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Tuesday 4/21 13:48
hitoshi: [gif]
izuku: you’re the worst
hitoshi: [gif]
izuku: [gif]
hitoshi: [gif]
izuku: love you too, babe
Tuesday 4/21 20:11
izuku: I’m going to stop by the store on my way home, have everything you need for dinner?
hitoshi: I just started the curry, I’m good on that
hitoshi: if I ask you to get coffee, will you do it right or will you bring home the shitty pre-ground stuff again?
izuku: toshi I did that ONCE and it was YEARS AGO
hitoshi: I don’t care, it was traumatizing
izuku: I will bring you coffee
izuku: the red bag, light roast, whole bean
hitoshi: and ice cream
izuku: and ice cream
hitoshi: <3
Wednesday 4/22 16:10
izuku: hey mom wants to know if we’ll bring yagi over for dinner this weekend
hitoshi: you know I need my Inko time. Yagi’s ok too I guess :P
izuku: :)
izuku: Saturday?
hitoshi: that’s fine
hitoshi: is she going to ask when we’re getting married again because I cannot handle that
izuku: I talked to her about it after last time, she knows to leave it alone
hitoshi: I know she means well, but it’s just not something I want and I wish that was more socially acceptable, you know? She’s so good about everything else
izuku: I know babe, we’re on the same page. You don’t have to explain yourself to me
izuku: for her part I don’t think she’s meaning to criticize, she just gets really excited about events and ceremonies and stuff, and she likes the idea of you being legally a part of the family
izuku: but you’ve been family since high school, you know that
hitoshi: I know. I’m not mad, I love her, she’s basically been my mom for 7 years
hitoshi: I just never know how to respond and it makes things awkward
izuku: last time I talked to her about it I think I got through to her
izuku: I had to frame it like a queer thing which I don’t love, but I think it helped her see how it was harmful to keep bringing it up
hitoshi: I didn’t mean to get all into this, I’m looking forward to dinner regardless
hitoshi: maybe we can talk her into playing betrayal
izuku: she loved it last time, we should definitely
izuku: yagi will absolutely not get it but you know he’ll be a good sport
hitoshi: I have to get ready for patrol, talk later
izuku: <3
Tuesday 4/28 21:49
izuku: be safe tonight
izuku: please
hitoshi: babe, I know you’re worried, but this is just another mission
izuku: this guy is dangerous, toshi, he’s put two heroes in critical condition already
hitoshi: izu. we’re heroes. every villain is dangerous
hitoshi: I might not fight the big bads on tv like you do, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what I’m doing
izuku: that’s not what I meant
izuku: sorry
izuku: I’m just having an anxious day
izuku: I wish you didn’t have to go in alone
hitoshi: you know going alone gives us the best chance. He doesn’t know me, he doesn’t know my quirk. That makes it safer, not riskier. It’s a good thing
hitoshi: let’s watch that movie when I get back tonight. I’ll let you do my nails if you want
izuku: that sounds nice <3
hitoshi: I’ll be safe, I promise
izuku: love you
hitoshi: <3
Wednesday 4/29 02:36
izuku: hey I know you probably have paperwork and stuff, just let me know when you’re safe
Wednesday 4/29 03:11
izuku: I’m not freaking out, just
izuku: it’s past when you were supposed to check in
izuku: I haven’t heard from your agency. Let me know you’re safe
(Calling Toshi)
(Call not answered)
izuku: I’m going to call the agency, idc if you’re mad, I just need to know you’re safe
Wednesday 4/29 03:43
izuku: what the fuck toshi
izuku: where are you
(Calling Toshi)
(Call not answered)
Friday 5/01 09:01
izuku: hey babe
izuku: I know the police have your phone, I just need this
izuku: i know the stats for captured heroes, but i’m not giving up on you, okay?
izuku: I know youre hanging on, so keep hanging on and we’ll come get you
izuku: well, they won’t let me on the mission. i’m not happy but I get it
izuku: kyoka and denki are going in for me, so when you see them, that’s me coming to get you
izuku: aizawa-sensei is going to be there too, you’re in good hands
izuku: when you get back we’re going to watch that movie and I’m going to paint your nails
izuku: I love you so much <3
Saturday 5/09 11:03
izuku: i just put you in the ground
izuku: fuck you for making me do this
izuku: sorry
izuku: I didn’t mean that
izuku: kyoka’s service is tomorrow. Is it bad if I don’t go? I don’t think I can take it
izuku: I hope you don’t mind being in the midoriya family grave bc you’re stuck with us now
izuku: i’m starting to get your humor more now
izuku: better late than never amirite
izuku: I keep thinking this is a nightmare
izuku: please come back
Wednesday 5/20 17:28
izuku: they caught him and I don’t even care
izuku: the media is making a big thing about kyoka’s death, “earjack’s sacrifice” blah blah blah
izuku: I hate that this is making me resent her because that’s my friend and she’s dead but all I am is angry
izuku: none of this is fair to denki. He won’t look at me. honestly i can't look at him either
izuku: why wasn't i there
izuku: i'm supposed to be a hero, and i wasn't there
izuku: what kind of fucking hero am i
izuku: I know you were gone before they got there but I can’t stop thinking, maybe if I had gone with them
izuku: I know it doesn’t make sense
izuku: sensei is blaming himself as usual and I hate it, so fucking selfish
izuku: I don’t mean that
izuku: no one even knows your name but you gave everything
izuku: without you this guy would still be out there
izuku: I know you chose to go underground and I know we’re not in it for the glory but fuck, you deserve a little
izuku: everyone’s acting like I’m a fucking time bomb
izuku: I guess maybe I am
izuku: I almost hit shoto, like, bad
izuku: he found out I’ve been texting you and he’s making me stop
izuku: “not healthy coping mechanism” maybe I don’t want to be healthy, fuck him
izuku: I’m going to stay with yagi for a while
izuku: I miss you so much babe
Wednesday 7/01 18:23
izuku: today is hard
izuku: my therapist says it’s okay to text you every once in a while as long as I’m not getting lost in it
izuku: I don’t know what that means
izuku: I’m always lost
izuku: I feel like I’m drowning in it
Sunday 7/19 20:05
izuku: my therapist said it’s okay to be angry but it makes me feel like a monster
izuku: but she said it might help, so
izuku: I love you, before anything else
izuku: but
izuku: I feel betrayed
izuku: how could you do this to me
izuku: how could you leave me like this, after everything
izuku: you said you would be careful
izuku: of course it’s not your fault, it’s that fucking bastard
izuku: and of course he’s still alive and in prison and I know it makes me a bad person but I wish he was dead
izuku: I would give anything to have you back
izuku: sometimes i think i don’t want to be here without you
izuku: yagi helped me with that, a little
izuku: i told him I didn’t feel that way anymore but I think he knows I’m lying
izuku: I wouldn’t do it though. I know you’d be mad, I know it wouldn’t bring you back
izuku: I know this is part of being a hero and it’s what we signed up for when we got together
izuku: but I would give anything to have you back
izuku: I’m angry that you died and I’m angry that we chose this life and I’m angry that I still don’t regret it
izuku: it’s not fair that I have to keep going without you
Saturday 8/15 14:36
izuku: I found a stray cat today. Gonna keep it and name it josh, just for you
izuku: [picture attached]
Tuesday 10/27 13:36
izuku: [gif]
izuku: oh
Tuesday 10/27 13:58
izuku: love you babe
Thursday 3/18 18:09
izuku: yagis gone
izuku: FUCK
izuku: i can’t do this toshi, i cant
izuku: come back
izuku: please come back
izuku: i need you here for this
izuku: i cant breathe and I dont want to and i jst miss you adn fucking yagi
izuku: im so tired of this
Sunday 4/28 06:18
izuku: I can’t believe it’s been a year
izuku: I feel so guilty that I’ve let this much time pass, that I’m okay
izuku: I mean, I’m not okay, not by a long shot
izuku: but sometimes I stop in the middle of the store and I’m like, how am I buying groceries right now when my life ended a year ago?
izuku: but sometimes I’m so tired I forget how broken im supposed to feel
izuku: and that’s not a relief
izuku: josh says hi
izuku: [picture attached]
Monday 06/14 19:59
izuku: it’s weird
izuku: I’m not okay and I don’t know when I will be
izuku: but something about losing yagi has helped me let go of my anger
izuku: when I was staying with him, we talked a lot about grief
izuku: he opened up about a lot of stuff, about nighteye especially
izuku: he told me not to let my grief ruin my love
izuku: and I kind of feel like I’ve been doing that
izuku: I’m not angry at you, I never really was
izuku: I think you’d know that
izuku: he would hate if I was angry about his death, and you would hate that I’m angry about yours
izuku: so, I’m not okay
izuku: but I’m not going to let it destroy me anymore