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Kyuhyun sighs. It's been 3 hours since he arrived at the dorm from his latest schedule and take his time to rest. And yes, he should be resting and use the rest of his time to have fun right now. But he cannot stay calm and rest like he always do when another person is on the dorm. No, not Yongsun manager. It's also not his ex-dorm mate, Eunhyuk hyung. The older one moved out from the dorm since he want to live with his family after spending years living with the members.
"Yongsun hyung, I'm back!"
That voice. The cheerful voice of a 34 year old echoed throughout the dorm in the middle of the night. The younger one shuts himself behind the closed door of his room, have no courage whatsoever to face the older man alone right now.
Kyuhyun goes out from his bedroom when he can hear their manager greets the other man outside. Two pair of eyes fell on to the youngest's presence in the room, which makes Ryeowook smiles really wide after seeing the group's lovely yet naughty maknae.
"You haven't washed up since you got home?" Yongsun glared at the youngest as he show up just with house pants and a t-shirt, paired it with a pair of messy hair and messy face. Kyuhyun scoffs to Yongsun, ignoring Ryeowook who's standing beside their long lasting manager. "Excuse me? I washed up!"
"Alright, alright. I am going back to my room and do my unfinished work." Won Yongsun waves them goodbye and closes the door of his room, leaving the two youngest in the living room. Awkward? Of course. Who wouldn't be awkward if you are in a room with your crush, alone?
"KyuKyu, let's eat dinner! I'll cook."
"Thanks, Ryeowook, but I'm already full."
"Oh.. You already ate?"'
Kyuhyun nods. He can definitely point out the disappointed tone on Ryeowook's voice when he replies back to the younger man.
Everyone can see how Kyuhyun have been ignoring Ryeowook lately. On their group schedules, for example. He decided to leave a little gap between them when they have to sit or stand next to each other. The older members thought they perhaps have a little quarrel by themselves, not wanting to open up to their hyungs. And the hyung are used to their behavior. But Ryeowook does not ignore Kyuhyun. He still tried to eliminate the gap, teasing him, throwing jokes at him. Expecting for the youngest to throw another joke at him.
But no. Kyuhyun stayed silent.
And it goes on and on. Now, after their manager left them alone in the dorm's living room, the atmosphere turns awkward and cold. Just like Kyuhyun's current facial expression. The 34 year old man got scared. Did he do something wrong? Did he say something wrong until it hurt his younger brother?
Ryeowook can't stand this. He need to know.
"Kyu, what did I do?"
"You are avoiding me. It's been 3 weeks already."
Kyuhyun's face stiffens. You did nothing, Ryeonggu. I'm sorry. It's complicated. He wish he can say that to Ryeowook rather than only keeping this inside his mind, alone to himself. But he cant even move his tongue as he wish. He sighs, expressing how he is infuriated right now.
"You did nothing."
"It's just.. I don't want to see you right now." Ryeowook didn't expect such wordsvvwas coming from Kyuhyun himself. Even Kyuhyun can't believe he had just let himself said that in front of the love of his life. Kyuhyun's cold gaze fell into Ryeowook as he grabs his sport jacket and wear them before running outside, slamming the door of their precious dorm. He didn't think twice to jog. The city has been drenched by the rain lately, making Kyuhyun paused his quick midnight jog routine that he do when he got stressed (work life also some petty love life issues) and need a fresh air for him to relax.
The 33 year old man began to jog along the road, the usual route that he took everytime Kyuhyun go for a quick jog. His mind now is filled by the things that he said back then to his best friend. How cold that tone sounds like. He punches himself lightly. How can someone be that stupid? The youngest member asks to himself.
He didn't know that on his back, Ryeowook is catching up with his slow paced jog, wanting to talk with him about his attitude and what exactly is going on with him. Ryeowook is annoyed by how Kyuhyun has been acting for the past 3 weeks. As they reached somewhere way quieter, far from the dorm, Kyuhyun stopped as water drops from the sky. One by one. Before it turned into a heavy downpour that totally drenched not only Kyuhyun, but Ryeowook who is quietly go after him.
"Kyu! Stop there!" Kyuhyun's limb froze on spot as he hear the fading high pitched voice battling the loud rain. "You owe me an explanation."
"I did not owe you anything," Ryeowook walks closer, approaching Kyuhyun with a closed umbrella on hanging on his wrist. Both of the boys were soaked by the "What was that for, Kyuhyun?"
"What were you doing these past 3 weeks? Do you think I don't know you?"
"We've been friends since 15 years ago, Kyu." Friends. Yes, this is what Kyuhyun have been afraid of the whole time, them being just friends and not more. He sarcastically scoffs at the statement, making Ryeowook became irritated at his infuriating yet confusing behavior. "Can you stop being annoying like this and tell me what is going on?"
"Can you stop referring me as your friend?"
"What?"
"You can perfectly hear what I say, Ryeowook."
"Why? Kyuhyun, I thought we.. we are friends, right..?"
The taller man gave up pretending. He dropped down to the concrete, on his knees. His head hung low, didn't have any strength at all to unfold all of the things that Ryeowook needs to know. All the things that he wanted to tell. To tell about his feelings, to tell that he is just pretending to dislike him, to tell Ryeowook that... he is in love with him. Not platonically, not brotherly. But a love between two human, affectionate love. Kyuhyun burst out to tears, hiding them with the help of the drops of water from the sky. He inhale, ready for whatever goes on after the stupid confession in the rain. If Ryeowook decided to be even more distant from Kyuhyun, it's fine, the younger deserves it.
"I love you, Ryeowook.
I'm in love with you and I don't want to lose you."
Ryeowook stunned right in his place. He crouched down after a while, making their height equal. As his hand lands on the other's and brushing their skin together, Kyuhyun's eyes and Ryeowook's met each other. Kyuhyun clearly cried, judging by the red and puffy eyes. Ryeowook can't say a thing. The sudden confession in the middle of the rain by the younger made him confused. Is this why he avoided him for the last 3 weeks?
"I can't express my feelings properly. I thought by making a distance between us, it could resolve this weird feeling from my heart every time I see you. "
"I am afraid it will repel you, and the result will be losing you from my life. I am afraid you will leave me alone."
"That's why I avoided you. I rather do that than to lose you forever."
Ryeowook starts to laugh as he help Kyuhyun to stand on his feet, not the exact reaction that Kyuhyun expect. The smaller one lightly punches the taller person's chest (which gained protest from the victim and a series of painful arghs) instead and leans closer, wrapping Kyuhyun's body with his arms. Hides his face right on his chest.
"I love you too, stupid." The world around Kyuhyun feels like it stopped for a moment after he hear Ryeowook uttered something. Something that's way too good to be true.
Oh.
Wait, what?
"Why didn't you tell me, Ryeonggu?" Kyuhyun finally returned the warm hug, in the middle of the rain that hasn't stopped. He sniffs and laugh at how stupid he was. Ryeowook lifts his face and oh God, how the taller man wish he can capture the beautiful face of Ryeowook. Even the word beautiful can't do any justice of how the smaller one looks. "I was also afraid, Kyu.."
"Thinking about the agency and fans?"
Ryeowook shuts his lips while nodding in silence. A sign that he's agree with what the other had said. Kyuhyun is still wrapping the smaller body with his arms, pulling him even closer to the warm embrace, signaling to Ryeowook that they will be okay. They carelessly stand still in place for a few minute, ignoring the fact that they are wet and their clothes are soaked with cold water that've been showering them since the beginning of the cloudburst. "Can I.. kiss you?" Ryeowook nods and they became equally surprised. Ryeowook, to the question and Kyuhyun, to the response.
Their lips suddenly crashed, both giving and receiving soft little kisses on their icy lips. All of Kyuhyun's worries that has been inside his head for the past few months goes away all of a sudden. All of Ryeowook's distress from his mind are also successfully gone with the taller boy's sweet lips that showers him with kisses. They slowly pulled their own selves back, breaking the kiss as they were breathless. Ryeowook shyly smiles, a faint rosy pink blush slowly creeping on both of his cheeks, which make a little chuckle escape from Kyuhyun's mouth.
"Let's go back to the dorm. Imagine how stressed Teuk hyung will be if he knows we're walking in the rain this late." They both chuckled to the sentence, agreeing with what they just said. Kyuhyun suddenly reaches for the hand of the older one, holding it softly. His thumbs moves gently to caress the wet skin of Ryeowook's hand. "Thank you and I'm sorry."
"For?"
"Thank you for the chance of having you, and sorry for being stupid and didn't even talk about this to you since the beginning."
"You are indeed stupid."
Kyuhyun rolls his eyes and laugh at the same time to the stupid statement, and still holding Ryeowook's unoccupied hand. They didn't forget that the smaller one brought an umbrella that is big enough to shield them from the showering cold cloudburst, but they chose to walk back to the dorm through the rain, soaking the boys who are drunk in love and doesn't give any care of what's around them. Then they realize, the feeling of being together all this time, the feeling of spending the whole day with each other and just them, the feeling of comfort when they are around each other. It has been there since forever, and they didn't realize it. The feeling of love. A romantic love between two men.
"So, you're officially my boyfriend, right?"
Kyuhyun uttered the question with an uncertain voice and Ryeowook answered him, a low volumed yes that can be heard only by his boyfriend. The corner of Kyuhyun's lips rises, smiling widely at the answer to his question.
"I love you so much, Kim Ryeowook."
"I love you too, Cho Kyuhyun."