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Know that I loved you so bad.
You weren’t sure where everything went wrong but you wish that there was some way you could have prevented it.
You don’t regret it, not at all.
I let you treat me like that.
You remember the nights that you’d sit with your best friend, Peter Parker on your fire escape and you’d just sit there, enjoying each other’s company.
You always left your window unlocked for him, you would help tend to his wounds and you’d cuddle all through the night.
Suddenly, it all changed. He stopped coming over, he was more distant and he got angry with you very easily.
What did you do to deserve that?
The echoes of the last words he said to you are burned into your memory like an eternal flame.
I was your willing accomplice, honey.
You could see the faint hint of regret in his face as he let those harsh words fall from his lips. However, he was too mad at you to even think to utter an apology.
So, he left you.
And I watched as you fled the scene.
You watched your best friend leave out the window. You sunk to the floor and cried as you clutched the hoodie, the one he gave you last week, close to you.
Your best friend and the love of your life had left you all alone.
Doe-eyed as you buried me.
How did you get to this point? Everything was going so well.
How could he forget the nights you stayed with him when he was upset?
You helped him through everything but he decided that he had enough.
One heart broke, four hands bloody.
You lied for him to help keep his secret identity safe. You helped patch up his wounds. You comforted him when he was doubting himself.
You stayed up late for him, waiting for him to crawl through your window. You lost sleep and worried yourself sick about him.
It didn’t seem to matter, he still left.
The things I did
Just so I could call you mine.
You can’t seem to understand how he could easily leave you after everything you’ve done for him.
He promised you that he’d be with you..forever. You didn’t realize how easily he could lie.
He found no use for you anymore.
The things you did.
He was your everything and you would still do anything for him. You would give up everything for him, if he asked you to.
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime.
He must have seen your friendship as a job that he’d keep until he decided that he wasn’t interested anymore.
Used me as an alibi.
You wonder if he thinks about your last fight. You think about it every second that you’re alive.
“I don’t need you anymore” was the last words he said to you.
I crossed my heart as you crossed the line.
You wish you could say that after the words slipped from his mouth, that you forgot about him.
You never did. You tried to get Peter back into your life, you made up excuses to your friends about why he wasn’t acknowledging your existence.
You tried to get him back.
And I defended you to all my friends.
You always find yourself sitting on your fire escape at night, hoping and hoping that he changed his mind.
You’re hoping to see flashes of red and white swinging from buildings.
You never do.
I wonder if you’re around
‘Cause you know that I’d do it all again.
You want to forget about Peter Parker but he was your moon and stars. He was the sunshine on your rainy days.
He was your person. You never thought that this pain would be caused by him.
It’s bittersweet to think about the damage that we’d do.
It’d be so much easier to hate him. This would be easier if you hated him but you don’t.
You fell for his chocolate brown eyes that could melt your heart with one look.
You fell for his charming smile that reminds you of fresh picked strawberries on a summer day.
You fell for his intoxicating laugh that consumed your entire body with love.
Most of all, you fell for his kind heart and that was your biggest mistake.
I say that I hate you with a smile on my face.
How could he hurt you so bad that you’d want to go through the pain again because its..him?
Oh, look what we became.
You never understood the pain of being in love until Peter Parker.
Well, I hope I was your favorite crime.
You hope that he knows that no matter what, you’ll always love him.
‘Cause baby you were mine.