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Bonnie is back after her time in the Prison World and it looks like no one really misses her that badly. Everyone has moved on with their lives during her absence and even Damon is back with Elena again. (There is something about the latter that unsettles her. A twinge in the heart that she doesn't want to acknowledge.)
During their time in the Prison World, Bonnie and Damon may have argued a lot, but there are moments when they simply gravitate towards each other. Oftentimes they seek each other out just to assure themselves that they aren't alone in that remote world or just simply alleviate the untold fear of suddenly finding each other gone. They didn't talk about it but they both knew that they were afraid of either one of them suddenly disappearing without warning.
In the Prison World, Bonnie hated losing sight of Damon and the elder Salvatore brother felt the same with her. So they kept each other close. Neither leaving each other's side if it is absolutely necessary. That all changed when Bonnie found herself left behind and she nearly gave up until she saw Damon's note to go to Nova Scotia.
If it wasn't for Damon, Bonnie knew that she would have killed herself in that world.
Now, she is back in the real world and Bonnie feels strange.
She has gotten used to Damon's presence near her so it feels odd not to see him nearby. For this reason, Bonnie ends up visiting the Salvatore Boarding House often, but it feels all the more awkward when Elena is there to witness her friendship with Damon.
"It's really weird to see the two of you acting so friendly...because I can still remember the time when Bonnie hated your guts, Damon," Elena remarked. "But I'm also glad that you two sorted out your differences when you were both in the Prison World."
Seeing Damon with Elena again, affects Bonnie more than she realizes. So she decides right then and there to stop visiting Damon, even though it feels like tearing a piece of herself.
She misses Damon. A lot.
And Bonnie doesn't know what to make of that...
Yet this feeling persists for days and even weeks that Bonnie spends more time chatting or texting Damon when she can't see him.
Most often than not, she ends up composing text messages to him that are left unsent.
However, Bonnie doesn't know that she isn't the only one who is doing it.
To leave some words unspoken or unsent....
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TEXT MESSAGES
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Damon Salvatore: Hey, Bonbon you awake?
Bonnie Bennett: Yeah, I am.
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Damon Salvatore: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐𝟑 𝐏𝐌) You know...I hate texting you like this... It often reminds me how you are no longer within reach, where we can just talk when we need to...
Damon Salvatore: What are you doing right now?
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Bonnie Bennett: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐5 𝐏𝐌) Missing you. All I've been doing is missing you ever since I came back...and I really can't be with you for long. Not with Elena around...I really miss you D. I wish I can be near you like we used to in the Prison World. But I can't be around you often because people will wonder and I don't want to upset Elena...
Bonnie Bennett: Nothing really. Just thinking...
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Damon Salvatore: What are you thinking?
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Bonnie Bennett: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐6 𝐏𝐌) You...and about the things that happened in the Prison World. And what could have been...
Bonnie Bennett: A lot of things.
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Damon Salvatore: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐7 𝐏𝐌) I've been thinking a lot of things too, Bonbon...Seeing you again made me realize how much I miss your adorable crooked smile and those bewitching green eyes of yours...And you know...the first day I came back to the real world, Bon...you have no idea how I became so worried for leaving you behind. I just...I can't even describe how I feel, where I spent most of my time obsessing over getting you back...I just - just don't do that to me again Bonbon...don't make me watch you sacrifice your life to save me or the others. Don't do that again...please.. Watching you disappear from my sight feels like getting myself torn in half...
Damon Salvatore: Do you want to talk about it?
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Bonnie Bennett: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐8 𝐏𝐌) I wish I can, Damon. I want to tell you a lot of things...the truth - everything I feel right now. But most of all, I wish you were here with me... It feels strange to be back, to see you again but unable to be near you like I use to...and if I do, I know it will just complicate things with you and Elena...I feel terrible right now too...I already know that Elena and Caroline always gets everything and I've accepted the fact that I am always the last resort or the last option to everything. So it's better this way...I will just keep my distance...even though it will be hard...and I'm just really tired...
Bonnie Bennett: No, I don't. And I am really tired Damon. Can we chat some other time? Coz I need to go to bed early. I have something to do in the morning.
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Damon Salvatore: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:𝟐9 𝐏𝐌) Please talk to me Bonnie...I know something is bothering you...
Damon Salvatore: Ok, if you say so Bonbon. I'll talk to you some other time then. Get some sleep princess.
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Bonnie Bennett: Good night, Damon.
Damon Salvatore: Night Bon.
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Damon Salvatore: (𝐔𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝟏𝟎:32 𝐏𝐌) I wish you would come see me again...because I feel like you are avoiding me...and I really miss you…
