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“hey purp. it’s me- it’s tommy. it’s been a long week you know? i haven’t been out of the house in a while. i think tubbo and ranboo are starting to get worried- i haven’t spoken to them in a while. they keep coming around and asking if they can talk to me but i don’t think i’m ready to face them. wilbur says i should just open up to them already. maybe he’s right. i miss you purp. talk to you soon.”
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“hi purpled. it’s uh- it’s me again. it’s tommy. ranboo and tubbo came back earlier. i really thought about talking to them again- i really did i promise- i just couldn’t. i left my room earlier. went down to the kitchen to get some food. tech was sitting at the table, he looked kind of surprised to see me. there was some peach tea left in the pantry that you left last time you were over here. i couldn’t bring myself to move it even thought it was expired. maybe one day i will. i don’t know. talk to you later purp.”
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“hi again. it’s tommy. not like anyone else leaves you voicemails. at least i think i’m the only one, i don’t know. i heard tubbo and ranboo again today. wilbur let them in this time. they tried to talk to me through the door. they told me it wasn’t my fault. they’re just saying that to make me feel better. anyways, phil says that i need to start coming down for family dinner again. i guess he’s right. anyways i gotta go, talk to you later purp.”
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“hey purp. it’s tommy. wilbur let tubbo and ranboo in again. they stood outside my door and tried to talk to me again. i wanted to see them. but i couldn’t bring myself to open the door. tubbo said the people at school are worried about me. it doesn’t really matter though, no one at school really cared about me besides you and tubbo and ranboo. next time i’m going to let them in. probably. talk to you later purp.”
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“hey uh- hey purpled. it’s ranboo. i went to the store today. they had your favorite ice cream on sale. made me think of you. i almost bought it before i remembered. god i- i miss you so much. it’s been hard on tommy, you know. he thinks everything was his fault. he blames himself. me and tubbo keep trying to visit him but he won’t let us in. everything is so… different now. and i don’t like the change. i hate that tommy blames himself. everyone should just blame me. everything was my fault after all. i miss you gray. talk to you later.”
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“hey purp. ranboo and tubbo stopped by again. they sat outside the door and were really shocked when i let them in. the first thing tubbo did was give me a big hug- ranboo joined in too, for once. it felt empty though, without you there. it was nice though. we all started crying eventually. seeing them again was really nice, i’ll admit. still feels weird without you though. phil says i need to go back to school soon otherwise i’ll have to redo the year. at least tubbo and ranboo will still be there. talk to you later purpled.”
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“hey purp, its tubbo. i know calling you isnt gonna do anything, but i just wanted to, ya know? i miss you. we- we all do. tommy came back to school today. everyone has been walking on eggshells around us. ranboo is a mess too, but he hides it well. i can tell he blames himself though, tommy does too. they shouldn’t, after all it was my idea to go through the woods in the first place. i found one of your hoodies in my room this morning. not gonna lie i cried. i miss you so much purp. i wish you could come back. talk to you later purpled.”
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“hey purp, its ranboo. again. i didnt think i’d call you again after the first time but uh, apparently all of us have been doing it. wilbur says it’s a good thing...so….yeah. i saw your brother earlier. he’s even more of a mess than tommy is. he’s been wearing your hoodies instead of his green ones. oh! uh- well- remember how you lost your glasses a few days before... everything that happened? i found them. they were on my bookshelf. i gave them to dream, figured he’d want them. I miss you. talk to you soon.”
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“hey- its uh… its tommy. again. been a while hasnt it? it’s only been a few days i know. me, tubbo, and ranboo watched into the spiderverse again. that was always your favorite movie, wasnt it? it wasnt the same without you there. we all cried again. even ranboo. i- purp i miss you so much. i know you’re gone- fuck, i saw you fall with my own two eyes, ranboo and tubbo did too. i just cant believe you’re actually….gone. i miss you so fucking much. i wish you were here. i probably wont call again- fuck what wilbur says about ‘healing’. it hurts too much to hear your voice on the voicemail message. bye purp. i miss you.”
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“hi again purp. its tubbo again. school is slowly going back to normal- everyone else is forgetting about you. well, except me, ranboo and tommy. tommy is moving on- or trying to at least. he’s slowly getting back to how he was. its nice seeing him back to some semblance of normal, seeing him so… low energy…. was really fucking strange. we all miss you so goddamn much. every time i close my eyes i still see you falling over the railing. we’ve all changed the way we walk to school to avoid seeing the forest. i dont think i’ll ever be able to walk by there again. anyways, i still have homework i need to finish. later, purp.”
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“hey. its uh- its ranboo. purp, no matter how i try i just- that night just replays in my mind over and over. i keep thinking i could’ve caught you. i know deep down it was too late but- i just- i should’ve told tubbo it was no big deal if i got home late and we didn’t have to go through the woods. i was the one right behind you. i should’ve noticed the plank was sticking up. i should’ve reacted sooner maybe then i could- i couldve saved you. every time i close my eyes i see you falling off the bridge, i haven’t slept since you- since you- you- the nightmares come every night. i miss you purp. i’m sorry i let you die.”
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“hey again, its tubbo. you know, i just cant get over it. everything that happened was my fault. i was the one that suggested we go through the forest shortcut. i knew that bridge wasnt safe. but i said we should anyways. im so fucking sorry purp. i think i’m the only one thats still leaving you these voicemails. tommy and ranboo are starting to heal- but im here stuck in that moment on the bridge. we all heard your last words. i know what you said. but- but purp please- you said not to blame myself- you said it wasnt my fault but it- it- it was my fault purp, theres nothing i can do. i wish it had been me instead i wish you were still here i wish that i was the one that fell off that bridge and you were still- still- still alive. i know the last thing you ever said but i’m sorry purp. i cant accept it.”
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“hey pups. Its dream. i know you’ll never hear this, but i just wanted to say something, you know? your friends are healing. The three of them started going to therapy for the trauma. they’re starting to accept life without you. And- and im not saying thats a bad thing its great they’re able to move on i just- why did you have to leave pups? you- you were all i had. didnt we promise to never leave eachother? we promised to stick together dont you remember? back when we first left? i miss you. talk to you later pups.”
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“hey pups. its dream again. i talked to dad the other day. had to tell him you were- he told me it was my fault for taking you and running. your room is the same as it was when you left that morning i- i cant bring myself to move anything. mom came over the other day. apparently she left dad after i took you. she just knocked on the door one day and we both cried. i gave her one of your hoodies. i’ve started talking to her again. her girlfriend niki is nice. she brought me muffins. they were peach flavored- peach was- it was always your favorite. the muffins made me think of you. i miss you so goddamn much pups. talk to you later.”
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“hey there pups. its dream. ranboo tubbo and tommy came over today. they asked if they could take one last look around your room. i said sure. i let ranboo take your skateboard- i know you were teaching him. its what you wouldve wanted, right? i keep calling out to you occasionally. i called you down for dinner last night becuase i forgot you were…. i forgot you were dead. It’ll never be the same without you pups. But i’m going to try to learn how to live without you. I miss you grayson. always will. but i have to move on. i love you. goodbye pups.”
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one year later
it was raining as the car pulled onto the gravel driveway.
dream thought it was fitting, even if a bit cliche.
he pulled into the parking space, the hoodie he was wearing starting to feel slightly uncomfortable.
he turned around, looking at the three teenagers in the backseat.
they had all crammed in his car for the trip, as it was easier that driving separately.
dream slid out of the front seat, making his way through the grassy field.
he continued walking. He was soaking wet, but dream didnt care.
he stopped in the shade of a large oak tree, the stone underneath seeming both new an old, but foreign all the same.
the grave displayed a familiar name.
grayson purpled wastaken
2003 - 2021
a great brother and friend, gone too soon.
the three others stopped in the grass behind dream, silently paying respects to their friend.
the one thing dream hated was that he wasnt there for his brother when he died.
he hadnt been there to hear his last words.
the three others had though.
they had seen purpled as he fell, and heard him as he whispered:
“it isnt your fault.”