" Charles had shut the door again just as quickly as he had opened it, his face almost as red as the car he drove during the season.

Lando sighed. Arthur had brought some more distance between them again and played with the corner of the duvet in his hands, seemingly mortified by being interrupted by his older brother. Again. This had to stop, Charles needed to leave them alone.

So Lando picked up his phone from the nightstand next to the bed and sent a message to Max:

Please come here and pick up your cock-blocking boyfriend, or I will actually murder him

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- Messages between Max & Lando -

Please come here and pick up your cock-blocking boyfriend, or I will actually murder him

What are you talking about?

you know exactly what I'm talking about, don't pretend that you don't know about Arthur and me, I know Charles told you everything.
and I know about Charles & you because apparently not being able to keep a secret runs in the Leclerc brothers' genes

Damn, you're right, they really can't shut their mouths.
Which can also be quite a good thing though, let me tell you :)

omg Max, please don't!
I really don't want to know how you do it, just please keep Charles occupied for a few hours, okay?

No problem, have fun :)

"Why are you smiling at your phone like that?" Arthur had wrapped himself almost completely into the duvet next to him, only his eyes and nose sticking out. This left half of Lando's body uncovered and pretty cold now, but he didn't care. Arthur just looked too cute like this.

"I just booked us some Charles-free time." Lando grinned, leaving Arthur raising one of his eyebrows in confusion, but before the Brit could start to explain, they heard Charles shouting from the other side of the door, apparently not daring to open it this time.

"Boys, I'll be gone for a few hours. Please don't do anything, I wouldn't do. Bye!"
Lando and Arthur looked at each other for a few seconds and then broke into giggles at the same time. As if there was anything Charles wouldn't do.

"I'm not sure how you did this, but you're the best!" Arthur exclaimed, unwrapping himself from the duvet, just to cuddle up to Lando and put it around the both of them again.

"Thanks, I was getting cold." Lando teased.
"Shit sorry, can't let that happen. Turn around." Arthur grinned, shyness nowhere to be found at that moment.

The McLaren driver hesitated for a moment, but then quickly obliged, now facing away from Arthur. However, before he could ask what this was about, the other pressed himself against his back, wrapped his left arm around him and buried his head in the crook of Lando's neck again.

"Better, little spoon?" he asked, his lips only a few centimetres from Lando's ear now.
"So much better.", the older one managed to get out, still a little overwhelmed by the sudden initiative coming from Arthur. He was definitely not complaining though. He liked it. Maybe even a little too much.

"I definitely can't promise I won't steal all the covers at night, but I promise I'll always be your big spoon and keep you warm." he now whispered, before placing a soft, barely-there kiss on the side of Lando's neck, causing goosebumps to spread all over the older's body, despite being cosily warm now.

-

Lando woke up again, at the sound of a door closing. He turned around to see that Arthur was not lying next to him anymore. Instead, he was standing next to the door, his hair wet and only a towel wrapped around his hips.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up.", the Monegasque smiled apologetically before turning around to rummage around inside his wardrobe.

Lando couldn't help but bite his lip as he took in the mesmerizing sight in front of him. A few drops of water had slowly made their way from Arthur's hair down his back and now disappeared under the towel.

When Arthur turned around again, Lando quickly shook his head to get his thought straight again. "I ... umm, I guess I'll go and take a shower too then." he blurted out, grabbed some random clothes from his suitcase and almost ran out of the room.

Arthur shouted "Towels are in the first drawer on the right." after him, with a knowing smirk on his face.

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When Lando was also done showering and getting ready, the two of them decided to go to the beach. The weather wasn't great but they didn't mind. Quite the contrary was the case actually because that meant there would probably not be a lot of people around, which was exactly what they were hoping for.

"Wow, I just realized I haven't been here in so long. Sometimes I forget how nice Monaco actually is." Arthur said when they arrived at Larvotto beach. Thankfully they were completely alone except for an old man walking his dog in the distance.

"We get used to the things that are around us all the time and don't see their beauty anymore, no matter how special they are." Lando shrugged after speaking those words of wisdom.

"Well, I don't think I'll ever get used to this beauty right in front of me." Arthur's voice had gotten a little lower and quieter now. Lando slightly raised one of his eyebrows in confusion. Hadn't the Monegasque just said the complete opposite?

He turned around but completely forgot about asking Arthur what he meant by that, because instead of standing behind him and looking out at the sea, like they had both done for the past few minutes, Arthur was now right next to Lando, gazing down at him with a gentle smile. He was so close, and his presence immediately sent a warm flush through Lando's body.

"I was talking about you, idiot." he now grinned, interpreting Lando's confused look correctly.
"Oh." was all the Brit could get out before a big smile formed on his face as well and he even dared to take one of Arthur's hands into his own after scrambling all of his courage together.

A blush crept onto his face when he intertwined their fingers and he felt the need to look away again to hide it but something in his mind stopped him from doing so. He didn't quite know what it was but he couldn't stop looking into Arthur's eyes, it almost felt like he was being hypnotized.

"I still can't believe you're here. I'm afraid I will wake up any second and it was all just a dream." The younger boy was almost whispering now. Lando squeezed his hand a little. "You know, dreams always end right before the best part is about to happen."

Arthur just nodded and squeezed his hand back, before bringing his other hand up and resting it on Lando's cheek. His thumb gently stroked over the flushed skin and a loving smile formed on his face.

"Then I think I will have to make sure I'm not dreaming now."

With that, Arthur slowly leaned closer so that their noses were almost touching now. He looked into Lando's eyes again, a questioning expression on his face.

Lando just nodded. It was the only thing he could do. He wasn't able to get out a single word. His heart was beating so fast, he was sure everyone within a radius of 10 miles could hear it.

All of this was immediately forgotten however when Arthur's lips finally touched his. His heart could have even jumped out of his chest at this moment and he probably wouldn't have noticed it.

The kiss was gentle and tentative and only lasted for a few seconds, but it was perfect.

The younger one slowly pulled away again, still cupping Lando's face with one of his hands. They both smiled at each other shyly.

"Definitely not dreaming.", Arthur murmured before leaning in, to kiss Lando again.

The older one now raised his free hand to rest on Arthur's hip, causing the latter to pull him even closer and smile against his lips.

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"No Charles, we're not going to the beach! And we're also not going anywhere else." Max scolded, putting an arm around his boyfriend's shoulders. "You know just as well as I do, that Arthur and Lando are probably venturing around Monaco at the moment and don't want to be disturbed by you. So we're going to stay right here on my couch for the rest of the day."

Charles frowned and crossed his arms in front of his chest. "But-" His protest was muffled by Max' lips kissing him softly.
"No but! Well, yes maybe there will be some butt involved later, but we're definitely staying here." The Dutchman smirked at his own pun, even though Charles was still not convinced.

"How did you know I wanted to see what those two are up to?" Charles pouted.
"Because I'm a protective older brother myself and as your boyfriend, I'd say I know you pretty well by now." Max untangled Charles' arms to hold his hand before adding "And maybe Lando also texted me to stop you from cock-blocking.", with a teasing grin on his face.

"Cock-blocking? Oh my god, Lando is probably fucking my little brother right at this moment!" The Monegasque's mouth hung open now, his eyes wide with shock. He couldn't handle the image that had just snuck into his mind.

"Oh come on, it's Arthur and Lando! I'd be surprised if they have done anything more than hold hands yet. You know how inexperienced and awkward they both are when it comes to love and relationships." Max squeezed his boyfriend's hand a little and laughed.

"Also I think if they eventually do it, it would be Arthur who's fucking Lando."
Charles just made an indefinable noise at this and buried his face in Max' shirt, which only made the Red Bull driver laugh even more.

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"Thank you for showing me around today, it was lovely." Lando smiled when they had arrived back in Arthur's bedroom. They were still holding hands, just like they had done almost the entire afternoon.

"I liked it, too." the Monegasque replied, gently running his thumb over the back of Lando's hand. "Can...can I tell you something?" he was looking down at their intertwined fingers now, nervously biting his lower lip.

"You know, you can always talk to me about anything, Arthur." Lando squeezed his hand a little, trying to emphasize this promise.

"I love it when you say my name." the younger one blurted out. "Arthur" Lando repeated more slowly, a wide smile on his face now. "Was that what you wanted to tell me?"

"No, I..." Arthur let go of his hand now, to ruffle through his own hair and went to sit on the bed. The Brit followed him and sat down beside him, resting his hand on Arthur's knee after hesitating for a second.

"You drive me crazy. When I'm around you, one moment I'm more comfortable and confident than I've ever been and then you just have to look at me and suddenly I'm an awkward, stammering mess again and forget how to breathe. What are you doing to me?" The younger one almost sounded desperate now.

"The exact same thing you're doing to me apparently.", Lando whispered with a soft smile, leaning a little closer, so he could lean his head onto Arthur's shoulder.

They sat like this for a while, simply enjoying each others company and gently stroking the other one's hand or arm every once in a while.

When Arthur let go of him and scooted further back, Lando was disappointed for a second. He didn't want this to stop. Being so close to the other just felt so good.

But then he realized, that Arthur had laid down on the bed and now opened his arms invitingly for him. For this, Lando didn't need telling twice. He almost leapt into Arthur's arms, cuddling up to him and resting his head on his chest, while the other chuckled at his sudden enthusiasm and wrapped his arms tightly around him.

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- Messages between Max & Charles -

OMG Maxy
Look at them

Look how cute they are, I can't handle it

Wtf babe, you promised me to leave them alone when you left
That was like 30 minutes ago, how did you already forget that
You're horrible!
But yeah they are pretty fucking cute :D

I just wanted to check in on them, if they're hungry!
But they didn't answer when I asked from outside the door, so I got worried

So you had to go in and take a picture of them?
Wow, I'm really gonna have to tell Arthur to lock his door
I'm dating a stalker, I can't believe it

When I realized they are sleeping I wanted to leave again but then I saw how cute they're cuddling together
I can't help it, I'm just so happy for them!

Ok babe, that's actually quite adorable <3

Also, they are both still wearing clothes, so you were right, they were not fucking :)

Not yet ;-)

Argh stop

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"Good morning, little spoon" Arthur whispered into Lando's ear, before pressing a soft kiss on his cheek.
The Brit blinked a few times, not completely awake yet. "Morning" he mumbled, a blissful smile forming on his face when he realized who had woken him up.

"It's midday already, you're such a sleepyhead." the younger one chuckled slightly.
"It's not my fault, I just sleep so well with your arms around me."
Arthur pulled him even closer at those words. "Then I guess I'll just never let you go again."

"I wish you could. I can't believe I'll have to go back in only two days." Lando sighed.
"Oh no, please don't remind me! I will miss you like crazy."

The older one turned around in Arthur's arms. "Really?"
"Yes, I need my little spoon in my arms, that's where you belong." Arthur stated, gently swiping a loose curl back from Lando's forehead and then resting his hand on the other's cheek.

"I like that. Being yours." Lando mumbled, his face slowly turning pink once again.
"Mine." Arthur smiled. "My little spoon."

This made Lando smile as well.
"And my boyfriend?", the Monegasque asked, his voice only a whisper now.

This time it was Lando's turn to kiss him. He put his hand in the younger boy's neck and pulled him closer, happily joining their lips together. He could feel Arthur smiling now before he slowly started moving his lips. This kiss was a lot different than their first ones. It grew more passionate by the second and when Lando opened his mouth a little bit, Arthur didn't hesitate to add his tongue to the game.

They found a rhythm that worked for both of them, pretty quickly and only stopped when breathing became absolutely necessary at some point.

Lando rested his forehead against Arthur's. His hand had found its way from the other's neck, to his hair while kissing.
"And your boyfriend.", he said, a big grin plastered across his face.

"Wow.", was the only thing Arthur could get out, still trying to catch his breath.  His slightly swollen lips now also formed into a massive smile.

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"You know, a few months or even weeks ago, I never would have thought that you'd be here in my room, let alone lying in my bed like this and I'd be able to actually call you my boyfriend."

Lando, who was lying in Arthur's bed shirtless and with a big hickey on his neck, blushed and tried to move away to hide his face in the pillow but Arthur pulled him back to his chest with a grin. "And I never would have thought I could just do this.", he added and placed a soft kiss on the Brit's forehead.

"When I accidentally came out to you via text message, I was so incredibly scared! I thought I might as well just jump off a bridge. But you made me feel so safe and for the first time, I felt like someone actually got me. I feel like you understand me and my feelings more than I do myself, sometimes. You helped me accept myself the way I am. So I guess, I just wanted to say thank you. Thanks for everything, I don't think I could have done all of this without you. Merci, mon coeur." Arthur was smiling but there were tears shining in his eyes now.

"Arthur" Lando whispered, slightly overwhelmed by this confession.
"J'adore quand tu dis mon nom." The Monegasque mumbled and softly kissed Lando's cheek.

"I have no idea what that means but I love it when you speak French."
This made Arthur grin. "Hey, what happened to our plan of me teaching you French? We never continued doing that!"

"Because we were too busy falling in love.", Lando smiled and blushed again but didn't try to hide it this time.
"I guess that's the reason, yeah." Arthur's grin turned into a loving smile before he placed his hands, who had been wandering up and down Lando's bare chest to leave goosebumps all over during his little speech before, in his boyfriend's neck to pull him into a kiss.

"And what happened to our game of questions? We never continued playing that either." Lando suddenly remembered.
Arthur grinned. "Well, ask away then."

"I think I'm gonna steal one of your old questions. How does kissing a boy feel? Did you find that out yourself now?"
This time it was Arthur's turn to blush and Lando immediately felt like he might swoon any second at that view.

"Indeed, I did. And it makes me feel like the happiest person on earth. Like I never want to stop doing it ever again."

"Then don't stop." Lando giggled before their lips met once again.

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Lando untangled himself from Arthur and sat up on the bed. "Speaking of kissing boys. I think I have to tell you something."
Arthur sat up too now. "Okay, what is it?"

The Brit looked down at his hands, fumbling with the duvet in his lap. "I promised to never talk about this again, but it feels wrong not to tell you. I want to be completely honest with you and should have probably told you sooner, but it was just never the right time. I'm sorry."

"You're scaring me a little now", Arthur admitted, trying to make eye contact with his boyfriend, but Lando kept staring down.

"The only boy I ever kissed before you was Max." Lando took a deep breath. "That's why I didn't want to tell you about my first kiss with a boy, back then. Because it was horrible. Not because it was a boy, but because it was Max. It felt like kissing my brother. But Max had asked me to do it because he was so confused with his sexuality and wanted to find out if he's really gay, with that kiss. Obviously, that didn't quite work because he found it awful too, so his conclusion was, that he wasn't gay. Well, we know how that turned out." Lando now dared to peak up at Arthur, a shy smile on his face.

"Wait, Max? As in Max Verstappen? As in my brother's boyfriend?" Arthur furrowed his brows in confusion. Lando only nodded slightly.

"I'm so sorry to throw this onto you like this now, but it felt wrong not to tell you. Please don't feel weird about it now. That was ages ago. And there was never anything romantic or sexual between us, we both didn't feel anything at all. So technically, my real first kiss with a boy that I actually liked was with you."

"Wow okay, I don't know what to say now, to be honest.", Arthur mumbled after a few seconds of silence.
"That's completely fine! Please don't feel like you have to say anything now. I just wanted you to know the whole story. No more secrets. You don't have to react to it in any way or something like that. Take your time. I know this is probably a weird situation for you as well now. We don't have to talk about it if you don't want to."

Arthur nodded. "I think I need a little time to think about this."
"Of course, yeah. No problem, I'll just-" Lando wanted to jump up and leave, but Arthur caught him by his wrist. "Don't go. Can we please just lie here for a bit?"

"Umm okay. Yeah, sure." Lando crawled back onto the bed, his heart beating like crazy. Arthur didn't want him to leave. That was a good sign, right?

They both lay there next to each other, hands slightly touching, but not really. Both simply listening to the other's breathing, both completely lost in their own thoughts.

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A slight smile crept onto Arthur's lips when he heard Lando's steady breathing turn into quiet snoring. He turned to look at the boy lying beside him. He always looked so peaceful when he was sleeping, Arthur was sure he could stare at him for hours and hours at a time.

But now was not the time to do so. Instead, he got up, moving as slowly and quietly as possible, in order to not wake his boyfriend up and snuck out of the room.

He had been very relieved that Lando's confession had only been about kissing Max in the past, back when they hadn't even known each other yet, but he still didn't really know how to deal with it and needed to get it out of his system.

So naturally, he found himself knocking on Charles' door.

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When Lando woke up, the space on the bed next to him was empty. He sat up and rubbed his eyes, still a little dazed from sleep, when he heard the door open.

"Hey, you're awake!", Arthur smiled and sat down next to him. "Yeah, how long have I been sleeping for?" Lando stifled a yawn.

"About an hour. Or in other words: Long enough for me to talk to Charles about this whole Max-thing and realize that it doesn't bother me really. That's something that happened in the past and since it didn't involve any feelings and it's not like he's your ex, I don't think it's gonna be awkward between all of us either. Charles knows Max' side of the story as well and he also said the kiss was horrible, so I don't think I have any reason to feel jealous."
The Monegasque smiled and grabbed his boyfriend's hand.

"You're mine, little spoon. I'm not going to let anyone or anything change that any time soon. Max, Charles and everyone else in this world can do whatever the fuck they want, as long as I get to have you."

A smile spread on Lando's face as well now, while the familiar warm, fuzzy feeling spread inside of his chest. "Oh, believe me, I'm all yours, Arthur.", he chuckled, as he remembered the big hickey on his neck, where Arthur had already marked his territory beforehand.

"Merde, I really love it when you say my name."

"I know. And I love it when you call me your little spoon.", Lando smirked before slinging his arms around his boyfriend's neck and pulling him down for a sweet kiss.

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When Lando's alarm sounded the next morning, he wanted to curse the entire world. 4:30 AM was far too early for him to be awake already.

"Éteins-le!" he heard a sleepy voice mumble beside him. Lando quickly turned around to press the snooze button on his phone, when his sleep-deprived brain realized why he was woken up so early in the morning.
He had to catch his flight back home to England today.

Arthur next to him must have woken up enough to remember this too now because he quickly wrapped his arms around the small Brit and pulled him close to his chest.

"I don't think I'll be able to let you go, little spoon.", he whispered in his ear, voice still a little raspy from sleep. "Same, I wish I could just take you with me.", Lando whined before burying his nose in Arthur's neck to take in the scent that had gotten so familiar and comforting to him during the last few days.

They lay there for a little while, enjoying each other's presence, stealing soft kisses from time to time and drifting off to sleep again before the beeping sound of Lando's phone startled them once more.

With another deep sigh, Lando freed himself from Arthur's arms, who murmured words of disapproval, turned the alarm fully off this time and got up.

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"Are you sure you've got everything? All your clothes? Your passport?" Arthur asked for the third time, rushing and looking around his room again. "Yes, stop worrying. I have more stuff in this bag than when I came here.", Lando chuckled.

"I have to worry about it because that distracts me. Otherwise, I might start crying.", Arthur whispered and pulled his boyfriend into a tight hug again. "Oh god, please don't or I'll cry too! It's not that long until we see each other again. Only two months, baby. We can handle that."

Lando put his right hand into Arthur's neck to pull him into another sweet kiss. He tried to save the feeling of Arthur's soft lips against his own deep inside his memory, so he wouldn't forget it while they were apart.

"I'll miss you every second of it.", the Monegasque mumbled against his lips, not willing to let go just yet. At those words, a small smile crept onto Lando's lips, while he quickly tried to blink the tears, that had formed in his eyes, away. "I'll text or call you every second of it."

"I should hope so, or else I'll send Charles after you.", the younger grinned half-heartedly before taking his hand and leading him downstairs and to the car so they could make it to the airport in time.

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As the plane took off, Lando slouched back into his seat and closed his eyes in an attempt to hold back the tears once again. Leaving Arthur hurt more than he could have ever imagined it.

Only being able to give him a short hug, to say goodbye at the airport, had made it even worse. Their last kiss and proper goodbye before he had left had happened in the car, so nobody could see them.
Still, he had to restrain himself from another kiss when they eventually needed to part ways at the gate.

And now, only a few minutes later, Lando was already longing for Arthur's touch again. He already missed the feeling of his strong arms around his body and his soft skin on his own.

In only one week he had grown so attached to the young Monegasque, it almost felt like he couldn't live without him anymore.

Lando took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. How the hell was he supposed to survive two whole months without Arthur when he couldn't even bear it anymore after only half an hour?

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When he arrived back in England, Lando quickly turned his phone back on, just to receive a message from Arthur only a few seconds later.

My bed still smells like you
I hope that never stops
Miss you already :(

you're so adorable when you're all cuddled up like that
I wish I could be there with you <3

You should've just taken me with you in your suitcase
I'm sure nobody would have noticed

I'm not so sure about that
Maybe next time ;-)
Damn, only thinking about the fact that there's going to be a next time
that i'll have to leave you again breaks my heart

Charles just woke up and wants to keep me company now
But honestly, I just feel like crying rn
It's just not the same here anymore, without you

Aw baby, please don't cry! :(
Let Charles distract you for a little bit while I'm on my way home
I'll call you as soon as I'm out of the car, okay?

Okay, I'm looking forward to it 
Drive safe <3

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Every day without Arthur seemed to be almost twice as long as the ones Lando had spent with him. Most of the time he was distracted by training, team meetings and preparations for the upcoming season, but at night it all caught up with him again.

When he was lying in bed, longing for Arthur to be lying next to him with his arms around him. They always video chatted or called at that time, but it was still not quite the same as his boyfriend's physical presence.

Lando tried not to let it show too much, but he knew Arthur saw how miserable he was without him. And the Monegasque wasn't much better himself. They always laughed and made jokes, but when the time came to say goodbye again, there was always this sad glint in his eyes. And it broke Lando's heart every single time.

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It got only worse when the season started and he had to travel all across the world to race again while Arthur was still staying in Maranello. This meant that there was more of a time difference between them now and it was constantly changing.

When Lando was going to bed and wanted to fall asleep while listening to Arthur's voice, it often was the middle of the day for the younger one, which meant he was working and couldn't talk to his boyfriend.

So they made it their new ritual to send each other a little voice message every day after waking up in the morning and before going to bed at night. The other then listened to it, when he woke up a few hours later or when it was time for him to go to bed.

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"Hey, my little spoon. You did amazing today! I wish I could have been there to cheer you on but nevertheless, you did such a great job and I'm so so so proud of you. I'm looking forward to giving you all the congratulations kisses soon. Only 42 days more now! Good night, sweet dreams!

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"Good morning baby, I hope you slept well. I had a pretty ... let's call it interesting ... dream about you tonight. I'm going to tell you all about it in person in only 34 days, I can't wait. Have a great day!"

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"Good morning. I wish I could be your big spoon and have you in my arms right now. It's so cold and empty, you are seriously missing in my bed. I hope you know that once these last 20 days are over, we have to spend at least one whole day in bed together, to make up for all this sleeping alone. I'm going to stay in bed, hug my pillow and dream about it for another few minutes. I miss you so much it hurts."

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"Hi Arthur, I hope you had a better day than me. Qualifying sucked, I'm so disappointed with myself. I wish I could just hug you and forget all about it. 16 days feel like an awful lot right now. But it's gonna be the best day of my life when I finally get to see you again. So all the waiting and suffering will be totally worth it in the end, I can feel it. Sleep tight, my big spoon!"

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Unfortunately, I can't send you a voice message right now because I'm still at Prema and there are people around me but I just can't keep it in any longer
I wanted to wait until I see you again but my heart is screaming louder than my head right now and I feel like I might die if I don't tell you
Seeing you next to Charles on TV today made me realize how much I see you as my family. But you don't only feel like family to me, you actually feel like home

You're my home, Lando Norris and I can't wait to come back to you <3
I love you

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- Messages between Arthur & Charles -

What did you just text Lando?

Wtf Charles, that's none of your business!
Why?

Because he is smiling at his phone like a freaking madman
I think I'm actually going to puke, he's such a lovesick puppy

OMG
That's so adorable

Are you going to tell me what you wrote if I send you more pictures of him?

Definitely not
But nice try :P

They both couldn't wipe the grins off their faces for the rest of the day.

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my face when I realize it's only 4 more days until I finally get to see you again <3

Aww Baby, you're so adorable!
I might have accidentally set that pic as my wallpaper now oops

Accidentally? ;-)

Well okay, maybe I caused that accident intentionally. Don't tell the FIA, please

oh god, i love you so much

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Saying that Lando was thrilled would have definitely been an understatement. He felt like he was going to burst with excitement any second now. Tomorrow he would finally see Arthur again.

Since it was Saturday on a race weekend though, he tried his best to not let his happiness distract him too much. He still wanted to do well in qualifying, after all.

So he pushed all of his excitement and the butterflies in his stomach to the back of his mind and focused on his job.  And he succeeded. He managed to do an amazing lap which made him end up in P4 on the grid for the race tomorrow.

Very content with this result, Lando got out of the car and made his way over to his team to get some praise and congratulations. On his way, he came across Charles, who qualified P5 right behind him.

"Great day for us, huh?" he smiled at the Monegasque and patted him on the shoulder while passing. Charles grinned widely "The best is yet to come."

"No chance, I definitely won't let you overtake me tomorrow." the Brit chuckled, figuring his friend was talking about the race the next day.

But the Ferrari driver's grin only widened before he winked at him and left.

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You look so damn cute here omg

have you been stalking my fan pages again? ;-)

Lando replied and quietly chuckled to himself. He definitely didn't mind that his boyfriend sometimes acted like the biggest fangirl of them all. Actually, he found it quite endearing.

"Nope, I actually took that one myself.", a very familiar voice suddenly sounded behind him.

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Lando almost tripped because he turned around so quickly, being met by Arthur's cheeky grin right in front of him.

"You're here! But... but I thought you're not coming until tomorrow.", he stumbled over his own words.

"I wanted to surprise you." Arthur's grin got even wider as he opened his arms invitingly and Lando immediately jumped into them.

"Well, that was a success.", he mumbled as he nuzzled his face into his boyfriend's neck to breathe in the familiar scent he had missed so much over the last few weeks.
"I missed you so much. I can't believe you're here!"

"I missed you too. More than I could have ever imagined. But now I'm here and I finally got my little spoon back." Arthur smiled and got a little distance between them again, so he could look into his boyfriend's eyes.

"Finally." Lando smiled too before closing the distance between their lips for a sweet kiss.

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- Messages between Max & Charles -

Look what Arthur just sent to me

I don't think I have ever seen him this happy before, it's crazy

Mum told me he was a mess after Lando left. I tried to distract him while I was still there but when I left too, he was devastated apparently

Aw wtf, why aren't we that cute together?

Lando was getting really annoying too
Arthur was literally the only thing he would talk about for the last week
I was very close to kidnapping your brother for him just so he would finally stfu

What are you talking about, we are even cuter than them!

Oh my poor poor baby, did Lando annoy you?

Why do I have a slight feeling, that you're being sarcastic?

Because I am
And I'm coming over to annoy you even more, in about 10 minutes ;-)

Oh god, what did I get myself into...

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Lando jumped out of the car, a massive grin spreading across his face under the helmet. He couldn't quite believe it yet. He had actually done it. He had just scored his very first podium in Formula 1.

He could barely feel the congratulating hits on his helmet and shoulders from his crew because his whole body felt kind of numb and buzzing. It felt like a dream.

Even after the podium ceremony, he still hadn't quite realized that this was actually happening in real life, so he tried to subtly pinch his own arm to make sure, he wasn't just dreaming all of this.

Being subtle had never really been one of his strengths though, so he wasn't really surprised when he heard Zak behind him. "It's not a dream, dude. You actually did it!"

When Lando turned around to his boss, he was met by a wide, cheerful grin before he was pulled into a bone-crushing hug once again.
"And now you should go and celebrate, I think there's someone waiting for you outside." Zak winked and nodded his head in the direction of the door.

Confused, Lando turned around to see what his boss was talking about and spotted Arthur, standing in front of the building. He had a huge smile on his face and was fiddling with his phone.

As he walked up to him, Lando tried not to look too excited to see his boyfriend, they were still in public after all, even when there was nobody around at the moment. However, he didn't really do a good job of hiding the grin on his face. At least he could restrain himself from jumping the Monegasque right then and there.

"Hey, what are you doing here? I thought you were celebrating Charles' second place with him."

When Arthur looked up at him, his face lit up even more.
"I did, but Charles basically kicked me out and told me to go see you because I was an 'annoying little idiot only gawking at pictures of his boyfriend on his damn phone', apparently." He drew little quotation marks in the air with his fingers. "As if it's my fault that you look so incredibly sexy on that podium.", he smirked. "I'm so proud of you!"

"I love you!" Lando blurted out before he could stop himself.

They had texted each other those three little words a lot over the last few weeks but neither of them had actually said them out loud yet.

The Brit had planned to do this a lot more romantically, maybe when they had a nice dinner date or something similar. But now those special words had just come out of his mouth without him even thinking about it. In the middle of the paddock, while he was drenched in sweat and champagne. 'Great job, Lando. Way to ruin a special moment!' he scolded himself mentally.

Arthur however, didn't seem to care about this at all. The already giant smile on his face seemed to grow even wider as he quickly took a look around them, grabbed Lando's hand and then pulled his boyfriend with him around the building into a more hidden corner.

And before Lando could even say anything, he had pushed him against the wall and kissed him passionately. Only now, as his whole body tingled and flooded with excitement and love for this boy, he realized how much he had actually missed having his boyfriend close. It was like a missing piece that finally completed a puzzle.

Standing on that podium had been the best feeling Lando had ever felt in his life until then, but when Arthur pulled away again and whispered "I love you too, little spoon." it was even better.

- THE END -

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Some little scenes I came up with but that didn't make it into the story, as a little bonus at the end :)

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your brother says hi :D

Who's that weirdo in front of him?

damn, I wish you were here so I could punch you for that

That started out so cute and then you ruined it :(

you deserve it though

:((

fine, I also wish you were here so I could kiss you

Better :)

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Look at this fucking asshole
He got ice cream for Lorenzo and himself but didn't get one for me

haha, Charles really is the best and the worst big brother at the same time :D

No, he's just the worst :(

aw, don't be sad baby
I can give you something else to lick?
wouldn't that be so much better ;-)

LANDO!
I'm in public ffs

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- Messages between Arthur & Charles -

Stop sexting Lando, we're trying to play golf here!

nah

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He's always complaining about me being on my phone all day and texting you but he's not any better
What kind of double standard is that?

it's called being the older brother :D
well, I can assure you he's not texting me at least

He better not be or I'd fucking kill him the way he's looking at his phone now

jealous Arthur is my favourite <3

Shut up

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wearing your hoodie is the best <3

You look so fucking adorable in it, little spoon

but it smells like you and that makes me miss you even more

I miss you too! Only two more weeks <3

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YOU. WERE. SO. ADORABLE. OMG.

STOP STALKING ME!

I didn't do anything! Charles just randomly sent that picture to me and wrote "Imagine how cute your babies would be"...

I'm actually gonna kill him this time

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- Messages between Max & Charles -

I bet 10 bucks and a blowjob that he's texting Arthur rn

No, that's so unfair! Of course, he is!

Yeah, he's such a love-struck idiot, it's always so fucking obvious when he's talking to Arthur :D
Guess that means you owe me 10 bucks and a bj though

This is the reason I don't smile at my phone like that when you text me

That's bullshit, babe and you know it. I can literally see you grinning from across the room, you fucking idiot...

shit, I didn't see you there

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And finally, here we have an adorable Lando calling Arthur after a race and being adorable:

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Sooo, that's really it now. I want to thank everyone who has read the story till the end, I love you all so much!

xx