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They say things will get easier
and I think that I believe them
They say that I can get through this
and I think that I believe them
They say that I can handle it on my own
and I think that I believe them
They say that it’s not my fault
and I think that I believe them
They say that one day I’ll heal
and I think that I believe them
But nights go by and I don’t sleep at all
Days go by and I don’t feel anything
I don’t feel anything but my heart
And it’s hollow where it’s not broken
And it’s beating is slowing
And my body is numbing
And my mind is closing in on itself
And I don’t know if I can survive it
My blood feels solid in my veins
My limbs are cold and stiff
And my eyes have burned since that day
And I don’t know if I can survive it
I forget the sound of my voice
Because I haven’t spoken in so long
There’s nothing that I have to say
Because I don’t want to talk to anyone but him
My throat is dry
My lips are chapped and bleeding
I’ve forgotten how to take care of myself
And I can’t seem to remember why I even should
They say that things will get easier
And I’m starting not to believe them
They say that I can get through this
And I’m starting not to believe them
They say that I can handle it on my own
And I’m starting not to believe them
They say that it’s not my fault
And I’m starting not to believe them
They say that one day I’ll heal
And I’m starting not to believe them