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to my love,
sweetheart,
deena,
i don't really know as to what i'm supposed to be writing or why i am even writing to you.
i just wanted to say that i can't imagine what you must be feeling right now or how you have been feeling these last few months ever since i said i was moving away and never wanted to see you again. that was unfair. it really was unfair and you didn't deserve that especially in the way that i said it and the way i've been acting towards you. you didn't deserve me to just drop this on you but i didn't really have no other choice deena... well... i did but i was too much of a coward to admit the truth, even after everything that we've been through.
i remember seeing you for the first time. your hair was tied up and you we're wearing these black boots with dark blue stripes on them. i told you that they we're pretty awesome and from then, we've been inseparable since.
deena, i want you to know that none of this is your fault or will ever be your fault. my mom had been suspicious of us ever since we started to date. she knew deep down that i wasn't going to want to be with anyone else which is why... once we moved, i began dating peter to 'prove' her wrong. but my heart never truly rested with him. me and my dad we're always close, he was the only person besides you, kate and simon that truly knew about us and we're accepting of it. that drove my mum off the edge. she didn't like the idea of my dad being okay with it. they had other problems but that was just the icing on the cake, hence why they divorced. i really meant it when i said i didn't have a choice, because i really didn't. one day i woke up and the next thing i knew my dad was gone and me and my mom were moving to sunnyvale.
i hate it so much here, i really do. i miss simon and kate and.. you.
i want my old life back.
i want you back.
i love you. no matter what you or i may say, we'll be together
forever.
love, sam.