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"Thyme come down here! "

Thyme's father called him. 9-year-old Thyme ran down and was greeted by a stranger and a small little boy.

The boy looked at Thyme and immediately covered his face. The stranger told him that it's okay.

Then Thyme's Father spoke up "Thyme darling I want you to meet my best friend who is your uncle, Dom"

Thyme looked at him and waied him.

Uncle Dom laughed at his father and told him "Even if he is small he knows how to be respectful towards elders. I like him already! "

"Well, he is. But can I know the name of this little man who is shy and looks so adorable? "

Uncle Dom looked at the little boy and told him "Son, Introduce yourself. Don't be shy they don't bite. "

"Actually we do bite rawr!"

Thyme then nudged his dad telling him that it's not funny. Just then the little boy giggled and all the attention went to him.
"Dom you sure that that's your son? Even his giggles cute as him! "

The little boy looked at him and said "Hi! I am Kavin."

Thyme looked at him and didn't say anything. He hated social interaction. He always thinks that he will make a fool out of himself when he introduces himself.

Kavin then approached Thyme. Then Thyme's Father, Yai, took his friend Dom away from them so that they can talk nicely.

" Your name is Thyme? Well hello, Thyme! My name is Kavin! Hope we can be friends!"

Friends?

Thyme was an introvert. He never had friends. He thought that having friends is just a waste of time. He was more interested in his father's company, VC production. He never thought that someone will be friends with him.

"Nice to meet you Kavin."

Skip some months.
On Kavin's birthday.

It was Kavin's 11th birthday party. They did a private birthday where close friends and relatives were invited just for caution. Thyme was also invited even though he didn't want to, he was forced to go and interact with different people.

"Thyme?"

"Happy birthday Kavin."

Kavin went and hugged Thyme tightly not wanting to let go. These past few months their friendship grew stronger. Thyme always thinks that he can only befriend Kavin and nobody else.

"Wanna know your birthday gift?" Thyme asked him with a smirk but immediately puts on his blank face. Kavin giggles seeing it.

"Of course! Am mostly excited about your gift!"

Then Thyme gives him a box. At first, Kavin was suspicious thinking that's its a Jack-In-The-Box. But when he opened it, he couldn't believe his eyes. The box was filled with his favorite chocolates and some pictures of him. Kavin was so happy, he hugged him again and told him "Thyme I- This is so beautiful."

Then Thyme held Kavin's hand and told him "Kavin when we get older I will always stay beside you. I will always protect you."

Thyme saw that Kavin's eyes are tearing up. He panicked thinking that he said something wrong. Then Kavin spoke up "Thank you. Just thank you."

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The sun rose. 17-year-old Kavin woke up woke and looked around his room. He remembered that it's Monday so he has to get his ass up to get ready for high school. Yea High school.

He was mostly excited cause he will see Thyme. Kavin had a crush on Thyme. He didn't know that he was gay until he was 15. He would get sexual thoughts when looking at celebrities. He was scared though. Scared that no one will accept him. He still remembers how nervous he was when he came out to his father.

Flashback:

"Dad?"

Kavin's Father, Dom looked up and saw his son standing near the doorway.

"Well come on in. What are you waiting for?"

Kavin was scared. Hella scared. What if his father disowns him? What if he hates gays? Will, he beat him for coming out to him? Will his father kick him out of the house? All the negative thoughts were killing Kavin scared. Mr.Dom can see his son tensed up. He knew that this is something important.

"What is it, son?"

"Dad I-"

"First of all calm down. It's just me."

This is it.

Kavin takes a deep breath. "You can do this Kavin." his mind said that.

"Dad. Am gay."

His father just looked at him with a blank face. That face made Kavin even more tensed up. Does he hate me? He probably did.

"I know dad that you always wanted a perfect son. I-" His voice cracked. "I thought that- that I was normal. But am not." At this point, hot tears are running down his face. "Am sorry I-"

"And why are you sorry?"

Kavin looked up to meet his father's eyes. His father was looking at him. Smiling. Kavin thought that maybe he had hoped?

"You may be gay, bisexual, straight, or whatever is your sexuality, Vin. But you will always be my son."

Kavin burst out crying. His father accepted him. He thought that he was the happiest human in the world at the moment. He hugged his father tight, Not wanting to let go.

"Did you think am those types of dad who will abuse their son and force them to be straight? My god, Vin, If your mother was here she could have been so proud."

Mom.

My mom died in an accident and I was only 4 years old. It was painful for me to move on.

"Of course she could. Are her one and only son dad!"

Flashback ends.

Kavin smiles thinking about that memory. He still can't believe that his father accepted him a year ago.

As he goes down he saw his father eating his breakfast.

"Good morning Vin."

"Good morning Dad!"

Kavin looks around and sees the maids standing in a line near the doorway.

"Good morning everyone!"

The maids greeted him back. The maids never hated their young master because he was so kind to them.

"Anyway Vin, You don't have to go to school today." His dad said with a sad smile

"What happened, dad?"

"Thyme is going to America for a year."

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

The sun rose and shined upon my eyes. Great another day in university.

I look to my clock which is on my bedside table.
8:30 am

Wow, am late. Again. I guess the teacher will kill me today cause am late for class. Again.

It's my daily routine to sleep late at night around 2-3 am-ish?

I grabbed my towel and went to my bathroom. When I turned on the shower cold water fell upon me.

"That's a great way to fucking start my morning."

I quickly bathed and brushed my teeth.

After getting out of the shower I picked my clothing for today. A black and white checkered shirt with black pants. Well, most of my clothing is black and white. I mean who doesn't like black and white- Like how-

Okay went off-topic there. Jesus. So I ran down and I came across a familiar face.

MJ.

Well MJ was my best friend in my university after- well someone left me.

"You knew that I was gonna be late again right? "

"Isn't that your daily routine Vin?"

I shrugged. "Yea maybe and maybe not."

MJ passes me a brown paper bag.

"Brought you breakfast. Now hop on or else we would get scolded by those teaching"

I hoped on his bike which I noticed was new. Well, rich people you know? I owned 4 cars but I don't use them to go to school.

After some time we made it to school. "I owe you one. Don't I?"

"Of course you do. So your treat on lunch?"

"Sure sure mister smarty pants."

MJ laughed. "Me? Smartypants? You have gotta be kidding. I don't get perfect scores on every test. And even though you might be good at tests you're always late to class. " He chuckled

"Yea yea. Now am gonna go see you at lunch MJ. "

As I was walking towards my class I accidentally bumped into someone. Thank god they hold my hand or else I would have fallen.

"Watch where you're going. "

That voice sent chills down my spine. Is that-

I looked back but the bell rang and I had to get to my class.

I searched for my other best friend and I saw her reading her book.

"Sup Prim? "

"Rare seeing you this early in Mrs. Namtan's class. "

"Thanks to MJ am here sitting right in front of you. "

"So did you read for the test? "

I nodded my head smiling at her. Prim was pale like me, had black hair and rosy lips. She may look cute and all but only me, MJ, and God knows that she is a devil beneath all of it.

I kind of like Prim she reminds me like I am her big brother or something. I even remember when she went up to me and asked about my sexuality. I was kind of shocked that some stranger came up to me and asked me such a question.

When I told her that I was gay she went full-fangirl mode. My ears bled that day.

I met MJ through our business. We were making a collaboration with his company and I came to know that the company's CEO's son was going to my school.

I go to one of the most prestigious schools which are only for rich people. North Hampton Hills.

Since this is an "only rich school" you will rarely find kind students. Most of them are gold-diggers or total bitch.

Anyway, we were informed that Mrs. Namtan cannot come to our class today cause apparently, she was sick.

"I would have slept. "

"Well, you would have. Now come on let's roam around. It feels weird to sit here because there's too much 'plastic' here. "

Many girls looked at her and glared at her. Even if she's 19 she acts like a total badass. I like her cause of that.

MJ is the 'bad-boy' of our school. Sometimes he fights with other students and he is like a player. But he only respects his closest ones.

Then there's me. I literally hate everyone here. Girls always throw themselves on me and I always get disgusted by that. Most girls and gays are just after my money and all.

Anyways I and Prim went out of class. Many students were gossiping about something. Prim being a gossip listened to them so she can also know what everyone was talking about.

"Have you heard about the new student? "

"He looks pretty rich and he is very sexy. Just my type! "

"Yea yea he is everyone's type. Ok? "

"He looks pretty rich. I wonder in which position he is on. "

"I wonder what's his type is? Cute? Hot?"

There's a new student? In the middle of the semester? He must be pretty rich if he comes in between the semester.

"I heard that he is from our business course. "

Damn and he read business? I wonder who might that be.

Just then the bell rang signaling all the students to go to their respective classes.

I had English and Prim had Biology. So we said our goodbyes and parted ways.

As I entered our class I go to my farthest corner seat. I don't like to be in the front or middle with students around me.

Mr. Off came in and everyone said good morning.

"We have a new student today. Come in and introduce yourself. "

As soon as he came in, I felt my whole world crash down.

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

The new student was none other than Thyme Vachirawit.

It has been what? 4 years? Since he left for America?

He stood there. Looking around the room till he met my eyes. He smirked as if he knew that I was studying at this university.

Putting on his famous stoic face he said "Sawasdee Kra. I am Thyme Vachirawit. The next successor of VC company. "

They were a lot of gasps. I rolled my eyes and shrugged my shoulders. I hated that Thyme is back in Thailand after leaving me for 4 years.

A lot had happened four years ago. But I tend to forget it. It was the worst thing in my life. I never even want to look back at my past.

"Take a seat Mr. Vachirawit," said Mr. Off, our biology teacher. I looked around and saw that there was a seat beside me and a seat at the front.

Knowing Thyme he didn't like people around him like me. And just my fucking luck he sat right next to me.

"Nice to meet you again, Vin. "

Okay. What happened to his voice? Why does it sound so sexy and why do I feel chills down my spine? Also, how did he get so ho-

I shook my thoughts away. I turned to him and made eye contact.

"It's Kavin for you Thyme. Not Vin. "

"Fierce are we here? You've changed Vin. "

For God's sake. Didn't I just tell him not to call me Vin? And excuse me. I didn't change he did. Wait did I? Well, some people said I did but-

Just then Thyme spoke up causing me to break out of my thoughts.

"So how were in these past years. "

"Oh, I was incredibly fine. "

No, I wasn't. I lied. How can I be ok after that incident?

"Also before leaving didn't you told me to-"

"I guess Mr.Metawin knows Mr.Vachirawit pretty well. I hope that you can give him a tour around our university khun."

No! I don't wanna! Why me! Out of 50 students WHY ME?!

"Sir can I just-"

"Sure sir he will. Right, Mr.Metawin?"

Sure my ass!

I looked at Prim asking for help but she just smirked at me. What the- Out of all people in the world why me?

Prim knows that am gay that doesn't mean that she will start 'shipping' me with this man who-I-once-loved and I still do?

Now I get to be stuck beside Mr. Thyme Vachirawit. Yay me.

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Finally. Class ended. Freedom here I com-

As I was walking through the door someone held my wrist and I turned 180° degree. Oh. I forgot that this man is here today.

"Did you forget me or are you avoiding me, Vin? "

I looked at him pretending to be annoyed.

"First of all. Stop calling me Vin. Second of all. No mister I wasn't avoiding you. I forgot that Mr. Popular has come back from America after 4 years. "

He raised his eyebrow and leaned closer to my face.

Did this man just lean closer to my face? I felt like my face is heating up. Gosh, face not today! Stop blushing!

I saw that he was still holding on to my wrist and I shook my hand to let go of my wrist and I stepped back.

"Stop it. Get some help"

He chuckled. Even his laugh can melt me. "So my tour. "

"Right. Sorry forgot about it. So let's begin, shall we? "

As I walked outside I saw Prim standing, waiting for me.

"Ok wait here let me just go and talk to her. "

He nodded and I went near Prim.

"Oh hello, Vin. Don't you have a tour to give to your lover boy? "

"First of all, he is not my lover boy. Second of all, I thought you were waiting for me. I think your waiting for MJ. "

She nodded. I remembered that I told MJ that lunch would be my treat.

"Shit. Prim do me a favor and can you tell MJ that I can't treat his lunch. Instead, I will treat him to dinner? If you don't have any schedule today then you can join us today after school. "

She brought her phone out and told me that she doesn't have any schedule so she can come with me.

It's been a long time since we three hang out. I said goodbye and went back to Thyme. I saw him smirking at me.

"Wow didn't know that Mr. Vin here has a girlfriend after I left. "

I looked at him disgusted.

"She's like my sister. I will never date her. "

"In that case can I date you instead? "

Okay, my heart is beating so fast. I think it's going to rip out of my rib-cage.

I didn't say anything and just ignored that question. He wasn't serious. He was just teasing me.

"So let's start the tour. "

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

After an hour of touring Thyme, we came to our last destination.

"Okay, so this is the last place. This is the old biology lab. Somebody messed with the chemicals which made them blow up and the lab is destroyed. Students don't come here. If you see a student here then that's rare. "

"Hey, Vin. "

I didn't listen to him.

"So that ends our tour here. Now I have to go to Mr. Vachirawit. Goodbye. "

"Can't we be friends just like in our childhood days? "

My body went stiff. I couldn't walk. I felt numb. Did he seriously forget what he did to me? I don't want the same mistake to be repeated itself.

"We could have been friends if that incident didn't accord Thyme. "

"Vin I-"

"2 years. It's been 2 years Thyme. You're too late for your apologies. "

And I walked away. Tears were forming in my eyes. I don't want him to look at me crying. I don't want anyone to see me this weak. I don't want to make the same mistake.

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Finally, I went home. I was so tired today. My legs were aching from giving the tour. On my way to my room, I met dad.

"Good afternoon dad. "

"Good afternoon Vin. How was school? "

"It was great. "

Dad doesn't know that Thyme is back? Or he just not telling me?

"Dad. Do you have something else to say to me? "

"I don't think so. Is something bothering you?"

I said no. And went to my room.

It was 5 pm right now. I grabbed my phone out of my bag and texted my friends.
--x--
The Three Musketeers

Prim
So everyone at home safely?

MJ
Yea.

When are we meeting and in which restaurant?

MJ
How about Italian cuisine?
I heard that Scola La Pasta makes some good pasta there.

Prim
I haven't eaten Italian in such a long time. Am down. What about you Vin?

I think I should worry about my bank account.

Prim
Yea MJ eats way too much

MJ
That's not true.

You know that she is right about that-

MJ
Fine. When are we meeting anyway?

How about at 6 PM at the restaurant?

Prim
Somebody pick me up.

MJ
You have your own chauffeur. We will not pick you up.

Prim
Fine. Don't act such a dick. Jeez

MJ
aM sCAReD!

Everyone shut up. Am picking everyone up. Be ready at 6:50.

MJ
Sure

Prim
Fine.

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Just then dad called me. I went downstairs and I think my eyes were about to fall off from my eye sockets. Thyme and his dad, Uncle Dom, are literally sitting down in our living room.

"Kavin, It's been a long time since I saw you! Probably a month ago when I came for some work. "

"Kavin, Look! Thyme is back in Thailand! You always told me how much you miss-"

I cut off my dad. I didn't want them, especially Thyme, to know how much I missed him.

"Am sorry uncle Dom and dad, but I have some work to do and am going to get late. So I have to leave."

"Ah- Then why don't you take Thyme with you? I think you will have loads of fun."

NO DAD- Gah! He is making it difficult for me. Should I make an excuse or should I agree?

"But dad I don't think that-"

"Of course uncle. I would like to hangout with Vin! Right, Vin?" he told and smirked at me.

God has blessed me so much today. I feel like am the happiest man alive right now.

"Fine but wait here let me go get my car real quick."

As I was walking through the garage to get my car, I called Prim.

"Hello, Vin. Is something wrong?"

"Change of plans. TV is coming with us."

"What the- What do you mean TV is coming with us? And first of all, did you buy a new TV? But aren't we going to the restaurant? Wait- IS THAT TV FOR ME?"

My poor ears. I think they are bleeding. Can someone call 911 for me?

"Not TV as in television bitch! Gosh, Prim aren't you the smartest among the three of us?"

Prim was dumbfounded. He meant Thyme, not reality television.

"Ah well I- You should have told me it was him! How will anyone react to 'TV is coming with us' Vin?" she told me with a mocking tone.

This girl. I swear to god I-

"What's taking so long?"

I looked back shocked. I saw Thyme leaning against the doorframe. Did he hear our conversation? How long has he been standing there? What if-

"Earth to Vin?!"

Startled I answered her loudly "WHAT?"

"Jeez, no need to shout. Anyway, so you're telling me that he is coming? We should have gone to a French restaurant. For your romantic date and oh how about-"

I cut her off. I can feel my face getting heated up. "You know what. Am coming right now. You better be ready or else am gonna leave you."

She quickly disconnected her call. Probably dressing up. I walked to my Bugatti La Voiture Noire. As I walked up to my car I can see that Thyme hasn't even moved.

"Thyme?"

"What?" he asked flatly.

Bitch what? Is he sulking or something? He would give blunt answers back in the day when he is sulking.

"Get in the backseat we are going now."

He got in my car and looked around. "Wow, Kavin. When we were younger you didn't have any interest in cars. Now, look at you going all out."

I huffed. "Well as I grew up I grew interested in cars. I guess some things changed. "

"I don't believe that. When I was in America my taste is everything was the same. Can't believe how did your taste change."

" Well, people change Thyme. Sometimes, it's not the people who change, it's the mask that falls off. "

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

It was a silent ride to Prim's house. The atmosphere was very heavy and awkward. Both of us didn't want to break the silence.

Just then my phone goes off. Ok, that startled me. I picked up my phone and saw that MJ was calling me.

"Hel-"

"Don't you hello me mister! Is this true what am hearing from Prim? TV is coming? "

"Wait MJ hold up- "

"You have a television in the back of the car? How did you even put that thing in the trunk? "

I guess MJ heard him and didn't say anything.

"No, we don't have a television in the trunk Thyme. "

"Wait his name is- "

"Will you shut the fuck up?! " I screamed. Why doesn't he expose me more?

"Okay fine. Does Prim know? "

"Yes, she does. "

"But why I-"

"We will talk after I get there. And that's final. " I said with a cold tone and finality.

"Fine then. I guess I will go to Prim's house. So it will be easy for you. Bye then. "

He hangs up the phone. I concentrated on the road again. It was silence until he spoke up.

"So whose name was it Vin? "

"What do you mean whose name was it? "

"Don't act dumb Kavin. You know exactly what I am talking about. "

I felt like I was so caught. So I sped up so we can reach Prim's house as soon as possible. Am going to kill MJ for not shutting his big mouth. He should only use that mouth when eating not talking.

They finally reached Prim's house. It was a mansion and all family members lived here.

I got out of the car and looked at Thyme. "Coming or staying? "

He got out of the car and we walked to the front door. Their butler, Jack, opened the door and greeted me. I asked where Prim is and he told me that she was with MJ.

We sat in their living room waiting for them. I just wanted to get out of here. Prim's father always asks me about our business. And I always get a bad feeling about it.

Prim and MJ finally got down.

They slightly widened their eyes and I noticed it.

"Meet Thyme. "

"Hello there. "

"Hi. Am Prim and I am Kavin's -"

"I know about you. Kavin told me about you. "

Prim nodded. She felt a dark aura around Thyme.

"Hello Thyme! Am MJ! "

"Hello there. "

"So can we go to the restaurant? It's half-past seven now. "

Everyone nodded. Thyme sat in the front seat and both of my best friends sat backseat.

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We entered the restaurant and the interior is vintage. I like the vintage grunge aesthetic. I think those two are the best aesthetic amongst the other ones.

"Can we get a table of four? "

"Of course sir! Follow me! "

We sat at our table. On my right Thyme was sitting and on my left Prim was sitting. I looked through the menu and I ordered myself White sauce pasta. I really don't like pasta but I always eat the white sauce one.

"So do you like our school Thyme? " asked MJ

"Well technically yes. It's just my first day here so I haven't really fitted in you know? "

"Ah, I have heard from Kavin that you went to America. So how was life there? "

"Well, my cousin lives there so I didn't have to look for a place. For a couple of months, it was hard but I got used to it. American food is good, to be honest. All my friends were good. Actually, I have a friend who was Thai. He came back with me I think he will come to our university tomorrow actually. "

"Can I know his name? I mean if you don't want to then it's ok. "

"His name is Ren. "

That's when Prim, who was looking through her phone, spoke up "So, do you have a girlfriend? "

I glared at Prim. She knows about me liking Thyme in the past. She just smirked at me and rolled her eyes.

"Well do you? "

"I don't actually. " Thyme said coldly.

"Then who is this? "

I saw that Prim was looking through Thyme's Instagram. It was a picture of a girl and Thyme standing really close to each other. I remember that picture. It was 4 years and 8 months ago when Thyme went to America.

"So? "

"Um. That's my cousin. "

I feel like mine and Prim's body was stiff. MJ was just enjoying the show.

Just then our orders came. I didn't waste time and took my pasta and started eating.

"Can't believe that your eating pasta Kavin." Thyme whispered in my ear.

I felt chills go down my spine.

"Like I said before people change Thyme. "

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I paid for our food and got in my car. Everyone was tired of talking even me. I was driving towards Prim's house when my phone buzzed.

I saw that Dad was calling me.

"Hello, dad! What is it? "

"Hello, Kavin. Have you finished our work and are you coming home now? "

"Yes, dad I am. Am gonna drop Prim and MJ then drop Thyme at their respective houses. "

"Oh ok. Dom has gone back to his house. Come back safely son. "

"Of course dad. Love you. "

I ended the call and I noticed that we were at Prim's house. We said our goodbyes and went to MJ's house.

After dropping off MJ, I remembered I still have Thyme.

And my thoughts were broken when Thyme spoke up.

"Kavin can we talk? "

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

"Aren't we talking right now? "

"Kavin. Listen 2 years ago I was being an asshole. I didn't mean-"

"What's done is done Thyme. You don't even know my suffering. Will your apologies help me in forgetting my past? "

"Please let me explain-"

"If I didn't change my mind that day. You would have been crying over my dead body. "

Thyme went stiff. He has nothing to say. He knows that his apologies will not affect me.

I started my engine and made my way to Thyme's house. It's been 2 years. We both have suffered a lot. I don't want to make the same mistake twice.

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I dropped off Thyme and I went home. The house was silent meaning that everyone must have fallen asleep. I made my way to my room and jumped on my bed.

I was in deep thought. Thyme returned after the incident and is asking for forgiveness. Should I forgive him?

"If you want to suffer then sure go ahead. " Said my mind.

"You know that you want to give him a second chance right? People deserve second chances in life. " Said my heart.

I was too tired. I got up went to my bathroom for a hot shower. And I brushed my teeth, changed into my pajamas, and went right under the blanket.

"Didn't Thyme said that one of his friends is coming to our university tomorrow? What was his name? Rain? Ren? "

After a while, I closed his eyes and darkness surrounds me.

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"Look! It's the gay faggot! "

"Do you like to be cock sucker ??? "

"Aww look he is crying! "

"Who will help a disgusting creature like him? Not me! "

"Listen here, I can't believe you kissed him he straight! Did you hear me! S-T-A-I-G-H-T! "

"I- I didn't even kiss him. "

"Yeah, no shit. "

"Your just a waste of space. You don't deserve to be here. "

"Just cause your rich that doesn't mean we are scared"

"Gonna cry to mommy? Wait. You don't have one! "

Silence.

Until one of them punches him.

His shirt is torn. The nose is bleeding. Eyes are swollen purple.

"Dude you can stop now. We don't want trouble. "

He saw darkness as he fainted.

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I woke up sweating real bad. My whole clothing was wet. I got down from my bed and went straight to shower.

I took my outfit and wore it. I couldn't even think straight. I dreamed about my past. I never had dreams about my past.

I can feel the pain in my body that day. Those bastards gave me a real good beating.

So today is Wednesday. Meaning that I have those self-defense classes. I have mastered everything in that class I don't know why my dad keeps sending me.

He probably must be traumatized to see me with bruises. I have told dad a hundred times that I can protect myself but he won't listen.

I got downstairs with my bag over my shoulder and saw that dad was talking to someone else.

Our eyes met. It's freaking 8:30 am and why is Thyme in front of my damn house?

"Kavin. Good morning son. Thyme has come to pick you up today for school. "

I looked at him. He looked at me like he was begging me to go with him.

"Sorry Thyme but I have some work now so I will have to skip. And dad is not going to those classes anymore. I can protect myself. "

"Am sorry Vin. But no. You will attend that class-"

"Am 19 now dad. I don't need to attend it. Am all grown up and am in my last semester. After this year, am gonna take over the company. So am I not attending whether you like it or not. "

I didn't listen to him after whatever he said. I just walked out of the front door with Thyme following me behind.

"Which classes are you talking about? "

"I am really pissed right now. If you want to argue, then leave. "

After that Thyme didn't say anything. We reached his bike and we got on, ready to go to the university.

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I went straight to class not caring about the world around me. I saw Prim coming in, beaming. She ran to me and sat beside me.

"So how was your talk after you dropped MJ? "

"Didn't go well. Argued. Again.. "

"Gosh Vin. Give the boy second chance! "

"I cant."

"Why not Vin?"

"I just can't. Prim stop it."

"Why-"

"AM PISSED SINCE I WOKE UP PRIM," I yelled. And my anger got the best of me.

"Prim I didn't mean-"

"Save it. "

Why are bad things happening to me?

"Prim I was pissed off since the morning. Dad is forcing me to join something and I don't wanna. Then Thyme was there listening to our conversation. I have been stressed lately. "

Prim looks at me. There's some sadness in her eyes. "Am sorry Vin," she said then hugs me tight.

I hugged her tight. How can I find a considerate friend like her?

Just then our professor entered the class.

"We have two new students here. Please come in and introduce yourself. "

A guy just about my age who has brown hair and a chiseled face comes into our class. All the girls are fawning over him. As if they don't fawn over me, Thyme and MJ. And now there's another rich dude for girls to snatch.

"Hello everyone. My name is Ren. I came back from America yesterday and I-"

"Am sorry am late! "

A girl came in. I raised my eyebrow and whispered to Prim "Who is she? I have never seen her around our campus. Are we getting two new students? "

"I guess we are. Let's just see. "

"Your late Mrs.Gorya. Since your new am letting you go but only once. Both of you introduce yourself. "

"Hello am Gorya. I got into this university by winning the scholarship! "

Chapter Text

Third-person POV

Ren just stood still not saying anything. He was just mesmerized by Gorya.

Then Gorya looked at Ren with a blank face. Everyone was looking at Ren. But nobody said anything.

Just then the professor coughed. "Mr.Jirawat , Can you please introduce yourself again?"

Ren broke his stare from Gorya. And then looked at the students. "Sorry for that. Hello, am Ren Jirawat. Next CEO of Jirakut, which is no. 4. "

The students were in awe. They can't believe that the first 5 positions next CEO's in line are studying in their school. No wonder why they are so popular.

Gorya looked around and saw an empty seat beside Prim and Kavin. She went up to them and asked "Sawadee! Can I seat here?"

Kavin looked at Prim asking for permission. Prim spoke up and said "Chai Krap. I am Prim, and this is Kavin. We welcome you to our school Krap. "

"Please don't be formal with me. I just won a scholarship here. That's all. Am not one of those big companies which you all own. "

Kavin widened his eyes. And so did Prim. It's very difficult to get a scholarship in our school. Only 2 students get a scholarship. And this poor girl won it! They were amazed by her.

Kavin POV

"So you are saying, that you don't own a company? "

She nodded. Prim looked at me and whispered in my ear "I don't trust her, I want her to gain my trust. What if she's after money-"

"Am sorry to ask this but, are you both in a relationship? "

I looked at Gorya and then at Prim. Prim was red like a tomato! I smirked at her reaction. "Chai krap. We are faens."

"MAI MEE!"

Everyone looked at her. She was dumbfounded. I was snickering. This is was the funniest moment in my life.

"Mrs.Chanikaran. Please stop shouting and sit down. Or else I have to send you to detention. "

Prim sat down and glared at me. I chuckled again. "I was just joking. No, we are not in a relationship. We are just best friends. Am also not interested in girls. "

"Oh. Can I ask the reason? Am sorry if it's a personal matter! "

"Ah, you see I am—"

"He likes cock then pussies." Prim said. Now I glared at her and she chuckled. Prim!

( A/N: I think am gonna faint. This is so funny.)

"Ah well you see am gay and I—"

"Why are you nervous? Didn't I say the right thing? "

Now Gorya was laughing. I feel embarrassed. I mouth her that "Am just gonna tell MJ that you have a crush on him. "

Now she was red as a tomato. I smirked. That's what you get for embarrassing me bitch.

Just then the bell rang signaling us that class is over.

"Can we both tour you? It's a big school you know? "

Gorya smiled and nodded. Just then Ren came and spoke up "Can I join you guys? "

We all stared at him. I looked at Prim.

"Don't you have Thyme? I think your Thyme's friend. "

He looks taken aback and scratches his nape. "Well, you see I—"

"Bro you didn't even call me! What the fuck! Am going around the entire campus to find you dumbass! "

Thyme walked in and we all stared at him. Just then his eyes met with Gorya. He widened his eyes a Lil bit. But I saw it anyways.

"And who is she? "

"She's Gorya. She's also new here. "

"I see. What position are you in? "

That's when Prim butt in. "Listen here. Stop asking her what's her position and whatever blah blah blah. Just because you at the top doesn't mean that you can ask everyone about themselves. "

"Who said that being the only one at the top? Isn't your best friend at the top too? "

He smirked at me and Prim. Now I felt offended. "But I don't ask them about their positions Thyme. "

"Still you are at the top with me. Am I wrong Mr. Metawin? "

"Your absolutely right Mr. Vachirawit. But am being honest here, I wish I was second place tho. "

"And why is that? "

"I wish we never met."

I packed my stuff and didn't even bother to look at his face. I turned to Prim and Gorya and asked "Tour or no? "

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/

"I wish we never met"

We met because dad was friends with Thyme's dad. They thought that it could be a nice thing if their son met. Who could have thought that meeting him was a fucking hell hole?

We walked around the campus touring Gorya. Well, I was mostly blanking out and Prim was the one telling Gorya.

I woke up from my daydream and saw that we are at our field. I saw some football players. Some were resting while some were playing. But one of them caught my eye.

Thyme.

I looked at Prim and Gorya and told them that I have to go.

I was going to the cafeteria to get some food when suddenly my head was feeling dizzy. I held my head and squeezed it a little thinking that it will go away.

But I was wrong.

My eyes started to feel blurry and I met darkness.

But the last thing I heard was two voices shouting. I think?

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

I woke up and the first thing I see is a white ceiling and some people talking.

What happened? Did I faint?

I remember that I was with Prim and Gorya what happened. Then I got thirsty and went to the cafeteria. What happened?

"Kavin! Are you okay?! "

"Vin! "

"Oh my gosh, Vin what happened?! "

I groaned. They are making my head split whoever they are they need to shut the fuck up! Am so tired. Am I at home or the infirmary?

"Stop it your gonna tear his head. Move aside. I brought food for him. "

My eyes were blurry but I recognize the husky and deep voice. Thyme.

Wait first of all how the heck did I end up here?!

I asked people who are around me how did I end up here.

They told me that MJ and Thyme were going to the cafeteria for water bottles when they saw me faint. They carried me here in the infirmary.

Just then the nurse came in and huffed. "Don't you all have class? What are you all doing here?! Mr. Metawin will go home now and I just came back getting a permission slip for him. Mr. Metawin I called your father and he told me that your driver is coming to pick you up. Now everyone goes back to your class!"

"Okay 'Mr. Metawin' am gonna visit you in the evening. Now I have to go cause this crazy old lady will put me in detention. " Ah, it was Prim. She whispered the last part so that no one else will listen. I chucked.

Then Thyme came and whispered in my ear "Take care."

I feel my face getting heated up. Saraleo!

So I replied "I will. I don't need you to take care of me tho. Go to your class."

He made a weird face then left.

Everyone said their goodbyes and went to their classes.

Just then I was informed that my butler came with my car. So it's my time to go home.

/

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/

The doctor came and examined me. Doctor Tay was working for us when I was 6 years. He was like another father figure to me.

"What happened to our baby Kavin today? You fainted because you are not drinking enough water, Vin. Dehydration."

"First. Am an adult now Phi'Tay. "

"You will always be the same six-year-old kid I saw back then. You will never grow up for me Vin. "

I smiled. His words will always make me smile. He always supports my decisions and never thinks bad of me.

"So how's the university?"

"Not good I guess. Thyme came back. Loads of studies and stuff you know?"

"Ah. Well, you should take a break you know? Don't always study. Enjoy your life."

"Hmm!" I gave him my sweetest smile.

"Well, I think it's my time to go. Drink loads of water okay? We don't want you to faint again now, do we? See you next time Vin. "

"See you next time Phi'Tay. "

Just then Dad came into my room and talked with Doctor Tay.

Dad told me that he has to rest for 2 days now but I think that's too much.

Prim visited me. I asked where MJ was but she said that he has some work to do so he dropped her at my house.

We talked about school stuff but she asked me a question that I didn't think she will ever ask me.

"Vin. I have seen you getting angry and a little sad when we are around Thyme. So like what's the reason? "

I hesitated. I don't want to remember the past. My life back then was a living hell.

"I don't want to talk about to Prim."

"But we told each other everything! I just want to know t-"

"Prim I said I don't wanna talk about it! I will tell you some other day! Jeez." I yelled. Then I realized I just yelled at her. She doesn't like it when someone yells at her.

"Prim I-"

"Vin am sorry that I went out of the line. It's 8 pm already. My parents will worry about me. I guess am gonna leave now."

"Fine."

Ugh, can this day get any worse?

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Thyme POV

I woke up at 6 am. My daily routine. I got down from my bed and went to shower.

I wore a white T-shirt and black pants. I put my books and notebooks in my bag and told my maid to bring my breakfast to my room.

Just then my phone got a notification. I picked up my phone and saw that there's a message from an unknown number.

-Unknown-

Unknown-

Hey

Thyme-

Hello? Who is this?

Unknown-

Hi! It's my first time messaging
a famous student of our school!

Thyme-

Who's this.

Unknown-

Fiesty are we?

Thyme-

Do you know who I am?

Unknown-

Of course duh. Your Thyme
Vachirawit. The famous boy in our semester.

Thyme-

So you do know me.

Unknown-

Yes, I do. But you don't :)

Thyme-

...

Unknown-

People always tell me that I give
the best advice if they have any problems :3

Thyme-

So?

Unknown-

Do you have any problems?

Thyme-

...

Unknown-

So you do?

Thyme-

No, I don't.

Unknown-

Well if you do, you know how to reach
me ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

Thyme-

...
We have school you know?

Unknown-

Ah- well am away for the moment.
I guess I will go tomorrow.

Thyme-

Fine. I don't care to be honest.

Unknown-

Then why are we talking?

Thyme-

...

Unknown-

Well, am gonna leave now Khun.
We will talk later :)

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

I went to school and saw MJ and Ren. MJ and I are close now. But that Prim girl. She's not okay with me.

I met Ren in America when I found out that he was a fellow citizen like me in the second position.

The day was the same as other days. Classes, homework, and other things. But today they announced that we will have clubs after school.

There are different types of clubs, I think 30 clubs?

I decided to join the photography club with Ren. MJ decided to join the football club.

I remembered that Kavin will come to college tomorrow. I wonder how he is right now. That stubborn kid didn't even give me his number. I decided to go and visit him.

/

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/

The Butler's waied me and I waied them back. I asked them if Kavin's dad was here. They told me that he had some work to do so he left and Kavin is sleeping after he took his medicines.

I went up to his room and saw him sleeping peacefully. I ruffled his hair and looked at him. I remember the mistake I did to him. I remember what happened after I left.

I remember the pain he felt.

I know he doesn't want to be friends with me again. I hurted his self-esteem. I made him insecure.

Even if I was in America, I had people telling me what happened to Kavin. I was guilty. I never thought I can destroy someone's life, someone who is special to me. Someone who was with me through my difficulties.

It's my fault.

"Am sorry."

I got up and left. I still remember what he did to me. But I don't think he will take me back. The pain, torture, the mess he had to face. It was all my fault.

/

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/

Dreamy Night By Lillypichu

1 AM, eyes closed, I'm slowly falling
To the music and the atmosphere
Now and then, I feel lights fading softly
All over me and I remember last year

When I was alone in my bed
With all these thoughts in my head
And living silently inside

It's so late in the night, my mind is drifting away
Then I dream about times I wished for a new, happier day
If a hand could reach out right now and save my life somehow
I'll face the sun again as soon as this dreary night ends

Don't wanna go down like this
My head's in a place that I don't miss
So ugly, so grumpy
Sleepin' in the meantime, just stay comfy
Once everything's said and done
I know I'll be okay, I will overcome
I'm hoping, I'm coping, I'm here
I remember last year

When I was alone in my bed
Unhappy thoughts in my head
And living silently inside (Inside)
Just keeping all to myself
Wished I could be somewhere else
Back when I could only hide

It's so late in the night, my mind is drifting away
Then I dream about times I wished for a new, happier day
If a hand could reach out right now and save my life somehow
I'll face the sun again as soon as this dreary night ends
(End, end, end, end, end, end, end)
(It's so late in the night, my mind is) drifting away
Then I dream about times I wished for a new, happier day
If a hand could reach out right now and save my life somehow
I'll face the sun again as soon as this dreary night ends

I'll face the sun again as soon as this dreamy night ends

/

/

/

I woke up and looked around. Suddenly I heard my phone chimes. I took it and saw Dew texting me to meet him. I was confused at first but I remember it's Saturday.

He texted me the address and time and I got off from the bed and quickly took a shower.

I can downstairs and saw dad, talking to someone. I told him good morning and quickly ate my breakfast.

I took my car and sped off.

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/

It was a small vintage cafe. I personally loved the vintage aesthetic so I was amazed seeing the cafe. Dew picked a nice cafe for meeting up.

I saw some film cameras on the shelves, and that's what attracted me. I wonder if they are just for showcase or for sale.

I asked a waitress if these were for sales, and lucky for me they were. I looked back at the camera and told the waitress that I will buy this camera.

"Hi Thyme. I see your early today."

"Hello Dew. Oh, Nani your here too."

"Yup Dew told me to join since I am free today."

So we sat down at a nearby table and started talking about school stuff and everything. Then we decided to call it a day. We ordered food and I ordered two lattes. One for me and one for Kavin.

"Hey, Nani. Are you going home or are you going somewhere?"

"I think am gonna go check up on Kavin. Is there something wrong?"

"Can you do me a favor and give this to Kavin? And also don't tell that it's from me. Tell that you brought it for him."

"Ah. Okay then. I guess I will see you tomorrow."

Tomorrow? Was there something tomorrow?

"There's a party tomorrow Thyme. Everyone is invited. I guess you didn't know. I can tell by your expression."

"Whose party?"

"Some chick I don't know. I think it was Nene."

Nene?

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

I decided to go to the party. So I was standing in front of my wardrobe, looking for what to wear.

Since it was a party, so i decided to wear all black. With some jewelry of course. I picked my sliver ring and necklace and wore them.

Then I called Ren and he told me the address and I made my way to the garage and went inside my car.

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/

The party just started and there's a lot of student.

Like literally. I guess hundred of students?

Guess they don't have work or studies to do.

I was looking around and saw some classmates. But I was annoyed when girls came up to me and flirted with me. I have no interest in relationship right now. Am just interested in the company, nothing else.

Just then I spotted two students. Prim and Kavin.

Kavin was sick. What the hell was he doing here?

I guess he is okay now. But I saw him fidgeting.

Then someone tapped my shoulder and it was Ren.

"The party's sick! There's liquor and everything, you can enjoy yourself of you want. But the food is damn good man!"

"Of course. You only look for food. Also where is this Nene girl? I haven't met her yet."

"Oho you already have a crush on her or something?" And I instantly regrets it.

Ren makes a weird face. Of course. I remember the time when he didn't know my cousin and started teasing us. God when he learned the truth, he was embarrassed as hell.

"Remember Film?"

"Stop right there. Don't remind me of your cousin. But how is she?"

"We haven't talked yet. God thanks for reminding me that."

Then I diverted my attention to Kavin and I saw him talking to a girl.

Kavin POV

Can she seriously stop?

Am pissed.

Nene is my ex. Nobody knows that. Not even Prim.

"I see you here Kavin. After you dumped me."

Please someone help.

"I didn't know that this was your party Nene. My friend dragged me here."

"And who's that friend?"

"My friends have nothing to do with your business Nene. Leave them alone. " My voice was slightly higher. I don't want others to be in my business. I don't want to to hurt anyone.

"And I want to be friends with them."

"And what if they don't want to?"

"Of course they will. How will they not be friends with their friend's ex?"

"You do know that we were forced to date! I didn't like you. Never have. And never will. Move on Nene. Your wasting time." I said that and I started to walk away, but she grabbed my wrist. I

"Why?! Why don't you try to give your heart to me?! Just why?!" She shouted. Now everyone is looking at us. Great. Just great!

"Let go Nene." I said coldly. Am so pissed right now. Prim this is all your fault!

"I won't. You have to tell me! Just why-"

"Listen Nene! Your crossing the fucking line! It's my decision, my life, my future to control! And I won't stand back and let people control me!"

"Is that what you think of me?"

"Yea. You controlled my life. The past five months were utter hell! You didn't even let me live in peace. And your telling me the reason why we broke up? Okay first. You are a gold digger. Second. You controlled my life! Do you know what it's like? Living in utter hell?"

I yanked my wrist from her grasp. Some people gasped and some whisper.

"You just go after money Nene. You think money can buy you happiness? Pathetic."

"Did you even love me? Probably not." I said that to her face.

As soon as I turned around I saw my friends and the one who I didn't wanna meet. Thyme.

Prim messed up a big time. But I don't blame her.

I brushed past them. They were yelling my name, but I didn't listen. I just went down stairs and went inside my car and sped off. I know a place to ease my mind.

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/

The stars are so pretty tonight.

Why do they appear to twinkle so much tonight?

I remember the day when everything went downhill.

Nene came into my life after dad introduced me to her. He thought it was a great idea to make friends with her.

I was against it of course. I was an introvert. Ever since Thyme left, Prim and MJ are the only one I can trust. Then something occurred in me. Will it help me move on?

But I was wrong.

Nene was a nice girl at first. She was sweet, kind and kinda clingy, which I didn't like one bit. She would always flirt with me, making me uncomfortable.

Then one day, she just confessed. I felt bad for her. I wanted to give her the best memories of us and then break it off. I even told her my idea, she cried but she accepted it.

But she changed. It's like I saw here true colors. She was a manipulative, a gold digger. She always took my money, and went to clubs.

I found her kissing other mens. I was disgusted at first, but then I snapped some pictures as proof. I found out that if I want to break up with her, then this is a reason with proof.

After a five months, I broke up with her. I showed the pictures and told them. Her parents were disappointed. I think she was grounded for a month or so. I didn't even see her after we broke up.

Well until now.

The way she accused me made me think that I was at fault. If I had declined that day I would not be in this situation. But it's kinda my fault. I wanted to move on.

I hiked down from the hill and went inside my car. I was very sleepy and tired. Tonight was the biggest drama. All I need is my bed.

I sped off quickly making my way home. As I was going out my phone chimed. It was messages from my friends. But I ignored them.

Not today.

Not tomorrow.

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

I tried to reach Kavin but failed.

He didn't show up to say at university. Then there's this rumor going around that Kavin had an ex-lover.

I asked Prim about Nene and she told me that she didn't know anything about them.

I let that all aside and just focused on my studies.

/

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"Hey Thyme! We all are going to hang out today! Wanna join?"

"Sure."

I saw Prim, Tu, Ren, and MJ waiting for me. I had a good relationship with everyone except Prim. We are developing but we don't talk that much.

So we went to the mall and hung around stores.

I went to the bookstore. I loved reading. Especially novels.

I was looking for Call Down the Hawk. And I saw one.

I rushed to get the book, but I found myself touching someone's hand. I looked beside it and it was Tu.

We stayed in the moment for a while, until I realized what was going on. I coughed and she stepped back.

"You-you can have the book Thyme. I don't need it."

"No, it's fine. You can take it."

"It's okay. I can read it online."

"But don't you want the hardcover one?"

"Can I have it instead? Jeez." A stranger took the book and went away.

We looked at each other for a second and laughed.

The moment was beautiful. Everything was slow. I felt like we were the only ones enjoying the moment.

I felt butterflies around my stomach. We were laughing until someone called us.

"Hey lovebirds! Stop laughing and come here!" shouted MJ.

We looked at each other and chuckled.

"I guess we can order the book online maybe?"

"Sure we will."

"Kavin!"

Prim shouted. Now all our attention went to one person. Kavin.

He stood there staring at our faces. Well, he looked at me. He had a hard gaze on me.

Then he looked at Prim and smile a little.

"I was here to get some books. How are you all? I see you are hanging out."

"We all are good! How are you?"

"Oh." He chuckled a little then looked at me. "Am doing fantastic. Since this is our last year of the semester, I am working with my dad. See how things work and all.

I have to go through. I have some work to do. I guess you can enjoy without me.

Well, I guess goodbye for now."

He turned his back and went away. Then Ren suggested eating out in a diner cause he was really hungry. Typical Ren.

/

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/

I sat between MJ and Prim. Great. This is perfect. Ren sat beside Gorya.

For some reason, I feel mad when I saw Ren and Gorya whispering to each other. But Ren is my friend. Why am I feeling this?

"I wanted to go with Kavin. Now am stuck here." Prim snorted.

Then suddenly MJ chuckled and glanced at Prim. "Prim remember when Kavin told us that during high school days he was a fucking cheerleader. We made so much fun of him. But he was kinda sad when he was telling the story though. I wonder what happened at that time?"

I stiffened. Kavin was a cheerleader? Did he join the cheerleading club after I went away?

Prim didn't say anything. "I guess we will never know. When he is ready. I guess he will tell us the truth-"

"NO!"

I was dumbfounded. Shit. I was not supposed to shout at them.

"Am sorry? What do you mean no, Mr.Dumb?"

"I mean- "

Just then the waiter came and served us food. Thank god he did. I mean I don't want people to know what happened. That incident was so hard to forget.

I started eating but my mind was not relaxed. I remember the face Kavin made when I left for the aeroplane.

Betrayal. Hurt. Used.

And it's all my fault. If only I didn't told those assholes who I called 'friends' once. If only I didn't put Kavin into this misery. If only I wasn't such a fool back then.

He was right.

It's my fault.

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/

/

Everyone said their goodbyes and went home. But my mind was still lingering at the moment at the bookstore, where me and Gorya were laughing.

It was such a beautiful moment. I felt butterflies around my stomach and this mushy feeling inside me.

What is this feeling? Love?

Just then I remembered a person.

Unknown Number
---------------
Hey
-
Hello. I see you remember me :)
Took you so long.
-
Yea yea.
BTW what should I name ur contact?
-
Is it still unknown number?
Wow Thyme Chivaree.
Call me whatever you like?
-
How about Rya?
-
Rya? Heh. Sounds pathetic.
-
For you. But not for me it
sounds lovely
-
Is Rya a special someone?
-
She is.
Rya can you tell me
what is love?
-
Love huh?
I guess you in love?
-
I think I am.
Today I went to the bookstore
looking for a book and there
was the last copy of the book.
-
Go on.
-
Just I was about to grab it I
felt another hand. Turns out it
was her.
We were talking about who will
take the book and someone else took
it. We started laughing. I felt
butterflies in my stomach and
everything was in slow motion.

Rya?
Hello?
-
Ah sorry. I was just reading and
thinking. I see you in love.

Good thing for you Thyme ;)

So what you want from me?
-
Am I really in love?
I mean love is not my thing.
-
Everyone says that. Then
you will find a special person
who can melt your frozen heart.
Love has no meaning. It's a feeling
that people can only feel. Even
if you say love is not your thing, it
will eventually come to you. You may
get heartbroken tho. Love is very beautiful but sometimes it's very dangerous.
-
...
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So I supposed you want to
make her love you or something?
-
...
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I will take that as a yes.
Well, time is efficient. And
maybe hang out with her.
Does she have any friends?
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Yea. Prim
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Ah-
Only one friend? She's new then.
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Maybe she has more. I don't know.
-
...
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Rya?
-
It's late now. I have work.
Good night Thyme.

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

I feel like the school day was going slowly. It was Business class now and as I make my way through I bumped into someone.

I looked up and saw that it was Kavin.

"Watch where you are going. Your not blind."

Ok. Did this man just insult me? What the heck I just bumped into him. It's not like I did something to him.

Well, I did. But it's in the past.

I looked around and saw Ren, Gorya, Prim, and Kavin sitting together. I went up to them, greeted them, and sat next to Gorya.

"Hey Thyme! Did you get the book?"

"Ah, I have been busy lately so I didn't have time to check."

"Yo Thyme! We are having another party! It's just us and MJ tho. We don't want any problems like the last time.

Oh. Yea. The incident between Kavin and his ex.

Kavin has changed a lot. The sweet, innocent, bunny boy has changed into a cold-hearted man. He didn't even swear at anyone. But now he does.

I looked over Kavin and saw him talking to someone on his phone while going through a file.

Prim was just staring at Kavin. I didn't like that one bit.

Suddenly Gorya spoke up and halted my train of thoughts.

"So are you coming?"

I smiled at her "Of course I will."

Just then Kavin spoke a little louder.

"I fucking told you I kept the documents on the desk. And your fucking suspecting me? You should be happy that am letting you go cause I have a copy of the documents. These are so important that they just disappeared into thin air for some reason. I am letting you go this time. If I see any more mistakes, I won't hesitate to make a trip to the CEO's office Mr. Paskowy."

He ended and he looked damn mad.

Then Prim whispered something to Kavin for him to calm down.
Kavin laughed a little and said something to Prim.

I didn't like that.

The professor came in and we took our books out.

Cute laugh tho.

I diverted my attention and just focused on my studies.

/

/

/

I was at Ren's house. I brought my clothes and other essentials for the sleepover.

Prim, Gorya, Me and Ren were here.

Ren told us to keep our bags in the guest room. Everyone went to the room and kept their duffel bags there.

Ren called MJ and asked when he and Kavin are coming and MJ told him that he's on his way but Kavin is not with him.

Just then Ren informed us that Kavin will come late and we can enjoy ourselves with snacks and shits.

Just then Rya texted me.

Rya
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So how's the courting?
-
Well we are in a sleepover right
now.
-
Cool have you started playing?
-
No really. One of their friends
is going to be late.
-
Oh.
I guess your not friends with him
-
...
-
Anyway any idea on what you
all are playing or something?
Like board games?
Truth or dare?
7 minutes in heaven?
-
I think truth or dare.
I don't know about 7 minutes.
-
Ah good then.
While playing don't make it obvious
tho! People will know that you have a crush on her or something!
-
Ok?
-
Just then everyone started welcoming someone. Ah it's Kavin he was looking at his phone tho and he just smiled a little.
-
Ah, he is here. Talk to you later.
-
Ok! Bye!
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I put my phone down and looked up. Everyone started eating some snacks and talked about random kinds of stuff.

I listened to some and laughed. They were pretty funny stories.

Then I also started engaging myself in the conversation.

A few minutes later, Ren announced to us that we will play truth and dare and when to the kitchen to bring a bottle.

We all sat in a circle and Ren spun the bottle.

The bottle started slowing down and it landed on Gorya.

"Gorya! Truth or dare?"

"Um. I will take the truth. I don't want to take dare yet."

"Aw bummer. So do you have a crush on someone?" Asked Ren.

My ears perked up and I looked at Gorya.
She was blushing and slowly nodded her head.

My heart...

"Who is he?!"

"That's one question," she said that and spin the bottle. It landed on Prim.

"Not gonna pick dare idiots."

Then MJ asked her a question "what do you think about me?" As he said that Prim looked at Kavin.

Kavin just smirked and put his hands in the air to surrender.

Then Prim looked at MJ and told "an asshole for sure."

Kavin started whistling then Prim got mad and started cursing at Kavin. Everyone was having a hearty laugh.

Prim spin the bottle and it landed on MJ.

"Dare. Nobody has picked dare yet."

"If you like someone here then kiss his or her cheek."

MJ widened his eyes a little but then said "Sure. But you all have to be blindfolded. So you all don't tease me after I kissed that person."

"Should I be blindfolded?"

All our attention went to Kavin. He had this smirk on his face. He then tilted his head a little.

"I mean I know who you will kiss. So it's better if I don't get blindfolded. I won't say their name tho. I want to see the fun."

MJ looked at him and scoffed. He nodded and then Ren went to get the blindfolds.

When he came back, everyone wore the blindfolds.

I wouldn't see anything so I didn't expect much. I mean

I can feel MJ going around in circles I think. He's just trying to confuse us I guess.

"Hurry up!" Shouted Ren.

I rolled my eyes inwardly. This man.

Suddenly I feel heavy breath near my neck and ear region. I shivered.

What?

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

Just then the heavy breath went away.

MJ spoke up "Everyone can remove their blindfolds now."

When I removed my blindfold I saw MJ and Kavin smirking at each other. I got confused and then looked around.

I saw Prim blushing? Her cheeks were red though.

Oh.

MJ and Prim would look cute together.

Just then MJ spun the bottle.

As the bottle slowed down it landed between me and Kavin.

I looked up, and I saw his distressed face. He was not happy.

"So? Spin the bottle again." I said flatly.

The bottle was spun again and I just hope that it doesn't land on me or Kavin.

The bottle slowed down and it landed on Kavin. Fuck.

"Oho, it's the cold-hearted man! Mr. Cold truth or dare?"

"Truth."

"Aw not fair! Pick dare na!"

"Okay fine? Dare."

"Fuckers." He whispered but I heard it anyway.

"Sit on Thyme's lap!"

"WHAT!?"

"WHAT?!"

"A dare is a dare Mr. Now sit! For 5 minutes!"

"You motherfuckers!" screamed Kavin.

Today is going to be the most awkward day of my life.

Kavin got up and looked at me with disgust.

Then he slowly came towards me, sat on my lap, and hugged my neck.

"If you fucking move, then something bad will happen Mr.Vachirawit."

Ah okay.

"Thyme truth or dare?"

"Why me?"

"I mean everyone had their turn. Only you are left."

Fine.

"Truth. Don't even try to make me pick dare."

"Sure. If you were in your past life, like childhood and all, is there anything you will change and why?"

Shit. The past?

I hurt my childhood friend.

My first friend.

Kavin.

He didn't even look at me. He is still mad at me. It's been 4 years.

"Yes, I would. I hurt someone special to me."

Kavin scoffed. He clearly didn't want to hear my apology.

"Is the 5 minutes over or I have to sit here forever?" Kavin cut me off.

He looked mad. Mad mad.

He quickly got off and then walked away calling someone on his phone.

The atmosphere turned awkward.

Then Ren got up and bought beer bottles and pour them into small glasses.

Everyone cheered and drank beer and started talking shit.

I was very drunk. And dizzy.

Kavin POV

Prim you motherfucker!

How can she dare me to sit on Thyme's lap?!

What if I accidentally felt his dick or something?! What if-

Calm down Kavin. It's just a dare.

I heard some laughter coming from the other room. Yea. I ran away.

I pretended to call someone to escape. How can I face my childhood crush or the person that I absolutely hate the most, after I sat on his lap?!

Talk about awkward moments.

I sat near the edge of the bed for 15 whole minutes then went to the other room.

What the fuck.

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!

Ren and Gorya are being touchy.

Prim and MJ are about to make out in front of my eyes.

And Thyme is holding a beer bottle and is just giggling.

What the fuck happened when I left?

How did they got wasted in just 15 minutes?!

Now I have to drag their asses back to bed?

I ran to MJ and Prim and separated them. They reek strong alcohol.

I don't even like alcohol. I hate it.

I took Prim to the bedroom and laid her on the bed.

Then I took Gorya from Ren's hand and laid her beside Prim.

Good thing everyone was wearing their pajamas. Or else fuck that. I won't change their clothes.

Now I took MJ and Ren to the other bedroom. They were so heavy. I think my back hurts.

Now this man.

I gonna leave him there on the couch. Am not taking him to bed.

But didn't he carry you to the Infirmary when you fainted?

I stopped my tracks.

Don't you feel guilty?

"No, I don't," I said.

Are you still mad about the incident?

"Yes," I said.

Why don't you just forgive him? It's been 4 years.

Is he feeling guilty after what he did to me? I asked back.

...

Exactly.

Then I heard some sobs coming from Thyme. I looked back and saw him crying.

He was mumbling something which I couldn't hear probably. I went near him and listened.

"Am sorry..."

"Am a fucking coward..."

I looked at him with widened eyes. What?

"Forgive me..."

Then suddenly he yanked me down and hugged me tightly.

What the fuck!?

"Am sorry..."

"I finally feel your pain..."

I used all my might to get out from his grasp.

"Kavin am sorry..."

Hello, mister your drunk!

I stood up and left him there.

Why am I feeling like this?

All those bottled-up feelings I kept inside me for 5 years.

Why are they coming back?

I slammed the door and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Why is the feeling of love coming back to me?

Because you love him.

"I don't!"

You can't deny love.

Silence.

"I just need to sleep. I don't want the same thing to happen."

I sigh.

As I laid down to sleep another voice spoke to me. It was a dark and gloomy voice.

But you don't have to worry. He has Gorya. Remember at the bookstore? You came to the bookstore to spy on them. You watched how happy he looked.

You looked at how he was smiling ears to ears when he was with her. He has fallen in love with Vin. Your nothing. Your just his past. He left you broken. Why are you still trying to win his heart?

That's not true! Said the kind voice.

You don't know if he is really in love with him Vin! Don't listen to them!

Was he there when you were beaten up? Was he there when you were about to do suicide? Was he there when you were getting bullied? Was he there when you needed comfort?

NO, HE WASN'T!

OPEN YOUR EYES KAVIN. HE'S NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU.

That's not true! Don't listen to him!

YOU WERE HIS FIRST FRIEND!
Who will leave their friend for a simple kiss?
You are a man. A man kissed another man.

You did a sin.

I did sin.

With that, I blacked out.

Chapter Text

Kavin POV

A garden.

Full of different kinds of flowers.

I saw a little boy standing afar.

"Excuse me!" I shouted.

I got no response.

"Hello?" I shouted and I started walking towards him.

When I reached him, I got down on my knees and poked his shoulders.

"Little boy, are you lost?" I asked.

He turned around, and I got a shiver down my spine.

Thyme.

"Little boy, what's your name?" I hesitated. Why is Thyme back in ten-year-old self?

The little boy didn't answer and ran.

I got up and chased him. "HEY!"

We came across a big tree. Oaktree.

Under the shade, there was another little boy.

Thyme, I presume, walked up to the little boy and shook his shoulders.

The little boy turned around and smiled at him.

What the hell?

That's me.

That boy is me.

How is this possible?! Am literally standing here?! How-

My train of thoughts broke when Thyme spoke up.

"Remember when we get older, I will always protect you!"

What?

Just then the whole surrounding changed. It was a school.

The old school.

I and Thyme were in this school before he left for America.

I can hear some grunting noises coming from the hallway. I looked around and saw no one. Absolutely no one. What the hell?

I walked towards the grunting noise and stopped when I saw a group of boys coming down the hall, laughing.

I ignores them and went to the place that they came from.

My heart stopped.

It's me. Lying on the floor with bloodied clothes and face.

What is happening? Is this a dream?

No, it isn't.

It's the dark voice.

Do you see this? This is you.

Now when you were in the garden, remember Thyme said that he will always protect you?

Stop.

Where is he? Look at you. Apathetic. Lying on the cold floor. With bloody clothes.

Stop it.

Is this what he called protection? Do you want to hear the names they called you?

No, please...

Cock sucker.

Apathetic human.

Garbage.

Trash.

Dick whore.

Faggot.

"STOP IT!" I screamed. What is this nightmare?

Your nothing but weak. Even if you learned self-defense, your still the pathetic human being. A waste to this planet.

I closed my eyes. Please...
Stop it...

Vin.

Vin.

"Kavin!"

I opened my eyes and saw my friends. I woke up and looked around. I am having difficulty in breathing.

Was this all a dream?

"You were murmuring in your sleep and you were writhing like your in pain."

It was a dream.

But it felt so real.

I haven't had dreams about my past for a long time now. Was everything the voice said was true?

"What happened? Are you okay? What are you thinking?" Prim spoke up making my thought halt.

"Am fine. Just tired cause I had to drag your asses to beds. You all were so drunk last night. Thank god I came in the room in time, or something might have happened." I exclaimed

"Then why was I on the couch?!" Thyme spoke and pouted.

He hasn't changed his childish personality, That's cute

"You were heavy and you said something nonsense so I left you there." I said while glaring at him.

"Also I hope we didn't do anything crazy yesterday." Ren said. Everyone nodded.

I just smirked. "Are you sure? From what I saw yesterday I think I will not look at you all in the same way."

Everyone looked at me with wide eyes.

"Now if you will excuse me, I believe today is Sunday. I and Prim are going after eating breakfast."

Prim just looked at me and smiled.

"Now get out. Am gonna take a bath. Out of the room."

Everyone left.

Am gonna tell Prim everything.

I trust her with all my heart.

I went to the bathroom and turned on the shower to hot water.

Calm down. Everything is fine.

/

/

/

I went to my car and put my bag in the trunk.

I called my dad to inform him that Prim is coming and she may leave in the evening or so.

Dad agreed then I felt someone poke my shoulders.

"Finally Prim I waited-"

I didn't finish the sentence. It's Thyme. Not Prim.

"What do you want?"

"I- I hope you are okay now."

I widened my eyes.

"And why do you care?"

"Am just worried Kavin. I don't want something bad to happen to you."

He's lying.

All he does is lie Kavin.

Don't listen to his pitiful lies. Its means nothing.

"I-"

"Kavin we are good to go! Oh, Thyme, are you talking with Kavin?"

"No, we aren't. He just came here to say bye to me. Let's go."

I got inside the driver's seat. I rolled down the glass and said goodbye to Thyme.

"What did you want to talk about?"

I took a deep breath.

"You asked me why I hated Thyme. Remember?"

She nodded and looked at me.

"I think am ready to tell you. Tell you the reasons."

/

/

/

We made it to my house when I stopped and remember that our maid Mary has made some cookies.

"I think we have cookies in the pantry. Wanna eat some? Mary made some I think."

"Sure!"

I know Prim likes cookies so much. She cannot resist cookies.

We made our way to the pantry and took some cookies to my room.

I sat on the bed and Prim sat on the chair.

I took a deep breath.

"Comfortable?"

She nodded.

"So it all started when I met Thyme when I was nine years. We became best buddies. We were inseparable.

I was his first-ever friend you know? I felt so special. He would always protect me.
I always wanted him to be my side.

When I was 17 my dad told me that he is going to America for a year."

I took a deep breath.

"I didn't know that my future was so bad when dad said those words."

Chapter Text

4 years ago

"Thyme is going to America for a year."

My world crashed down.

Thyme is going to America? When? Today? Tomorrow?

"When is he going?" I am hesitating.

"This Thursday. Meaning you have 2 days to spend with him."

"Does that mean that I will not go to school for 2 days?"

He shook his head and smiled at me.

"I know you love Thyme. I can see it in your eyes son."

"DAD!"

"I didn't even lie! Am your father! You can tell me anything!"

"Sure."

I took my phone out and called Thyme to hang out. He agreed.

I quickly head upstairs and changed my clothes.

I went outside and saw Thyme coming into his car.

"Hey, how are you?"

"Am good. But how are you? You are going to America! You will send pictures to me first okay?!"

"Wow, not even a hint of sadness and he just wants pictures. Don't you love me?"

"Yea yea. I love you for infinity."

I really mean it tho.

"Also the boys are going to the bar tonight. Wanna go?"

"Sure but I won't drink. Underage you know?"

"Sucks for you. Okay, where are we going."

"Wanna watch a movie? Even if it's early let's go watch a movie."

"We are going to watch a movie at 11. Let's go and eat something I guess."

/

/

/

We hang out a lot.

It's like so long we haven't hung out yet.

Buts it's nighttime.

Meaning that we are in a club.

I fucking hate this place so much. People come here to get wasted. If Thyme wasn't here then I wouldn't go with him.

It's been an hour tho. Like all are wasted except me.

I look at Thyme and he's gone.

Like wasted and gone.

I had to drag him to his car and boy was he heavy.

He should be thankful that am gonna drag his ass to his home right now.

I haven't even put him inside the car when he called my name.

"Kavinnnnn"

What the-

"KavInnnNn"

Oh hell no.

We are literally in the parking lot.

Why is he saying my name like he is moaning? WHAT THE FUCK!

"Kavin calm down. Don't get turned on okay." I chanted in my head.

Suddenly I got yanked by Thyme and I was facing him.

Okay. Why is there such a close gap between our faces? Is he going to kiss me-

No, he won't. He's drunk. How can h-

I was rambling inside my head until I found soft lips against mine.

My mind went blank.

We are kissing.

OH MY GOD.

WE ARE KISSING.

AND THIS IS MY FIRST KISS.

AND IT'S TAKEN BY THE MAN I LIKE.

Wait wait.

HOW DO YOU KISS BACK?!

I started following the same rhythm and kissed him back.

This is beautiful.

Wait but he's drunk.

HE'S DRUNK!

I quickly broke the kiss.

"Your drunk Thyme. Go to sleep." I said flustered.

WHAT JUST HAPPENED?

He then slept and I started to drive to his home.

Day 1

I couldn't sleep.

He kissed me. He was drunk tho.

My heart is racing. I can't calm down.

How can someone possibly calm down after getting kissed?!

BY SOMEONE WHO THEY LIKE?!

I didn't even want to go to Thyme.

How will I face him?!

Just then I got a message. It's from Thyme.

Fuck.

I opened the tab and I saw this.
------------
Thyme
Thanks for sending me home.
I hope I didn't do anything
stupid.
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I bit my lips.

You sure did something stupid.
--------------
Kavin
No, you didn't.
-
Thyme
What about my friends?
How did they go home?
--------------
How am I supposed to know?! Am like so fucking overwhelmed by our kiss!?
--------------
Thyme
Oh, they are calling me.
Gonna talk to you later.
-
Kavin
Alright.
--------------
Ok. Why am I getting a bad feeling?

I shook my head. Yea nothing bad will happen.

Right?

I guess he's gonna hang out with his friends.

I sighed. I should get used to this. I will not see him for one damn year.

I guess today Netflix and Chill then.

Day 2

Today Thyme called me and told me to come to the cafe which I always loved.

I entered the cafe and immediately spotted him and ran to him.

"Hey Thyme! How are you doing?"

Nothing.

"I guess you excited right? Ugh, your gonna leave me! Is America that good that you left your best friend?"

Nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

We are just sitting in awkward silence.

I felt like something is definitely not right.

"Kavin." He spoke up seriously.

"Why did you lie?"

What?

"What?"

"You said I didn't do anything stupid. But I sure did."

"What are you talking about?!"

"I KISSED YOU!"

Silence.

"And you know what's even funnier?"

I looked up.

"And you even kissed me back."

He knows.

How.

"How do you know?"

"My friends told me. They saw us in the parking lot. Don't even try to deny it."

Is this the end of our friendship?

"I hate that you kissed me back."

No.

"You think am gay? Well, I certainly am not!"

Please.

"You disgust me."

He said it.

This is the end.

He left me there. Broken.

Everything around me is blurry. Am crying.

I feel like my heart has shattered into million pieces.

I feel useless.

Am still in the public but I don't care.

Am crying.

Am weak.

You disgust me.

Is it so wrong to love a man?

Is it so wrong to be in love?

He would have rejected me.

Instead, he broke my heart.

Chapter Text

Today is the day.

He's leaving.

He's leaving for America.

And I found out this morning that he will go for 4 years. Not one.

When I heard the news I chuckled.

The pain has turned numb.

I have to pretend to be okay.

I don't want others to drag into this mess tho.

I give them my best smile.

But they don't know the pain behind it.

I gave them the best laugh.

But they don't know the force behind it.

I give them my best grades.

But they don't know that I study till dawn.

I give them all my love.

But in the end, they broke me.

I have been crying till 4 am until I felt tired and fell asleep.

When I woke up I was sleeping on the floor. But I have to get up.

To see him one last time.

/

/

/

It's time.

"Good evening everyone! Passengers who are going to America please line up at A-4. Thank you."

He's leaving me.

"We will meet again Thyme. After 4 years I guess."

"I hope we don't."

I smiled.

"Why are you smiling?"

"Am just happy."

"Happy? For what? Cause am leaving you?"

"No. Cause you will study better and make new friends."

He looked at me and his eyes widened a little.

"I can be in your past, but not in the future." I sniffed.

I held back my tears.

"Anyway our friendship ended. The memories we made are in past now." I looked at him and made eye contact.

"You can live your life now."

"What?"

"Goodbye Thyme Vachirawit. I also hope that we will never meet again."

He was shocked.

"I guess it was never meant to be."

With that, I turned my back on him. I didn't know that I started crying. I said it.

But I hope we will meet.

/

/

/

The school was hell.

After Thyme was gone I realized how hard it was to make friends.

I was minding my business when someone tapped my shoulder.

It's Thyme's friend. Luke.

"Hello, Kavin." He touched my shoulder and squeezed it.

"How are you? Are you okay?"

I didn't answer.

But then he did something unexpected.

He pushed me. Hard.

"Answer me you gay faggot!"

I heard gasps and whispers around me.

Excuse me?

I then felt pain in my chest. Apparently that bastard punched me.

"A gay man like you is a waste of space!"

I heard laughs coming from his other friends.

Nobody stood up for me.

Nobody said anything.

I started chuckling slowly.

Why?

Why do people hate me?

Why are people so selfish?

I helped them. And they didn't even help me.

Just then someone spoke up.

"So what if he is gay?!"

The laughter died and Joss looked at them.

"Excuse me?"

"Are you deaf? Didn't you heard what I said?"

"Who are you calling deaf?!"

"You really are deaf huh? I am literally talking to you and you are asking me who I am calling deaf?! Bro, go to the doctor and get your ears to check."

Gasps were around the room.

I turned and saw a girl defending me.

I didn't even know her.

Who is she?

"Who the fuck are you?"

"Someone. It doesn't matter. Apologize to him now."

He laughed loudly.

"Why should I apologize to a cock sucker like him?"

He shouted.

"What? Cat got your tongue? Your such a pussy."

That's when the most unexpected thing happened.

She laughed.

"Me a pussy? You know you came out of a pussy? So if I am a pussy then...

Am I your mother?"

Students chuckled including me.

"Wait if I was your mother, I would have put you up for adoption. I don't want a disgusting child of mine to beat weak people cause he is a DICK!"

Then one of the teachers came.

"What's the commotion here?!"

Joss spoke up "Mrs. Smith, she was bullying this student! I was trying to help him but she started insulting me!"

The teacher looked at her and widened her eyes.

Then she bowed to the girl a little.

Did a teacher just bow down to a child?

"Am sorry Miss Moon."

That's when the girl spoke up.

"It's okay. But can my father kick him out of school? Along with his friends?"

That's when it hit me.

She's the headmaster's child.

She's actually good in study and she didn't even read in our school. So what is she doing here?

"Of course miss."

But for some reason, my eyes went blurry and I met with darkness.

/

/

/

I and Moon became friends.

But I would get bullied by Joss and his gang.

But I never thought this day will come.

They beat me so badly that I was rushed to the hospital.

I was going to die but thankfully I came to the hospital in time.

Everyone was disgusted by me.

Why?

Cause I liked men.

Is it a sin to like men?

Why me?

When will I get out of this hell hole?

But one thing was sure.

I was hurt.

Betrayed.

Disgusted.

/

/

/

"You should just give up." said a dark voice.

"Like your a waste of space! You can be free if you kill yourself!"

"Don't do it! Do you want your dad to be sad?" said a calming voice.

I held a knife, figuring out if I should stab myself or not.

It's been 2 months and am living in this hell hole.

I should just give up, right?

"Kavin you don't want to do this mistake!"

"Stop talking bullshit. You're a man! A man who likes the same gender! You're a sinner!"

"Don't you want revenge?!"

Revenge?

"What are you talking about?"

"Don't you wanna see him suffer?"

What the hell.

"Don't you want him to see his heartbroken? Like he did to yours?"

I do.

"Make him pay then. Killing yourself wont to do anything."

"You let him in. You let him fucking in. And he destroyed you."

But the problem is.

I still love him.

Even after he broke me.

Am still in love with him.

How will I get revenge?

Chapter Text

Guess what.

What?

I asked her to hang out with me!
Am so happy!

Finally, you are getting there man.
Am so proud.

Yea. I guess.

Is something wrong?

Yea.
No.

What?

No, it's nothing. I will talk to  you after our hangout!
Bye!

Bye.

—

Pain.

I feel pain.

It hurts when you are helping the person that you love.

It hurts when you see them with someone else.

It hurts.

Everything hurts.

But still, you should smile. And act.

As if nothing ever happened.

—

Dude! She really enjoyed the
hangout!

Don't call me a dude.
Also, tell me everything. All details.
Nothing should be left out mister.

Okay so I decided to hangout
in the amusement park!

Wtf. There?
Isn't this your first hangout with her?

It is!
I really wanted it to be a crowded place.
I really don't want those restaurant dates cause man it's boring as hell.
Ok enough.
So I paid for our tickets even  though she insisted on paying.
We went through many rides and
you know what I found about her?
She's scared of long heights.
I really love rollercoasters so I
dragged her with me. She was so scared.
She  clung  to me like a koala bear  throughout the whole ride. God, my
heart was beating fast. I guess one of  the best memories. Then we went to  this store that she really liked and ate
there. She was really happy and agreed  to the next time!
Seen.

The person chuckled.

Funny how he has chosen the amusement park instead of something else.

He would have picked any other place but no.

He  chose  the damn park.

The park is filled with memories.

Suddenly a notification went off. I looked back down and I saw that I left him on reading.

It's been two months.

Two months of talking to Thyme.

He basically tells me everything. Like we are close friends. But in reality, we are not.

Because my heart is breaking.

Oh, yea sorry.
I zoned out.
You enjoyed the hangout very much I see.

Obviously ✋🙄

If we had our first hangout where would you take me?

Hmm, I will say a park.

Jeez, perks of not being the person he doesn't love.
A damn park? Are Bro you good?
I thought he would have said water park.
But no.
A damn park.
Thyme you really are something.

I will take that as a compliment.

—

So did you do well in exams?

I did. This is so exhausting.

I know right finally it ended. Like.
A week without talking but just studying.

Well, graduation shit you know?

It's frustrating tho!

How about Kavin?

Kavin?
What about him?

Did he do well?

I haven't talked to him.
You know our relationship.
It's still fucked up.

Maybe you should start asking
for forgiveness.

I guess.
But I have decided something.

Decided what?

Am gonna confess.

Wait for what?
Your lying-

Am not.
I wanna confess.

...

This is bad.

Really bad.

Thyme doesn't know that Gorya likes Ren.

And Ren loves Gorya too.

But Thyme loves Gorya.

And someone else loves him too.

Kavin Metawin.

This is a disaster. A big problem.

The person knows about the situation. But still, he didn't say anything about it. It's really depressing.

They shouldn't even feel sad for him. He deserved it. Right?

Rya?

The person breathes. His mind is full of thoughts. He just couldn't think straight. Isn't this what he wanted?

They wanted him to be sad, being heartbroken.

But instead, they are the ones feeling sad, for him.

Yea.
Sorry, I zoned out.
Well, when are you going to do it?

Honestly, I don't know.
Maybe the last day?
Graduation day?

Ah, that's actually great.
Since we are gonna graduate,
Should I show you who I am?

Wait really?

Nah I think it's too much work.

No show me!

Fine fine
Calm down
I guess when your gonna confess
I will show myself and congrats to you?

Sure.
Also forgot to mention this.
MJ called me saying that we
are going to the bar for some drinks.

Ooh
That's nice.
A little after party  I guess.

I guess.
Well, I guess I will talk tomorrow.
Bye Rya!

Bye.

—

Kavin's POV

I made my way through the crowd. Fuck this. Why am I here? Why did MJ call me to take Thyme?

I know that they are going to a bar but that isn't any of my concerns.

I looked around the bar and spotted a familiar face. I made my way through them.

Three people. Who reeks alcohol. Stong alcohol.

Disgusting.

"What do you want MJ?" I yelled at him mad.

"This man here is hella drunk and I want you to take him home," MJ told me while pointing at Thyme.

"I don't even know where he lives. And isn't your house like close here. You can just take him. I can take Dew. "

I looked over at Dew and he is also drunk. I guess MJ is the sober one. Great. Now I know why he wants me to take Thyme.

I told MJ everything. MJ was also my best friend and he has the right to know it. He knows everything about me except the relationship between me and Thyme.

"That's not gonna happen. And we both know it."

Fine.

I practically dragged Thyme out of the bar, but I told MJ that he owes me before going out. So fucking much.

I told them goodbye and made my way to my car. Then suddenly I remembered something.

This feels familiar.

I shrugged. It's nothing right?

I made Thyme sit in the backseat and I went to sit in the driver's seat.

/

/

/

This man is so heavy.

Like so heavy.

How much does the weight?

Right now am currently in our guest room dragging this man to the bed.

Thank godfather isn't home. He is away for some business purposes.

If he was here, he could have teased me so much.

I was just standing and thinking when someone suddenly grabbed my hand and yanked me to the bed.

What the fuck.

NOT AGAIN.

Thyme was on top of me. When I suddenly realized.

Isn't this what happened in the past? 

Is it repeating itself?

Chapter Text

Kavin's POV

My heart is beating fast.

I remember it all. It's all repeating itself.

Do I really want this?

It feels like a nightmare.

A never-ending one. Haunting me.

I snapped from my thoughts. I pushed him with all my might and now am on top of him.

"Snap out of it you asshole!" I screamed at him.

Tears are forming. I just can't. This feels all too real.

I don't want it. Make it stop.

Please.

Arent you a pathetic child?

No one can help you Kavin. This is all a nightmare.

My train of thoughts halted when I heard groans coming out of Thyme.

I quickly stood up and left.

I slammed the door and sat down crouching. It hurts.

The pain I felt that day. The biggest regret of my life. It still haunts me.

It's been 4 years, still, it feels like I cant let go of the past. It haunts me. I feel weak. Desperate for closure. Desperate of him.

I was met by darkness.

Thyme's POV

The sun creaked out of the blinds. It's morning and my head is aching. What happened yesterday?

I sat u looking around. What the hell is this place? Why does it seem so familiar?

I was with the gang yesterday. Who took me here? MJ? Ren?

I slipped away from the sheets and went to investigate.

As soon as I opened the door, something heavy fell on my feet and I froze.

I looked down and I was met none other than Kavin.

Wait.

KAVIN?!?

Wait. Hold on.

Why is he sleeping on the floor? And not in his room? And in front of my door?!

I slowly carried him in bridal style and went to his bedroom. I have never seen his bedroom so I guess first time walking through his bedroom door.

I went through the door and the room was clean.

The bed was clean. The desk was clean. Everything was clean in here.

I went to his bed and laid him down.

Cute.

No I mean yeah. Did I just really think that?

God that's embarrassing as hell.

I looked around the room when I noticed two doors. I guess one is a walk-in closet and the other is a bathroom.

But you know, curiosity kills the cat.

I walked to the door and just as I expected one was a bathroom. I went to the other door, but it wasn't the closest.

It was a painting room. Lots of canvas were scattered on the ground. Paints, paint brushes, different tools used in painting were kept in one place. The room was in off white color. In the middle of the room, stood a canvas, facing the window. I wouldn't see it probably. I was walking up to it when I heard a noise behind me.

Kavin.

"Hello, Kavin. How-"

"What are you doing in here?!"

That caught me by surprise. He really looked pissed.

"Did you see any of the paintings?"

I shook my head, saying no. He took a deep breath and looked at me.

"Get out. You not allowed in here."

Okay, that's weird. Why is he being protective of paintings?

"What are you doing?!"

I didn't listen to his rants. I walked up to the canvas and picked it up.

It was a beautiful painting. Strokes of yellow and red were all over it. Black was overpowering the colors with a splash of white. A little boy was standing in the middle-, crying? It looks like it was crying. The boy had brunette hair and somewhat looked like Kavin. Then another man behind the boy was all black.

I was mesmerized.

That was until Vin snatched the painting from my hands.

"What the actual fuck are you doing?! You're invading my privacy!"

"I like it."

"Like what?"

"The painting."

He scoffed and glared at me.

"Do you even know what this painting means? Bet that you don't."

I didn't say anything. I just stood still waiting for the next words.

"Pain."

"Pain?"

He took a deep breath and looked at me.

"The yellow represents happiness. While the red represents pain. The black is overpowering happiness and pain, meaning that the child is not over his trauma. The man behind the child is him, but older. The older man has still not recovered from the past trauma. He is still suffering, he hasn't even moved on from it. He is like- emotionless type person."

Okay, that was a lot to take in.

"But I feel like it's unfinished."

"And how so? It's already good."

"But there's no spark. All my paintings have a spark in them."

He walked over to another canvas, picked it up, and showed me.

It was a beautiful painting of a woman and her child.

"Mother's love."

He finally looked at me and maintained eye contact.

"You and I both know what mother's love means. Especially between us. So I don't need to explain this one."

"Are you doing fine?"

"What?"

"I mean, it's been a 17 years since she died. Are you still okay and not in grief?"

He broke the eye contact and looked down.

"Yes, I have. She's gone. I just have to accept it. But I really miss her sometimes. My father was there for me, holding my hand and guiding me through the right path."

He looked at the painting and smiled.

"Even though she is dead, I feel like she is beside me, watching me. I was just a child when she was gone. I don't remember much but all I know is that it's time to move on."

I went up to him and hugged him tightly. He seems to freeze.

"Remember that I will always be with you, Vin. I will be always there."

Something in him snapped because he pushed me away.

"Don't- don't say those words."

"What?"

"Stop saying meaningless things. You don't even remember yesterday's events. So stop saying those words. Just stop it. I don't need you. I have my father, Prim, and MJ."

I felt...

Sad.

I felt depressed for some reason.

I knew that he was going to say that but,

It feels like my heart is shattered.

Chapter Text

Kavin POV

"Have you got your suit?"

"Ah, no dad. It's just that the company works and school kinds of stuff have messed up my schedule. I haven't even gone to the store to look."

"Same with Thyme! He hasn't also got his suit. Why don't you both go together for suits and spend some quality time? It's been years since both of you have a proper talk."

"Okay."

Yea not okay. I didn't even want to go for suit buying. Just a black suit will do the work, it is not like I need MJ or Prim too. The graduation is the day after tomorrow. Time really does file. It's been 2 years when I met my best friends and a year when I met Thyme. Do I really feel guilty? No. I don't. He will get the taste of his own medicine.

"Son I think he is here! Enjoy your day with Thyme and maybe call him to be with us at dinner too."

"Yes dad I will, now I am gonna go. Take care! If something happens just call me. Don't hesitate."

I took the elevator to the ground floor. I greeted all the maids and made my way outside. I saw Thymes car and went ahead and waved at him. When I got inside the car, I was surprised that Ren was there.

"Hey Thyme!' They said infusion.

"I didn't know Ren was also coming with us."

"Did you want to spend quality time with your boyfriend? Well sorry, cause that's not happening."

I snorted. "Just cause is gay, doesn't mean that I will like every male I see."

"Sorry if that sounded rude-"

"Bro chill! And it's okay. I wasn't offended or anything"

I chuckled. Ren was a good guy. Too bad he won't like what's coming tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the day.

I shook my head. He will understand. He is a nice guy, and- yea. They will understand.

"So Kavin where did you order your suit from?"

"I didn't order anything. I will just look for a simple blue suit I think. Blue really suits me. I have way too much black clothing in my wardrobe."

"And white too!" Said Thyme, chuckling.

We were talking about random stuffed until Thyme told us that we have arrived at the suit store. We walked inside, and not many people were there in the store. The store was elegant, and it was sparkling everywhere. A staff member saw us and walked over to us.

"Good evening sirs. Are you looking for suits?"

"Yes, we-"

"Please don't call us sirs. We are way too young and your older than us phi." I exclaimed. I really didn't like someone older than me calling sir. It feels overwhelming.

"And ah yes, we are looking for a suit. I think both of you ordered your suit?"

They nodded their head saying yes. Well, I guess we are gonna have suit shopping.

"Do you have a suit in blue color?"

The staff exclaimed and showed me a navy blue suit. I liked the color and I quickly went into the changing room to change.

Thyme's  POV

My hunch was right. Kavin is gay. My best friend is gay.

Ok, but why the hell are you smiling?

I am smiling? Huh?

No am on smiling-

Am just happy that my best friend is gay. He learned his sexuality after I left. Yea. Exactly. He is proud to be gay. Am proud of him. That's it. Yea.

Just then, Kavin came out of the changing room wearing his suit.

And damn.

That's hot.

No, it's not. It's cool. Yea. He looks good. And handsome- OH NO. HE LOOKS GOOD. YES.

"So I think I will buy this. It looks good. Am just wearing this suit only for tomorrow so..." Kavin spoke up, breaking the silence.

We nodded our heads, saying yes. 

/

/

/

"So lunch anyone?"

"Am done. Kav?"

"Sure. What are we eating though?"

"McDonald's?"

"Nope. Pizza?"

"Whatever it is, food is food. Am down."

"Of course you are." I huffed.

Ren never said no to food, same with Kavin. But today Kavin saying no to food was really surprising. I have seen how happily Kavin used to eat foods when were small. I guess the incident actually really affected his life. 

"Also guys I have something to say," Ren spoke up

"Go ahead."

"So the day after tomorrow is graduation, right? I am thinking to propose this girl I like."

"Do we maybe know that girl?" I smirked

"Duh. It's-"

"Am hungry. Walk faster." Kavin cut off Ren. He sounded frustrated. Maybe he is really hungry.

We entered the restaurant. Many people with their families were happily eating their pizzas. Some children were being a little too old, while some people were laughing with each other. We went over to the cashier and ordered our pizza with some side foods too. We sat down at our table and started talking about random kinds of stuff. But I noticed something.

Every time Ren would talk about the girl, Kavin would either cut him off or fake coughs. Weird. Does he know who the girl is, or does he doesn't wanna know?

Suddenly Ren's phone pinged and at that same time our pizza came. When I looked back at Ren. He was blankly staring at Kavin.

"Ren?"

"Oh- Yes?"

"Uh, so we dig in?"

We ate our food in peace and talked about random funny stuff. Then we talked about what we were going to do after our graduation. I will be the next CEO of our company, along with Kavin. Ren hasn't decided if he's gonna work at the company or not because he has a brother and he's interested.

We finished our food and went outside. That's when Kavin spoke up.

"My house is near here. So I will just walk to it."

I nodded my head, signaling a yes. I looked at the red and told him to come with me. But then he said "Ah. I and Kav have some talking to do. You can wait for me in your car."

I nodded. I started walking to the parking area until I heard Ren say something to Kavin.

"What did you mean in that text of yours?" 

Chapter Text

Graduation. The field was decorated in multi-colors. Students were laughing and crying at the same time. Some students will miss their professors. It's been 3 years and today is the day where we are, free?

Now students have completed their studies and now that everyone has got their degree they will go look for jobs.

But for me?

Well, am proposing.

This is why I and Gorya are in the restaurant, eating lunch. We were talking about Gorya's life until she got the scholarship.

"Not gonna lie, this food is really good!"

"Glad you loved it. They sell the best food here."

"No. The food in the convenience store is way better than this."

Never in my life, I have eaten something from a convenience store. My whole life, I have gone to expensive places. Except for the one time when I and Kavin went to eat some ice cream. After I went away, I never ate from those places.

Suddenly my phone pinged.

Rya.

A huge smile was spread across my face.

Rya.

Congratulations on your
Graduation.

You too.

I saw that you took her. So,
When are you proposing?

I think during the sightseeing which
we planned.

So like around eight?
Because you're going to
the theatre too.

Yea maybe.

I wish you everything good.

Thanks, Rya!
Love you.

-

We went to the theatre and brought our popcorns and tickets. My best friend's wedding was airing. Apparently, the reviews are really good so we went to watch it.

The movie was about Julianne, who was shocked to find out that her best friend, Michael, was getting married. She liked him, so she was overcome with surge mixed emotions and planned to sabotage the wedding.

Feels like reality.

We went into the theater and saw the movie. It was really hilarious, but I didn't like the fact that the girl was desperate for her best friend's love. It was, as of she's selfish.

Sounds like someone.

Okay. It doesn't sound like anymore, nor does it feel like reality. Am going to purpose my crush today. No negative thoughts, just happy thoughts.

"So Gorya, We have to go somewhere."

"Oh where?"

"Just somewhere."

We made our way to the parking area and I opened the door for Gorya. "Gentlemen much?" She and I chuckled. We sat in comfortable silence. Gorya was looking, out the window, enjoying the breeze. "So what are you gonna do now?" I asked, breaking the silence. "What do you mean?" She asked back, smirking.

"What are you gonna do now? We graduated, got a degree, now we need jobs." I asked her. She thought about it for a moment. "Honestly I don't know." She told me. I glanced at her. "What do you-" "If I get a job, I get a job. I will apply to most of the interviews, if they accept me then that's good."

"But if I do get more than one acceptance, then that's another story. But I really wanna do a start-up." She said. Start-up, a small business. "Well, you would join my company." She shook her head and smiled. "Just because I have rich friends, doesn't mean am that desperate."

I glanced at her and nodded my head. "You don't have to feel bad."

I sighed. I should feel bad though.

But not after today.

We reached the beach which took us thirty minutes to reach. The sand was really cool as it was night. Cool wind made contact with my body, sending shivers down my spine.

We went to the seashore and took our shoes off. The water was ice cold, but we still played in the water for hours.

/

/

/

"So why did you bring us here?"

"I wanted to confess something. Hold on a second."

Rya

It's time.

It is.
So we meet today?

Well duh.
Isn't that what I promised?

I thought you will chicken out.

Well no.
Now confess so we can meet.

I chuckled and looked at Gorya. She was looking at me with curious eyes. "What was that all about? Texting your crush?"

"I did rather text you."

"Haha lame. No, you won't."

"No Gorya seriously I would."

She looked at me and saw how serious I was. "What's this about?"

"Gorya,

I know we have been friends for 7 months now. You were the girl who came to our school with a scholarship. A freaking scholarship. Even though people were being really rude to you, you still went ahead and studied hard. And today you got graduated and now you have a degree. You can have a job now.

Am proud of you.

But for the past months, I have been feeling really different towards you. Different in feelings. I don't see you as my best friend or anything. When we went to the bookstore months ago, and we wanted the same book, I fell. I felt a different feeling which I never had.

So Gorya."

I held my breath.

"I like you."

I said it. But why do I still feel unsure of what I did?

"You like who now?!"

That voice startled me. I looked behind and saw Ren, standing there, looking mad? I can't see it very well, cause it's so dark now.

"Every time Thyme. EVERY TIME. I gave you everything. Why.

Why can't you give me something?"

He ran away.

My best friend is mad at me for not giving him something? I have given everything to him. What-

"REN!"

Gorya watched Ren disappear from our sight. She was standing up when I held her wrist.

"THYME! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

"Answer me."

"What?!"

"Answer me. Please."

She sighed and looked at me with pity eyes.

"I don't. I never liked you Thyme."

"Why?!"

"You're like a brother to me! You give me everything! Like a brother does to her little sister. There's no love in us Thyme. I don't like you. Never have and never will."

I just sat there. Taking her words in me.

"I liked him."

I looked up at her. What?

"Ren."

She told me his name and ran off. Probably to find him. I just sat there. Is this what rejection feels like? Is this what pain feels like?

I quickly grabbed my phone searching for one person.

Rya.

"Hello Thyme."

I looked up to see who called me.

I widened my eyes. What the hell is he doing here?! 

Chapter Text

Thyme POV

"What are you doing here?!" I exclaimed.

Kavin just smirked. "Why do you think am here? Well, why don't you ask someone."

Ask who?

"Didn't you confess? You wanted to see someone else too."

Is he talking about-

Rya.

I quickly opened my phone and texted Rya.

Rya

Where are you?

Suddenly a notification sound went off. Kavin took his phone out and smirked. He typed something then looked at me. He had this suspicious smirk on his face.

I got a notification. I quickly opened it and I feel like my whole body went numb.

In front of you ;)
Hello Thyme. It's me
Kavin.

"It's you?!"

"Of course it's me. Who do you expect to help you?"

I just stood there. Looking at him. Maintaining eye contact. I had so many questions, was it out of a fit of anger? Revenge? Or did he just wanted to make fun of me?

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why did you do this?" or moreover, from everyone else, why was it him?

"Wanted you to get a taste of your own medicine Thyme."

"Just because I broke you? That's why?! Do you realize how selfish you are?"

"Am not selfish. The world is. Do you expect me to just sit here, just easily forgive you and move on with my goddamn life? No. Get a taste of your own medicine. You ruined me. And in return for your favor, I ruined you. I knew Gorya was in love with Ren, so I had to just use Ren."

"You could've used me! Why him!?"

He chuckled then stood up. I was confused. Was he leaving me?

"Friendship. Which is now broken by the way.

But I can predict something." He cut my thoughts by speaking up. "I could've helped Ren though. Gorya ran after him. They must be somewhere." He then looked at me and smirked.

"Maybe confessing feelings and then smooching."

My brain is just blank. I can't think of anything. Kavin took a deep breath. "But still." He spoke up. "It's so pathetic you know."

"What more pathetic?!"

"You. You are."

"What?!"

"Are you deaf? It's you! You who is the most pathetic human, I have ever came across! You are the human I became friends with, you are the one who broke me, you are the one who came back. It's pathetic!"

Silence.

"Now about your forgiveness, I will never forgive you Thyme. Till the day I am alive, when I snatch that first place of your company, show the world what you did, and see you rot in hell."

"Fuck you!"

"Yo, calm your dick. We are basically talking, not fucking."

I feel my face getting heated up. The audacity of this man!

"Now that you have no friends, I will see how you will cope up.

It's getting late, so now I have to go,"

He is just leaving me here, just like this? In the middle of the beach? A cold breeze came, sending shivers in my spine, he started walking away, but the tension in the atmosphere was still there.

"One more!"

He turned around, confusion in his eyes. "What?"

"Was it true?"

"What was? This? Of co-"

"That you were in love with me?"

A wave of silence came. We stood there, in bare feet, in front of the sea, in the dark, staring at each other. Time felt like it stopped. It felt like we were the only people present, all the other surroundings were a blur, but him. I was focused on him.

"Who told you this?"

"Someone."

"Who is that someone!?" He shouted, which caught me off-guard.

"You..." I said silently. I didn't think he heard me, but oh, he did. He shouted at me which caught me off guard.

"What do you mean me?!"

"Its You..."

"How-"

"Remember when you told me that you dated Nene, back months ago, when I was sad. Youre gay Kavin. How can you date someone when you don't even like the opposite gender?"

He went stiff. His body language shifted.

"You broke up with her, yea because she was a gold digger, but you wanted to move on. From me. Kavin Metawin, you wanted to move on."

"No I never wanted to-"

"What's the point of lying when learned the truth? You can say ye-"

"I CAN'T!"

...

"Leave me alone. Get away from my life Thyme. I never wanted your forgiveness. I never wanted to love you. I never wanted our situation to turn this way. But I just guess,

It was never meant to be."

Chapter Text

It's been days, or should I say weeks.

It's been weeks since they last talked.

It's been weeks since they last saw.

It's been weeks since they last texted.

They were just going on with life. They had a goal to achieve, to be at the top.

They didn't care about what happened on the beach. They didn't care about the tension that filled in the air. They didn't care about the heartbroken and sad feeling.

So why?

So why are they sitting down, facing each other, in an expensive restaurant?

Because their fathers wanted to 'hang' out. This is why they are sitting, facing each other, just minding their own business.

No hello's, no hi, no greetings.

Their fathers noticed the tension in the atmosphere between them, but that doesn't mean that they can ruin the happy vibes.

For all they care, they are turning old now. All they want is to see their sons happy and smiling, not having tension in the air.

"Kavin, I have something to say to you."

"Yes, father."

He looked up, looked up at his father, looked up from his plate. He was just looking at the food, playing with it since they came in.

He didn't want to see Thyme. Hell, he didn't even want to come here. But did his father listen? N to the fucking O.

Kavin's father pulled out something from his pocket, which looked like an envelope and a card.

He handed it to Kavin, who examined the card with no interest. It was a dark blue card with a golden lining.

He opened the card revealing a clothing store, which he has never seen or heard of before. Apparently, this clothing store makes clothes out of what people say.

Meaning, if you have an idea for a clothing style, you can give it to them and if they liked it then your clothing will be displayed in the store, as well as you will have credits.

"What is this?"

His father smiled saying "I want you both to go and check it out."

He couldn't hear anything after his father said both.

Does that mean he and Thyme? Or does he mean someone else? Surely someone else, right?

"I want you and Kavin to check out the store, also Kavin you might have a surprise." Thyme's father said with a huge smile.

Kavin took a deep breath. This means he has to interact with Thyme now. But they have to talk at some point, don't they?

"Where's the location and when does this store open?"

He looked forward to seeing Thyme maintaining eye contact with him. Did he asked it to me or something? He actually spoke to him? Wow, that was really-

"Kavin?"

His train of thoughts halted when Thyme called his name out. His name.

Flustered and embarrassed, he looked back in the card and told them the location. Looks like the shop opened at 10 am and it closes at 7 pm.

"So uncle, you want us to go tomorrow or?"

"If you both are free tomorrow, then sure, go ahead. Mostly depends on Kavin though, it's a surprise for him and I want you to be with him."

That sounded really weird dad. Kavin thought when his father said he wanted Thyme to be with him.

"Actually I-"

"Then Kavin, I will come to get you at 12pm then." Thyme stated, more like demanded.

Kavin didn't like the attitude he was giving, but he didn't want to fight about it.

"Fine then. You're gonna be the one driving."

"What!?"

The two old men chuckled at their son's bickering. It feels like old time.

When they were little kids fighting over little pieces of stuff.

"Kavin! Did you take my candy?!" Shouted little Thyme at Kavin.

"No, I didn't! My hand took it!" replied Kavin with a pout on his face. "I told whiskers not to! But he didn't listen!"

Whisker was the name of the hand puppet drawn on  Kavin's  hand. He loved it so much that he named it.

"Oh stop lying you goblin! You ate them all!"

"Did not!"

"Did too!"

"No, I didn't!"

"What am I supposed to eat now?!"

"Well, that's you problem so figure it out. I and whiskers are heading out now."

"Oh no, you aren't. Come back here!" Roared Thyme and he sprinted behind little Kavin. They always had these little arguments, well Kavin argued most of the times that Thyme did. Even with arguments, they somehow come back to each other and apologize.

Their fathers had to practically tear them apart or they would tease each other to death. Both children apologized and went to find some food for him.

Will those good old memories come back?

They won't.

Chapter Text

"What's taking you so long?!"

"Fuck off man. I want to look presentable, at least I don't look like a fucking maniac."

"Did you just call me a maniac Kavin Metawin?!"

"No, I didn't, I called you deaf."

"Alright am leaving, walk your way to the store. I swear to god."

Thyme stormed off, he was clearly pissed at Kavin. They were gonna leave thirty minutes ago, but oh dear, Kavin literally forgot about it and Thyme is rushing him. But clearly, the young male is also pissed so this is making things harder for both of them.

Thyme went inside his car and connected his phone with the car and listened to some music, just so he can calm down before he outrages. Again.

Thyme had short temper in the past, where he needed therapy for 4 months, which is really rare for him. The doctors were also surprised and congratulated him for this fast recovery. But sometimes, stress can get the best of him. He likes everything to be perfect, meaning to be on time.

So when Thyme saw that Kavin wasn't ready, he got stressed, and well he lost his temper. He always wanted everything to be perfect, but you know, not everything is perfect in life. Everything or everyone has their own flaws, beautiful flaws, he knew that.

But still, he is stubborn.

He was so zoned out, thinking about his life that he didn't notice that Kavin has already sat in the car and is calling his name multiple times.

Until he heard his name, right close to his ear.

"Thyme~"

He jolted and looked beside him, seeing Kavin up close. He can practically feel his cheeks and ears getting heated up. He has never, even when they were children, never seen Kavin this close. He can see his pale skin and light moles. He can see his cherry lips and brown, honey hazel eyes.

Hold on.

WAIT FOR WHAT?

He is flustered?! Just because Kavin is way close to his personal space?!

"Thyme Vachirawit, this is so cute to see, you flustered and weak. This means I can gain some advantage on you." He snickered.

He mumbled some incoherent words, which Kavin didn't really pick up, but still ignored. Thyme started his car, they hit the highway making their way to the shop.

They passed many shops and malls, each decorated beautifully. Many people were coming in or out of the shops, with bags around their arms, clinging on them. Kavin doesn't really like shopping that much, he likes what he has. He can make outfits without buying any new clothes.

He never liked shopping, never. Je never understands the point of shopping. If you have old clothes, which can be still usable, why do you go around and buy more bunch of clothes? It's like a waste of money and space, in Kevin's eyes.

The car stopped abruptly, which caused Kavin to move forward and bumped his head. It was a really hard bump though. He looked at his side and glared at Thyme, who was smirking.

"You did that on purpose?!"

"Of course I did. It's funny to look at you being angry and you can't do anything about it."

"Well, you're too happy nowadays. Didn't Gorya fucking leave you at the beach? You're supposed to be sad and being a little bitch but instead, you're bullying me!" He snapped. He didn't mean to say it, but he did.

Clearly, Thyme may or may not take it by his heart. But Kavin thinks he may have taken it because his face grimaced, his eyebrows furrowed and the atmosphere turned really dark.

"Okay, I won't bully you."

Am sorry.

"Anyway, we are here. So let's go."

Thyme got out of his car and didn't dare to look at Kavin's way. Clearly, he's pissed or he is just angry. Kavin couldn't care less. Right?

They entered the shop and were immediately hit with a sweet smell of lavender and rose. The shop was pearly white but with brown vintage accessories. Clothes were raked neatly on a side so that the customers can go and look around.

A girl was standing behind a desk, looking through folders, not noticing the presence of the two men.

"Hello! Is this the Moffy store?"

The girl looked and apologized profusely for not noticing them. The girl introduced herself as Puffy and said that she's one of the co-owner of this shop.

Since they recently started it, they didn't have any staff members, but they are looking for more members.

Suddenly someone yelled and footsteps were heard as the yelling comes with it. Puffy took a folder and practically dashed to the voice, while the voice told her to not run around or she might fall.

She returned and looked at the men. "Am sorry that was my girlfriend, the owner of the store. You can meet with her but in the meantime, you check out the clothes me and her designed back when we went to college."

Both men nodded and went to look at the clothes. There were dresses, suits, tops, pants every piece of clothing. So they are talented and unique huh? Nice. This wasn't just plain clothes, this was another thing, an item of new clothing to the fashion world.

Kavin was amazed by this, agape and speechless.

Puffy returned saying that she, meaning the owner or her girlfriend, is ready to meet them. They made their way to a long hallway and went into a glass door room and there was seated a woman, with curly black hair and tannish skin.

She looked up and smiled at Kavin, which he thought was weird.

"My god, Kavin. Your piece of shit."

Both men were taken by surprise. Did she just insult a higher-up? A person who has a lot of power in his hands?

"Did you seriously forgot your knight in shining armor?"

Knight in shining armor?

It couldn't be.

"MOON?!"

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Thyme was being petty about the whole situation. So this girl, Moon, is Kavins knight in shining armor, whatever she said. And she has a girlfriend named Puffy.

Right now both of them are chatting about their life, what happened after Moon left. Nevertheless, he was bored as fuck.

Thyme had nothing to do right now. And he certainly didn't want to hear the rambling of these two. "Am gonna go look around." That's what he said and didn't wait for confirmation.

He stood up and left the office. He sat down in one of the chairs and just took out his phone and scrolled through his phone.

"So, are you his boyfriend?"

Thyme looked up to see Puffy asking him the question. He cheeks and shook his head, indicating a no to her question.

"Ah am sorry! I thought you were jealous or something."

"No worries."

Thyme was curious. He was curious about Puffy's relationship with Moon. They were literal opposites of each other. Puffy wore a light pastel blue shirt, with a pastel green shirt and a pastel pink belt with some accessories on it. Her hair was blonde, but there was a strand of hair which is brown. She wore a hairband of funny ears. In other words, her aesthetic was soft.

Meanwhile Moon, on the other hand, Moon aesthetic was grunge. She wore a dark navy blue turtle neck with black pants which has chains attached to them. She wore light makeup and one of her hair stands was blonde. And she wore a bisexual pin.

Maybe she is bisexual.

"Puffy?"

Puffy looked at Thyme, curious about what the older might have to say.

"How did you meet Moon?"

Puffy widened her eyes a little bit. Nevertheless sighed. She looked back at the office door and then looked at Thyme.

"Well, it happened in America. I am actually from Europe. I met her at our fashion designing course. She was different from others you can say."

"How different?"

"She was openly bisexual, while me, I was still in the closet."

Thyme was surprised at this.

"Even though she got hate for not liking her opposite gender, she still didn't give a fuck about it. She didn't let the hate get into her mind, and she lived her life. I was jealous back then.

How can a person not let hate get into her heart?"

Thyme agreed. Hate is something that can mess up your entire system. One word can destroy your entire career.

"But soon I saw that she didn't even get any friends. So one day, I just went to her and asked her. She told me that she has got hate, pretty much all her life. But her father and some important people were happy for her for coming out to them.

She told me that she is important in their lives, so why does it matter to other people about her sexuality? She's going to leave after graduating and she doesn't care about the students here cause she never knew them. And either way, they all will forget her.

So I came out to her and she was really happy about it. She was excited that I came out to her. A few hangouts turned into dates and here we are, making a business."

Thyme was amazed by it. She never knew Kavin's friend was that independent.

"Still am curious. Do you like that guy? Kavin was it?"

Thyme widened his eyes. He doesn't even know. Does he like him?

"I don't know."

Puffy giggled. "It's ok I'd you don't know. Tell me, what do you feel when you are around him."

"An unusual feeling. I feel happy around him, I feel like being on a rollercoaster, the feeling inside your stomach you know? This morning, we were uh, a li-little close today, and I uh, was flustered."

Thyme was embarrassed. He didn't wanna talk about it considering how heated his ears and cheeks felt.

"Damn you in love with him."

"Even if I was, I don't stand a chance."

"And why is that? I feel like you both look perfect."

Thyme now was fighting a war inside him. Should he say what happened with him and Kavin or should he not say it.

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Kavin was hugging Moon.

"Oh my fucking god, get away. It's literally 5 PM! You took a whole damn day for talking. I want to meet my girlfriend!"

"Right! I haven't even met her. How inconsiderate of you!" Kavin laughed. Moon smacked his shoulder.

"Inconsiderate my ass! You didn't even remember me! Am offended."

They were laughed and they stepped out of the office until they stopped in their tracks and were shocked to see Puffy hugging Thyme.

Thyme pulled away and Puffy was looking at him with sympathy. "Trust me, he will understand. It's a lot of pain to you both."

Puffy noticed that Moon and Kavin were done talking and were standing there looking at them. He smiled at Moon and shook Thyme's shoulder.

Thyme looked back to see them standing and then quickly looked in front of him, not daring to look back.

"So uh, are we done? Are we going?" He rasped out. Puffy giggled and looked at the duo. Kavin was asking Moon something and she was nodding her head happily.

"Yes Thyme. We are done with our talk, but we aren't done with dinner. It's Kavin's treat so you better come with us. Unless you don't wanna?"

Thyme signed and nodded his head and then went outside to get his car. Puffy ran to Moon and gave a peck on the cheeks to Moon.

"Alright, Kavin, this is my hottie, Puffy. Too bad she's taken by me." Moon laughed. Kavin also laughed with them. "Tell me, is she bullying you? I will beat her ass if she did."

Puffy shook her head and giggled. "She's not. Also am curious, is he your boyfriend?"

Now it was Kavin's turn to be beetroot red. He shook his head indicating that Thyme wasn't his boyfriend. "Do you wanna be his? I can help!"

Kavin was just awkward at this point. Sure he did want Thyme to be his, but he didn't wanna bother Moon and Puffy in his business.

"I mean su-"

Just then the car honked, reminding that Thyme was still here. They closed the store and head out to eat dinner.

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Thyme is going, to be honest. He was fucking tired at this point.

The restaurant was good, the food was delicious like chefs kiss, the surrounding was good, the view was good. It was like everything is perfect. But it wasn't.

The atmosphere wasn't perfect at all. Thyme had this awkward atmosphere around him, mainly because the three other people are chatting between themselves while, he is just eating, more like playing with his food.

He was just tired. After the talk with Puffy, he realized something, and he was sure of it. Just thinking about the conversation would make his heart flutter.

This was a feeling he never had, this was something he hated.

The same feeling that Kavin had for him, until he shut him out, and broke him completely.

He understands his mistakes and wants to ask for an apology, considering that his feelings were the same as Kavin had. But one thing, he wasn't sure about.

Was Kavin still in love with him, just like he is now?

He didn't even notice them calling out his name until he felt a hand shaking his shoulder. He suddenly looked up, fazed by the sudden moment to be met by brown honey eyes staring at his soul.

Kavin sat back in his seat and told him that he was going to pay for the food. That didn't sit right with Thyme. He wanted to pay it, even if it's half of it.

He insisted Kavin pay for the dinner until Kavin just nodded his head signaling that Thyme can pay for the food.

Thyme was happy about it. He quickly paid for the food and the duos went outside.

"It was a lovely evening Kavin and Thyme. Thank you for eating out with us. You don't need to take us back to our house. It's close by here, so we can walk." Moon exclaimed, suddenly speaking after they came out of the restaurant.

Thyme just nodded his head while Kavin was a little sad that the day had finally ended and it was time to go home. They were chatting about where to meet the next time until Puffy walked up to Thyme. "I suggest you tell him, just get it off your chest Thyme," Puffy said, not meeting Thyme's eyes.

"Trust me, you will feel suffocated. If you are sure about your attraction towards him, then say it. Only if you are sure." Puffy said and then left Thyme's side, not giving him a chance to say anything.

Kavin said his goodbyes to Moon and Puffy and turned around to meet Thyme, already staring at him. He shrugged his shoulders and avoided eye contact. "So are we going home, or is there some business to do?" Kavin stated.

Thyme just snorted, this man is getting really sassy nowadays. Can't help the fact that he likes it, no complaints. They started walking down the pavement where Thyme's car was located. "What were you and Puffy were talking about?" Kavin stated. Thyme looked at him blankly.

"Just something."

"Something like what?"

"Who's Moon? You were talking to her for so long. I never knew her, and the fact that she is your friend surprises me." Thyme said as a matter of factly. Kavin looked away, he knew that Thyme was trying to change the subjects, and he will answer his question.

"After you left, I never really had any friends. So your 'old friends' came up to me and bullied me for being gay. Of course, that's when I met Moon. She was the headmaster's daughter, so she came forward and threatened Joss and others. Since then I was friends with her until she had to leave the country to study abroad. After she left, the bullying came around, but after finishing school, I was free from hell." Kavin stated.

Thyme wasn't looking at him anymore. New emotions were building inside his chest. One of them was selfishness. If Thyme wasn't that selfish and didn't break the younger heart, maybe he couldn't have that much pain in his heart.

"So what about you? I answered yours, now answer mine." Kavin looked over with a little smile. Thyme was dumbstruck. After 4 years, finally, he saw a smile, a little smile on his face. He was happy and he smiled back at him. "Something which is best to be kept inside my head right now."

Kavin pouted, making Thyme laugh. "Don't worry, when the right time will come I will tell you." He said and ruffled Kavin's hair. Two of them were giggling, behaving like lovers. But, of course, they both realize what they were doing, and both became flustered.

Maybe they can still be friends, or even better, more than friends.

They got inside the car and just as Thyme was going to start the car, he felt a hand on his left arm. He looked to be met by Kavin's eye, but it wasn't showing the usual mischievous and happy, it was showing a hint of nervousness.

"Thyme," Kavin stated his voice a little scared. Thyme was confused, but yet he didn't say anything.

"Can I help you get over her?

Thyme was dumbstruck. Her? Whos her? Is he talking about Gorya?

Wait. Gorya.

After the confrontation with Kavin that day on the beach, he didn't even think about Gorya. It was always him, Kavin.

"And how?" Thyme asked with caution. He doesn't want the younger to be overwhelmed.

"Let's date."

"What?"

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Thyme would be lying if he said he wasn't amused or flustered by the idea.

When the younger confronted him at the beach, a new feeling blossomed inside his heart, a feeling he never fell around him when they were younger.

It's almost making him question his feelings for Gorya. But speaking of Gorya, he hasn't even heard about her, neither Ren.

Ren.

Ren was his best friend. And what he said that day on the beach, had shattered his heart, shattered his trust in people. He had shared everything, every secret, because he trusted him.

But feels like he was wrong.

He was stupid to let people in his life like an open door. People always come in, spend time and then leave. They never stay.

That's what Thyme learned.

So why?

So why is he letting the younger brunette boy stay? Why is his heart happy, that Kavin is still staying, even if the doors are opened for him to leave?

Maybe because of attraction?

Thyme is sure of his feelings, ap he shook his head. Suddenly a notification went off his phone and he grabbed it to check who texted him. A smile blossomed on his face.

Kavin.

Yes, he changed the name, he doesn't want anything with Gorya, but he needs to ask for forgiveness for the way he acted that they. He was selfish, forcing her.

But anyway, enough of that, Kavin texted him saying that he should come to his out, as his dad is away, they can have some fun.

Thyme was flustered at this. Fuck his mind. He replied with a simple sure and then got off his bed to change.

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"Do you wanna bake something? Like cookies?" Kavin said. Thyme nodded looking around. Everyone had a day off today, including the maids. The house was empty and it was just him and Kavin.

Kavin said that his father insisted on going with him, but he declined the offer because he wanted to spend time with him. Of course, the older male got flustered.

He shook his head and looked at the younger trying to get the flour from a higher place, his height was short and he wasn't able to get it.

But he slipped and Thyme grabbed him in a bridal style, just in time. But bad news, they were now covered in flour. "KAVIN!" shouted the older, looking at the mess.

"Oops?" Kavin just said with a funny smile on his face. Thyme scoffed. This is a disaster. Now they have to do double the work.

"Well we can't just stay here in this position, and let the house be dirty. You get the mop, I will get a bucket of water." Thyme said fiercely, dominance laced in his voice.

"And what if I don't?" Just then Kavin moved closer to the Thyme, causing him to get red due to sudden closeness.

"Ow!" Kavin rubbed his ass. "Ok ok! Don't just throw me down like that! That hurts." Kavin said, pouting.

Thyme smirked inwards, rolling his eyes on the young male on the floor. He dusted off the floor off him and moved out of the kitchen to find a mop.

He came across a closest and upon opening it, the mop was there. He took the mop and made his way back to the kitchen. He saw that Kavin was doing something on the floor.

"What are you doing?" Thyme said, confusion on his face, eyebrow furrowed. Kavin just smiled.

"Look! Am drawing!" Kavin exclaimed happily. Thyme got on his knees to get a closer look at what Kavin was drawing. He was drawing a man, with a sharp jawline, little short hair, it kinda looked like him.

He didn't realize that Kavin was looking at him instead of drawing. He had a small smile on his face, observing Thyme's facial expression.

Even after all of this, Kavin's heart is soft. He believes in second chances, what happened in past, is in past. He couldn't let his anger take control of him, leaving him in a void, where he is scared and is just falling. 

But aside from that, he is happy now. After the confrontation, talking to Moon about it, he thinks, he finally thinks, that maybe he has to give him a chance. Considering that the man was asking for forgiveness when he came back.

Gosh, it's been 5 months? Time really does fly.

Maybe he will be used to this,

Maybe he will finally get happiness in his sorrowful heart.

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"Come on! We are late!" Kavin shouted as he buttons up his black suit. Thyme groans. He didn't want to wear this costume but Kavin insisted.

How can he say no to Kavin? When he insisted Thyme to be the devil and him being the angel, he gave it in. And now he has makeup on his face.

Don't get him wrong. Halloween is one of the most fun holidays. You get candies, go around the neighborhood, decorate your house, there's so much to do.

But when Kavin wanted to do a couple of themed types of costumes, that's when he said, he decided that Thyme should be the devil. Thyme frowned when Kavin said that because of past events, he was gonna be the devil. To top it all of, he had wings on his back, dark greyish color.

Right now, Thyme's face was a little pale, black shadow underneath his eyes, fake blood coming out of one of the corners of his mouth. He has devil horns on his head and he wore a black suit with a redshirt. He wore a large cape which finished his look. Kavin on the other hand was different. He was pure white.

Kavin had a halo on his head, he wore a white suit with a baby blue shirt. He had a rose in his suit pocket and he wore light golden accessories. And of course, white wings.

But one thing was there which made them look like a couple. Custom-made rings.

In Kavin's hand, the ring he was wearing was black, shaped like a spike, with a red gem on top. While on Thyme's hand, he wore a white ring, shaped like a spike, with a blue gem on top of it.

It was cute, that's what Thyme thought. He was smiling to himself as Kavin was tugging him around the neighborhood looking at the decorations. There was a fair going on, so they both decided to join it.

The decorations were beautiful. Spooky pumpkins were carved, paper-made ghosts were hung on the ceiling, cobwebs were spread around the whole neighborhood.

Everything was beautiful.

He was beautiful.

Kavin looked breathtaking. His face lighted up whenever the light was shone, he looked like an angel. Funny, his costume is also an angel. It matched him perfectly. They soon reached the park where people were in their costumes, talking to one another. Little children were running around, shouting with happiness.

There were a lot of assorted sweets laid down on a bench. Many games were there. The park was huge so they fitted everything here. Thyme has also heard that there was going to be a firework show later, so he has to keep Kavin in the park.

Honestly, Thyme wasn't a big fan of outside. After he went to America, he had lost all social energy and turned into an introvert. But Kavin was a choice. Whenever he is around, Thyme never minds.

Someone tapped Thyme's, which cause him to look behind. A girl who wore fake fangs on her teeth wore a black pointy hat, lipstick was smudged at one of the corners of her mouth, really light makeup, was looking at her. Thyme smiled.

"Prim, it's nice to see you. So you dressed as a witch?" Thyme said and chuckled, causing Prim to laugh. They were on good terms now, thanks to Kavin.

"Of course, I didn't want to get all out with Halloween so I went with something simple," Prim replied with a smile, twirling her long black dress around.

"How's MJ and you, if you don't mind me asking?" Thyme asked. "Oh we are okay, we are progressing. I don't know where he went through, he was with me until I noticed you. How are you and Kavin?"

"Don't even speak about him. Your best friend, a week ago, literally put a packet of flour on both of us. It was a mess." Thyme said, causing both of them to laugh. Right. Kavin was clumsy and stubborn so that was bound to happen.

"We are couple-themed. He is dressed as an angel and I am dressed as a devil. Typical.." Thyme said smirking to himself. Prim saw it and smiled, even though he hated Thyme back then, he apologized, and she accepted it. Now she is rooting for them.

"Speaking of Kavin, where is he?" Thyme suddenly said, looking behind him, noticing that the little angel is not even in his sight. "Maybe MJ saw him? Wanna find him?" Thyme nodded and started to walk around the park.

Okay, so there were a LOT of people. Since Kavin was wearing all white, it was supposed to be easier to spot him right? Well, it wasn't.

"Thyme look!" Prim suddenly said, pointing to the direction she was looking. Thyme adverted his direction and saw Kavin, kneeling helping a child, worried expression blossomed on his face.

Kavin was saying something to the kid, and the kid nodded and smiled at him. He ruffled his hair a bit, and the kid ran away. He stood up and looked in the kid's direction, smiling brightly at himself.

Thyme was smiling the whole time. He didn't even notice the playful gaze that Prim was giving. "Has anybody told you that you are such a simp?" Prim said, causing the man to break his gaze. He was red. Dang, it.

"It's ok, no need to be a tomato. Now let's go." Prim said, starting to walk towards Kavin. Thyme was just standing there. Looking at Prim going towards his partner. He smiled to himself.

This wasn't so bad.

He looked behind him to see that there were cupcakes lined up in purple frosting with different candies sprinkled on them. He took one and started eating them. They were the best. He picked out two for Prim and Kavin and started walking towards the best friends.

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"Fine then."

Thyme said, a little angrily and disconnected the call. He was frustrated.

It's been days since Kavin has talked to him. Days. And it's driving his brain insane. It's been four months of their dating, and a week since Kavin decided to practically not hang out with Thyme at all.

Of course, Kavin goes out with Prim, MJ, Moon and Puffy. He respects that he hangs out with his friends, but alas, he also needs attention.

Thyme really doesn't have any friends. Considering the situation at the beach, five months ago, Ren has decided to stay low. Same with Gorya. There's no trace about these two at the moment.

He wants to apologize, beg for forgiveness, telling them that he was so so wrong, and he was blind. But he just couldn't get contact with them.

Suddenly, somebody called Thyme, and he grabbed his hair in frustration.

"I swear to fucking god." Thyme mumbled on his breath and accepted the call, thinking that it was just Kavin trying to tease him.

"Kavin, I don't have time t-"

"We have found them."

Thyme eyes suddenly widened and he abruptly stood up in shock. "Where!?" He practically yelled at the man on the phone. Poor him. His ears need therapy today.

"They are...*

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Thyme made his way through the whole city. It was hot today, which was just fantastic for Thyme, considering that his mood was okay.

He quickly got off the car and locked it abruptly, and practically ran his way through the people.

Several dozens of people are here. Where the hell is he supposed to find Ren and Gorya in an airport?!

Yes airport.

They booked a ticket to Miami. Thyme was sure that Ren has a job there or something, and he wants to settle down with Gorya. He just wants to apologize for everything.

He doesn't want to live in guilt now.

He was looking around frantically, looking for a familiar face, and his eyes caught on someone. He made his way to the women, and nervously taps her shoulder.

"Excuse me?"

The women was tensed all of a sudden, but soon shrugged it off.

"Yes?"

"Are you Gorya?"

The women turned around, and looked dead on Thyme's eyes, sending glares at him. It was in fact Gorya.

"Seriously Thyme. Ren was right, you may or may not have found a way to track us. And I think he was right about it. What do you want?" Her once happy and sweet voice was turned into a malicious tone, just like Kavin was when they met each other.

"Gorya listen, it's been five months. I real-" Thyme was cut off by two familiar voices, and he never expected to see them.

"Thyme?!"

"YOU?"

In front of him, Ren was standing there, mouth hanging, and Kavin just stood there like a deer caught in headlights. Thyme's head is about to burst.

"Kavin what the hell are you doing here?!"

"Oh um! You know- how- um" Kavin was just stuttering, not looking at Thyme. Thyme's eye's were twitching. Is this a joke?

"He was here to see me off. And now we are going." Ren said instead and grabbed Gorya's hand. Kavin just stood there looking at those two.

"Ren just listen to me! It's been five months I've been trying to find you!"

"And for what Thyme?"

"Because I want to forgive you so badly and you both aren't even listening!"

Silence.

"What do you want to say." Gorya said, softly. Her once malicious tone died down and sympathy showed on her face.

"Gorya, sorry isn't even going to fix for what I did in the past. I- I was just so selfish. I never thought about people around me and wanted things for just myself. I never cared, and I hurted the once who loved me and trusted me." Thyme said head hanging low. He couldn't bear to look at their faces. Especially Gorya and Ren.

"Ren, when I first went to America, I saw you, a person who was bullied for being Asian. I stood up for you and I cared for you until the incident five years ago. I never actually knew you, I never did. I feel like the four years was nothing, it was just a phase. I never paid heed to your wanting, and it broke our friendship so badly. Forgiveness is the only thing I can ask from you both."

At this point, he was begging. He felt so alone. It felt like a few seconds were just several minutes.

Suddenly, his shoulder were grabbed by two hands, and he looked up. Ren and Gorya were smiling at him. They hugged him tightly.

"We forgive you"

At this point, he could be lying if he said he wasn't crying. The guilt was so unbearable to him and it was finally gone from his chest, happiness blossoming in his mind.

"I am so thankful to meet you both, but you have a plane to catch" Thyme said with a chuckle, after breaking the hug and wiping his tears.

"Well we can talk on the phone. You can ask Kavin for the number. My phone broke so I needed a new phone. We will meet again, until next time Thyme!"

Both quickly ran to their destination. Thyme looked over at Kavin, who was already looking at him.

"You know, you're such a softie. You act like mighty Zeus, but under that you are softie as hell." Kavin said with a smirk. Thyme rolled his eyes.

"Speak for yourself. You always clinged onto me when we were both kids, and look at us now." Thyme said with a sly smile, which maybe turned Kavin into a tomato.

"Take that back!"

"Cannot. Because I don't wanna be with you anymore."

Suddenly Kavin stopped. He was confused and shocked. Nervous.

"What do you mean?"

"I want to end it Kavin."

"Oh- so you moved on? Congratulations."

"Who said about moving on? And why are you crying? I haven't even finished what I said." Thyme smiled and started wiping Kavin's tears.

"But you said-"

"I wanna be together. For real this time. Because am I  love with you."

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Last chapter :]

Also small mention of pregnancy! Just a CW if anybody is uncomfortable!
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"Is there anything for schedule or am I done for the day?"

"Nope sir. You just have to do some paperwork and you are done for the day!"

Thyme nodded his head and shooed his assistant away. His father gave him the CEO position and he's been working hard maintaining the company.

Yes, it's been two years since he became the CEO. It's been two years when he said 'I love you' to Kavin.

Thyme grabs the paperwork and schemes over at it. He can probably finish this soon and go take a rest. He's just absolutely tired.

Someone knocked on the door and Thyme allowed whoever that is.

"How is my favorite person doing?!"

"Oh god."

"What? You're not happy that am here?"

"No, because am frustrated with my work MJ." Thyme stated and gave a small smile to MJ. MJ just shrugs his shoulder and makes his way to Thyme.

"If there's anything you need, then you can tell me you know. Don't stress yourself." MJ and rubbed Thyme's shoulders.

"I know. It's been two years though. How's Prim?" Thyme asked. He trusted MJ and he could say anything to him. Even if it's for help.

"Sick. Pregnancy is a hard thing you know?" MJ stated and took a deep breath. Prim and him married a year ago, and just last month he found out that he's going to be a dad.

"Oh yea. Congratulations once again. I hope you don't accidentally drop your kid. Can't believe Prim married a doofus like you." Thyme chuckled lighty and scribbled down on the paper.

MJ scoffed. "First it was him, and now you are bullying me. What do you both get from it?"

"Friendship, happiness."

"Yea right. Bullying someone should give you guilt."

"But you are our best friend. And am gonna be an uncle. Am gonna buy your kid so much stuff that you can't even imagine!"

Both men chuckled and Thyme was on his last paper.

"So how are you and him?"

"Pretty good."

"When are you engaging though? You know you have brought the ring, and you haven't even proposed yet?"

"I think on our anniversary? But soon. He feels my heart up you know? The once sorrow heart of mind was replaced with love and joy. All thanks to him."

"All thanks to my best friend."

"Also I haven't even talked to Ren. Where the hell is he?" Thyme said and looked up to meet MJ's eye's, as he signed the last paper.

"You want me to call him? Pretty sure it's morning for them."

Thyme reached out and grabbed his IPad. He quickly went to contacts and searched for Ren's number. He found and pressed the face time option.

Some seconds later, the call was picked up and Ren was sitting outside, adjusting his phone so that he can talk.

"Ren!" Thyme and MJ exclaimed, which caused Ren to laugh.

"How are you both. Am pretty sure it's night for you."

"It is. And good morning to you." Thyme said with a smile.

"Thanks Thyme, good day to both of you. How's everything going on?"

"Well MJ is stressed, being a father is hard."

"Ok am not stressed-"

"Don't lie to me. Even though we haven't met in years, doesn't mean I forgot how you lied."

The three of them broke out of laughter and happily chatted about their life and some memories they shared.

Everything was great.

——

Thyme got off his car and closed it. He quickly made his way to the lift and pressed his usual button. He grabbed his tie and stressed it, loosening it.

The door opened. He walks in and was met by his home. He looks around to see a sign of him but he was confused as where he was.

He went over the living room area and nobody was even there. Kitchen? Nope. Backyard? Nope.

Maybe he slept?

"Kavin?"

He took off his suit and placed it on the sofa, and quickly walked up using the staircase, and went to their bedroom area.

He opened the door and was met by Kavin peacefully sleeping. His smooth milky skin reflecting die to the moonlight. This is something Thyme sees before he dozes off to another world.

He sat beside Kavin and caressed his cheek gently. He was looking at him with pasion and love. But something caught his eyes.

On his hand, he wore a ring.

The same ring that Thyme bought for Kavin, for proposing.

Thyme just laughed quietly and interlocked their hands.

"You know, you are sleeping but I wanted to say this to you, because I cannot be this cheesy with you when you are awake.

Two years ago, you accepted me as your boyfriend, and am so glad that we have made it this far. There was so many downfalls in our relationship, but you trusted me. You trusted me on holding on, and I can't believe it worked.

It's you Kavin.

It's always you. It was you along the start.

My love for you from the start. When we were kids.

It's you."