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Rigby was laid down on his trampoline bed, looking up towards the ceiling. He sighs deeply

and turns over to his side, where he spots Mordecai in the similar position, awake as well.

“Hey.” Rigby starts, shooting him a sheepish smile.

“Hey.”

…

“Can’t sleep either?” Rigby asks softly.

“Yup..” “How long has it been, again?” “3 months, I think. Since the whole fight to save the universe.” 

Mordecai gets up, pulling the covers off of him and goes to the window. “Mordecai?” “C’mon dude.”

He opens the window, and steps outside onto the roof, and motions Rigby to follow. Rigby gets up and follows him outside the window.

—

“What time even is it?” “Late enough for Benson to chew us out for staying up late.” Mordecai jokes.

Rigby laughs quietly.

“At least we don’t work tomorrow.” “True.”

A moment of silence befalls them.

“Ugh, I hate this!” “What do you mean?” “Sometimes, things just.. get so awkward and weird. Not only us, with everyone!” “I think it’s because we’re processing it and trying to go back to normal with our lives. At least, that’s what Skips says.”

“We..” Rigby hesitates, “we shouldn’t have gone to space.. Otherwise, Pops would have still been here.”

A look of hurt flashes onto Mordecai’s face.

“You forgot about Anti Pops.” Rigby sighs.

“I know.. I just miss the guy.” “Me too.”

They’re both silent.

“So, you and Eileen huh?” Mordecai says, changing the subject.

“What about us?” “Well are you guys getting serious?”

He shrugs, but smiles a bit.

“Y-Yeah.. She’s been great. It’s been like a year since we’ve been together. Haven’t been this happy since forever!” Rigby nervously laughed.

Mordecai smiles at him, though a bit forced.

“Well, I’m happy for you dude. Who would’ve thought she’d go out with a loser like you.” “Hey!”

They both shared a laugh.

“Well, we should probably head back in. I want to get some sleep.” Mordecai says, yawning.

Rigby nods.

“Yeah, I have to go to Eileen’s tomorrow too!” “Oh.. you’re not going to be here?” “Oh right, sorry dude, I forgot to tell you-“ “It’s fine. Go and hang out with her.”

Mordecai enters through the window with Rigby following.

They both got into their beds

“Well, night dude.” “Good night.”

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Mordecai wakes up, and rubs his eyes. He looks at the trampoline bed, expecting Rigby to be there. He wasn’t.

Mordecai sighs and gets up.

‘Guess I know how he felt when I ditched him for C.J.’

He heads downstairs and sees Skips and Benson talking.

“Hey Mordecai.” “Oh hey Benson, why are you dressed up?”

Benson smirks.

“Oh well, I’m going out on a date with Pam tonight” “What?! You guys are back together!” “Wellll slowly getting to that, but yeah.” “I’m happy for you!”

Benson chuckles.

“What are you up to on your day off? Playing video games with Rigby, I presume?”

Mordecai cringes.

“Uh well.. Rigby went to Eileen’s place.” “Oh! Y’know it surprises me how much he’s changed. I guess he just needed to meet the right girl.”

“Hm.” Skips grunts in reply.

“Haha yeah, the only bad side of it is that he’ll be with her most of the time.” “Well why don’t you get back into dating then?” Mordecai rolls his eyes.

“Uhh I don’t think I’m ready yet, Benson.” “Fair enough. Well we gotta get a few things done, see ya later Mordecai.” Benson says as he and Skips walk away, leaving Mordecai alone.

He sighs and sits down on the couch.

He turns on the t.v and watches whatever was on.

—

Rigby was sitting next to Eileen, eating pizza.

“So,” Rigby's ears twitched at Eileen’s voice. “Have you thought about it?” Eileen asks.

“About?” “Rigby!” “I’m kidding!” 

Rigby looks down.

“IT’s just.. a lot to process.” “Rigby, if you’re not comfortable with moving in with me, then you can tell me.” Eileen places a hand on his shoulder. He stiffens.

“I know..” Eileen notices his struggle.

“Rigby?” “I just.. don’t think I’m ready to go onto like, the next level.”

Eileen lowers her gaze to the ground.

“I’m sorry, I just, I do like you! It’s just-“,

Rigby starts to visibly sweat.

“Eileen, I-I think we’re going too fast with this relationship. It’s not that I don’t like you, I just—Well, y'know with Benson up my case with work and Mordecai being my roommate and all and-“ Rigby begins to ramble.

Eileen sighs.

“I’m sorry I put you on the spot there, Rigby. I.. I wanted to see something.” “Huh?” “You don’t like me.”

Rigby freezes.

“Eileen don’t say that-“ “Just.. hear me out. Before we even went to space.. I noticed you weren’t really into it. Sure, at first we did lots of things as if we were a couple.. But after that.. It feels like the spark died.. if there even was one.”

Rigby opens his mouth to object but nothing comes out. He was speechless.

Eileen sighs again but gives him a sad smile.

“Thanks for uh-“

Before she even finishes, Rigby runs out of the house.

—

Mordecai is dozing off from watching T.V.

The door suddenly slams open, startling him.

“Holy-“ Rigby doesn’t stop to greet him and races to his room.

Mordecai, who had his hand clutched to his chest, sighed in annoyance.

“Could you not do that?! Jeez, you scared the crap outta me.”

Rigby doesn’t answer him, prompting him to follow after.

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Rigby’s P.O.V

No

No

No

Everything was just fine!!

Why did I have to ruin things like always?!

“Rigby?”

I gasped when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

“Dude, are you okay?” “AGH! Mordecai!” I yelled in surprise, before falling off my bed.

Mordecai catches me before I fall. 

“Are you okay?” “Yeah yeah, I’m fine. Or well, at least I was until you scared the crap outta me! What the hell man!”

Mordecai scoffs. 

“Well you scared the crap out of me! And you didn’t respond to me. You just ran to your room.”

I looked down but noticed Mordecai was still holding me.

Mordecai notices too, and pulls back.

“Yeah.. I uh.. I’m okay. Sorry for scaring you.” I said

“It’s.. fine. Wanna play some video games?” “Sure!”

I followed him downstairs to play video games.

—

I stared at the ceiling.

It was well over 12 in the morning.

I glanced over to Mordecai, who was asleep this time.

I sighed and remembered what Eileen said.

“Before we even went to space.. I noticed you weren’t really into it. Sure, at first we did lots of things as if we were a couple.. But after that.. It feels like the spark died.. if there even was one.”

I wanted to say something. Anything to say that it wasn’t true.

But.. She’s right.

Usually when breakups like this happen.. One of us should be crying or heartbroken. Like when Mordecai was dumped by C.J and Margaret. But.. I didn’t cry. I wasn’t heartbroken. 

And it's because I didn’t like her as my girlfriend.