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Loving and fighting
Accusing, denying
I can't imagine a world with you gone
The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of
I'd be so lost if you left me alone
It was hard to accompany phil every day through his phases when he was not well. Always hoping he'd still be atment next to her the next morning when she woke up wrapped in his arms and listening to her favorite sound his beating heart. Every day they have discussions and she was so tired of it. She thought about ending her life just like him selfishly. Because her heart broke on him as much as it healed.
In his arms she felt no emotion except sadness and pain, even exceeding the feeling of love. "I'm sorry" "Melinda I'm so sorry" Melinda cried and sobbed, repeating the same phrases "stay with me". "don't leave me." "Why don't you give me some changse.... to love you Phillip?" or "my soul will go with you." In the beginning they were nice days but after the one time he almost left forever.
She was so afraid when he was with her that he would suddenly fall over and when he couldn't be there the same thing would happen.
The first days were really picture book perfect, she always wore clothes and they kissed as often as they could and he never missed a chance to tell her how much he loved her and that he was sorry but that didn't stop her pain from growing and growing. One night she cried so much he woke up from it and tried everything he could but it didn't stop he was afraid she would dry up so much she cried for hours. He told her "Melinda everything is happening as it should and we will always be together I am always in your heart and I love you you are My whole world. It hurts me to see you cry." She just screamed at him "you wouldn't have sacrificed yourself if you loved me so much." Whenever she said this, he brushed aside a few of her hair and began to move his lips all over herher body, kissing her everywhere as proof of his love. Melinda always went for it because having sex with him became a routine every damn night when she cried and couldn't pull herself together.
But at some point it didn't helped her any more cause if She was losing him She would never feel it again so She started to hate the feeling of being loved.
One day in their quarrel, phil had a brief suspension of his heart and she promised never to leave him alone again, to always stay by his side and follow him in the last day of both their lives, because without him there was nothing.
You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I break through
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"?
She couldn't take it anymore, it had been two months since Daisy said his last days were coming and it was killing her. She was refusing to eat and barely looked at him. It hurt her, but she couldn't do it every day. So she took her sleeping pills and painkillers, which together would surely be enough. She went to him, sat down on his lap and kissed him goodbye, but told him nothing of her plan. She had tears in her eyes because she knew he would be deeply affected by her actions. she would see him again on the other side "i love you never forget melinda" she simply nodded and went into the shared bathroom to take a bath swallowed the medication and dismantled her razor while all the beautiful memories came up she briefly doubted her actions but did not change her plan except to write a goodbye letter. Stepping into the bathtub, she clenched her teeth as the drugs made her tired and the cold metal brushed her forearms against her soft skin.
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
He knelt next to the bathtub and cried so much he could barely catch his breath let alone stand up he didn't know it was bothering her so much for the first time he understood why he was such a selfish asshole.The Walter was deep red.
Long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Driving a nightmare I can't escape from
When he got her out of the bathtub, he carried her while her wet, sucked-through body made him feel quite desperate. He informed Daisy that he needed help with may and dressed her so far, and stopped the bleeding and began to revive her.He had never been so out of himself.
So with fear and so helpless.
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fading
Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones
They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
They pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming, "please don't leave me"?
"Nobody could have foreseen this, Coulson, it's not your fault". He laughs lightly and sarcastically. "Of course it's my fault what are you talking about daisy no one is more to blame than me for this if I'm not the only one to blame for her suicide attempt. Daisy we ... " He cried
"We fought every time and once she said she will never leave my side and will follow me everywhere, I should have checked it out daisy don't you understand?! She couldn't live without me. Oh god what have I done?" Suddenly he fell over "COULSON!!!!" "Quick help he's fainted."
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
''Don't give up yet Coulson, May needs you when she wakes up'' She whispered to herself.
"Coulson?"
May started to cry ''please just let me sleep in peace I just want to be with him"
As if both of them were spiritually connected, Coulson woke up and daisy understood that they were soul mates and couldn't live without each other.
"Coulson?"
"May?"
"Why am I still alive?"
A tear ran down Coulson's face as well as May's and Daisy just covered her mouth and suppressed any sobbing sound.
I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I just wanna hear you
Saying baby, let's go home
Let's go home
I just wanna take you home
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Jemma came into the room
"daisy i need you for a minute "
''I hope you can manage''
"Daisy we have a little problem"
"I think so." "What does it have to do with?''
"May is pregnant, Daisy"
Daisy choked.
"And how are we supposed to tell them that? May was about to take her own life, do you think after what she went through with Bahrain she would want to take responsibility for another life? And Coulson, well, he probably won't get to know his child, as much as I feel sorry for him. " Jemma took a deep breath.
"Pregnancy at May's age is a high risk anyway I just wanted to inform you."
"Pregnancy at May's age is a high risk anyway I just wanted to inform you." "Oh god ______________________________________ " coulson " "i love you "
"Melinda qiaolian may"
she smiled at the full mention of her name "You mean a lot to me, and that's why everyone has to go on living without me."
"Phil, if I have to live, I have to live with you, because we need you."
"Daisy can handle herself when she has you.
"No, I don't mean Daisy." She put her hand on her stomach.
"Phil, we never used protection."
"Oh, my God, Melinda, I'm so sorry. I'm such an idiot."
"Don't you blame me coulson? I was going to kill myself and our child please ... say something"
"I would never blame you for wanting to do that. It's my fault. I'm the reason you did it in the first place.
"What's going on, Phil? What are you doing, Coulson... COULSON''? "HE CAN'T BREATHE, DAISY." Everyone came into the room and the doctors revived Coulson.''
Jemma had invented something that had to be inserted directly into his heart and then it would stop beating for a short time and the chances were 50-50 that it would start beating again without any help, but then you could do a blood transfusion without any danger.
This would extend his life by almost half a year. ____________________________________