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Sometimes Giving up crossed my mind but..
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘳𝘦
𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘦
The children will loss their guardian and i know that they will shed a lot of tears in my dead body but I'm their father guardian, It's my duty to raised them with happiness, I don't want them to waste their tears because of me.. It will make me really guilty.. I want to watch them grow with smile on their face and have a slacker life while watching them entering their puberty, maturing, growing up. I want to be with them while they are entering in that state, I'm their father guardian afterall.. So how could i give up? I don't want them to enter their adulthood without their father. How could i give up if their precious tears will be wasted? I will kill those bastard who will make them suffer and cry but if i'm the one who will make them shed their tears non stop, I will blame myself forever even in my afterline
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘮𝘦
𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥
Choi Han will lost his nephew friend, knowing Choi Han he will blame his self for not protecting me properly, Choi Han may be a vicious and strong but knowing that we are together in every fight, We are walking in the same path, A path for surviving and to have a peaceful lives, He will lost his only Korean friend, He still don't know the taste of the Korean Foods hmm speaking about Korean Foods, Should i try to cook Korean Foods for him and the children? Afterall Raon is interested on Korean foods. How could i give up if this swordmaster will suffer the same feeling when he is still in the forest of darkness, I don't want him to shed tears just because of me.. knowing my journey with him, How could i give up if the person that i adopt will break like a thin glass?
Ron and Beacrox will lost the master that they are serving, They will lost the the young master who gave them a second Family. They may be a vicious duo but they are still a human who can feel emotions, even me, I will miss those time when Ron is serving me with his lemon tea and Beacrox serving me a juicy foods, They will lost the person who avenge the Molan Patriarch, How could i give up if they will lost their young master? How could i give up this father son duo don't still know the truth? How could i give up if they will feel those emotions again? I don't want them to feel those painful emotions because i already experience it, It was painful, I don't want them to feel those emotions
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘴
𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘦
Hyung, Alberu Crossman will lost his only Dongsaeng, He will lost the only person who was always driving him nuts, However I know that he cares for me and I'm the person who was supporting him from the start, He will lost the person who make him feel those emotions again, He will lost the bastard who become his little brother, we might not be brother in blood but it doesn't mean we can't feel the warmth that a siblings have, How could i give up if Hyung will lost the cookie monster who is sneaking at his room? How could i give up if i can't watch and congratulate him in his Coronation? How could i give up after all the things that we plan will be in vain just because i give up? How could i give up if he will lost his Dongsaeng?
Mary and Rosalyn will lost the person who welcome and invited them in a unexpected second family, they will lost the person who always give the things that they need and the person who show them what real family is, for Mary, Cale is the person who let her see the world and the person who she always care of, She was grown as a strong necromancer with freedom because of Cale, She always do the things that she needed to protect her second family, Rosalyn was the same yet different situation, Cale is the person who gave her confident to be a mage, He welcome her when she abandon his seat as a princess, However Cale welcome him with no hints of disappointment and respect her decision, Cale is the one who provide her a highest magic stone and made her an Archmage, She don't care about her title as long as her second family will be safe and she wants to fight with them together, Because it's the real meaning of a family, How could i give up if they will lost the person who gather them? How could i give up if they will blame their self? How could i give up if i know that they will suffer and mourn? How could i give up if they will lost the person who make them strong? How could i give up when they gonna shed their tears just because i give up?
𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰𝘵𝘵𝘢 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘶𝘱
Eruhaben will lost one of his child, Eruhaben may be pitying Cale but it doesn't mean that he didn't care about him, for Eruhaben meeting Cale was part of the fate, He want to see that unlucky bastard and the little kid to grow up with happiness together and he was willing to create a path for them to get there, Eruhaben is willing to flip an entire Kingdoms and mountains if that was the only way to create a happy path for them, for Eruhaben, Cale was a unlucky bastard that was needed to protect because he was his precious child that always got in a trouble, How could I give up if this dragon will flip the continent if I give up? How could I give up if the Dragon goal for me to be a slacker won't be true once I give up? How could I disappoint a dragon? How could i give up if this Dragon was willing to have a slacker life with him?
My father, Deruth, will lost his first born child, He suffer too much when his first wife die, but losing his child will be the death of him, Deruth will die because of his guilt and will blame his self for being a bad father, Deruth may be not the perfect father but he was still the father of former Cale Henituse however the current Cale was still treating Deruth as his own flesh blood Father, How could I give up if my father will suffer again? How could i give up if my father will fall into a despair again? How could i give up when i know that my father will waste a lot of tears just because that i give up? I'm not that terrible person to make his own father cry
𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘺, 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘳𝘺~
Sometimes Giving up crossed my mind however instead of giving up I want to achieve my goal in this life
So to the one who was reading this, If you want to give up feel free but do you realize what will happen to the people around you? This is just a challenge and soon a light and hope will show up, Success is still there, However you must be patience and do what your instinct is telling you, SURVIVE TO THAT CRUEL WORLD OF YOURS, DON'T THINK ABOUT THE PAST AND FUTURE, FOCUS ON YOUR GOAL, DON'T LET YOUR EMOTIONS DECIDE, IN THAT PAINFUL REALITY OF YOUR WORLD ALL YOU HAVE TO IS SURVIVE
Surviving. That is true strength