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Summary
You learn so much about someone by the way they say goodbye.
This is what Louis thinks about in those grey hours between when he wishes he could sleep but has to be awake, and when he should be sleeping but can only think, think, think. The doctors call it insomnia but Louis has his own secret little diagnosis - regret.
For Louis, it was all wrapped up into a single incident. He remembers exactly the moment he decided not to listen to Harry's begging, exactly how deafening he had made the slam of the door on the way out. And that was it for him.
Because that way, he didn't have to linger on the humiliation of the whole thing, didn't have to question his own strength, didn't have to stay vulnerable to Harry for another instant.
It was an emotional shortcut, really. And if that isn't a signature Louis' move, he doesn't know what is.
The fact that it didn't save him any pain at all, that he's still twisting the knife at 4am two years later in the privacy of his own bedroom, is also pretty typical of Louis. He's always been a bit of a masochist.
SEQUEL TO WANT YOU MORE THAN A MELODY
Series
- Part 2 of Tired eyes are the death of me