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Gojo sigh as he unlocked the apartment door. He walked inside and shut the door before took off his shoes. It's quiet inside, too quiet for Gojo liking. He sighs once again, wondering what the ex-owner of this apartment gonna think if he sees him like this. It's been like what, almost a year since the owner was gone. Gojo often visits the apartment to clean it even when nobody uses it. Even Nanami already dead. The silver-haired man will not be able to shook off the graphic image of half-body Nanami on the Jujutsu tech morgue. It's gonna haunt him forever.
Nobody has ever seen Gojo this vulnerable before. He took off his blindfold as he took in the scenery with his six eyes. There's a lot of dust on top of every piece of furniture so he took the cleaning equipment on the closet near the bathroom. Once Shoko and Utahime offered him to help clean up Nanami's apartment, but Gojo straight up declined. He knows what they meant by 'cleaning', they want to take all Nanami's items and ship them to his family.
But Gojo wants to keep everything. He wants to keep the apartment as if the owner still alive. He wants to keep the memory he had in this apartment. So he keeps it, he paid the bills every month. He cleans it up regularly, even sometimes he sleeps in it when he couldn't contain his sorrow.
He never had the luxury to mourn. Even after he learned about Nanami's death, he immediately got a mission abroad. The higher-ups think if he keeps him busy he'll forget about the Shibuya incident. But in the end, Gojo still a human. He still had emotions. He still can feel guilt and sorrow.
Gojo finished cleaning the apartment an hour later and put all the cleaning equipment back in its place. He sits down on the couch, staring at the empty kitchen and living room. It's still too quiet. The silver-haired man then put his attention to the calendar hanging on the wall. It's Nanami's birthday today. Gojo remembers two years ago he shows up at Nanami's place after his mission with a small birthday cake in his hands.
At first, Nanami reluctant to let him inside, but he insisted to accompany his old friend on his birthday. Gojo always does this on the blond man's birthday since if he doesn't do it, the special day just gonna passed without much of a thought.
Nanami also does the same to him since the silver-haired man's birthday comes in the last month of the year. Gojo remembers when Nanami invited him over and realized the blond already prepared a small celebration for him. It's just a small gesture- Nanami once said but Gojo just says that it's his best birthday in years.
The silver-haired man hung his head low at the memories. He missed his old friend so much. if he had another chance, he wants to stop being a coward and confess to him. But he knows there's no other chance. He never hears anyone can revive someone who already dead. Well, he heard of one person but Toji already killed her.
"Don't hang your head so low Satoru, it doesn't suit you." Gojo immediately perks up at the voice but quickly got covered by the alarm ringing on his head. It's Nanami's voice. But he's dead. The silver-haired man quickly stands up and turns around, only to see Nanami standing in front of him, no injuries could be found.
"Hey, it's been a while," Nanami smiled softly, a blue aura surrounds him and Gojo immediately know, Nanami is a curse.
"How did you-" Gojo raises his right hand to exorcise the cursed spirit, but he stops. It took Nanami's form, he can't let him go a second time. He can't, after wishing Nanami would come back for almost a year now.
"Everyone- especially your grief and sorrow give me strength to keeps me, well not me as in my soul but my curse alive, yours is so strong that gives me the ability to talk," Nanami gives him a sad smile and sits down on the couch, in front of the silver-haired man.
"You have to let me go Satoru," Nanami looks up to him, his feature softens. Gojo has never seen Nanami like this again, not after Haibara Yuu's death. Gojo extends his hands, if Nanami indeed a curse, he supposed to be able to touch him, just like other curses he fights. And he did, he can touch Nanami. Gojo almost cried then, if Nanami didn't take his hand and gently hold it.
"I know you're in pain Satoru, seeing so many death of innocent people, and I assume my dead body, but you have to move on, you have to exorcise me," Gojo shook his head and hugs Nanami in front of him. Gojo doesn't believe in gods- hell even back then he had a god complex because of his unlimited power, but then again he still a human, this is either a Gods blessing giving him a second chance to confess or a curse so he can 'kill' his old friend the second time.
But Gojo didn't exorcise Nanami that day. He refuses and Nanami can only sigh in defeat. It's not like he can exorcise himself anyway.
Gojo lives his life, outside he pretends everything is okay and he's already moving on. But then when he visited Nanami's apartment he changes. He clings to Nanami's curse all the time, he doesn't let the curse out of his sight. Nanami can only wait, wait for Gojo to learn how to let him go. But the day never came. Gojo keeps him, for another year. Once Nanami tried to talk to Gojo to exorcise him again, but the silver-haired man refuses. He still can't get over Nanami's death.
"Satoru, wake up," Nanami shook the sleeping silver-haired man on his bed. Nanami sighed in frustration, he feels like Gojo keeps him just so he can have a walking alarm and housewife right now since he always cooks and cleans for the strongest jujutsu sorcerers. The sleeping man stirred on his sleep, slowly opening his beautiful blue eyes. The blond man greeted by a sleepy smile from Gojo.
"Morning Nanami~" Gojo grinned and Nanami sigh again.
"Why are you still keep me here? why don't you exorcise me already? It's your job to exorcise cursed spirit," Nanami put his hands on his hips, looks like he's not happy with Gojo's decision.
"Why? because I love you!" both of the men freeze. Gojo couldn't believe he just accidentally confessed while Nanami surprised by his old friend's feelings.
"Nanami-"
"...you loved me? why? why didn't you confess sooner?" Nanami sits on the edge of the bed, his cold fingers slowly entangle themselves to Gojo's.
"I-" Nanami bit his lips before he takes a deep breath. "I also had the same feelings for you," the silver-haired man's body moved by itself, he pinned down the blond man under him. The latter didn't seem surprised by the sudden movement, he just stares at Gojo's beautiful blue eyes.
"So please, move on from me Satoru, I want you to move on," Nanami's cold hands hold Gojo's cheek gently, his soft sad smile stays on his lips. If only he didn't die back then, he would have a happy but annoying life with this man. The blond man kissed Gojo's lips softly before the silver-haired man started to tear up.
"Let me go Satoru, I always loved you," Nanami brush off the tears trailing down the strongest sorcerer's cheeks gently as Gojo kissed him again.
"I love you Nanami, thank you for everything," Gojo takes a look at Nanami's smiling face for the last time before he does a slicing motion with his right hand, exorcising Nanami successfully. The blond mouthed 'I love you too' as his curse spirit slowly disintegrated like dandelion seeds carried by the wind.
"I always love you,"